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◅ XIANA MARLOWE ▻
While she was listening attentively, she was having a hard time holding L’Sa’s gaze. Nodding along to every few words, she mainly absorbed the information. She was flattered, maybe a little jealous at the mention of Skye, but she’d be lying if she said it didn’t sound intriguing. Both of them were remarkable people with looks to match; being with one of them would be a privilege as it was, especially knowing how unique the situation was. She hadn’t been in a serious relationship with someone in over a decade herself, and here she was being asked to be with two. Her neck felt warm again.
“I’ve never been in that sort of dynamic. Granted, neither have you two. I mean, less than a month ago I swore I was heterosexual, and here I am.”
Right, she hadn’t mentioned her other adventure. “I hadn’t really talked about this,” she didn’t think she had anyone to say it to. Well, K’alena, but she also hadn’t seen her in a minute. She made a mental note to do a check-in later. “I did sleep with the captain, and it was for therapeutic purposes. I truly am still not sure if it worked, but I wanted to be honest. I doubt it’ll happen in the future. I’m still rather upset with her.”
“You have a right to not be attracted to one person or the other, but personally, I don’t think her being more sexually active is inherently bad if it stays within reason.” The reason in question being positions of power, of course. “She did make an effort to cater to me that time, prior to anything. I thought it was kind. A bit stereotypical, but nothing actually offensive.”
“Anyhow,” Xiana continued, “I am flattered, and I’m not saying no either; I suppose I’m just nervous. If it isn’t strictly sex, if it’s commitment, that’s an entirely new layer. It’s having to be worried about you two’s well-beings more intimately, or wondering what a future would look like, or facing criticism from coworkers. What if someone accused us of being biased? What if word got out and they used that as an excuse to reject your request?”
She froze immediately when L’Sa began discussing love but sighed with relief otherwise. “No, that’s okay. If you’d said yes, I would’ve bolted. Not because love is bad, of course; it’s just tragically too soon.”
She laid back down, fully turning to the Vulcan. “I just need you to be sure of this, both of you. I don’t think it will be easy for any of us. I can be jealous or anxious and I’m still learning more and more of Vulcans, I’ll need a lot of patience, and in a worst-case scenario end in disaster. But if that’s a risk you’re willing to take…” Xiana trailed off, waiting for a response