Your Smile

[lilminx]

lilminx, I didn't mean to make you sad darlin, or anyone for that matter. It was something I recently read, and I noticed how true it was. That and hearing my father tell me my eyes look sad, that I have lost my spark. I have my pops eyes, his are audacious and so full of life. When he smiles, you can see it in his eyes as well. His whole face lights up. Almost like a childs. I look through old photos, during happier times. When I was more sure of myself, and I see his smile in my own. Carefree. Eyes are alive and you can almost read the wild thoughts behind them. The kind of smile, that you almost have to bite back on a laugh.

Yeah...I think you can get that smile back.

I know you didn't, hon. You just made me think of certain things that I'd rather not think about; things I've tried to block out.

 

[scylis]

to my knowledge, i don't smile sincerly. and nobody's mentioned it yet, probably b/c i hardly ever look someone in the eyes, but i seriously doubt anybody could look into them and say they are even close to being full of life. it just feels creepy, unsettling to look somebody in the eyes.

and if anybody tells you otherwise, they're not lying, i'm just a good actor.

 

[freescorfr]

This is something I was reflecting on too. On Monday I visited my brother-in-law in London. He and his wife had just returned from a quick trip to our barn in Normandy, where they had been summoned by by wife, since my 15 year -old son was having a party and she felt, I am told, unable to cope on her own.

The decribed it as an abominable affair - earth-shaking decibels till 6am when drunken, drugged kids, eventually crumpled anywhere they could find. You - yes, they said "you"- wil have at least three pregancies from that. "It was hell!" Their tales of horror continued.

I got my son on IM and asked, "How was the party?"
"Dad, it was fab, wicked and he went on and on about how great it was." He was evidently smiling.

What a difference - like our own smile as a child and our adult seriousness. He had no idea the adults were pissed off with their lack of sleep. "We had the place cleaned up by the afternoon," he added!