To wake the love by tender strokes of hand,
To raise the prick, to make it proud stand,
To make man, kind in conscious love bold,
Relive over each scene, show what they behold:
For this the Erotic Muse first marked the page.
"Twelve voices were shouting in anger, and they were all alike. No question, now, what had happened to the faces of the pigs. The creatures outside looked from pig to man, and from man to pig, and from pig to man again; but already it was impossible to say which was which."
the farm (part one)
there are no animals on this farm
this farm is strictly human
domesticated, farmed and milked
obese cats steal the cream
and fat pigs wallow in shit
all human but little humanity
the dog work cocks its leg
scapegoats are hung to dry
Adam Smith’s invisible hand is choosey
picks the runts, scrag ends and the unproductive
feeds them through the mincer
extrudes them into their drawn out guts
sausages are the food of austerity
picked over by sharks and vultures
last year I noticed in London
the scavengers were out in force
sniffing out the niches where morsels collect
bite each other if hunger bites
in the shadow of the bus stop, flies squabble
the stink of urine, vomit and stale sweat
lodge in the throat like a damp swab
you know you’ll choke if you linger
movement, exercise and pointless activity
like a rain dance its an act of desperation
superstition has better results than logic
theories are solutions for theories failed
the underground to the suburbs no longer escapes
you’re fenced in tagged and numbered
you’re fattened or culled but what’s the difference?
Jimmy laughs so goddam hard
club soda drips out his nose
when I tell him kill is Dutch for creek
before he pours me a half-pint beer
Da called a dimey, now a dollar
because, Jimmy says, the treasury's flat
here at the Knights of Columbus Hall
where High and State Streets melt outside,
and asphalt bubbles up August.
Jimmy and I watch New Jersey Transit
empty a load of uniform ladies,
and maybe it's the way I've been thinking
lately I hope those worn out women
find meaning, Jimmy, in the bleaching of
placenta stains instead of cum
from the Holiday Inn or dried up stuff
from ashes to ashes, dust to dust
at Perth Amboy General Hospital.
A mile from here's the Arthur Kill
where Da once worked the catwalks and docks
at Chevron Refinery where he got
his watchamacallit,
mesothelioma,
when oil tankers rose like Leviathan
all hours of night and secretly spilled
bilge we swam in that looked like mustard
before the state got goddam serious.
Choo Choo, my girl, used to sing
"My Guy" better than Mary Wells did
on hot summer days in a dinghy
next to petrochemical tanks
that looked like cupcakes, Jimmy,
I swear, giant vanilla ones
next to fields without any trees,
but sheds where an old man, pissing upstream,
went back to sleep after nodding to us,
Choo Choo, an ovum in her bikini,
and me, a sperm, wiggling her way,
wet and alive in the Arthur Kill.
At thirty-six my body is all empty clothing,
twisted, tortured, pointless. Turning
is not an option, eyes, ears, mind percolate
all too well. From the neck up I’m perfect.
Paddle-hands, useless as empty gloves,
lie open at my sides, a state of pleading
but pleading for what? Not death,
those days are over for I am loved
and have loved but sex eludes me.
I dream of it at night and wake sticky
with reality. My carer says nothing
as he bathes me but it hangs in the air
like an accusation. I hate my body.
She comes into my claustrophobic world
like one of those pure spring days,
initiates all kinds of possibilities
not just hands but tongue and cunt,
she won’t mince words, a spades a spade
in her world. With talk and mirror she
lets me see my eager body, the straining
thing that I had not seen since I was six
and calls it lovely, not a common word for me.
At last she touches it, nothing explodes,
we wait as she lowers, guides and smiles.
“Breathe” and I do.
Afterwards she kissed my chest.
Mark O’ Brian contracted polio at the age of six. He had three functioning muscles, one in his right foot, one in his neck and one in his jaw. With these he managed to be a successful reporter, publisher, journalist, social critic and poet.
suffocate in the white space
no words to gasp or
serried ranks in which to hide
I-spy
a fishy tale - slippery at best
but, yes, i'm left here
stranded on a gritty bank
grasping at air
Don’t say sorry when
you spill some food on the shirt
fresh on that morning. And don’t
kick yourself over dropped things,
your glasses, the T.V. remote, your hair brush,
all have to be retrieved.
That can’t be helped, they know that.
Instead apologize for chewing your nails,
that’s not unintentional, show penitence
for blurting out swear-words if you will,
you do not suffer from Tourette’s.
not nets no barbs no creels nor cruel bait
just human hands, bewetted, kind and sure
to lift the damsel'd trout from breathless fate
to writhe in wordly bliss? now there's a lure...
We were The Perfect Couple then, envied by our cohorts when we wore each other’s attitudes, shared each other’s platitudes, took each other’s side with pride and seldom let our views collide. Now it is that others come, marching to a different drum, seducing us with novel thoughts, tying us in tangled knots. We turned our backs on things we shared as if we’d never really cared, in retrospect it seems a shame but neither of us is to blame. Our circumstances must have changed causing life to rearrange; when we met we seemed estranged, awkward in a childish way. I found it charming, I must say, and want, my darling, to convey a new desire quite unsaid, to re-invite you to my bed.