A Safe place to Vent, Cry or Scream

[niceguys1st]

A mini-rant on one of my biggest pet peeves - people that can't spell simple words.

It really bugs me when people don't know the difference between "your" and "you're" and say "your welcome," when chatting with you online. I feel like asking them "what about my welcome?" You're = you are (ie - you are welcome).

Also the "there" "they're" and "their" and "to" "too" and "two" Didn't we all learn this stuff in like Grade 3?

Oh yeah, and it's masturbate, not masterbate. Grr.

That is all...sorry.

 

[niceguys1st]

OK, since my first post wasn't really thread specific, I thought that I would add my two cents to the discussions taking place.

First of all, I can relate so much to everybody in this thread. I too have depression, I also have social anxiety disorder which has made my social life very difficult. I've been on meds for a number of years now and am much better. But, for quite a long time I was very depressed and very suicidal. It was the most awful time of my life.

I actually was involved in two different therapy groups and though I thought that I would hate them, I actually loved them when I started going! They provided so much help and gave me a place where I could speak my mind, say things that bothered me deep down inside and get them out in a venue that made me feel safe and comfortable. Normally, talking about my innermost feelings and thoughts would terrify me, but when others in the group began sharing similar feelings I realized that they all felt the same things that I did and that helped a lot.

One of the biggest things I had to deal with was being constantly lonely. I was so alone and felt like I had no friends. I desperately wanted to be in a relationship with someone. I felt like I had so much love to give to someone and being able to have somebody to love and hold would make me feel complete, not having that was agony. Thankfully, two years ago, I met this wonderful girl here on Lit. We talked online for months and months and months. Our chats would soon become the highlight of my day, my face would light up when I saw an email from her in my inbox.

Soon I worked up the courage to phone her. I did last August. And for a year her and I have been on the phone nearly ever single day for hours and hours on end. She became my best friend and we eventually developed feelings for eachother and now I love her with all my heart. I don't give a shit what anybody says, if people look at me funny because of the stigman of "online relationships" I honestly don't care because I have never been this much in love with a person as I am now.

I'm currently saving up my money so that I can take a 10 day trip to see her in March of '07 and I'm so excited. She's also in the process of transfering colleges to attend one that is only 3 hours away from me.

 

[sexychik69]

OK, since my first post wasn't really thread specific, I thought that I would add my two cents to the discussions taking place.

First of all, I can relate so much to everybody in this thread. I too have depression, I also have social anxiety disorder which has made my social life very difficult. I've been on meds for a number of years now and am much better. But, for quite a long time I was very depressed and very suicidal. It was the most awful time of my life.

I actually was involved in two different therapy groups and though I thought that I would hate them, I actually loved them when I started going! They provided so much help and gave me a place where I could speak my mind, say things that bothered me deep down inside and get them out in a venue that made me feel safe and comfortable. Normally, talking about my innermost feelings and thoughts would terrify me, but when others in the group began sharing similar feelings I realized that they all felt the same things that I did and that helped a lot.

One of the biggest things I had to deal with was being constantly lonely. I was so alone and felt like I had no friends. I desperately wanted to be in a relationship with someone. I felt like I had so much love to give to someone and being able to have somebody to love and hold would make me feel complete, not having that was agony. Thankfully, two years ago, I met this wonderful girl here on Lit. We talked online for months and months and months. Our chats would soon become the highlight of my day, my face would light up when I saw an email from her in my inbox.

Soon I worked up the courage to phone her. I did last August. And for a year her and I have been on the phone nearly ever single day for hours and hours on end. She became my best friend and we eventually developed feelings for eachother and now I love her with all my heart. I don't give a shit what anybody says, if people look at me funny because of the stigman of "online relationships" I honestly don't care because I have never been this much in love with a person as I am now.

I'm currently saving up my money so that I can take a 10 day trip to see her in March of '07 and I'm so excited. She's also in the process of transfering colleges to attend one that is only 3 hours away from me.

It's an hour and a half, hun.

And I love you too, sweetie.

 

[Rebellious_Sub]

Awww, Sexychic69 and Niceguys1st- thats too cute.

I just wanted to say, that I am not one of those that will roll my eyes at the online relationship thing... although I have had one that failed miserably. I always say to people who say, "Yeah thats just a computer thing.." I remind them.. "Yes, and there are people behind those computers too.. with feelings. (ect)"

Good luck you two. It's refreshing to see love sparkle.

 

[sexychik69]

Awww, Sexychic69 and Niceguys1st- thats too cute.

I just wanted to say, that I am not one of those that will roll my eyes at the online relationship thing... although I have had one that failed miserably. I always say to people who say, "Yeah thats just a computer thing.." I remind them.. "Yes, and there are people behind those computers too.. with feelings. (ect)"

Good luck you two. It's refreshing to see love sparkle.

Thanks so much, R_S... I've had an online relationship before as well that failed as yours did, but I honestly feel like our relationship is mostly phone now and I know my sweetie will agree with me, we don't know how only talking online and not hearing each other's voices was satisfying. But thanks, R_S... I really love my sweetieheart!

 

[drtshare]

Dance in the dark

What a day in hell... 105 outside... asshole with shit for brains. You talk to the doctors but do the listen or even hear NO!

Time to forget all the shit ...turn off the light ... and dance in the dark.... yell out all the pain... just dance in the dark until you can't go on anymore....

Just dance in the dark... so no one can see you cry.... as you yell out the pain.... dance in the dark alone hoping someone will step in a take your hand ...hold you.. show you the way back to the light.... just dancing in the dark.... with no hope ... no joy... just alone... hoping for that someone to take your hand

 

[cashmerekitten]

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im a terrible mother for saying this. i love my son very very very much, but the rest of my life is such a mess.

1. do any of you have fantasies about just taking off and leaving for a while? like maybe a week. just be alone and figure things out.

2. or better yet, any of you just want to go to bed and sleep for weeks. not wake up until everything is better?

Believe you me.....I wish for both ALOT!! As a mother of 4, and a daughter that is a rebellious teen...There are days when I would beg for siberia!!!As for the rest of my life, I am fortunate to have a hubby who loves me, but our life too is in total shambles. I myself have been classified with being bipolar and depressed. I have alot of issues that affect my day to day life, but I most times consider myself a total piece of shit because i cannot seem to do anything right. I try to look at the good things in life, and count my blessings, but sometimes......it's all just a little to much....My hugs to all of you here who need it. And thanks for this thread, I think it's nice that there is a place for you and us to let it out

 

[cashmerekitten]

OK, since my first post wasn't really thread specific, I thought that I would add my two cents to the discussions taking place.

First of all, I can relate so much to everybody in this thread. I too have depression, I also have social anxiety disorder which has made my social life very difficult. I've been on meds for a number of years now and am much better. But, for quite a long time I was very depressed and very suicidal. It was the most awful time of my life.

I actually was involved in two different therapy groups and though I thought that I would hate them, I actually loved them when I started going! They provided so much help and gave me a place where I could speak my mind, say things that bothered me deep down inside and get them out in a venue that made me feel safe and comfortable. Normally, talking about my innermost feelings and thoughts would terrify me, but when others in the group began sharing similar feelings I realized that they all felt the same things that I did and that helped a lot.

One of the biggest things I had to deal with was being constantly lonely. I was so alone and felt like I had no friends. I desperately wanted to be in a relationship with someone. I felt like I had so much love to give to someone and being able to have somebody to love and hold would make me feel complete, not having that was agony. Thankfully, two years ago, I met this wonderful girl here on Lit. We talked online for months and months and months. Our chats would soon become the highlight of my day, my face would light up when I saw an email from her in my inbox.

Soon I worked up the courage to phone her. I did last August. And for a year her and I have been on the phone nearly ever single day for hours and hours on end. She became my best friend and we eventually developed feelings for eachother and now I love her with all my heart. I don't give a shit what anybody says, if people look at me funny because of the stigman of "online relationships" I honestly don't care because I have never been this much in love with a person as I am now.

I'm currently saving up my money so that I can take a 10 day trip to see her in March of '07 and I'm so excited. She's also in the process of transfering colleges to attend one that is only 3 hours away from me.

Yes absolutely sweet, I met a guy once on a poetry place, and he became the world to me. I loved him with every breath that I took, and felt I would shrivel without him. Within a month of chatting at pathetic we were talking on the phone for hours and hours, or online every chance we had. We connected like soul mates, we have this weird vibe thing going still. We had a whirlwind relationship and had plans to marry. I never saw his face until after we had broken off the relationship a year later. He lived in georgia and I lived here, and neither would move because of commitments(He's a hunk!) Now 6 years later I still love him intensly, but it's on a different level than physical. I don't know if anyone gets that but I know that no matter who we marry,love, or where we go in life. We still love one another, and are still there for each other after all this time, and to be honest though we are Just friends, the electric is there at any given moment one of us will just throw something out there and the other is sizzling...it's great. I met him online and it was one of the most important experiences in my life. So good luck to you both, and happy endings

 

[niceguys1st]

cashmere and R_S, thank you both so much for the kind words.

 

[Rebellious_Sub]

It seems like theres just this plateau of nothingness... of utter who cares

... Somewhere, I suppose someone cares.

Sorry, I am very down right now.

 

[360chick]

It seems like theres just this plateau of nothingness... of utter who cares

... Somewhere, I suppose someone cares.

Sorry, I am very down right now.

**hugs** R_S, of course someone cares about you, don't think that they don't. **hugs** I care about you hun. If you need to chat, PM me, I can give you my messenger names.

 

[Rebellious_Sub]

**hugs** R_S, of course someone cares about you, don't think that they don't. **hugs** I care about you hun. If you need to chat, PM me, I can give you my messenger names.

*hugs tight* Thank you.

 

[360chick]

*hugs tight* Thank you.

*tight hugs back* Your welcome sweetie, I know what it's like to be down like that. *tons more hugs*

 

[Rebellious_Sub]

*tight hugs back* Your welcome sweetie, I know what it's like to be down like that. *tons more hugs*

For some reason, i cycle through feeling ok, then crashing. Its very discouraging. I am so tired of feeling this way.

But yet even knowing that i should be around others, i just pull away. i feel myself wanting to do just that right now too.

i need to shower and get to bed.. work again in the morning.

 

[360chick]

For some reason, i cycle through feeling ok, then crashing. Its very discouraging. I am so tired of feeling this way.

But yet even knowing that i should be around others, i just pull away. i feel myself wanting to do just that right now too.

i need to shower and get to bed.. work again in the morning.

I completely understand you R_S. When I get down, I pull away even though I know I should be around others. **hugs** I hope that you will feel better after sleeping. Sometimes that helps me, but most of the time not. If anything, it makes the thoughts stop for a while. R_S, please know, that I'm only an IM away if you ever need to vent, chat, etc. I'm here for you sweetie. *hugs*

 

[Rebellious_Sub]

I completely understand you R_S. When I get down, I pull away even though I know I should be around others. **hugs** I hope that you will feel better after sleeping. Sometimes that helps me, but most of the time not. If anything, it makes the thoughts stop for a while. R_S, please know, that I'm only an IM away if you ever need to vent, chat, etc. I'm here for you sweetie. *hugs*

thanks. your friendship means a lot to me.

but for now, i am going to bed. and you're right. sleep just stops the hurt for a few.

take care.

*hugs*

g'night.

 

[baileyold]

I hope this is okay to rant about here....I AM NOT RACIST.....but I am getting tired of people who come to my country...(Canada) because they are not wanted or don't want to be in the country they were born in....and then have the nerve to say..."I'm ashame to be a Canadian" because the Canadian Government didn't act fast enough to get people out of Lebanon or get Israel to stop bombing Lebanon....I understand their concern but there were more then 50,000 people with Canadian passports in that country....the majority of them had gone back to work and live there....when stuff went wrong they were all of a sudden Canadians again. If they don't like being Canadians then give up there passport and go back to the country they came from....I'm Sorry if this was inappropriate...I am proud of being Canadian and proud of the reputation my country has around the world....I pray for everyone caught up in this terrible situation.

 

[DeeplyHisForever]

Its Okay

Its healthy to just talk about what is bothering you and I know where you are with depression, im on the same boat. I just get so sick of being sad all of the time and crying for no reason, I just go out of control and think about stuff all night and cry. Its just like sometimes I wish I could turn of my brain and stop thinking. Just let it all out here and dont worry about what other people may say to bring you down. If you let all of this build up inside it will be so much worse. I wish you the best.

 

[Devil'sChild]

My rant is a little simpler then most...I hate..I mean really cant stand people that hide online..what I mean by this is easy. Those that couldnt say the same words to a person that they do online, those that are cruel because they are hidden behind a computer, those that are racist or sexist because they dont have to deal with the consequences of their words. Those that tear someone up emotionally without ever having to see the results first hand...

To be blunt...gutless fuckin cowards...both male and female..

 

[sexychik69]

I hate it when you go through a hard time with someone and you need to sit there and try to talk it out with them, but they "can't handle it" and don't want to talk about it, and want to just shut you out, leaving you in a sea of doubts and a need for another person that is left in emptiness.

You know how I am. You knew that I'd need you, so why'd you leave? Or why did you let me start when you knew you couldn't handle the end?

 

[slyfox_vixen]

hi, im new too lit,to the net actually... BIG HUGZ to all of you i have depression, sometimes i get so depressed i silently cry myself to sleep, why silently? because my husband doesnt believe in depression. He has never suffered from it and doesnt understand it. He believes that i should choose to be happy and whatever else all the time. So instead of support i have to hide the way i feel most of the time. Now i met someone, a guy who is so supportive and so wonderfull, and im sure without him i wouldnt be here because id have walked infront of a bus a long time ago.... but this is in some ways complicating my life, because i find myself falling inlove with him...needless to say this is confusing as hell, cause i love my husband and dont want to lose him, the worst part is that, i have cheated on my husband with my friend out of pure frustration... and it was the best sex of my life... which has left me even more confused... i am slowly but surely going insane.

 

[KraZyCisco]

hi, im new too lit,to the net actually... BIG HUGZ to all of you i have depression, sometimes i get so depressed i silently cry myself to sleep, why silently? because my husband doesnt believe in depression. He has never suffered from it and doesnt understand it. He believes that i should choose to be happy and whatever else all the time. So instead of support i have to hide the way i feel most of the time. Now i met someone, a guy who is so supportive and so wonderfull, and im sure without him i wouldnt be here because id have walked infront of a bus a long time ago.... but this is in some ways complicating my life, because i find myself falling inlove with him...needless to say this is confusing as hell, cause i love my husband and dont want to lose him, the worst part is that, i have cheated on my husband with my friend out of pure frustration... and it was the best sex of my life... which has left me even more confused... i am slowly but surely going insane.

"Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' you both is breakin' all the rules"
It's not easy when you're in that situation. I'm sorry that you're in it. I've seen it many times and it's not easy for the person. Usually, I'd say to follow your heart, but your heart says both. Which one makes you happier? Which one helps you out more? Which one loves you more? Which one will stick with you through thick and thin? So many questions to ask. You are not slowly going insane. It's sad that your husband didn't support you when you told him that you are under a depression. I'm glad that you did find someone who helped you out. You were true to yourself by admitting that you're under a depression because a lot would just deny it. Be strong and stay strong. There are people out there that's willing to listen and care about you. Be strong...............

 

[Anne Waters]

My Vent

Guys who have been registered for over a year, have no public posts & who PM you asking where you live and what you look like.

Can you say 'red flag?'

Guys, make a public post or two!

 

[slyfox_vixen]

"Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' both of you is breakin' all the rules
Torn between two lovers, feelin' like a fool
Lovin' you both is breakin' all the rules"
It's not easy when you're in that situation. I'm sorry that you're in it. I've seen it many times and it's not easy for the person. Usually, I'd say to follow your heart, but your heart says both. Which one makes you happier? Which one helps you out more? Which one loves you more? Which one will stick with you through thick and thin? So many questions to ask. You are not slowly going insane. It's sad that your husband didn't support you when you told him that you are under a depression. I'm glad that you did find someone who helped you out. You were true to yourself by admitting that you're under a depression because a lot would just deny it. Be strong and stay strong. There are people out there that's willing to listen and care about you. Be strong...............

Thank You ...

 

[drtshare]

Guys who have been registered for over a year, have no public posts & who PM you asking where you live and what you look like.

Can you say 'red flag?'

Guys, make a public post or two!

Anne,

but we know where you live "The Leafy Lefty suburbs of MA" and right down the wallsof lit .... why would we need to ask




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