am I SUPPOSED to feel like this???

[CutieMouse]

Your poor sub, she doesn't stand a chance, does she?

I'm sorry, this is just rude. The gentleman expressed his *opinion* of how vulnerable sub-frenzy can make a person with regards to decision making, and you make a personal dig at his relationship with his Lover?

 

[wenchhh]

no, cutie mouse, I really wasn't. Please don't get all pissed off, I was just teasing him. He knows this.

 

[CutieMouse]

no, cutie mouse, I really wasn't. Please don't get all pissed off, I was just teasing him. He knows this.

I'm not pissed- very little at Lit has the ability to piss me off.

The issue with internet communication is the lack of hearing vocal inflection from the written word... maybe the gentleman you directed yoru comments at knows you were teasing, but I didn't, and commented accordingly. *shrug*

 

[wenchhh]

No biggie hon, just clarifying, and didn't want to make a non-friend of ya, because I think you're kinda cool.
Feel free to put me in my place, or call me on the carpet, anytime, afterall, I AM the new, inexperienced and overzealous one here. (hugs)

 

[FurryFury]

[hijack]Sort of makes you want to suggest a literacy test for membership, doesn't it?[/hijack]

I kind of like the av. It reminds me of some good times.

Fury

 

[Ice2000]

oh my.. I have women fighting over me
Thanks for the defense CutieMouse, but I didn't take it seriously. I tend to be a bit of a smart ass myself at times.

And to make myself more clear Wench.. All I ment was I have seen it happen. I didn't mean you didn't have your act together or anything.

 

[CutieMouse]

oh my.. I have women fighting over me
Thanks for the defense CutieMouse, but I didn't take it seriously. I tend to be a bit of a smart ass myself at times.

The down side of being so damned serious, is that teasing often goes straight over my head (especially in online forums). I blame the librarian-genes.

 

[TooTiredToLive]

Pardon this interruption for a mini-[hijack]

I blame the librarian-genes.

I hate it that there are people who won't get this, but:

My instant thought as I read this line was of the clam in the cartoon B.C. standing up and yelling, "Librarians wear jeans!"

I'm not sure why that strikes me so funny, but it does.
[/hijack]

 

[CutieMouse]

Pardon this interruption for a mini-[hijack]


I hate it that there are people who won't get this, but:

My instant thought as I read this line was of the clam in the cartoon B.C. standing up and yelling, "Librarians wear jeans!"

I'm not sure why that strikes me so funny, but it does.
[/hijack]

I got it.

 

[marieR19]

So totally know where you're coming from. I get into that sub-frenzy state fairly easily, and to a lesser extent even easier. It is made so much worse by the fact that my Mistress is not as into the lifestyle as I am... while being a submissive is one of the main things I define myself as, she's more a "could take it or leave it" person. So she doesn't go for the more intense/advanced stuff, so I'm often in this state of "omg I want her so much would she please just fuck me so hard damnit!" lol


Heather

 

[temptations]

Wenchh
~smiles
thank you soo much for your post!! Wow, have i been there before.
i had mostly know BD/sm online, i had never experienced anything rt but had always wanted to..However found it hard to find someOne real, if that makes sense. So many wanted to play or act like they were Dominant but finding someOne real was a chore, until one day i was chatting with someone in a chat room and bingo!! There He was!! Something He said made me wonder, so i asked Him, "do You live this lifestyle rt" and the answer was yes, next question "where do You live?", Maryland He said ...~chuckles~ i got excited..."where in Maryland" and He told me..come to find out after hours of conversations covering everything Wwe could i find out that He literally lives 10 minutes from my front door. Wow, i was nervous and excited all at the same time. i couldn't believe it. Well we spent the next few months getting to know one another, dinner, talking for hours on end on the phone or over a fire in His yard until i was comfortable, oh yeah and His live in slave getting to know me as well. Once we all felt comfortable i decided and more importantly he decided, that i was ready for my first experience. It was amazing, from the first time He touched me..my very first spanking, seeing how much i could take..He was pleased, He said " i had the most natural and erotic reaction to spanking that He has ever seen" i was over the moon for days after this day...there were several more days like this, a few involving His slave...was the most amazing 9 months of my life...He in the end had wanted me to be his slave as well, with her being alpha of course, but my rt life didnt permit me to move when His job decided to do so..it was very hard to seperate and over the last 3 years we have gotten together, when i say we i include his slave, for she is still with him and misses me as well...we are all still great friends...~ponders~ matter of fact i do beleive it is time for another visit ~ ~ So i totally get the frenzied part...completely!! i still get that way and there is no other feeling like it...
**edits to add, i am a masochist, painslut, whichever you choose to call it, this is another discovering that was made in this time, something He had never experienced either, for his slave is not**

 

[wenchhh]

wow temptations, that is AMAZING! Lucky you, that he lived so close by! What I wouldn't give... It's probably for the best tho, as my Sir has a short attn span, and I fear I'd be working AWFULLY hard to keep his attn 24/7 if he lived so near by!

Also, gotta give you credit for being so patient... a "few months" is an awfully long time to wait, when ya are convinced someone has something that would rock your world, and in your own backyard as well! WOW!

 

[wenchhh]

apology neccessary

Begrudgingly, I need to eat my words, and some crow here. I wouldn't be honoring the "100% honesty clause" in our agreement if I didn't. A week or two ago, Ice and EvilGeoff were agreeing with each other, that it is the doms job to keep the sub in line. I very brazenly didn't agree, and sassily argued my point, that *I* could take care of myself and didn't need limits.
Well, I'm here to shamefacedly admit, that I was wrong. I hope some of you more experienced ppl out there realized that it was the newbie sub frenzy talking, and I had not a frippin clue what I was talking about. Since then, I went a little bit out of control, trying to get as much exposure to my Sir as I possibly can. (What can I say, he rocked my world, and I don't ever want it to stand still again) It got annoying to him, to the point where he was avoiding me like the plague, thus making me even MORE determined to "be" with him... you can see where this is all going, can't you? Luckily, I realized what I'd done, and knew it didn't feel right. Gave it some thought and then talked to him about it. Now he's set some much firmer limits on me, and just like a 3 yr old, and a teen, I'm a much more complacent sub.
ok ok, so here it is. My apologies Ice and Geoff, i was WRONG. HOW embarrassing.

 

[skittles_lm]

I need some feedback from all of you more experienced subs out there. I just recently had my very first real dom/sub experience. oh my GOD, it rocked my world! I expected the spankings... the hair pulling... the commands. Was relieved to find that I enjoyed it even more than I imagined I would. Master was kind, stern, loving, strong, understanding, demanding, sensual and intuitive to needs I didn't even know I had. I'm hooked, kids. I say that with a blush. Here is my thing. Am I SUPPOSED to feel this way? I feel like I can't get enough. I see him online and my body tingles. Trying to keep cool and not hound him with IMs, emails, phone calls. Am I succeeding? Rarely. He says he doesn't mind, and expects it from me. The fact is, *I* mind. I'm a 40 yr old woman for Christ's sake! I'm constantly thinking of ways to make him happy. Replaying things he's said, things we've done, thinks I want to try... in my head. A lady where I work said "this is not a democracy" in reference to her kids, and I had to actually leave the room, it made me grin so big. This is the most excited I've been in a long long time, and tho I am reveling in it, I also HATE it! I'm very in control of my real life. I hold a job where I am in control, make big life or death decisions, and train others. I raise my kids to know that what Mom says goes, and even my 6'4 military husband acquiesces to my strong personality. So, WTF??!! I am embarrassed beyond belief at my behavior with Master. He laughs and tells me not to be, that it is how he wants me. Somebody give me some good advice here, I'm feeling like Sybil, and afraid I'm going crazy. (sorry this is so long, wanted you to get the whole picture)
~his lil girl~
Wenchhh

I understand what you mean. someone told me once that those who are always in perfect control of their lives are the ones who need to let go the most, and who benefit most from it.

Letting go of control is a rush in a lot of ways. It's scary and humbling, and that has nothing to do with the level of physical...whatever... you indulge in. the mental aspect of submitting far outweigh the physical IMHO.

Every time I submit, it is like a fight with myself to let it be the way it is, to not wrestle control back. that is one of the big reasons I cannot live without it (and I know, I've tried). And the amount of strentgh one must have to control someone like you (just a conjecture of course)...well, meow.

Be silly and twitterpated. It'll do ya good.



*aside to EG* you thrive on being a scary monster. You don't have to hide it. We like you for who you are you evil, evil man!

 

[GentleSub_Ivy]

Hello Wenchhh,

What a great thread. I have to say I am so jealous. Personally, I am in the "awakening" stage as in learning that this is something I've wanted/needed for some time. I know that is not the physical sub-frenzy state but it certainly feels like I'm having plenty of EUREKA!!! moments. I realized this though after I married someone who has already expressed how crazy he thinks people engaged in BDSM are and is really quite disgusted by the whole idea. Like you I don't want to f*ck up my world right now. I haven't gone all the way with it like you. I have an online Dom right now but even this is taking me to new heights I haven't imagined sexually. I don't know where it will lead but we are both keeping our heads on our shoulders.

My point is thanks for posting your story. It helped me feel like I wasn't alone.

Ivy

 

[Ice2000]

Begrudgingly, I need to eat my words, and some crow here. I wouldn't be honoring the "100% honesty clause" in our agreement if I didn't. A week or two ago, Ice and EvilGeoff were agreeing with each other, that it is the doms job to keep the sub in line. I very brazenly didn't agree, and sassily argued my point, that *I* could take care of myself and didn't need limits.
Well, I'm here to shamefacedly admit, that I was wrong. I hope some of you more experienced ppl out there realized that it was the newbie sub frenzy talking, and I had not a frippin clue what I was talking about. Since then, I went a little bit out of control, trying to get as much exposure to my Sir as I possibly can. (What can I say, he rocked my world, and I don't ever want it to stand still again) It got annoying to him, to the point where he was avoiding me like the plague, thus making me even MORE determined to "be" with him... you can see where this is all going, can't you? Luckily, I realized what I'd done, and knew it didn't feel right. Gave it some thought and then talked to him about it. Now he's set some much firmer limits on me, and just like a 3 yr old, and a teen, I'm a much more complacent sub.
ok ok, so here it is. My apologies Ice and Geoff, i was WRONG. HOW embarrassing.

lol... No apology needed Wench. Glad you got your feet back on the ground. Getting overly excited about the lifestyle is pretty normal.

 

[MTskibunny]

As a sub.....does your master always make you orgasm?

 

[skittles_lm]

As a sub.....does your master always make you orgasm?

yes


lol, whether I want to or not sometimes.

 

[FurryFury]

As a sub.....does your master always make you orgasm?

Is this a question to the OP only, or to everyone?

Fury

 

[wenchhh]

awww

Hey skittles, thanks bunches for your post. It IS nice to know I'm not the only one! I totally got the "twitterpated" comment too, I guess one would have to have young kids to know the reference. (thump thump thump thump) {GRIN}
btw, LOVE your AV pic. NICE!

 

[wenchhh]

Thanks Ivy. Hang in there girl, yours is coming. Isn't it a great feeling/awakening? Can you BELIEVE we waited almost half of our (expected) lives for this? You and I should talk girl, I think we have a lot in common. You're not alone. Look one of us up if you have questions. I'm really very new and not much help, but ... etoile, and gigi and sweetmouse... have been really big helps and inspiration to me. Maybe they can help you "settle" too.

 

[wenchhh]

hee hee! Skittles, you took the words right out of my mouth on this one. Let's just say... we both loose count. Lucky lucky me.

 

[Evil_Geoff]

*aside to EG* you thrive on being a scary monster. You don't have to hide it. We like you for who you are you evil, evil man!

I'm sure I have absolutely no idea what you are refering to, young lady!

 

[Evil_Geoff]

... My apologies Ice and Geoff, i was WRONG. HOW embarrassing.

*smiles softly*
While appreciated, the apology certainly wasn't necessary. You are not mine to direct, control, or order about, my advice was simply friendly information for your consideration. But it takes courage to publically expose yourself this way and props to you for that as well!

{{{{{HUG}}}}}

Life is a job we learn by doing, we're always doing OJT...

 

[catrinaz]

i relate, wenchhh.

I hope it mellos a bit, after all, I have a professional life to live. Not too much tho, this is the most alive I've felt in many many years. Does anyone out there relate?

i definitely relate to this. i experience this kind of frenzy in new relationships, and moreso the less vanilla they are.