Bunny's Stuffie Corner

[BiBunny]

PP couldn't even insert an IUD the last time I was searching for that for a friend. Don't waste your time calling them.
Or lie and say you need and abortion. Then they might do a D&C.

*Sigh* Figures.

Well, we'll just ignore it and hope it goes away, then.

I am trying really hard to make myself work today, but I usually take at least part of Sunday (and all of Saturday) off, so I really don't want to.

 

[emme8]

Talk to the office manager at your OBgyn. Explain the situation and ask if she is aware of a program or discount you can use.

When I quit my job (that I kept solely for insurance) and lost my insurance. When I started paying out of pocket with "cash" discounts, the prices went down. Seriously dermatologist bill went from $200 with insurance to $75 with their discount. And I didn't apply for hardship assistance either.
But places can't advertise the costs for it Fucks up what the insurance will pay them and the budgets are so tight.

Secondly, talk to you Dr. There might be another option. Sure she's going to recommend the best treatment. But maybe she will understand that you are not going to do that and will therefore let you try the 2nd or 3rd choice. She should understand something is than no treatment at all.

 

[BiBunny]

Because I am the queen of hurting myself in stupid ways, I bit my tongue while eating lunch today. I didn't think it was that bad, until I brushed my teeth and there was blood everywhere. So then I looked at it in the mirror, and sure enough, big, gaping hole in the side of my tongue. I hope it doesn't get infected.

 

[BiBunny]

I made fudge tonight for Ganesha Chaturthi (Ganesha's birthday) tomorrow. He likes sweets, and that was one of the few recipes I could think of off the top of my head that didn't require eggs. I've never actually cooked for the gods before. I've always just offered fruit. I hope he likes it.

I finished my Spider-Woman cross-stitch I've been working on. It's the logo from the front of her costume. It's straight out of the embroidery hoop, so it needs pressing, and I have to figure out how I'm going to display it. Also, the spider is not symmetrical, which is maddening, but that's what I got when I ran the image through Stitch Fiddle.

 

[BiBunny]

I got the slaughterhouse period that Iris mentioned above. God, everything hurts, and I just hate everyone right now.

 

[IrisAlthea]

I got the slaughterhouse period that Iris mentioned above. God, everything hurts, and I just hate everyone right now.

I’m far away enough to dare to say that it’s still a good thing somehow.
, chocholate, hot water bottle and though!

 

[BiBunny]

Well, Job #1 has just solidified my decision to gtfo as quickly as possible. I hope everybody in management spontaneously combusts.

 

[BiBunny]

I need to learn how to use Reddit. That is my next project.

 

[BiBunny]

I have been struggling with exhaustion for days now. No clue why. I haven't changed my meds or vitamin routine. I just can't seem to wake the hell up. It's sleep inertia on a whole different level than usual.

In order to combat that, today, I have had four double-strength caffeine pills, one cup of coffee, and a 30 mg Adderall. With that level of stimulant intake, you'd think I'd be able to hear colors, but no. I'm just struggling to keep my eyes open. So annoying!

 

[BiBunny]

I made the executive decision to try doing some yoga from YouTube today. I am entirely too fat, too big-titted, and too asthmatic for this.

However, my messed-up shoulder only tried to dislocate itself once, and I only punched myself in the nose once, so I'm counting this as a win.

Daddy wants me to exercise. He did not specify what kind of exercise. So by doing this, I am being a good kitten...right?

 

[BiBunny]

My pharmacy closed last week. They sent all the prescriptions they had on file to a nearby Walgreens. Some of my direct deposits will come later today, and I need some meds, so I called this Walgreens to find out how much what I needed would be before I committed to ordering them.

So for 30 30-mg Abilify, they want to charge me $325. I'm like, you are out of your damn mind. (For comparison, the same prescription was $15-$20 at my old pharmacy.)

So I'm in the process of calling around to get prices on my meds. Everyone keeps suggesting online pharmacies, but they don't fill Adderall prescriptions, to my knowledge, so I have to get something local. This is very annoying.

 

[BiBunny]

Found a new pharmacy at Daddy's suggestion. Bless him, he is good for something occasionally.

My sleep is all messed up because it's Fall, and that's just what happens to me this time of year. They came and replaced a broken kitchen window in my apartment today, and I slept through the whole thing, not even realizing they were here. I hadn't slept for shit the previous two nights, so I was dead to the world.

Of course, with the sleep disturbance comes mood disturbance. I hate this time of year.

I have so many blogs to write for customers, and I just wanna go back to bed. It's all very overwhelming, and I don't know how to get started.

 

[BiBunny]

Posting this here instead of in the crafts thread, as it's more personal. I finished the table runner for my desk/altar.



From left to right, we have Lakshmi (yes, her arm is broken, to my eternal sorrow), Ganesha, Durga, Kali, and Saraswati. The shot glass is for offering water (I don't have a proper thing for offerings yet), and the white thing that's half cut off on the right is a basket that holds the crocheted flowers I always offer, as I don't have the funds to buy fresh ones. I hope one day to get statues of Shiva, Aphrodite, Athena, Hera, and maybe Vishnu to finish it. For now, though, the reason the altar is in front of the computer monitor is so that I can use photos of the deities I don't have statues of.

The runner itself is full of mistakes and became a massive pain to finish when I got close to the end of the ball of yarn and it started tangling. But it's done, and it's finished before Fall Navaratri, which starts on October 15th, and that was all I was worried about.

In other news, I hate Fall. I'm a mixed-state mess, and I have no idea what to do about it. Anybody got any suggestions? I would be happy to listen and try them out.

 

[BiBunny]

My feet hurt (because I'm pretty sure I have plantar fasciitis in them), and my eyes are burning (probably because I slept very little again last night).

I am grumpy.

 

[IrisAlthea]

In other news, I hate Fall. I'm a mixed-state mess, and I have no idea what to do about it. Anybody got any suggestions? I would be happy to listen and try them out.

Can’t say I know anything about mixed states, but it gets pretty dark and dreary here and it used to get me down a lot.
What has helped me is leaning in to the nice things about fall, like fall fashion (read cozy sweaters and cool boots and jackets), warm drinks (pumpkin spice optional), seasonal food like soups and stews, planting heather and planting bulbs etc in the garden, indulging my inner pyromaniac witch( <- typing error, should be with, but it has to stay) candles and bonfires.
I also try to make time to enjoy cool, crisp and sunny days and red leaves against steely blue skies. Took me days to get this written though, so do as I say…

 

[BiBunny]

Can’t say I know anything about mixed states, but it gets pretty dark and dreary here and it used to get me down a lot.
What has helped me is leaning in to the nice things about fall, like fall fashion (read cozy sweaters and cool boots and jackets), warm drinks (pumpkin spice optional), seasonal food like soups and stews, planting heather and planting bulbs etc in the garden, indulging my inner pyromaniac witch( <- typing error, should be with, but it has to stay) candles and bonfires.
I also try to make time to enjoy cool, crisp and sunny days and red leaves against steely blue skies. Took me days to get this written though, so do as I say…

I understand completely, lol. (Also, that was a great typo.)

It's cooler here now, considerably so, but definitely still not sweater weather. The leaves are starting to turn, but they won't be in full color until probably next month. The biggest problem is the loss of the light and the way it affects my sleep. The lack of light has a depressant effect, and the lack of sleep has a manic-inducing one. So I'm just running around, angry at everything and scream-crying.

Happens every year. I have no idea how to avoid it. The good news is, by the end of November, my brain will have adjusted to a soft, low-level depression until spring comes. The bad news is, it's still a bit of a while between now and the end of November.

I kinda let my yoga practice slip the last few days because I felt so ugh. I guess I should pick that back up again. It can't hurt.

Anybody have anything they wanna talk about so the Stuffie Corner is not just all Bunny drama, all the time? I've been trying and failing to come up with a good discussion topic for us for days. May be my cue to make my way over to BDSMlr. There's always some stupidity there that makes me feel the need to comment on it, lol.

 

[BiBunny]

May be my cue to make my way over to BDSMlr. There's always some stupidity there that makes me feel the need to comment on it, lol.

Took me five minutes over there to be reminded of one thing about the place that irritates me, lol. This may just be a me problem, based on who I follow, but their search function is atrocious, and I'm too dumb to figure out how to find people with similar interests.

That being said, why do some kinky people online like to pretend that fat people don't exist? I know perfectly well that there are more of us than anyone else, but you have to actively seek out fat bodies if you want to see yourself or the people you're attracted to represented.

Also, God help you if you're a little who doesn't look like a waif. Fat littles totally don't exist, guys! And what passes for "thick" rarely is.

Ugh, I have lots of opinions, lol.

 

[BiBunny]

First day of the Fall Navaratri, the most important of the Navaratris, the Nine Divine Nights of the Goddess.

May the blessings of Mothers Kali, Lakshmi, Saraswati, and the nine forms of Durga fall upon all of us.

This and Diwali are the two biggest religious holidays for me, although I do celebrate some of the others. If anybody is trying to decide if they should start some venture or another, now is a very auspicious time, so consider this your sign.

I love all my Lit friends, and I love this holiday, so I'm happy right now.

 

[BiBunny]

I think I've hit a wall.

I am so tired of putting other people's needs and wants ahead of my own needs. (My own wants might as well just not exist in this paradigm.) I have been expected to do it my whole life, and I think I've just...run out of steam to keep doing it.

Management at job number one has already said that over the next month or two, they're going to be contacting underperforming contractors to see "if they can help." I will undoubtedly be one of those contacted because my minutes suck. I think when they ask what the problem is, I'm not going to hold back. If they don't want to know, they don't need to ask. All my motivation for that job has gone out the window, and I honestly don't care if they fire me or not.

As for the Daddy situation...I'm tired. The man acts like I don't exist most of the time. He's stopped reaching out to me altogether, and when I reach out to him, he ignores me nine times out of ten unless he wants a sympathetic ear to bitch about how bad his life sucks.

I've tried my best to be supportive, and I've tried to not place any demands on him. But he doesn't seem to give a shit if he ever sees or talks to me again, and you can say what you want about me, but I do have my pride. I'm not going to hang around where I'm not wanted. I'll try to talk to him, but I'm pretty sure he's gonna say he can't/won't give me what I need, and it sucks.

Other people get to see their Daddies. Other people have Daddies who are excited to see or talk to them. I don't have shit. I might as well not even have a Daddy at this point. And sure, it'd be easy to go on Fet or somewhere and find some asshat who wants me to call him "Daddy," but I don't want a different Daddy. I want this one not to suck. And I'm afraid I'm not going to get my wish in that regard.

It's probably going to kill me. But this is also killing me, so what's the difference, other than the speed at which I'm dying?

 

[BiBunny]

*Plays with stuffies*

Yesterday, I asked via text if I could talk to him. I wasn't really expecting an answer. But he called me, which took me so much by surprise that everything I'd intended to say just flew out of my head. All I really managed to say was, "I miss you."

He complained about how much his life sucked for five minutes and then said he had to go.

I texted again today, to ask if he would try to come see me on my birthday, which is a month from today, November 28th. I told him no one else would be around, that it'd just be him and me.

No answer.

I am thoroughly sick of making excuses for this man's flagrant neglect.

 

[BiBunny]

If *I* were a Daddy and had a service kitten who would do anything for me and thought of me as second only to Lord Shiva Himself, I would simply not neglect her and leave her to rot. RIP to him, but I'm built different.

 

[cascadiabound]

If *I* were a Daddy and had a service kitten who would do anything for me and thought of me as second only to Lord Shiva Himself, I would simply not neglect her and leave her to rot. RIP to him, but I'm built different.

I really feel for you, Bunny. I wish your daddy was worthy of you.
Hugs

 

[BiBunny]

I really feel for you, Bunny. I wish your daddy was worthy of you.
Hugs

Thank you, Cassie. I really appreciate it. *Hugs back*

 

[BiBunny]

I haven't talked to him in nearly two weeks and haven't even tried to in about a week and a half. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm tired of always being the one to reach out, but it certainly doesn't look like he's going to.

I don't know, maybe I should just let it die in peace.

 

[Azuldrgon]

I haven't talked to him in nearly two weeks and haven't even tried to in about a week and a half. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm tired of always being the one to reach out, but it certainly doesn't look like he's going to.

I don't know, maybe I should just let it die in peace.

*sends hugs if it is okay*
I don't want you to die. I like seeing how you are doing with everything and thinking about you.
You are worth so much more. And deserve better.