D/S relationships...

[Luna_Wolf72]

This is especially for those of you who experienced pain play in a roleplay setting first, how did you know you'd enjoy it? And what did you first think of it? How would you describe your experiences and thoughts?

These are such interesting questions that I want to throw my opinion out there and give those of me who know me a little background.

I started D/s role playing ages ago. I met my Ma'am in an AOL chat room, as a matter of fact. I was young and the idea of pain had always been a turn on for me. Working through some of my fears, checking my responses against what my Ma'am said she wanted; even on line, was a scary and exhilarating. My formative years probably had a hand in my pain response~I have written about this else where on the forums~but in general my pain responses were fairly sexual from a very early age. Masochism was an almost natural outgrowth of me learning to over come my childhood and my fears.

Once I met my Ma'am things were held up to the light and discussed. Writing to, and for, her helped me express some of my nastier desires and opened me to the idea of other ways of pain play~long before she and I ever met in the flesh.

The initial meeting took what we had built on line and expanded it. The first time I was really bound, really held against my will~fuck. It was the same thing as what I wanted, only better. Her hands on my flesh: poking, prying, nails scraping. *Shivers* Then the riding crop. We decided on it as being my first taste of pain. The swish, the sting as she placed it on breasts, bum and upper thighs. I opened up to her and stayed open for the next three years~having my responses tested and learning more about myself and her.

I would have never allowed someone to do that to me had I not met my Ma'am and her loving care is what helped me to decide that I wanted to explore the dominant within. (And to be honest, once I started learning about Dominance~I knew I wasn't a submissive~just a pain slut. *shrugs*)

 

[monique_minx]

Thank you Scarlet and Luna! You've both given me some different angles to consider, especially upbringing and her response to trying certain things.

Mostly she wants to pretend she's normal but it's made her very unhappy not to try the things she is so curious about. I owe a post in this thread next so as soon as I get everything in order, it should be a really good one! Thanks for the inspiration ladies!