Desultory and Impulsive

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I want to bury my face
In her panty covered crotch.

I want to fight to spread her legs
And see her fat fuck thighs part
And dive my face hard
Right against her lush fuck hot

My lips feeling her lips
The cotton fabric
--a hammock for my face

The smell of her
The scent
Humid fuck entering my sinuses
--my lungs

Filling me
With an aggressive want for her.

 

[raindancer]

...........

Beautiful light and shadow.

 

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Beautiful light and shadow.

Thank you for your continued interest. It is very much appreciated.

 

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I'm tired
And my shoulder hurts.

 

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I keep thinking--
--there is this part in my brain
That holds onto this something
That
Someday---
--everything will come together

The things that I want
Will be mine

That the work that needs to be done
Will be easier to accomplish

That there will be rest
--in sleep

That time off
--a vacation away
Will be without loss of income
Or add tasks to the weeks ahead.

That one day
The losses I grieve
My arms will hold.

But this is it.

Where I am.
Right now.
Is it.

What I have
Right now
Is all that I will ever have
And will ever experience.

 

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.....

 

[y=mx+b]

How much is too much?

 

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... and I consider myself a cum slut.

I am entertained by the degree and reaction women have over ejaculate. Some are all like IT'S THE NECTAR OF THE GODS!!! Whereas others practically seem to need rubber gloves to clean it up should it not be full and properly deposited in their vaginas.

Neither of which is wrong or to be looked down upon. To each their own of course.

I do however feel there's an unnecessary pressure and expectation imposed upon women to lean more towards the former rather than the later.

Guys are delicate. Any reaction of aversion to an experience that feels as fucking incredible as an orgasm does creates an insecure feeling that is all to easily projected upon a woman

"What the fucks up with the gagging and puking up of my ejaculate? It's AMAZING you defective twat. All the porn movies prove me correct!"

 

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It is.

But not a pint.

I remain skeptical about the actual legitimacy of the video. But people are different and some possess freakish abilities.

 

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Notes were taken.

 

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...but then I'd have to by condoms which I otherwise have no need for and well... fuck that action.

 

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This sounds really stupid, but I love this because of his smile in the beginning.

It's not dumb at all. He's got a great smile and seemingly cheerful, magnetic disposition.

 

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When I’m bored I just sloth around. I don’t invent new things to fuck.

Maybe i should.

You should. There's no shame in it.
You are only limited by your imagination.

 

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So.... if you surf through videos of men masturbating etc... on xvideos then search for videos that feature women a notification pops up alerting you that you are leaving the gay section of xvideos and a link is provided to return back.

I think pornhub does the same. I don't know, but it's happened elsewhere before.

Do gay men need to be told? "Hey queer. You sure you want to venture straight? I mean... yeah, you'll see dicks but they'll be going in and out of women and stuff"

It strikes me curious as to why this is. I'm not alerted that I'm leaving the more heterosexual sections or given the option to go back

"We've noticed that you are mostly into dudes banging women and all that but today you seem to be going gay. You sure? If not, here's a quick link to go back."

 

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Follow-Up on the condom trick.

We happened to have condoms in the bathroom drawer.

Didn't work.
I wasn't able to poke the front through to the back. Well... I was but I couldn't tie it as the condoms were lubricated as well as the fancy ultra thin kind... which I highly recommend for normal fucking.

Perhaps with a unlubricated different style.

I tried twice and they both popped.

Of course by then I was all in-it-to-win-it and determined to fuck a condom one way or the other.

So the third one I just put on and jerked myself off.

Midway through I got to realizing that it's kinda pointless for a guy to drop coin on a masturbation sleeve when he could just buy a bunch of condoms.

Then I realized I had to pee and this might be where it gets a little weird for some of you folks...

Being the man of curiosity that I am and having through practice attained the ability to piss with an erection... I did just that. Inside the condom... while beating off.

It was everything I wanted it to be.

The condom expanded add it filled and my dick was surrounded by warmth and wetness. And piss has a certain slippery to it which was a plus as things were getting a little dry.

And so there I was. Jerking off into a piss filled condom. It swinging heavy and freely between my legs.

Feeling myself nearing orgasm I held the condom in my left hand as I jerked off with my right.

There was a bit of blow-back as I adjusted the grip around my cock. But that's to be expected.

The full condom felt a bit heavy and warm like the breast of a woman. There was a lot of weird sensor perception things going on. It was pretty neat actually.

Feeling my orgasm nearing I steadied my pace.

I looked down as I came and it was fantastic. If you've never seen a guy ejaculating into water it was a lot like that

That's what I was most curious about. If semen in urine would have the same ropey ribbon effect. And it does.

Contained inside the condom it was like was creating a snow globe. Gentle little jets of semen floating and falling to the ground.

I damn near kinda want to video the whole process just to see it happen from a different angle.

The orgasm by and large was pretty much just okay. The journey and process of it happening... worth it.

 

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Thinking about what other stories to tell you to serve as a brief distraction away from this everyday bullshit that's come to be what life is

I think I'm all tapped out.

 

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Enjoy your coffee.
It’s okay to just be.

Thank you.
I appreciate your understanding.

 

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She rather I worked first shift like her
I rather the same

But until another is hired on at work
Or someone on days quits
I am stuck on second

It's strange to think that as a relationship goal

We've been doing this for years

I come home
She's asleep.

I wake up
She's gone

She comes home
I'm gone



That said...

There's this something that I love
About coming home
Getting into bed
And finding her there
Sleeping as herself

Peaceful.

I love how sometimes she's naked
Sometimes she wearing just panties
Sometimes a nightshift and no panties

I like to wonder why
What her thought process is

She's so fun like that
Because I know there isn't one

She's just being her delightful self
Like she has been all these years

That said...

It's weird to be laying here
Next to her
Missing her like I do.

I want to reach over and touch her face
And tell her that I miss her
And tell her I love her
And kiss her good night

And I don't want to wake up alone anymore--with her gone.

 

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......

 

[y=mx+b]

I'm going to buy my wife another bullet vibe tomorrow.

She had/has one I bought for her some time ago. In spite of being all fancy and all that, I was never happy with it.

So... yep. That's what I'll be doing tomorrow after work. Going to the porn store.

 

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How is it that this thread is still alive?

 

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How is it that this thread is still alive?

Who the fuck knows?

 

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Who the fuck knows?

How was work?

 

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How was work?

Meh... it was alright. Still got all my fingers and toes