Desultory and Impulsive

[Aphro]

I don't feel the same with embedding pictures into threads Aphro but I never assume a person wants to be flashed by me in real life.

Actually I've been flashed on two seperate occasions and it was scary both times.
One was in a supermarket. The other was on a beach in winter. He and I were the only two on the beach. I've never left a beach so fast and he watched me the whole way.

Y, I wonder if they wanted to scare me? If that's what they got out of it. Feeling power from making a woman feel vulnerable and afraid.

Oh, Icy, I wasn't saying anything about you! It's just my personal preference is all. I hope you didn't think I was being at all judgy!

I can imagine the beach thing was awful. I'd have run away, too. I don't know what the motivation would be. To frighten? To shock? To intimidate? Different if the roles were reversed. I'm sure if I went up to some man in the supermarket and flashed him, he might be shocked, but not necessarily intimidated or frightened.

Never been flashed, but, been rubbed up against/groped in the subway, and that's fairly distressing. It's interesting, because I can have sexual fantasies surrounding non-consensual sexual touching and enjoy them, yet when you are standing in a packed, hot, subway car in summer, and some smelly, BO'd dude with bad breath is pushing his boner into your back, nothing about that is at all sexy. Of course, if something like this happened to me now, I'd holler and call the guy out on it, but back in my 20's, I just stood like a dummy and tried to shift myself away from him, feeling dirty.

All my non-consensual fantasy men are well groomed, smell nice, and have nicely manicured nails. LOL

 

[y=mx+b]

I don't feel the same with embedding pictures into threads Aphro but I never assume a person wants to be flashed by me in real life.

Actually I've been flashed on two seperate occasions and it was scary both times.
One was in a supermarket. The other was on a beach in winter. He and I were the only two on the beach. I've never left a beach so fast and he watched me the whole way.

Y, I wonder if they wanted to scare me? If that's what they got out of it. Feeling power from making a woman feel vulnerable and afraid.

I embed my photos in my thread because... I'm the thread starter and it's all mostly about me. By now you people should figure as much and come to expect whatever who's to say.

That said... If I were to venture forth and feel compelled to post in the sexy men of lit or art of dick pic threads I probably wouldn't. Because... well... who wants to see me there anyway.

As for what guys who flash women want... quick answer--to be noticed, to get a reaction. It's not like they have high hopes that you'll be all like "my god... I need to get that in me!"

He wanted you scared. He wanted you to run. He wanted you uncofortable. He wanted you to be a victim. He no doubt went home or in the bushes and jerked off to the memory of your reaction. These men get off on violating your sensibilities.

Should you feel so inclined, do a porn vid search for men flashing women. After a few videos you will come to figure out that what gets them off is getting away with it.

One of the best of these videos I saw was a guy jerking off to an unsuspecting woman and when she discovered him she pulled out her phone and called the police. The guy wasn't astute to the fact... until he was and damn near cut his dick off trying to zip-up and take off. How he managed to not drop his phone is beyond me.

 

[y=mx+b]

Oh, Icy, I wasn't saying anything about you! It's just my personal preference is all. I hope you didn't think I was being at all judgy!

I can imagine the beach thing was awful. I'd have run away, too. I don't know what the motivation would be. To frighten? To shock? To intimidate? Different if the roles were reversed. I'm sure if I went up to some man in the supermarket and flashed him, he might be shocked, but not necessarily intimidated or frightened.

Never been flashed, but, been rubbed up against/groped in the subway, and that's fairly distressing. It's interesting, because I can have sexual fantasies surrounding non-consensual sexual touching and enjoy them, yet when you are standing in a packed, hot, subway car in summer, and some smelly, BO'd dude with bad breath is pushing his boner into your back, nothing about that is at all sexy. Of course, if something like this happened to me now, I'd holler and call the guy out on it, but back in my 20's, I just stood like a dummy and tried to shift myself away from him, feeling dirty.

All my non-consensual fantasy men are well groomed, smell nice, and have nicely manicured nails. LOL

I wish to address the whole fantasy aspect of this as well but I had along day and am fuck-all tired.

 

[y=mx+b]

Oh, Icy, I wasn't saying anything about you! It's just my personal preference is all. I hope you didn't think I was being at all judgy!

I can imagine the beach thing was awful. I'd have run away, too. I don't know what the motivation would be. To frighten? To shock? To intimidate? Different if the roles were reversed. I'm sure if I went up to some man in the supermarket and flashed him, he might be shocked, but not necessarily intimidated or frightened.

Never been flashed, but, been rubbed up against/groped in the subway, and that's fairly distressing. It's interesting, because I can have sexual fantasies surrounding non-consensual sexual touching and enjoy them, yet when you are standing in a packed, hot, subway car in summer, and some smelly, BO'd dude with bad breath is pushing his boner into your back, nothing about that is at all sexy. Of course, if something like this happened to me now, I'd holler and call the guy out on it, but back in my 20's, I just stood like a dummy and tried to shift myself away from him, feeling dirty.

All my non-consensual fantasy men are well groomed, smell nice, and have nicely manicured nails. LOL

Yes I'm quoting you again.

Mostly to say that I would LOVE to indulge you in your groping fantasy.

I think it would be fun to plan out, set up the situation, and act on it in public. I confess... I find it a huge turn on. One of my go-to creeper vids takes place at a concert or dance club. It is too boring to write out and I'm not going to do your home work but the guy has a solid awesom dick and at one point he shoves it hard square between her legs and crams it against her crotch. If she were wearing a skirt and no panties it would have went in.

Admittedly I don't want to do your homework because I don't want to be promoting the outright obvious sexual violation of women

Go figure. Right?


That said... I do have an intimate memory from when a certain friend visited. It's one of those memories she doesn't know about.

I've shared a lot already about her... about us. But there's more. There will always be more.



But I don't want to talk about it anymore. It's all become so distant now. Like a dream I knew I had but by the end of the day can no longer fully recall.


Anyway... good night.

 

[Icy1]

I embed my photos in my thread because... I'm the thread starter and it's all mostly about me. By now you people should figure as much and come to expect whatever who's to say.

That said... If I were to venture forth and feel compelled to post in the sexy men of lit or art of dick pic threads I probably wouldn't. Because... well... who wants to see me there anyway.

As for what guys who flash women want... quick answer--to be noticed, to get a reaction. It's not like they have high hopes that you'll be all like "my god... I need to get that in me!"

He wanted you scared. He wanted you to run. He wanted you uncofortable. He wanted you to be a victim. He no doubt went home or in the bushes and jerked off to the memory of your reaction. These men get off on violating your sensibilities.

Should you feel so inclined, do a porn vid search for men flashing women. After a few videos you will come to figure out that what gets them off is getting away with it.

One of the best of these videos I saw was a guy jerking off to an unsuspecting woman and when she discovered him she pulled out her phone and called the police. The guy wasn't astute to the fact... until he was and damn near cut his dick off trying to zip-up and take off. How he managed to not drop his phone is beyond me.

Well I gave him what he wanted.
The beach guy at least.
I'd even spoken to him earlier, then when I walked back past him he exposed himself.
I wasn't sure of his intentions and nearly killed myself getting out of there fast. He stood watching as I retreated. I looked back a few times because I was afraid he'd be following me.

 

[y=mx+b]

Well I gave him what he wanted.
The beach guy at least.
I'd even spoken to him earlier, then when I walked back past him he exposed himself.
I wasn't sure of his intentions and nearly killed myself getting out of there fast. He stood watching as I retreated. I looked back a few times because I was afraid he'd be following me.

I find myself wishing I had been there with you so I could have ripped his jaw off his face to push the hinged end of it up into his eye sockets.

Seems kinda like a fun thing to do for a woman. Whether she wanted me to or not.

 

[Icy1]

I find myself wishing I had been there with you so I could have ripped his jaw off his face to push the hinged end of it up into his eye sockets.

Seems kinda like a fun thing to do for a woman. Whether she wanted me to or not.

I doubt he'd have done it if you were.

I can think of plenty of things that are more fun than that.

 

[y=mx+b]

I doubt he'd have done it if you were.

I can think of plenty of things that are more fun than that.

Pretty sure I'm capable to do that, AND whatever more fun things you can think of.

All in the same day.

 

[y=mx+b]

I'm drifting from you...

...not towards anyone else
Just away from you

And not by choice

It's almost...

It's a feeling as if you've grown up
Like you're ready to be on your own

Like you don't need me.


You never really did need me
And I very well could have not
Been taken in by you

But I was.


I thought about you
While I was at work yesterday

I forgot my phone at home
And although we no longer text like we once did...

It's like it had become a part of you
It's how I had come to know you better

It's how I had come to fall in love with you


And it was no longer with me.


How am I to pull myself closer to you?

Each message I send you
I feel as though
I'm flailing around
Splashing about
Looking foolish

Feeling foolish


As if I'm trying to hold on to a woman
That just wants to be let go

But is unable to say so


It's okay

We are adults
No love will be lost
No memories will be forgotten

 

[RubiDia]

Some random guy masturbating in a library = sex offender

Not going to say you're wrong.

 

[y=mx+b]

She picked up a rock without putting much thought into it and threw it into the water.

It didn't skip.


She looked along the bank of the pond and saw another rock

This one was more rounded and flatter on one side
She thunk back to how he looked... his form when he skipped the stones. He used a side arm type throw she tried to copy but when she went to throw the rock she forgot to let go and the stone went whizzing along the shore line

A frog jumped into the water

She felt stupid
Uncoordinated
Undancer-like.

She was a dancer

was a dancer

Now she's a stripper
Fucking the club owner

She liked dancing
She also liked fucking

She liked sex
She liked being opened up
Used

She liked semen
How it tasted
And smelled on her skin
She liked how slippery it was

And how it burned in her eyes.


She loved it all
She loved the men
They were all so strong

And large
Muscular
Hard

Hard...

She was getting wet


She loved it
She loved being turned on
It made her feel warm
It took her out of her mind
And pulled her into her body

Everything that touched her could be fucked
And she wanted to fuck it all


But she never would




Because it was all so silly
















Right?

 

[y=mx+b]

Where am I not asleep?

Here
With you

I am not asleep here
With you
Because I can't be

I can't be
Because
You are not

You are not
Asleep
Here
With me

You are asleep
There

Without me

 

[Aphro]

Where am I not asleep?

Here
With you

I am not asleep here
With you
Because I can't be

I can't be
Because
You are not

You are not
Asleep
Here
With me

You are asleep
There

Without me

 

[y=mx+b]

Sometimes I wonder
If
The feel of her neck
Upon my lips
Will
Ever be felt
Again

It has come
To be
Such
A distant memory.

 

[RubiDia]

Right?

Oh fantastic - I have full coverage even if the power goes out.

 

[y=mx+b]

I want to get stoned and fuck...

...to this song.

 

[y=mx+b]

https://youtu.be/6v-cizf3imk

 

[y=mx+b]

All the way in

 

[Icy1]

Hope it's clean.

 

[y=mx+b]

Yeah. I hate the thought of the brush getting infected with a sexually transmitted disease.

Who knows how many more toilets it's going to clean before it's found out.

 

[Icy1]

Yeah. I hate the thought of the brush getting infected with a sexually transmitted disease.

Who knows how many more toilets it's going to clean before it's found out.

I was thinking the exact same thing!

 

[y=mx+b]

Admittedly....

Admittedly... I get a little scared at some point during the day--everyday. At work.

It usually happens once everyone has left and I'm all there is for the last three plus hours in the day.

Just me.
Alone.

At minimum a half hour wait for any emergency service to reach me

...if I'm able to call for one should I need to.


Admittedly... it doesn't bother me.

It does... but it doesn't. You know?

There comes a certain level of acceptance.
A certain moment of--well.... this might be it.

Before I engage in such a task I take a moment, go to the vending machine, buy a candy bar of some kind if I don't already have one in my toolbox, walk over to wherever I will be working, on whatever I will be working on--and eat my candy bar.

Not so much that it may be my last meal. But rather to make it the last moment I remember.

Because after that
It's work-on-autopilot

Muscle memory
Dexterity

Anticipation


No love
No hate
No fear
Just is as I am
So in the case that I'm not...

that's it. Over.


There isn't a day
That I've not bled in some way
Or been hit
Or hit

My back hurts
My shoulders grind
My wrist clicks
My fingers go numb periodically throughout the day.


None of this is by no means a solicitation for pity
Nor is it meant to be taken as some kind of bullshit chest-beating look-at-how-tough-I-am diatribe.

If it is to be taken as anything
It's to be taken as look-at-me... I am human.

And I get scared.



Everyday.

 

[y=mx+b]

Just so you know--
--I am an absolute mess.

 

[y=mx+b]

That said...

I do not regret the words I had spoken
Nor will I ever apologise

My mind is clear
And I am at peace.

Write me off
However you wish

Move on as you see fit


But for those moments you wish to feel me feel you by way of my words

You know where to find them

And you know
Which ones
Will have been written
Specifically for you
And for you to read

Just the way you have

And have
All this time.

 

[Corbal]

Unforgiving.

I appreciate that bold characteristic.