Desultory and Impulsive

If there is one thing I don't want to do today (or tomorrow for that matter), it's go to work.
 
What I want...
Is her barefoot
Naked from the waist down
Blindfolded
Pissing on the laminate flooring
In our dining room.
 
We were an hour into a two hour drive when our conversation became quiet and we slipped into our own thoughts.

It was about fifteen minutes later
When I was slipped out of my thoughts
By her having reached her hand out
To touch my forearm
I glanced over towards her
To see that she was still lost in her thoughts

I liked it
I liked how that's where we're at
A place where our minds can be
And our bodies still reach out for the other

And she was still lost in thought
As her fingers
Found interest in the hair on my arms

Petting
And slight pulling
And light twirling
Under the delicate touch of her fingertips

And I continued to drive
And we continued to be quiet together.
 
We were an hour into a two hour drive when our conversation became quiet and we slipped into our own thoughts.

It was about fifteen minutes later
When I was slipped out of my thoughts
By her having reached her hand out
To touch my forearm
I glanced over towards her
To see that she was still lost in her thoughts

I liked it
I liked how that's where we're at
A place where our minds can be
And our bodies still reach out for the other

And she was still lost in thought
As her fingers
Found interest in the hair on my arms

Petting
And slight pulling
And light twirling
Under the delicate touch of her fingertips

And I continued to drive
And we continued to be quiet together.


Sigh. So romantic!
 
In some way that she needed
I touched her
And somehow
I've become important to her.

She could have had the pick of the litter
And many times she did.

And I compare myself to them
And the opportunities they offered her
The experiences they were all able to afford her

And I wonder
I will always wonder...

Who am I?
Why me?
 
What is it like to dress up?
To be clean
And to have clean clothing
That's not faded
Or torn
Or ripped where from what ripped it
Caused it to become also stained with blood?

What is it like to look sharp?
And feel sharp
Clean
Intelligent
...wealthy?


I remember trying
And believing
-- to some degree that I was
----that I could be

Now I know that I can't be

Not in any kind of authentic manner.
 
What is it like to dress up?
To be clean
And to have clean clothing
That's not faded
Or torn
Or ripped where from what ripped it
Caused it to become also stained with blood?

What is it like to look sharp?
And feel sharp
Clean
Intelligent
...wealthy?


I remember trying
And believing
-- to some degree that I was
----that I could be

Now I know that I can't be

Not in any kind of authentic manner.

You are sharp
Clean
Are one of the most articulate, intelligent people
... and wealthy in so many other things.

You are.
I know it.
I see it...

...so, believe it.
 
You are sharp
Clean
Are one of the most articulate, intelligent people
... and wealthy in so many other things.

You are.
I know it.
I see it...

...so, believe it.

I've been thinking how to respond to this all day
And I'm not really sure how
Or if I should bother.

I probably wouldn't
If you hadn't mined my thread
To provide me with such compelling evidence
To counter my prior post.

I wish to give you recognition
And point out
That the such is not lost on me.

I am fortunate.
I am lucky.
And I should express more gratitude
For the things that I have
And for that of which provides me
The ability to express what I do, the way that I do.

That said; a point, which I take responsibility for lacking the ability to aptly convey, has been missed.
 
I've been thinking how to respond to this all day
And I'm not really sure how
Or if I should bother.

I probably wouldn't
If you hadn't mined my thread
To provide me with such compelling evidence
To counter my prior post.

I wish to give you recognition
And point out
That the such is not lost on me.

I am fortunate.
I am lucky.
And I should express more gratitude
For the things that I have
And for that of which provides me
The ability to express what I do, the way that I do.

That said; a point, which I take responsibility for lacking the ability to aptly convey, has been missed.

You're fascinating to read. And nice butt.
 
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