Emily’s NEW positivity and being nice to each other thread

On Tuesday, I had the unfortunate duty of doing a final round of Damage Assessment in my old hometown, because of the EF3 Tornado that killed 3 people.

The positive that came out of that, was that after seeing all that damage in the daylight, doing my job, seeing places that held memories for me destroyed, hearing all the terrible stories from survivors, and seeing the owners cry, etc,

I DID NOT hit the bottle or fall back onto my pain medication.

I was incredibly blessed, that my therapist made the drive all the way down, to have lunch with me and make sure that I was dealing with everything not only as well as possible, but that I was doing OK.

I definitely feel the progress that I've made, has me handling things like grief, sadness, anger, etc, in a much better and productive manner. I'm not lashing out in anger or aggressiveness at complete strangers.

Hopefully, everybody here had a great week and have a wonderful weekend.
 
On Tuesday, I had the unfortunate duty of doing a final round of Damage Assessment in my old hometown, because of the EF3 Tornado that killed 3 people.

The positive that came out of that, was that after seeing all that damage in the daylight, doing my job, seeing places that held memories for my destroyed, hearing all the terrible stories from survivors, and seeing the owners cry, etc,

I DID NOT hit the bottle or fall back onto my pain medication.

I was incredibly blessed, that my therapist made the drive all the way down, to have lunch with me and make sure that I was dealing with everything not only as well as possible, but that I was doing OK.

I defintely feel the progress that I've made, has me handling things like grief, sadness, anger, etc, in a much better and productive manner. I'm not lashing out in anger or aggressiveness to complete strangers.

Hopefully, everybody here had a great week and have a wonderful weekend.
🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

Emily
 
Meanwhile, I'll be in my bunk.

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Oh wow, such a beautiful picture.

I’ve said this before, the beautiful grey tones of black and white photography are timeless!
 
On Tuesday, I had the unfortunate duty of doing a final round of Damage Assessment in my old hometown, because of the EF3 Tornado that killed 3 people.

The positive that came out of that, was that after seeing all that damage in the daylight, doing my job, seeing places that held memories for me destroyed, hearing all the terrible stories from survivors, and seeing the owners cry, etc,

I DID NOT hit the bottle or fall back onto my pain medication.

I was incredibly blessed, that my therapist made the drive all the way down, to have lunch with me and make sure that I was dealing with everything not only as well as possible, but that I was doing OK.

I definitely feel the progress that I've made, has me handling things like grief, sadness, anger, etc, in a much better and productive manner. I'm not lashing out in anger or aggressiveness at complete strangers.

Hopefully, everybody here had a great week and have a wonderful weekend.
Oh man, there is nothing you can do about nature.

I am glad that you have grown from your past experiences and are able to tackle the present head on with a clear mind.

I hope your home town recovers!
 
Oh man, there is nothing you can do about nature.

I am glad that you have grown from your past experiences and are able to tackle the present head on with a clear mind.

I hope your home town recovers!
Thank you.
Yeah, my team was the first team called down to Logan County when the EF3 hit.
It was hard to see my former hometown that way.

For the last 2 years, I'd been balls deep in my addiction to pain medication.
On top of that, I didn't fully understand how my childhood and war trauma in addition to that, had made me a different person.

I was obscenely aggressive to complete strangers and even to people on here who I'd never spoken to before.
I regret and hope that those people here, see the positive changes and forgive me.
I hope that we can reopen dialogue and move to at least being friendly, if not friendships.
I do not want them to forget, I want them to remind me, if they see me going that way again. :LOL: :LOL: :LOL:

Thank God for my therapist and my support system.

As Sheriff Riggenbach and Chief Jones kept telling me...."Sean, you can't keep going around knocking people out and putting holds on them. One day it's gonna catch up to you".
 
It was hard to see my former hometown that way.

For the last 2 years...
Your strength in this is the most feel good thing on this whole positivity thread. It's awful that it had to happen in the context of a disaster, but that's how life is too often.

Is writing here part of your therapy? I could see it as a way to work things out that are going on in your head without falling back on those crutches. If so, I hope you can channel that into some really meaningful stories, if that's how you want to go. Otherwise, if it's about putting those things aside for a while and looking at better things in life, I hope that works for you.

I'd wish you good luck, but it sounds like you are not relying on luck. All the better. I wish you continued success, and best wishes to the people in your home town.
 
Your strength in this is the most feel good thing on this whole positivity thread. It's awful that it had to happen in the context of a disaster, but that's how life is too often.
Thank you.
Is writing here part of your therapy?
My stories that I publish here are not part of therapy for me. I've always loved writing. Got A+ in Creative Writing all through HS.
I do keep a journal though, but that's not for here. :LOL: :LOL: :LOL:
I could see it as a way to work things out that are going on in your head without falling back on those crutches. If so, I hope you can channel that into some really meaningful stories, if that's how you want to go. Otherwise, if it's about putting those things aside for a while and looking at better things in life, I hope that works for you.

I'd wish you good luck, but it sounds like you are not relying on luck. All the better. I wish you continued success, and best wishes to the people in your home town.
There is always a small bit of luck.
I do have an incredible support system around me, that I didn't expect that I'd have when I got out of the hospital.
I'm hoping that I can make amends of sorts on here and make friends.

I try not to go out too much right now, unless it's for work or an emergency call.
I wanna keep making sure, that I'm working on my breathing and reading.
 
I've been working almost non-stop for more than three months. 70 hours a week since Boxing Day. Yesterday I finished, now I have a few days to recover and then the redhead and I are going on holiday for a week. Plenty of work lined up for when I get back too.

This morning I sent out my invoices for the past month. This afternoon I went for half an hour's nap and I was out cold for two hours. And then England beat Wales at the rugby, which is always fun.

Today has been a good day. Maybe I'll do some writing tonight.
 
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