Phoenix Stone
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Re: bb...
As you've probably figured out by now, my fantasies are at the nc edge -- ok, over the edge, so this post speaks to me. And yeah, much of it is probably that objectification thing. In r/l though, I've stayed so vanilla in my consensual life that it's really hard to tell how far I could or would go. Especially with neither pain nor bondage being primary motivators or interests. And, too, I don't know what side of it I'd be on, or if I just be voyeur, since I'm still not in my fantasies. (Btw, to follow up on an earlier post, I tried a taboo betrayal fantasy, and it worked pretty well. More clues to follow.)
Gangrape is one of the fantasies I use. Again it's a movie, with vague other people. That threat thing is interesting. Wonder if my dh would give that a go?
Btw, I've found it's better to admit those darker things early on, just because it's easier before you feel you know people. Try the search function and see if threads have covered it already, for starters. It can be reassuring to see there are others who've likely already discussed whatever it is.
Technodivinitas said:Is it the objectivization of that which brings the hot tinglies? That's how it works for me. I saw an image once of a Dom leaning against a wall, leafing through a magazine, his sub on her knees with her face stuffed, and he's got one boot tucked on toe across the other as if she's not even there. You might not consider that humiliation, but that's precisely the trigger it trips in me.
bb's post brought something to my mind that only slightly relates. (Completely on-topic, though.)
Those who've said they dig the raunch & humiliation, OR that it turns them on but also freaks them out, etc... Do you fantasize about much much deeper shames and depths than you believe that you could handle in R/l, or things that while you might be able to handle them, they'd harm you too much, physically?
The one that's dancing gruesomely at the edge of my mind, for example, is the nc gangbang, or as the bikers put it, pulling a train. It's wretched and loathesome, but my brain just goes there, whether I want it to or not. (Lots of stuff in my head that I sometimes wish wasn't, but it makes me virtually unshockable, so that's a plus, I guess)
My Master keeps an eye on my smutfiles for my latest deep deviations, and uses them against me (happily) by applying them as threats, or simply suggesting he might take me there. The scariest thing about that of course, is that when he says he might take me to those dark places, I honestly believe that I'd let him! (Stuff that I'd be hard pressed to admit even in this open a sounding board...)
As you've probably figured out by now, my fantasies are at the nc edge -- ok, over the edge, so this post speaks to me. And yeah, much of it is probably that objectification thing. In r/l though, I've stayed so vanilla in my consensual life that it's really hard to tell how far I could or would go. Especially with neither pain nor bondage being primary motivators or interests. And, too, I don't know what side of it I'd be on, or if I just be voyeur, since I'm still not in my fantasies. (Btw, to follow up on an earlier post, I tried a taboo betrayal fantasy, and it worked pretty well. More clues to follow.)
Gangrape is one of the fantasies I use. Again it's a movie, with vague other people. That threat thing is interesting. Wonder if my dh would give that a go?
Btw, I've found it's better to admit those darker things early on, just because it's easier before you feel you know people. Try the search function and see if threads have covered it already, for starters. It can be reassuring to see there are others who've likely already discussed whatever it is.
