Hisownprecious
Really Really Experienced
- Joined
- May 6, 2004
- Posts
- 426
small warning:this is me. Your views may be diametrically opposed, and i respect that. Just now i am in an on-line relationship. There is, though, the promise of meeting IRL. Soon.
i have a fairly distorted self image and being with Him in words alone has really been helping feel comfortable with Him. In my experience, people who know me in person tend not to like me much. But i have always had confidence in my words, in my mind, in my heart, if nothing else about me. You come to me, get to know me, get to know my mind first. i know that should that promise come to pass, i will feel so much more easy with Him than if W/we had already met. Than if W/we had met without spending this time OL.
If there wasn't that promise of real time interaction....it wouldn't be close to enough. i happen to thoroughly enjoy a good pain, now and then, but i am also a bit of a baby when it comes down to it. It's near impossible for me to expand my limits of tolerance by my own hand. To be perfectly honest, there is so much lacking this way. How can i serve properly with Him so far away? How can i be there for Him in the ways that He and i would both like if i am not with Him, physically? If i am not on my knees before Him, there is just something missing, for me. Without His arms around me laying in the aftermath...how can i feel complete in my submission? Without seeing the joy in His eyes when i serve Him...without His gentle kiss on my forehead...
A long time ago i was with someone who had Dominant tendencies. He was about as close to a DOM as One could get without being One, imvho. So, while not knowing real time interaction with an admitted and aware DOM, i believe i have had a taste. i look back at that time, imagining it without meeting...it just wouldn't have been enough.
Ack! i don't know what i'm trying to say. i voted that i am a submissive, of course, and it would not be enough. Maybe i fudged the results because i haven't had real time interaction.
Sorry, for that...You can aways fiddle with the count to reflect me being insolent and answering you anyway.
Of course with anything, imvho, it's all in how you live your life. What works for one may not work for another. The old adage, 'to each their own', comes to mind. joanna
). But after we met in real life, and I went back home to arrange things to move to be with Him (which took 6 long weeks) we did not play online at all.....we preferred to wait to be together skin to skin for that. It would have been very unsatisfying to us both.
