Graduation!

tthhppttt!

Filthy prior Texan now left coast wacko Californian hijackers.


of course, my home of homes will always be Carolina.


cue fiddles



-B
 
Oh, so you really are from Cali?

Goddamnit I hate being so fucking paranoid.
 
No, I was born in Texas -- Ft. Worth --- raised in Texas (Dalls) and North Carolina (all over the damn place) then moved to California in '87. I lived in Sacramento for about 6 years and the rest of it has been here in LA --- a city that I'm determined to escape although it probably won't be for another year.
 
What's your beef with LA? I got a good friend out there and was considering checking it out myself.
 
There are some really great things about LA but the things that aren't great have really started to get to me and then the things that aren't great but that I've gotten used to REALLY get to me.

On the plus side,

-You never have to change your plans because of the weather. I haven't owned a coat in 8 years.

-The ocean, mountains, desert and big city are all close. You can get to any within two and a half hours.

-Lots of stuff to do to keep busy -- movies of course, but lots of live music, art, clubs, restaurants etc.

- Did I mention the weather?

On the down side:

- You have to drive everywhere and the traffic is a pain in the ass. We have very few neighborhoods where you can just walk to stuff and public transit here is a joke.

- Life can be verrrry artificial as everyone runs around trying to be somebody or at least look like they are somebody. It's freaky and flaky and damn irritating a lot of the time.

- Very few places to just sit around and "be" --- we lack coffee houses and real sidewalk cafes and decent parks.

- The weather gets really boring and then there's always the smog if you have to live or work in the Valley which I unfortunately do both since last November when I had to give up my apartment on the West Side.


All in all it's a great place for some people and not for others. About half the people who live here are constantly talking about how they have to get out of LA but most of them will be saying that very same thing 10 or 20 years from now. They can have it engraved on their burial plaques.

LA's actually been pretty decent to me, but I'm not doing anything here that I couldn't do elsewhere and the day to day hassle of much of the life here just depresses the crap out of me. I do have family here in town, though, and that will be hard to leave --- a younger brother and his wife who are getting ready to have a baby.

I have friends and a history here, but I've had that other places and survived leaving. At this point I just feel like it takes too much energy simply to "maintain" in my life here. I'd like to be able to shed a bunch of this crap and maybe find a little more purpose in my life.

Like what do I want to be when I grow up?

-B
 
Doesn't sound tooo bad. Oh well, I'm back in the NY, and I'm not sure if I liked DC better. I'll probably only be here for a couple weeks then I want to get an apartment in South Florida. At my age, I figure as long as I have the air in my lungs and the hardness in my dick I'll be ok wherever I end up.
 
At my age, I figure as long as I have the air in my lungs and the hardness in my dick I'll be ok wherever I end up.

An excellent philosophy to live by and likely right.


I haven't spent much time in either NYC or DC but have enjoyed visits to both. I've got family in DC and some friends. Two of my best friends used to live in NY but both have moved back to Cali in the last couple of years.

I haven't been to Florida since I was a child so I don't have much of an impression of it but my last roommate lived in Orlando for several years and seemed to like it with the exception of a truly icky relationship.

A friend has been trying to persuade me to move to DC for the last 18 months but I really don't know what I'd do there. I have a history of just moving to move when I get restless and have been trying to curb myself of that impulse. It doesn't really solve anything except the scenery but the challenge of starting over appeals to me when I get apathetic with whatever my current status is.
 
I know a lot of people with that problem. My mother had it in a major way.
 
bridgeburner said:
. I have a history of just moving to move when I get restless and have been trying to curb myself of that impulse. It doesn't really solve anything except the scenery but the challenge of starting over appeals to me when I get apathetic with whatever my current status is.

Then you have those of us who never go anywhere because we know that "whereever I am is Hell/ Nor am I out of it" ( Christopher Marlowe Faustus )
 
I haven't been too erratic about it --- move from one parent to the other in highschool, move from NC to LA at graduation, two years here before heading north to Sacramento where I stayed for 6 years. I've been here for 8 now and 7 of them were in the same apartment. A bit scrambly over the past year because of landlords from hell and now a roommate from one of the outer circles. Hoping that's getting ready to change as I sit by the phone and wait to hear from the guy who showed me an apartment on Saturday.

Of all those moves, however, only the one to go north wasn't even partially about escape.

The plan right now is to move back to NC --- different town than where I went to highschool. I bought a shack there last year but it'll be about a year before the restoration is done. Owning a house makes me feel good (you would laugh your asses off and have me committed if you could actually see this place, the inside of it looks like Jame Gumb's basement). It's the idea that I can't be terrorized out of it or kicked out on a whim because it doesn't belong to me that most appeals.
 
Marquis said:
Filthy Texan hijackers!

Hey, ya leave for too long, and the subbies Will get to chatting....

Deep Texan on one side, second generation native Californicator on the other -- which makes me unusual around the Bay Area where everyone seems to be from somewhere else these days. I've been and come back twice. Nowhere else to go once you get to the ocean. (Went to Europe once and Wow! It was like I could breathe. They let me off the continent! Also, never thought it would happen but I Love Paris. Everyone looked liked me, had my body language, etc. The only other place that had a missing piece that fit like that was Texas. They like to shoot straight and bullshit in the same ways I do. They don't DO sarcasm in Cali.)
Every February I get this wanderlust thing. It helps to go to the ocean and just stare.
 
I wonder if the editors of whatever newspaper John Nash was reading ever intentionally put codes in the sentences, knowing he had a sensitivity to such things. I guess from their end it would've seemed hilarious, especially if they never got to see the shock therapy he went through.
 
catalina_francisco said:
If you are looking to read anything on actual people who have been through bipolar and lithium, the actress Patty Duke wrote a great book, "Call Me Anna" about her own experiences with both.

Catalina :rose:

Thanks, I actually just started reading An Unquiet Mind, which is supposed to offer some good insight on the thing.

I'm beginning to wonder if I want to continue my meds. Not feeling like I want to die is nice, but I definitely miss feeling like I am God.
 
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