Heartbreak Hotel

[windycityman]

Re: games

You are a very smart woman, game playing is bullshit ive set 21 years playing a game that you can't win ,tired of the lies no
trust and bitching all the time.
None of us need it well old two dogs has got his belly full of it .
She has got me to where i don't even like myself.
I've set here like a stupid ediot wasted 20 years of my life think it will get better ,well let me tell you something no more i don't have a lot of years left , i'm going to be happy if it kills me .
My whole life i have always done what everybody else wanted no more game playing is over .
Anyway sorry this is twice i have vented but ive had it ,i won't give up but i'm about give out .
I may back out for yhe night i have so much fun with y'all but i don't know tonight, have fun

Twodogs I can relate.......I did the same thing for 13 years but now its my time to do the things that make me happy...<grin> I think you know what I mean....sorry to hear about yours but venting is good.....you have a friend here anytime bud.....just holler..... I do thank you for the warm welcome you have given me here too thanks!!!!!!


WCM

 

[mayi]

twodogs

vent.........please, let it out, that is why the hotel is here......tell me

tell me where i can help you......please, i want to help you

mayi

 

[twodogs]

there is nothing to be done ,i just fooling myself well no more .
y'all got your life pertty much in order now and that's super, when i came in a lot were in a mess but much better now .
I spent all afternoon going to ever post on every thread and read. on the most part there has been at least 60% improvement in there life.
the other 40% i don't know it has not came together for them but bless there heart they are working hard at it and i think they will make it if they don't give up .
So many have so many friends there is no way they will never have to worry they get knocked down and in no time they got them back up and off they go to find a new and thats ok thats what its about.
I'm in a different mess than y'all i hate the mess but it's my fault on mine ,y'all are unhappy with what you got but can live with it mine has turned to hate and mostly toward myself,for cheating myself of happines cause of there fealings i done it for them i got nothing out of it .
so here we are at a stand off to old , what i'm trying to say is this y'all have got a chance don't sit in something the rest of your life for them or think you will be happy some day it's to late for me but not you .
bless her heart i went to my mom with this about 6 mo ago and told her how i felt and she said son you will just have to ride it out it's to late to worry about it know .
For god sake people don't just go through the motions life is to short anyway to go through unhappy.
Now i got 3 thread i have vented on i will say no more about it
. been two real bad days down to the point you gooff and have a good cry it does'nt help what a waste of life lookaround you see if this is what i want .
thank you for the ear now i will go back to the real world

 

[Ebonyfire]

I can empathize

I was laid off in 1998. At one point i had three part-time jobs. I was not doing relaly well, but I survived I tanked my pension and my 401K to keep my house, cause I gotta have a roof over de chillin's heads!

I am now in 2002 just coming out from under the dust, but you know what, I just say it is all just "stuff". I have my health, and my beloved (now); I took a detour or rest stop at the Heartbreak hotel, and even that did not break my stride.

I always knew that the bad things that happened were just speed bumps in the parking lot of life!

Ebony

WHOHOOOO to Ebony!!!

Ahhhh, Mayi. When I have a job again (hopefully soon!) it will be hard to not be here as much as I am now.

HOw long were you inbetween? Right now I am approaching 10 months. God, I never would have thought I would go that long! But I have learned how to let go of some things. And most importantally that I am going to put myself before any job. Not totally due to work, but strongly due to it I now have 1 failed marriage and another live in now gone. I always had to work more to make more money so we could be happy... Cousrse I never thought we had enough money... so I would more to make more... GOd its a viscous circle.

 

[Ebonyfire]

Re: Re: Rent out my room!!!

Thanks for all the good wishes! "He who shall not be named" is lurking somehwere on Lit and he has made all the difference! I hope everyone gets to be as happy as I am!

Ebony

Great to hear, Ebony!! You already know I love to hear "love stories" with a happy ending!

 

[llee69]

llee, I am doing well. It's been a bad couple of weeks.

My reason for staying here is quite varried. but I chose the heartbreak hotel because of my last other-love.

He was wanting a relationship, but not wanting to put in the time. He wanted me to fall head over heels for him, while holding himself back. He could truly not open himself up, and the worse part is, he thought he was. Nothing I could say or do could convince him that he wasn't.

And so, I let him go, even though it broke my heart to do it. He didn't take well to it, as you might imagine, but I cannot play games. I won't allow myself to open up to someone that won't do the same for me.

And so, here I am.

Yes, that is a hard decision to make.Actually making it is easier then following through with it.

You are a strong woman to do it. My hats off to you honey!

 

[llee69]

there is nothing to be done ,i just fooling myself well no more .
y'all got your life pertty much in order now and that's super, when i came in a lot were in a mess but much better now .
I spent all afternoon going to ever post on every thread and read. on the most part there has been at least 60% improvement in there life.
the other 40% i don't know it has not came together for them but bless there heart they are working hard at it and i think they will make it if they don't give up .
So many have so many friends there is no way they will never have to worry they get knocked down and in no time they got them back up and off they go to find a new and thats ok thats what its about.
I'm in a different mess than y'all i hate the mess but it's my fault on mine ,y'all are unhappy with what you got but can live with it mine has turned to hate and mostly toward myself,for cheating myself of happines cause of there fealings i done it for them i got nothing out of it .
so here we are at a stand off to old , what i'm trying to say is this y'all have got a chance don't sit in something the rest of your life for them or think you will be happy some day it's to late for me but not you .
bless her heart i went to my mom with this about 6 mo ago and told her how i felt and she said son you will just have to ride it out it's to late to worry about it know .
For god sake people don't just go through the motions life is to short anyway to go through unhappy.
Now i got 3 thread i have vented on i will say no more about it
. been two real bad days down to the point you gooff and have a good cry it does'nt help what a waste of life lookaround you see if this is what i want .
thank you for the ear now i will go back to the real world

Hey TD, we can both get through it!

 

[llee69]

Re: Re: Re: Rent out my room!!!

"He who shall not be named"
Ebony

Potter head!

I am a Ravenclaw myself.

Or so the Sorting Hat said.

 

[pipercatt]

Yes, that is a hard decision to make.Actually making it is easier then following through with it.

You are a strong woman to do it. My hats off to you honey!

Oh, thank you, llee. The problem is, I am weak...I think I've got him to stop contacting me, but all I need is an email or phone call, and bam...in the soup again.

I need to be stronger...

 

[mayi]

PI

we are here for you.........we can help you be strong.
i was just there not more then two weeks ago........time will help you through it.

mayi

 

[mayi]

good

i like it when the hotel is not getting any business.............

mayi

 

[twodogs]

llee69

Just stoped in to see if everybody is ok , i was coming back but there is no need for two dogs to come back ,but i will be here for anybody got a good shoulder and i don't bite.
moved back to hooiser where i belong take care it will work out for you there is someone for you out there just don't jump it's a long hard fall sometimes ,be good , now where are thoes toys

 

[mayi]

bye twodogs

i hope you come back and offern advice when you can.

mayi

 

[llee69]

Oh, thank you, llee. The problem is, I am weak...I think I've got him to stop contacting me, but all I need is an email or phone call, and bam...in the soup again.

I need to be stronger...

OH man.

I used to be, then after repeatedlly having my heart run through a blender turned on Tornado by the same woman a few times I hardened myself. Course, now I need to let the walls down from time to time....

 

[twodogs]

walls

My old dad told me to keep everybody at arms length and you won't get hurt , good advice but what he did'nt tell me how lonely it get's
But your right someone can do a job on from time to time.
As i use to say i can stand them walking on me but when they stop and wipe there feet well that's to much .
Boy life is so much fun and enjoyable is'nt it .

 

[mayi]

llee

through all the pain we learn what we are made of.........right now it does not seem fair, but in time you will understand.

you are a good person, YOU just need to see it.

mayi

 

[pipercatt]

OH man.

I used to be, then after repeatedlly having my heart run through a blender turned on Tornado by the same woman a few times I hardened myself. Course, now I need to let the walls down from time to time....

I thought I was out of the woods until yesterday afternoon when the dude in question decided he "wasn't going down without a fight." Sigh...he apparently thought that we had a lot of chemistry, I thought so too at first. But what it really was was an unhealthy dose of lust at first site. On my part anyway.

So far, I have not caved, but it's getting really hard to keep it up.

Sorry for venting, I am sure I sound like a huge bitch to you all...

ah well.

 

[twodogs]

pipercatt

Hang tight girl if that's what you realy want, like i have said before there is a very thin line between love and lust .
Life is to short for lip service, love for someone is very hard to deal with , sometimes you have to look at it from both sides cause the other can't see it.
If it's over well it's over .and that's what you want hang tight ,you can do this good luck

 

[mayi]

Pi

lust is great as long as it stays lust, but when it goes over to love then you have a problem...........was it lust?

if it was lust and not love then you can let go, but if you are questioning it then maybe it was more then lust?

think about it Pi........you might be suprised.

mayi

 

[pipercatt]

Re: Pi

lust is great as long as it stays lust, but when it goes over to love then you have a problem...........was it lust?

if it was lust and not love then you can let go, but if you are questioning it then maybe it was more then lust?

think about it Pi........you might be suprised.

mayi

I thought there could be more, Mayi. He was certainly encouraging it. But he wasn't willing to give back. That's what I have a problem with. He wanted to hear all the sweet words from me, wanted the attentions I was giving him, sexually and non, but he wasn't returning the favor.

He wants someone to whom he could go to with his problems, fears, and be cheered up, made happy, and go on his merry way. I have no problem with that, except it got excessive - He was never happy - and too self-centered to offer the same thing in return. He didn't want to please me as he asked me to please him.

Of course he's not going to go down without a fight, I fed all his needs and didn't force him to give of himself. Silly me, to expect a return of the favor without having to ask for it.

I'm done...I am tired, and I just want him to go away.

 

[mayi]

Pi

then you are in for a long hard fight.........stand strong hun, because he will try to win you back..........if you need to vent come here and do it, we will be your friends through this.........hug hun..........i am cheering for you

mayi

 

[twodogs]

mayi

Your right young lady when it crosses you got a problem.
You can't cary lust in to love they don't mix well all they do is confuse people and cause problems ,
In todays world love takes the back seat and lust is running wild nobody want's to stop and smell the rose they want it because it look good.
I'm glad my time is about over it's so san to see so many unhappy people what a waste

 

[llee69]

I thought I was out of the woods until yesterday afternoon when the dude in question decided he "wasn't going down without a fight." Sigh...he apparently thought that we had a lot of chemistry, I thought so too at first. But what it really was was an unhealthy dose of lust at first site. On my part anyway.

So far, I have not caved, but it's getting really hard to keep it up.

Sorry for venting, I am sure I sound like a huge bitch to you all...

ah well.

No you dont sound like a bitch to me! Silly!

Be strong, keep telling him to f*ck off and that you are tired of his games! (or if its an online person, just hit the delete button, dont even open it)

You can do it, I know you can!

 

[llee69]

Re: Re: Pi

I thought there could be more, Mayi. He was certainly encouraging it. But he wasn't willing to give back. That's what I have a problem with. He wanted to hear all the sweet words from me, wanted the attentions I was giving him, sexually and non, but he wasn't returning the favor.

He wants someone to whom he could go to with his problems, fears, and be cheered up, made happy, and go on his merry way. I have no problem with that, except it got excessive - He was never happy - and too self-centered to offer the same thing in return. He didn't want to please me as he asked me to please him.

Of course he's not going to go down without a fight, I fed all his needs and didn't force him to give of himself. Silly me, to expect a return of the favor without having to ask for it.

I'm done...I am tired, and I just want him to go away.

Hmmm, if you want I will drive to you, then we can go find him. I will tell him to bug off in my most serious way. I will let him know he is not welcome around you at all.

Then we can to off arm in arm. while you flip him off!

Well that could be one way to do it anyway!

 

[pipercatt]

Aww...llee. You've made me all verklempt. Thank you, sweetness...

I think we can take him on...I can splat 'em with the best of 'em.

Thank you again.