~ Honey's Blanket Fort Of Bliss 2 ~

[elli1point1]

*crawls in*

apparently, today is the day all my conference planning falls apart. and, on top of that, my annoying co-organiser has been particularly annoying. whatever gave him the impression this was a democratically organised co-operation? I'm the fucking boss here.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

*crawls in*

apparently, today is the day all my conference planning falls apart. and, on top of that, my annoying co-organiser has been particularly annoying. whatever gave him the impression this was a democratically organised co-operation? I'm the fucking boss here.

Give me his number, I'll set him straight.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

Hmmm, girl talk time. Men, look away please and thank you.

Ok ladies, when you feel insecure do you find yourself acting irrational? Where things that should make you feel better but don't and you know your crazy is showing but you can't really stop it and then you just make things worse? How do you get out of your own head when you are overthinking everything?

Distraction and self-care. Find something else to focus on to give your mind and emotions a break. - A book, a movie, a new creative project, a visit with a friend. Sometimes just getting time and space away from the problem is enough to give us a new perspective. Self-care and routine will help keep you moving through the day even when you're struggling.

((softly squeezes Tinky))

 

[barefootgirl69]

Hmmm, girl talk time. Men, look away please and thank you.

Ok ladies, when you feel insecure do you find yourself acting irrational? Where things that should make you feel better just don't and you know your crazy is showing but you can't really stop it and then you just make things worse? How do you get out of your own head when you are overthinking everything?

 

[elli1point1]

Give me his number, I'll set him straight.

trying to get masher to get rid of him for me in exchange for biscuits.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

trying to get masher to get rid of him for me in exchange for biscuits.

Good trade!

Make sure he rolls his sleeve up so the idiot can see Tater's scary Viking tat.

 

[elli1point1]

Hmmm, girl talk time. Men, look away please and thank you.

Ok ladies, when you feel insecure do you find yourself acting irrational? Where things that should make you feel better just don't and you know your crazy is showing but you can't really stop it and then you just make things worse? How do you get out of your own head when you are overthinking everything?

yep. i just try not to let myself go further down that path as best as I can, but it's tough. usually, the feeling just goes away eventually.

 

[elli1point1]

Good trade!

Make sure he rolls his sleeve up so the idiot can see Tater's scary Viking tat.

I told him. Not sure the idiot will live long enough for fear to register, though. You know how stealthy masher can be.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

I told him. Not sure the idiot will live long enough for fear to register, though. You know how stealthy masher can be.

Hehehehehe

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

grumpy
grumpy
grumpy


*slides under ALL the pillows with my fuzzy blanket and refuses to think about anything but the soft ticking of the clock*

 

[elli1point1]

grumpy
grumpy
grumpy


*slides under ALL the pillows with my fuzzy blanket and refuses to think about anything but the soft ticking of the clock*

I read 'cock'.

 

[lillianaZ]

I read 'cock'.

Ditto.
I sat here for a few seconds wondering what a "ticking cock" sounds like.

 

[elli1point1]

Ditto.
I sat here for a few seconds wondering what a "ticking cock" sounds like.

I'm more curious as to what it might feel like

 

[lillianaZ]

I'm more curious as to what it might feel like

Bwaahaahaa...now that's an excellent point!

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

If I had access to a ticking cock I wouldn't need to be diving under these pillows.

 

[elli1point1]

If I had access to a ticking cock I wouldn't need to be diving under these pillows.

if it ticks, does it go off as well?

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

if it ticks, does it go off as well?

It had damn well better.

 

[bluekitty69]

Hmmm, girl talk time. Men, look away please and thank you.

Ok ladies, when you feel insecure do you find yourself acting irrational? Where things that should make you feel better just don't and you know your crazy is showing but you can't really stop it and then you just make things worse? How do you get out of your own head when you are overthinking everything?

When I get insecure and feel overwhelmed, I get defensive and angry, I tend to take it out on other people.

I try to just walk away but thats not always a option.
It's something I need to work on.

 

[LostGirlTink]

Oh, Tink, I'm so sorry. I have the same problem. I am a chronic overthinker and worrier. When I get insecure, I don't know what to do and I panic and make everything worse. Then I can't sleep and that doubles down on the "worse." It's vicious. My best thing has been to reach out and talk to someone about it. That doesn't "fix" it, but it can help me get a little perspective in a situation where I feel powerless.

Yeah I need to do this next time. Girl talk might help me get my head in order but I tend to hide when I'm a mess. I'll add that to my "things to work on this year" list.

Distraction and self-care. Find something else to focus on to give your mind and emotions a break. - A book, a movie, a new creative project, a visit with a friend. Sometimes just getting time and space away from the problem is enough to give us a new perspective. Self-care and routine will help keep you moving through the day even when you're struggling.

((softly squeezes Tinky))

*hugs* Thanks. I forced myself to sleep and read a book to get out of my head. It helped, not as much as I would have liked but it helped.

Tink! I'm a little late but I can certainly relate. I think I just made this mistake today, and I hope it doesn't cost me one of the few people that bring me happiness. I let the way one person treats me affect my view on all relationships, and I know thats not fair. I wish there was an 'undo' button on emails.

Message me sweets. I know exactly what you mean.

When I get insecure and feel overwhelmed, I get defensive and angry, I tend to take it out on other people.

I try to just walk away but thats not always a option.
It's something I need to work on.

Yeah, me too. I get reactionary and my temper flares and I try to deflect it and it doesn't always work and then that just compounds things.
Funny how that works right?

Things are better now though. I just need to keep my perspectives and not let my brain tell me lies. I once saw a quote that I almost considered for a tattoo (I've never gotten one because I could never find anything that I wanted to make a part of myself permanently)
It said
Do not believe the things you tell yourself when you are sad and alone.

I decided against the tattoo but I think I might need to print that out and place it in some strategic places for myself.

Thank you all for the love and virtual snuggles with this. It means a lot.

 

[elli1point1]

Reads perfectly, though I'll bet you would be a lot less grumpy

yes, as we all know: a cock a day keeps the grumpiness away!


went to see my doc earlier; she upped my meds and suggested cbt. I suppose I might as well give it a go, since it's free therapy.

 

[elli1point1]

CBT
Cognitive behavioral therapy
Cock and ball torture

EMDR
Eye movement desensitization reprocessing

yeah, I'm not into ctb.

how does emdr work and what is it used for?

 

[elli1point1]

Long ago it was suggested that I try an excercises where I imagine my depression to be it's own entity. Like a big dog that sits on your chest. You're supposed to give it a name and befriend it. And then take charge of it.

It did not go well.

My personal demon was a Mistress who would not have me. She hated me. She was me. She resented the act of imagining her. Most of all she hated any association with my physical body.

Crediting her with my self loathing back then was too much. It got worse and worse, and I had to go about banisheing her and owning all those thoughts emotions for myself. She WAS me.

There was no innner demon, I just hated myself.

Years later I'm giving that another try.

This time I've been a lot more successful in taking charge of her. She has been stripped of silly titles and spends a lot of time with her petulant nose in a hypothetical corner.

"Befriending the demon" I've realized means going out of my way to imagine her *not* hating me.... which for me has worked by fleshing her out to imagine her with new facets.
So if she's good we'll peruse porn together & she gets to fancy herself as a rope bunny.

that's a very weird story
also, my brain is going fuzzy now.

 

[elli1point1]

I'm sorry to make your brain fuzzy.

it's not you, it's the meds.

 

[elli1point1]

Oh. Well then.... Congratulations on having meds that work?
Or condolences for the side effects ?

Both?

Ugh.... I edit compulsively Lol

Having been quoted, the edits don't really stick, because anyone can see what I wrote before the compulsion finished having it's way with me.

Which is probably for the better anyway

i don understand half of that. blameit on the meds. also, I can't type.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

I'm here. What now?