I’m a mature confused straight woman

[JCSTREET]

Why post like you know me, or anything (at all) about me or my experience?

Why do dudes like you always pretend have more experience? Is it really that small?

I’ve probably had more women than you lol

I'm sure you have. The shorter the relationship the greater the number.

 

[Lingerie_Dreams]

I'm 64 years old, married for 42 years and I need some answers. I am a very conservative, modest, and pretty private woman. I'm a little overweight, probably by about 20 pounds or so. I really enjoy sex and I have only been with one man my entire life, my husband. We were high school sweethearts. We have great sex even after all this time. We always laugh and ask each other how it can still be this good after all this time, but it is! My husband and I love to masturbate for each other, I love to suck him, and he loves to eat me. We really do make each other happy. I have 2 vibrators; 2 different sized dildo's and we use them all. I still fuck my husband in at least 6 or 8 different positions, but when he's eating me, or fingering me, my mind pretends it's another woman. Is that wrong?

My question is this, why is it when we watch porn, (we usually watch either threesomes, Masturbation compilations, or lesbian videos) do I find myself watching the women more than the men. I always picture myself in a threesome, but with another woman, not another man. Also, when we watch masturbation videos, I love to see the women playing with themselves more than the men, but my favorite is a hot lesbian video. I never admitted this to my husband, but I can't take my eyes off the screen when it's a woman, or a woman on a woman. Like I said in the beginning, I'm a very conservative and pretty modest woman.

Am I alone in this or are there more women who hide this feeling? My ideal situation would be to be in bed with my husband and another woman, and have him tell us what to do, because I know it would involve a lot of pussy eating and playing with each other's pussy's. I would also love to watch my husband fuck another woman from behind while she was eating me out. I would get the benefit of having my pussy eaten while watching him put his cock in another woman. The other thing I love is a woman with small perky tits, I would love to feel her up and suck on her little nipples.

Another thing I would love, would be to be present in a room while two women were having sex. I would just sit in a very comfortable chair, turn on my vibrator and play while watching them go at it.

I would also love to be the one calling the shots, have them do whatever I wanted to see. I think I would start off by having them sit side by side and masturbate for me. When I was satisfied, I would have them give each other a sensual massage, but only the front. At that point I probably would have had about ten orgasms, but I still wouldn't be satisfied and would need to see them go down on each other. I would be the one to decide who was better. I just love a womans body, including my own, that why I masturbate a lot.

I'm afraid that if I ever brought this up to my husband, he might feel like he's not getting the job done, but believe me, he does. I know he would love to watch me with another woman, but if I ever did give in to these feelings, I think I would have to be alone with her. I would need to completely explore my feelings, before I could have him with me. I'm not sure if it would be another woman similar in age and size to me who has the same conservative feelings that I do, or one of those wild young hotties who would be open to teaching me.

I'm totally conflicted about my feelings. it's not something I would ever be able to discuss with anyone that I know, but I do feel the need to talk about it. I have never had the chance to be with another woman, but if I ever did, I'm not sure what I would do. I would like to hear any thoughts from women who feel like me, assuming there are any out there. Also, if any have actually acted on their feelings at an older age. Please no men, this is an issue for another older woman. feel free to email me or leave a comment... This is a true story or maybe just a hopeful thought, but either way, I'm a confused Straight older woman.

I think we all have fantasies, I have ever since I was quite young. I have always felt I had a fem side, but only ever confided in a few people over the years . I’m also married and have a great family, my fear of upsetting that perfect life stops me from acting out my fantasies and desires for real ( yes boring I know), but a fantasy never disappoints, masturbation and porn give me what I need safely and no one gets hurt, and I don’t end up with an STD that I pass on to my wife . I hope whatever you decide to do is good for you all x

 

[stranger244]

Hi. Senior man here. Your post is very sensitive.
You seem to be caught in a struggle with your values, love and loyalty to your husband, and your urge to explore your fantasies. Detour. When you were 20, did you ever imagine that you would still be horny at 64?.
I admire your need to keep this thought inside your marriage. Many of us don't.
It's difficult to predict how your husband would react to your proposal to make love to another woman. He might like to watch, to join you, or divorce you. I was with a man 6 wees ago whose bi wife wants to watch me suck him off. So, anything is possible.
On the bright side: I bet there are many woman of all ages who would love to love a senior woman. There are many ways to reveal your desire online, in a coffee shop, or thru a subtle post to craigslist. Slow down and let her come to you.
Happy hunting

 

[girlsmiley]

I'm sure you have. The shorter the relationship the greater the number.

That’s the thing. You’re not sure at all. How could you be sure? About anyone you’ve never met?

Do yourself a favour and don’t act like you know. It’s annoying as hell and screams mediocre man

 

[Escierto]

Bullshit. One doesn't change sexual orientation due to images presented to them. It doesn't matter how sexual or sexy a woman is in a picture or a photo, if one is not attracted to women.

And men don't need to be sexualised when one is attracted to them.

Exactly right. You could show me pics of naked guys with erections and all you are going to do is make me nauseous. I think men are disgusting in general and naked men are particularly disgusting.

 

[Prasa]

Cool. Just let the cat out of bag.

 

[Gory]

Exactly right. You could show me pics of naked guys with erections and all you are going to do is make me nauseous. I think men are disgusting in general and naked men are particularly disgusting.

Sorry to hear that ,you must not have a Man put you on the Top of his list and Treat you like a Queen that you Are. I always want my lover Enjoy sex to the Fullest before I ever think of Cuming. That’s way you hate Men. Well I hope someday a man can treat you like a Queen.

 

[Escierto]

Sorry to hear that ,you must not have a Man put you on the Top of his list and Treat you like a Queen that you Are. I always want my lover Enjoy sex to the Fullest before I ever think of Cuming. That’s way you hate Men. Well I hope someday a man can treat you like a Queen.

Actually my girlfriend treats me like a king so that works for me!

 

[Riley69]

My first wife was four years older than me and I was twenty-three when we got married. We watched porn together off and on and she made a big production of not wanting to watch the "girl on girl" scenes. However, I noticed she seemed to be going through the motions, like she really DID want to watch them, just didn't want me to know it. We actually started swapping with another couple, which happened to be her best friend and hubby. My wife had known them both in high school and we actually got into the swapping thing by watching porn together as a group. It was a slow process, but we eventually started having sex together so she had a taste of "girl on girl" sex at times. I could tell she loved it, even though she would say she was just doing it to be a part of the group. Time passed and we eventually got divorced and she moved to a different state. We stayed in contact off and on over the years and she finally admitted she was attracted to women and always had been. (I had known that for a LONG time anyway!) She had tried having sex with a couple of different women but she said it really didn't seem to click. However, she was starting to see another woman and wanted to make it enjoyable for both of them and wanted my input. I told her to remember when we were first married and how we communicated while we had sex. I told her at the beginning to always be open about when she wanted me to do, where to touch her, how to touch her, just to have some feedback on what felt good and what didn't. I told her to do the same thing with her lady friend, just tell her you want to make her feel better than she ever has, and be sure to tell her what YOU want and are feeling. I used to suck on her clit like it was a little penis and it would drive her insane, so I suggested she give that a try if the situation presented itself and see how it goes. She was about forty-five at the time and she did let me know things went very well with them in the sex department, so hopefully my advice helped!

 

[Escierto]

My first wife was four years older than me and I was twenty-three when we got married. We watched porn together off and on and she made a big production of not wanting to watch the "girl on girl" scenes. However, I noticed she seemed to be going through the motions, like she really DID want to watch them, just didn't want me to know it. We actually started swapping with another couple, which happened to be her best friend and hubby. My wife had known them both in high school and we actually got into the swapping thing by watching porn together as a group. It was a slow process, but we eventually started having sex together so she had a taste of "girl on girl" sex at times. I could tell she loved it, even though she would say she was just doing it to be a part of the group. Time passed and we eventually got divorced and she moved to a different state. We stayed in contact off and on over the years and she finally admitted she was attracted to women and always had been. (I had known that for a LONG time anyway!) She had tried having sex with a couple of different women but she said it really didn't seem to click. However, she was starting to see another woman and wanted to make it enjoyable for both of them and wanted my input. I told her to remember when we were first married and how we communicated while we had sex. I told her at the beginning to always be open about when she wanted me to do, where to touch her, how to touch her, just to have some feedback on what felt good and what didn't. I told her to do the same thing with her lady friend, just tell her you want to make her feel better than she ever has, and be sure to tell her what YOU want and are feeling. I used to suck on her clit like it was a little penis and it would drive her insane, so I suggested she give that a try if the situation presented itself and see how it goes. She was about forty-five at the time and she did let me know things went very well with them in the sex department, so hopefully my advice helped!

What a good friend she has in you!

 

[stranger244]

Exactly right. You could show me pics of naked guys with erections and all you are going to do is make me nauseous. I think men are disgusting in general and naked men are particularly disgusting.

I ike cocks and pussy. I would love to try 3 way.

 

[JCSTREET]

I think we all have fantasies, I have ever since I was quite young. I have always felt I had a fem side, but only ever confided in a few people over the years . I’m also married and have a great family, my fear of upsetting that perfect life stops me from acting out my fantasies and desires for real ( yes boring I know), but a fantasy never disappoints, masturbation and porn give me what I need safely and no one gets hurt, and I don’t end up with an STD that I pass on to my wife . I hope whatever you decide to do is good for you all x

You sound gorgeously normal to me and your husband is a very lucky man. I realize you want to go beyond your current happy experiences and experiment. perhaps your husband will travel with you one careful step at a time. There's no happy formula for an instant sexual make-over, I fear. However, you write like a hot, intelligent, curious woman, so I suspect you will have some success in realizing your erotic dreams. One can't help wanting to see your picture, I might add. xoxo

 

[Thin59]

I'm 64 years old, married for 42 years and I need some answers. I am a very conservative, modest, and pretty private woman. I'm a little overweight, probably by about 20 pounds or so. I really enjoy sex and I have only been with one man my entire life, my husband. We were high school sweethearts. We have great sex even after all this time. We always laugh and ask each other how it can still be this good after all this time, but it is! My husband and I love to masturbate for each other, I love to suck him, and he loves to eat me. We really do make each other happy. I have 2 vibrators; 2 different sized dildo's and we use them all. I still fuck my husband in at least 6 or 8 different positions, but when he's eating me, or fingering me, my mind pretends it's another woman. Is that wrong?

My question is this, why is it when we watch porn, (we usually watch either threesomes, Masturbation compilations, or lesbian videos) do I find myself watching the women more than the men. I always picture myself in a threesome, but with another woman, not another man. Also, when we watch masturbation videos, I love to see the women playing with themselves more than the men, but my favorite is a hot lesbian video. I never admitted this to my husband, but I can't take my eyes off the screen when it's a woman, or a woman on a woman. Like I said in the beginning, I'm a very conservative and pretty modest woman.

Am I alone in this or are there more women who hide this feeling? My ideal situation would be to be in bed with my husband and another woman, and have him tell us what to do, because I know it would involve a lot of pussy eating and playing with each other's pussy's. I would also love to watch my husband fuck another woman from behind while she was eating me out. I would get the benefit of having my pussy eaten while watching him put his cock in another woman. The other thing I love is a woman with small perky tits, I would love to feel her up and suck on her little nipples.

Another thing I would love, would be to be present in a room while two women were having sex. I would just sit in a very comfortable chair, turn on my vibrator and play while watching them go at it.

I would also love to be the one calling the shots, have them do whatever I wanted to see. I think I would start off by having them sit side by side and masturbate for me. When I was satisfied, I would have them give each other a sensual massage, but only the front. At that point I probably would have had about ten orgasms, but I still wouldn't be satisfied and would need to see them go down on each other. I would be the one to decide who was better. I just love a womans body, including my own, that why I masturbate a lot.

I'm afraid that if I ever brought this up to my husband, he might feel like he's not getting the job done, but believe me, he does. I know he would love to watch me with another woman, but if I ever did give in to these feelings, I think I would have to be alone with her. I would need to completely explore my feelings, before I could have him with me. I'm not sure if it would be another woman similar in age and size to me who has the same conservative feelings that I do, or one of those wild young hotties who would be open to teaching me.

I'm totally conflicted about my feelings. it's not something I would ever be able to discuss with anyone that I know, but I do feel the need to talk about it. I have never had the chance to be with another woman, but if I ever did, I'm not sure what I would do. I would like to hear any thoughts from women who feel like me, assuming there are any out there. Also, if any have actually acted on their feelings at an older age. Please no men, this is an issue for another older woman. feel free to email me or leave a comment... This is a true story or maybe just a hopeful thought, but either way, I'm a confused Straight older woman.

HI, Im a straight, conservitive , Christian , veteran . I understand what you shared about being turned on by seeing pussy in the porn youve watched even though you loved sex with your husband. The visual is familiar, relateable.
I have been turned on watching cock in movies.

 

[Thin59]

HI, Im a straight, conservitive , Christian , veteran . I understand what you shared about being turned on by seeing pussy in the porn youve watched even though you loved sex with your husband. The visual is familiar, relateable.
I have been turned on watching cock in movies.

You get it right?

 

[petes478]

You get it right?

I get it. Sure.

 

[petes478]

I'm 64 years old, married for 42 years and I need some answers. I am a very conservative, modest, and pretty private woman. I'm a little overweight, probably by about 20 pounds or so. I really enjoy sex and I have only been with one man my entire life, my husband. We were high school sweethearts. We have great sex even after all this time. We always laugh and ask each other how it can still be this good after all this time, but it is! My husband and I love to masturbate for each other, I love to suck him, and he loves to eat me. We really do make each other happy. I have 2 vibrators; 2 different sized dildo's and we use them all. I still fuck my husband in at least 6 or 8 different positions, but when he's eating me, or fingering me, my mind pretends it's another woman. Is that wrong?

My question is this, why is it when we watch porn, (we usually watch either threesomes, Masturbation compilations, or lesbian videos) do I find myself watching the women more than the men. I always picture myself in a threesome, but with another woman, not another man. Also, when we watch masturbation videos, I love to see the women playing with themselves more than the men, but my favorite is a hot lesbian video. I never admitted this to my husband, but I can't take my eyes off the screen when it's a woman, or a woman on a woman. Like I said in the beginning, I'm a very conservative and pretty modest woman.

Am I alone in this or are there more women who hide this feeling? My ideal situation would be to be in bed with my husband and another woman, and have him tell us what to do, because I know it would involve a lot of pussy eating and playing with each other's pussy's. I would also love to watch my husband fuck another woman from behind while she was eating me out. I would get the benefit of having my pussy eaten while watching him put his cock in another woman. The other thing I love is a woman with small perky tits, I would love to feel her up and suck on her little nipples.

Another thing I would love, would be to be present in a room while two women were having sex. I would just sit in a very comfortable chair, turn on my vibrator and play while watching them go at it.

I would also love to be the one calling the shots, have them do whatever I wanted to see. I think I would start off by having them sit side by side and masturbate for me. When I was satisfied, I would have them give each other a sensual massage, but only the front. At that point I probably would have had about ten orgasms, but I still wouldn't be satisfied and would need to see them go down on each other. I would be the one to decide who was better. I just love a womans body, including my own, that why I masturbate a lot.

I'm afraid that if I ever brought this up to my husband, he might feel like he's not getting the job done, but believe me, he does. I know he would love to watch me with another woman, but if I ever did give in to these feelings, I think I would have to be alone with her. I would need to completely explore my feelings, before I could have him with me. I'm not sure if it would be another woman similar in age and size to me who has the same conservative feelings that I do, or one of those wild young hotties who would be open to teaching me.

I'm totally conflicted about my feelings. it's not something I would ever be able to discuss with anyone that I know, but I do feel the need to talk about it. I have never had the chance to be with another woman, but if I ever did, I'm not sure what I would do. I would like to hear any thoughts from women who feel like me, assuming there are any out there. Also, if any have actually acted on their feelings at an older age. Please no men, this is an issue for another older woman. feel free to email me or leave a comment... This is a true story or maybe just a hopeful thought, but either way, I'm a confused Straight older woman.

I understand.

I perform with lesbian bisexual women sometimes just me and 2 bisexual wives, sometimes one of the husbands watches.

 

[girlsmiley]

I understand.

I perform with lesbian bisexual women sometimes just me and 2 bisexual wives, sometimes one of the husbands watches.

I’m laughing so hard at lesbian bisexual. For fuck’s sake, bro

I’m also laughing at the bloke trying so hard to equate watching porn and being turned on by male on male porn - to a woman actually having a genuine sexual attraction to another woman. When I know for a goddamn fact that men get turned on by simply finding a 10mm socket

 

[Wolfman124]

I just read this thread out of boredom. I am so sorry to the original poster of the thread that so many men felt the need to weigh in on it. You stated in the original post, "Please no men." Sorry, dear.

 

[Friedfred]

I'm 64 years old, married for 42 years and I need some answers. I am a very conservative, modest, and pretty private woman. I'm a little overweight, probably by about 20 pounds or so. I really enjoy sex and I have only been with one man my entire life, my husband. We were high school sweethearts. We have great sex even after all this time. We always laugh and ask each other how it can still be this good after all this time, but it is! My husband and I love to masturbate for each other, I love to suck him, and he loves to eat me. We really do make each other happy. I have 2 vibrators; 2 different sized dildo's and we use them all. I still fuck my husband in at least 6 or 8 different positions, but when he's eating me, or fingering me, my mind pretends it's another woman. Is that wrong?

My question is this, why is it when we watch porn, (we usually watch either threesomes, Masturbation compilations, or lesbian videos) do I find myself watching the women more than the men. I always picture myself in a threesome, but with another woman, not another man. Also, when we watch masturbation videos, I love to see the women playing with themselves more than the men, but my favorite is a hot lesbian video. I never admitted this to my husband, but I can't take my eyes off the screen when it's a woman, or a woman on a woman. Like I said in the beginning, I'm a very conservative and pretty modest woman.

Am I alone in this or are there more women who hide this feeling? My ideal situation would be to be in bed with my husband and another woman, and have him tell us what to do, because I know it would involve a lot of pussy eating and playing with each other's pussy's. I would also love to watch my husband fuck another woman from behind while she was eating me out. I would get the benefit of having my pussy eaten while watching him put his cock in another woman. The other thing I love is a woman with small perky tits, I would love to feel her up and suck on her little nipples.

Another thing I would love, would be to be present in a room while two women were having sex. I would just sit in a very comfortable chair, turn on my vibrator and play while watching them go at it.

I would also love to be the one calling the shots, have them do whatever I wanted to see. I think I would start off by having them sit side by side and masturbate for me. When I was satisfied, I would have them give each other a sensual massage, but only the front. At that point I probably would have had about ten orgasms, but I still wouldn't be satisfied and would need to see them go down on each other. I would be the one to decide who was better. I just love a womans body, including my own, that why I masturbate a lot.

I'm afraid that if I ever brought this up to my husband, he might feel like he's not getting the job done, but believe me, he does. I know he would love to watch me with another woman, but if I ever did give in to these feelings, I think I would have to be alone with her. I would need to completely explore my feelings, before I could have him with me. I'm not sure if it would be another woman similar in age and size to me who has the same conservative feelings that I do, or one of those wild young hotties who would be open to teaching me.

I'm totally conflicted about my feelings. it's not something I would ever be able to discuss with anyone that I know, but I do feel the need to talk about it. I have never had the chance to be with another woman, but if I ever did, I'm not sure what I would do. I would like to hear any thoughts from women who feel like me, assuming there are any out there. Also, if any have actually acted on their feelings at an older age. Please no men, this is an issue for another older woman. feel free to email me or leave a comment... This is a true story or maybe just a hopeful thought, but either way, I'm a confused Straight older woman.

I would love to talk with you about this

 

[mark_j]

When I know for a goddamn fact that men get turned on by simply finding a 10mm socket

That's because it is the one that ALWAYS gets misplaced.

 

[v_indigo]

Well this has been a ride, to be sure.

I think you really have to look at how differently women in porn are portrayed than men. I haven’t seen much straight porn, but the ones I’ve seen, the men are just sorta there, doing a job, and are basically interchangeable. The women at least react.

 

[Friedfred]

I think in porn alot of the acting is just that. They are required to get hard at a moment notice and shoot perfect scenes for the viewing pleasure of the audience .

 

[Ciceri]

Over time I've come to recognize that there is a world of sexuality between straight and gay and it is not set in stone. I've seen several posts like yours in the year I've been here now. Usually, from older men who are surprised when they start thinking about naked men when they have been straight all their lives.

Not knowing you or your husband I cannot advise you on how to approach him. You have to decide how important this is to you and how much of a risk it would be to broach the subject.

I think attractions morph over time .. especially fantasy. Last year I came across a floppy disc of porn I made in 2005. I didn't even have the means to see its contents until I visited my parents in December. I put the disc in their old desktop knowing I'd see something pornographic. Sure enough. But... it was all pretty tame Playboy stuff. Pictures from the internet I'd saved. Still arousing but nothing I'd save nowadays. There were no men in the pics. Now my porn has men. That's something I would not have considered 20 years ago

 

[Rob_Royale]

That's something I would not have considered 20 years ago

That's something that I read frequently on this forum. I'm 55 now, and so far, no change like that.