Luna's Haven~closed save for invitees.

Yes...this will do nicely.
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wanders into my Haven and curls up next to the beauty I find sleeping in my bed...cuz obviously, she wants me to.
 
hands move upward, twist in cloud hair...moves the length slightly so that warm lips can find pale nape...and bless it...with a kiss.

And then...the RW snatches me a way....
 
I have been trying to return to the depths of the dreaming, out in the real world. It isn't working, though. Every time my eyes close, my brain erupts with colors and sounds I thought I had all but forgotten...

My mother.

Her death.

I can see her clearly, hair sweaty. Face so very pale. I can see her smile, telling me she is fine. Not to worry. To go on home and deal with my kids. I can hear her~voice cigarette rough. Explaining that it's not important. It doesn't matter. She is just fine.

I remember the phone call.

"Baby, don't come in to work today. I am going to the hospital."

I remember my step father calling me at 9 in the morning...to tell me my mother, my best friend...is comatose and on a breathing machine.

I remember going to the hospital and wanting her, begging her...to wake up.

I remember her doctor telling me that I had to sign off on the paper work, because my mother had a living will and did not want to be kept on a breathing apparatus.

I remember screaming, in the middle of the hall way...and bawling like a baby.

I remember going home to get my children...and the call that came at a little after two saying that my mother was dead.

I remember it...because I keep dreaming it.

I want it to stop.
 
Maybe tomorrow

Doin' Just Fine

There was a time when I thought life
Was over and out, when you went away from me
My dying heart made it hard to breathe
Would sit in my room because I didn't want to
Have to go out and see you walking by

One look and I'd break right down and cry
Now you say that you made a big mistake
Never meant to take your love away
But you can save your tired apologies
'Cause it may seem hard to believe, but

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

You were my earth, my number one priority
I gave my love to only you anything you'd ask of me
I would do but somewhere down the road
You felt a change in the weather and told me that
You had to journey on a kiss in the wind and your
Love was gone

Now, you say you never meant to play
Your games, girl don't you know it's far too late
Because you let our love just fall apart
You no longer have my heart

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

When you said goodbye, I felt so all alone
There were times at night I couldn't sleep
My heart was much too weak to make it on my own
Baby, after all the misery and pain you put me through
So unfair to me girl, you're no longer my world
And I ain't missin' you at all

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

See, baby when you walked away
You didn't think it would end up this way
But I knew you'd be coming 'round someday
Just as sure as my name is Wanya
 
The Love We had (Stays on my Mind)~remake by Dru Hill


[Spoken:]
I just can't believe it, girl
I can't believe that it's over
But I'm your man, and I'll be alright
But still, the love we had
Stays on my mind

Lately baby, I've been thinking
How good it was when you were here
And it ain't the wine that I been drinking
For once I feel my head is clear

But early this morning, when I opened up my eyes
That old lonesome feeling took me by surprise
I guess you meant more to me than I realized
The love we had stays on my mind
The love we had stays on my mind

And lately girl, I've been remembering
The good times that we used to share
My thoughts of you don't have an ending
And memories of you are everywhere

But why should I tell you, it's not your concern
You win some, you lose some
Well I've lost and I've learned
Sisqo's so lonely
With no place to turn
And here at the end, I find
Yes I do

The love we had stays on my mind
Girl, if you were nearer
If you had a mirror
Maybe you could count my tears

And if you were nearer
It would all be clearer
How I wish that you were here
How I wish that you were here
How I wish, how I wish
How I wish that you were here

And baby girl I was tired
So I laid down to dream for a little while
But lately I've been so, so uninspired
Without the comfort of your smile

But I'm not complaining
Cuz that's how it goes
There's always some heartache
In this world I suppose
But you can't imagine
But nobody knows

The love we had stays on my mind
The love we had stays on my mind
The love we had stays on my mind
[Repeat until fade]
 
It's been a very long time since I've visited my friend in her place of comfort and creativity. I know that she is away, in the real world, working, but I feel compelled to stop by and offering something at the onset of spring.

I set an orchid, one of my favorites, at the door so she will see, kissing a petal to set my spirit upon it.


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Be well and safe, Luna. I'll be back to see you here again.
 
She gives a worried knock on Luna's door. The PM in her hand has her properly chastised and she wonders whether she can assuage the dragon's wrath...
 
Eyes open and head tilts.

Oh NOW she wants to come and give me hugs.

Wicked grin...before rising slowly to my feet and meandering toward the front door.


Hello, VT.

One hand darts out, snatches the missive from her fingers...balls it up and tosses it to Gray...who then proceeds to pick it up and carry the mass to the trash can in my kitchen.

So you could NOT respond to my hug...hmmm?

Small fingers reach out, grab, one delicate wrist...tugs...hard...so that she stumbles against me.

We will have to work out an appropriate...apology.

A smile

come on in...
 
Didn't mean to. Her apology is stuck in her throat as she's pulled in. She really didn't mean to irk Wolfie. Really really.
I uh... Got intimidated um.. too many people and uh.... SORRY!!
It's a few broken words and finally her apology as she stumbles into the cabin
 
Hearing the slight stammer the rush of words?

Makes my grin widen, just that much more.

I lead VT in to my living room and take a seat on my couch, leaving her standing just before me.


Sooo you felt pressured and umm overwhelmed?

Wicked smile, eyes gleaming.

Whatever will you do if I decide to pressure and overwhelm you?

Leans in so that my nose catches the scent, just below her midsection.

Voice drops to a low, husky alto


Run away?

Leaning back, eyes drawn up, to her face...

No, I think not...

why don't you do a little turn for me, pretty girl...

and tell me all about what you are wearing, hmmm??

Start with your skin...and work out...

You do it well enough?

You can come sit on my lap and let me cuddle you...and isn't that a prize worth having?

a wink...
 
She swallows hard at the thought of being pressured and overwhelmed. Her gaze darts to the door and the back down at Wolfie looking up at her with those eyes.... Like she'd get devoured if she stood still for too long.

Now that wasn't a bad thought...

She squeezes her mostly bare thighs together at the thought. Bare feet on wood flooring lead her in a slow turn. Long smooth legs led up to shorts that rode high on her. Smooth but marked up with scars that she's picked up from her own clumsiness.

It's a pity really. Marks on smooth white skin

The denim barely covered her ass. It's shortness just makes the legs feel longer.

Her mind flusters as she tries to remember what she's wearing. Finally after she's completely turned around with her back to the Wolf that she peels back the denim to peek.


um.. white laced panties....?
A squeak of sound.

She turns further the tank top falls just below her top denim pockets. The loose front follows the slight curve of her chest. A sharper eye would've noted that she'd gone without a bra.


And everything else you see on me...

Her gaze lifts to look at Luna, as she nibbles the edge of a lone finger, wondering if she'd properly fulfilled the Missus' request
 
golden brown eyes devour the slow movements as VT turns.

Long legs. Lovely, long legs.

I want to...bite them...even though I know she is not a fan of pain...

Denim riding just beneath the curve of her ass.

Eyes travel further, resting on barely glimpsed nipples that press against the thin material of her tank top.

The grin grows ever more lascivious.

Finally, eyes lock onto pretty face.

One small hand raises, finger crooks, beckons her closer.


Next time, VT, give me color too, hmm...

Other hand pats lap

Now. Come and sit.

Not a demand...more a very forceful request.

I shall not be here for long...but while I am here...

I want your ass in my lap.
 
yes ma'am... I'll work on the color.

She bends forward to follow Luna's request. The front of the tank falling loose ever so briefly to show the subtle curves of her chest before the view vanishes. She curls up on Luna's lap. The dark brown tank emphasizes a shocking color contrast to her own pale skin.

She wiggles her bottom in Wolfie's lap


Just making sure... my ass is in your lap

She purrs and grins brightly at Luna
 
Low husky laughter.

Oh, good girl.

A dimpled grin.

Alas, tis time for me to run away for a bit.

The Real World requires my attention.

Hands roam pale flesh, nails trailing sensitive areas. Full lips brush a soft kiss over a pretty cheek.

Maybe I shall see you again soon?

Also, think on what you have learned from this tiny little encounter, hmmm?

Mouth finds her...tastes, plunders, bites...and then I stand up, bringing her with me...and settling her on her bare feet once more.

Be well until next time, pretty VT.

With that I vanish...and she...ends up at the end of the trail that leads through the dark forest that surrounds my Haven. A whisper is heard...

I will see you very soon.
 
Doin' Just Fine

There was a time when I thought life
Was over and out, when you went away from me
My dying heart made it hard to breathe
Would sit in my room because I didn't want to
Have to go out and see you walking by

One look and I'd break right down and cry
Now you say that you made a big mistake
Never meant to take your love away
But you can save your tired apologies
'Cause it may seem hard to believe, but

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

You were my earth, my number one priority
I gave my love to only you anything you'd ask of me
I would do but somewhere down the road
You felt a change in the weather and told me that
You had to journey on a kiss in the wind and your
Love was gone

Now, you say you never meant to play
Your games, girl don't you know it's far too late
Because you let our love just fall apart
You no longer have my heart

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

When you said goodbye, I felt so all alone
There were times at night I couldn't sleep
My heart was much too weak to make it on my own
Baby, after all the misery and pain you put me through
So unfair to me girl, you're no longer my world
And I ain't missin' you at all

I'm doin' just fine, getting along very well
Without you in my life, I don't need you in my life
I'm doin' just fine, time made me stronger
You're no longer on my mind

See, baby when you walked away
You didn't think it would end up this way
But I knew you'd be coming 'round someday
Just as sure as my name is Wanya

Uhm....Wanya??? Am confused...Well damn I guess??
 
The Love We had (Stays on my Mind)~remake by Dru Hill


[Spoken:]
I just can't believe it, girl
I can't believe that it's over
But I'm your man, and I'll be alright
But still, the love we had
Stays on my mind

Lately baby, I've been thinking
How good it was when you were here
And it ain't the wine that I been drinking
For once I feel my head is clear

But early this morning, when I opened up my eyes
That old lonesome feeling took me by surprise
I guess you meant more to me than I realized
The love we had stays on my mind
The love we had stays on my mind

And lately girl, I've been remembering
The good times that we used to share
My thoughts of you don't have an ending
And memories of you are everywhere

But why should I tell you, it's not your concern
You win some, you lose some
Well I've lost and I've learned
Sisqo's so lonely
With no place to turn
And here at the end, I find
Yes I do

The love we had stays on my mind
Girl, if you were nearer
If you had a mirror
Maybe you could count my tears

And if you were nearer
It would all be clearer
How I wish that you were here
How I wish that you were here
How I wish, how I wish
How I wish that you were here

And baby girl I was tired
So I laid down to dream for a little while
But lately I've been so, so uninspired
Without the comfort of your smile

But I'm not complaining
Cuz that's how it goes
There's always some heartache
In this world I suppose
But you can't imagine
But nobody knows

The love we had stays on my mind
The love we had stays on my mind
The love we had stays on my mind
[Repeat until fade]

hmmmm....well damn, makes me wonder...
 
Home. For a moment. Not long. Can never stay for long. Gray is actually here for a change and that makes me happy. I wander in, lighting candles with the snap of small fingers before turning to my right and heading for the living room. My living room.

The computer is still there. Looking lost...as if it hasn't had a friendly touch in a week. Tis probably true. My creativity takes a nose dive whenever my suicidal depression kicks in. No matter. I am almost back to normal...so tomorrow I shall try and write. Something. Anything. Everything.

Words to make my head release all of the imagery it's been holding for so long.

Gray climbs into my lap and whimper sighs at me...

Strong fingers comb through the ruff of fur that hides the back of his neck.

I am okay. Everything is fine. And tomorrow is another day.
 
Music. That is what I want. So out comes my CD collection.

I need Minnie Riperton~cuz she reminds me of happier times. Of my mother, of my family, of all the things i have left behind. The music starts...and I sing along.


Lovin' You

Memory Lane
 
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