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Sometimes I'm not sure if I have a clue what love is or at least "being in love." Thought I was in love with my wife but now, in retrospect, as we pursue the divorce process, I'm fairly confident that I wasn't as in love with her as I thought or that, at least, she was not an "only love." Even during the best parts of a marriage, I wasn't void of desires for other women. Of course much of this was sheer lust that I've never been able to block out but some of it were legitimate deep feelings for a good friend whom I'd known since college. She was married too (not always happily) and we'd get together several times a year and wonder how much better it would be if we had gotten married to each other instead of to our spouses. To this day I still wonder. Would it have been better between us? Or would we have ended up looking for something else? I don't know the answer.
Maybe I'll find one woman in the future and I'll have no interest in any other, but I doubt it. Life never completely fits in neat little categories, especially the personal side. At least for me.
Y'all take care.
Mark
Sometimes I'm not sure if I have a clue what love is or at least "being in love." Thought I was in love with my wife but now, in retrospect, as we pursue the divorce process, I'm fairly confident that I wasn't as in love with her as I thought or that, at least, she was not an "only love." Even during the best parts of a marriage, I wasn't void of desires for other women. Of course much of this was sheer lust that I've never been able to block out but some of it were legitimate deep feelings for a good friend whom I'd known since college. She was married too (not always happily) and we'd get together several times a year and wonder how much better it would be if we had gotten married to each other instead of to our spouses. To this day I still wonder. Would it have been better between us? Or would we have ended up looking for something else? I don't know the answer.
Maybe I'll find one woman in the future and I'll have no interest in any other, but I doubt it. Life never completely fits in neat little categories, especially the personal side. At least for me.
Y'all take care.
Mark