I've been masturbating since I was pretty young, around 5 probably. A few years later I started fantasizing that while I was masturbating men would break into the house and rape me. (While telling me what a dirty girl I was for touching myself, of coures.) This slightly disturbed me, but it never stopped the thought from continually creeping back into my head!
My first BDSM thought or experience
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GinaAckroyd
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I'm glad i found this thread. I always thought it was abnormal for me to have had nonconsent/reluctance and submissive fantasies when I was 7 because they turned me on even though I didnt know what sex was at the time.
My earliest fantasies involved a lot of forced nudity and exhibitionism, probing and groping. I remember this peter pan cartoon where wendy was kidnapped and tied up by two mermaids who then applied some things to her body to make her look different or something. I used to spin a lot of fantasies that were variations of the story.
My earliest fantasies involved a lot of forced nudity and exhibitionism, probing and groping. I remember this peter pan cartoon where wendy was kidnapped and tied up by two mermaids who then applied some things to her body to make her look different or something. I used to spin a lot of fantasies that were variations of the story.
MMM, early memories... *grin*
Wow, there are a few people that made me actually think of some early turn ons... the starwars scene with Jaba the Hut and Leah, wow, i just realized I was turned on by that as a kid. but yea...
As a kid, some of my first BDSM thoughts made me seem kind of submissive. For instance, I use to never understand why women didn't like getting raped. I understood what getting raped meant (I was like 7 or so, and well, the one who gave birth to me worked in the evidence room and dinner time stories werent always the happiest) but I didnt get why it would be such a terrible thing. Yea getting hit or attacked isnt fun, but rape means sex, and sex is good, isnt it???
So my rape fantisy became working at some sort of store and as i'm locking up, a guy busts in the front glass doors pulls me down and rapes me right there. I end up loving it.
But as it started taking longer to get myself off, it developed into getting raped and me enjoying it, freaking the guy out and telling him he better not stop or i would beat him... yea.
I also had extensive dreams of being in an accident or beat etc... and having people submit to me while i was "uncapable". yea, always ended up me incontrol...
The most promonate thing that turned me on besides the rape, was the thought of humulating my Step-father for the shit he put me through. I was the female and there fore i was the owest of the low. Long story short, the power i would exort over him made me feel so exhillerated!!!! *licks k9 tooth* yea. Always liked that one.
-Tears
Wow, there are a few people that made me actually think of some early turn ons... the starwars scene with Jaba the Hut and Leah, wow, i just realized I was turned on by that as a kid. but yea...
As a kid, some of my first BDSM thoughts made me seem kind of submissive. For instance, I use to never understand why women didn't like getting raped. I understood what getting raped meant (I was like 7 or so, and well, the one who gave birth to me worked in the evidence room and dinner time stories werent always the happiest) but I didnt get why it would be such a terrible thing. Yea getting hit or attacked isnt fun, but rape means sex, and sex is good, isnt it???
So my rape fantisy became working at some sort of store and as i'm locking up, a guy busts in the front glass doors pulls me down and rapes me right there. I end up loving it.
But as it started taking longer to get myself off, it developed into getting raped and me enjoying it, freaking the guy out and telling him he better not stop or i would beat him... yea.
I also had extensive dreams of being in an accident or beat etc... and having people submit to me while i was "uncapable". yea, always ended up me incontrol...
The most promonate thing that turned me on besides the rape, was the thought of humulating my Step-father for the shit he put me through. I was the female and there fore i was the owest of the low. Long story short, the power i would exort over him made me feel so exhillerated!!!! *licks k9 tooth* yea. Always liked that one.
-Tears
I remember masturbating in the tub when I was around 10 or 11. I would start the water running and climb in while the water was still less than inch deep. I would scoot down, put my legs up so that the water would run directly on my clit. That's usually where the fantasy would start. I wasn't in a bath tub any more but in some mad scientist's lab in a some kind of strange torture contraption. Along with the water torture he would hook me up to all sorts of devices that would pinch or electrocute me if I struggled and sometimes if I didn't. After my first orgasm my clit would get so sensitive I could barely stand the water running on it, but if I tried to move away he would activate one of the devices hooked me - the nipple electrodes were my favorite. As the water filled the tub it would come up over my ears. I would pretend that was just first step in my sensory deprivation (no I didn't know those words as a child I just knew that he did it to focus my attention more acutely on the torture) then I would close my eyes as if I were blind folded. Last step was usually being forced to hold my breath as the water covered my mouth then nose.
Gosh I have thought of that in years!
*suddenly feels the need to go take a bath*
Gosh I have thought of that in years!
*suddenly feels the need to go take a bath*
kinkyknots
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And I thought I was the only one who ...
got hooked in childhood.
I was about six years old, so this was in 66.
It was an episode of Popeye The Sailor Man. Blutto had Olive Oyle rope tied to a post with her butt in the air. He was trying to brand her with a branding iron. She managed to wiggle her skinny butt out of harm's way every time he tried to brand her. Then stupid ole Popeye came along with his stupid ole spinach and spoiled everything!
I laid awake at night for weeks thinking about that scene. I still remember it vividly. I may not have understood what I was feeling, but I liked it.
I could never understand why Olive Oyle preferred Popeye over Blutto.
Blutto was so hot!
got hooked in childhood.
I was about six years old, so this was in 66.
It was an episode of Popeye The Sailor Man. Blutto had Olive Oyle rope tied to a post with her butt in the air. He was trying to brand her with a branding iron. She managed to wiggle her skinny butt out of harm's way every time he tried to brand her. Then stupid ole Popeye came along with his stupid ole spinach and spoiled everything!
I laid awake at night for weeks thinking about that scene. I still remember it vividly. I may not have understood what I was feeling, but I liked it.
I could never understand why Olive Oyle preferred Popeye over Blutto.
Blutto was so hot!
Iron Bear
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Great reading in here today!
I guess my first actual thoughts of BDSM came with my first thoughts of sex, now that I think about it. I started masterbating at about 7 or 8, I think, and I would have odd fantasies. There was also, about that time, some movie on the playboy channel. we had just gotten cable, and my brother learned from a friend how to rig the descrambler box pretty easily so that we could get all the pay channels. So naturally, whenever mom wasn't at home at night, I'd be watching playboy. One night, there was this movie on about these two women experimenting with different sexual experiences, and in one of the scenes, one of them was being whipped by a man dressed as a monk, then after the whipping she started giving the other woman oral. I didn't know why then, but damn, I was turned on.
I guess my first actual thoughts of BDSM came with my first thoughts of sex, now that I think about it. I started masterbating at about 7 or 8, I think, and I would have odd fantasies. There was also, about that time, some movie on the playboy channel. we had just gotten cable, and my brother learned from a friend how to rig the descrambler box pretty easily so that we could get all the pay channels. So naturally, whenever mom wasn't at home at night, I'd be watching playboy. One night, there was this movie on about these two women experimenting with different sexual experiences, and in one of the scenes, one of them was being whipped by a man dressed as a monk, then after the whipping she started giving the other woman oral. I didn't know why then, but damn, I was turned on.
Erotic
My god just reading about it makes me hot. Naughty, naughty! I Think with that one i may actually like to be on the recieving as well as the giving end. mmm, clitoral stimulation is my favorite...
-Tears
Edaine said:I remember masturbating in the tub when I was around 10 or 11. I would start the water running and climb in while the water was still less than inch deep. I would scoot down, put my legs up so that the water would run directly on my clit. That's usually where the fantasy would start. I wasn't in a bath tub any more but in some mad scientist's lab in a some kind of strange torture contraption. Along with the water torture he would hook me up to all sorts of devices that would pinch or electrocute me if I struggled and sometimes if I didn't. After my first orgasm my clit would get so sensitive I could barely stand the water running on it, but if I tried to move away he would activate one of the devices hooked me - the nipple electrodes were my favorite. As the water filled the tub it would come up over my ears. I would pretend that was just first step in my sensory deprivation (no I didn't know those words as a child I just knew that he did it to focus my attention more acutely on the torture) then I would close my eyes as if I were blind folded. Last step was usually being forced to hold my breath as the water covered my mouth then nose.
Gosh I have thought of that in years!
*suddenly feels the need to go take a bath*
My god just reading about it makes me hot. Naughty, naughty! I Think with that one i may actually like to be on the recieving as well as the giving end. mmm, clitoral stimulation is my favorite...
-Tears
Joe Schmoe
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This is one of the most erotic threads I have ever come across. Thank you one and all for sharing.
Yowzaa!
Yowzaa!
mrJohnJones
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Hard question.... only because...
... I think mine was more a straight but submissive experience. I wrote a story about it. Lit doesn't like the format I write in, so it'll probably be a while before I get it posted. Have to make some changes.
In any case, I was a shy kid all the way through senior year in high school. I was considerd good-looking, sang in the choir and with a group of kids out of the choir that performed hit tunes, etc. Wrote stories (surprise!) and poetry about the girls I liked. They just loved that.
So, I had a lot of girlfriends, but never had sex (and as you can imagine, short relationships). Funny as it seemed, I was too slow for them. They wanted physical attention faster that I was ready to give them because of my shyness. My brother finally got it out of me (I was depressed often because of break-ups).
So.. I rambled on about that to tell you this...
My brother set me up as a "fourth" to go to a play. I was 17, actually, and the girl was 23, but gorgeous. Just looking at her made me nervous. To avoid the rest of the story here and keep it short, I would up alone with her at my brothers apartment.
She literally "took" me there, showing me how to do things; basically, "told" me how to do things. I was scared but it worked out REAL well. I believe as I look back, that was my first real submissive role, mild as it was.
It proved itself more as time went on!
Nice forum!
Phil
... I think mine was more a straight but submissive experience. I wrote a story about it. Lit doesn't like the format I write in, so it'll probably be a while before I get it posted. Have to make some changes.
In any case, I was a shy kid all the way through senior year in high school. I was considerd good-looking, sang in the choir and with a group of kids out of the choir that performed hit tunes, etc. Wrote stories (surprise!) and poetry about the girls I liked. They just loved that.
So, I had a lot of girlfriends, but never had sex (and as you can imagine, short relationships). Funny as it seemed, I was too slow for them. They wanted physical attention faster that I was ready to give them because of my shyness. My brother finally got it out of me (I was depressed often because of break-ups).
So.. I rambled on about that to tell you this...
My brother set me up as a "fourth" to go to a play. I was 17, actually, and the girl was 23, but gorgeous. Just looking at her made me nervous. To avoid the rest of the story here and keep it short, I would up alone with her at my brothers apartment.
She literally "took" me there, showing me how to do things; basically, "told" me how to do things. I was scared but it worked out REAL well. I believe as I look back, that was my first real submissive role, mild as it was.
It proved itself more as time went on!
Nice forum!
Phil
