Spirtual Paradise

[Ryo242]

True, but it can't help to be on your guard. He did speak against me in our own home...
But I suppose I can be more forgiving since you said so.

 

[FallenSakura]

Im sorry for what he said, and I am happy to hear that you would be my guard. You two deserve more than I can give you two

 

[Ryo242]

Guard? I suppose.

 

[no_morals]

So now I'm the bad guy? I am looking out for a friend and I am disgusted that you would asume that I would take advantage of what has happened to her. I was simply mentioning what I heard about you to Sakura. Also, as far as I knew this was SAKURA's home, when did you move in?

 

[Ryo242]

You seem rather upset about something. Try to relax, as this is a relaxing place.

 

[FallenSakura]

come on you two no fighting. I do not wanna see you guys fight over something like this.Please you guys, you are both hurting me fighting like this

 

[Ryo242]

I've already stopped when you said a while ago. The argument was resolved, so I saw no need to press the issue further.

Plus I have zero luck today. Bad bad.

 

[FallenSakura]

I am still here so your luck isnt bad

 

[Ryo242]

It got better after a controller change. Anyway, as luck would have it I cannot stay. Not because I don't want to...but because the computer battery will not be alive for much longer. No cord either, which is the bad luck part.

Anyway, I miss you Sakura dear, and I hope to see you on the morrow!

 

[Talachan]

I appear inside, quiet for a moment as I close my eyes.
"I have come to set the record straight... I did not tear off this collar because my Mistress said so. I tore it off because of the pain I felt with every confrontation, the 'game' being the last straw. Sure, you did explain it Saku, but still. You were too busy watching your anime to notice anything wrong. That in essence showed me just how much you cared... And you, 'Raen'..."
I look over to him, eyes flashing a moment.
"Don't you ever say that my Mistress made me do anything... We have a mutual response with each other... She cares for me and accepted Saku as my Pet before because it made me happy."
I swell a bit with anger, growling once.
"You caught me in a bad time, and if you know anything about females, you will understand the hint. 'Acting weird' was me being hormonal. I get violently protective, and I had already explained that to you. And maybe people stop RPs with you because of things like what you did in the Lounge. Jumping in without letting anyone know you, taking advantage of the weak. Mistress commanded me not to hurt you, so I didn't. But I guarantee if you ever disrespect her again I will stop the RP we have because of it. I back my words up with action."
I simmer back to a slow boil as I look to Saku, eyes flicker into sadness as I touch my scar on my neck.
"Again, I hurt you... And I am sorry. I won't allow this to ever happen again. Talk to me if you wish, here or PM, messenger is barred. For your next Mistress, perhaps you had better think to pay more attention to subtle details."
I stand there, waiting for a reply, or just a response to leave her abode.

 

[FallenSakura]

Listens to what she has to say and wonders what to say in response but all I could think about was watching an empty screen not being able to move.I sigh a bit and look at her face,"you know, Tala. Even thou you say all that, Do you think there was a reason that I put my attention elsewhere.Yes you are my mistress but even you need time to yourself right? To be with your own mistress, to have time with your life outside of here, dealing with the drama outside of lit. That alone is a lot to deal with, wouldn't you say so."

I puts her attention towards the river,"Listening to what you have to say, makes a lot of sense and true that I do have to pay more attention. However if giving my mistress some time to relax with the drama outside, then I am giving pleasure that is not sexual.its something a friend would do for another person. Sure I have been watching anime but there is more to it than me watching anime."

 

[Talachan]

I nod a bit and move over slowly to her, holding cloak a bit tight. I stop next to her, looking at the river with a sigh. I look to her, not moving any closer and will not sit unless she wants me to.
"Yes, you are correct... I was just... I was hoping that you would have been paying attention since I was talking to you in the thread... If I had thought that I needed to give you a messenger message to read I probably would have..."
I sigh a bit, crossing my arms as I look over the river. Another thought came to me and I closed my eyes, rubbing them slightly.
"And I saw the comment before about why Ry didn't introduce himself and get to know you... That everyone thought someone would hurt you... You told me point-blank that you are terrified of males. You even cowered into me. I do not appreciate being blamed for something I did to protect you. Don't make it my fault that you and he did not hook up right away. You even said yourself, to me, that you could not kiss a guy. And yet I catch a glimpse of you and his pocky game. That also made my eyes water... Tell me for real. Are you really scared of guys, or did you just want more attention from me? I want the answer from you now."
I look over to her, not letting my attention stray for a moment.

 

[FallenSakura]

I look at Tala,"Let me ask you a simple question to answer your question. Am I suppose to be scared of men forever? I always wondered if I continue to fear men, I would be giving in to my fear. I am afraid of men however If I get to know someone enough.Then I can be myself, its me opening up to other people. Am I suppose to sit back away from humanity and cower forever.My dad is my dad and my brother is my brother.They are both males and I love them very much.Should I run away from them? It makes no sense that I should be scared of all men.Maybe those who show their pervy side straight away or those who seem like they have hidden intentions to touch me.That I will be scared of cause I still do not feel safe."

She took a rock and skipped it along the lake."Its like that rock i just skipped.It knows its going to drown,but it will continue to skip to make it to the other side.Sure it may drop half way but you know.there will be some rocks that can make it to the other side."

 

[Talachan]

I nod and think, my eyes closing. I sighed slightly, crouching down and glancing to all the stones.
"It is best to not give into the fears, Saku... That is true... I know that you have gotten braver than first we met. You are stronger, and I personally think, more developed. I guess it only bothered me because I could only remember how you cowered into my side, terrified of the males that I were relaxed with."
I sigh and pick a few up, stroking the smooth edges.
"...I still know that the blaming on myself hurts though. Yes, I did tell Ry to be good. He likes to jump into things head-first, and I stopped him before he could scare you. You and he are good friends, so I think it was a good choice, only by my thoughts."
I attempted to skip a rock, chuckling slightly as it just splashed and sank.
"Saku... I never wanted to hurt you, tho whatever happened, it seemed to hurt me. Irrational thought, or rational, I reacted to what happened with what came from my heart. I just act differently towards my Mistress, so I guess that I didn't feel like accepting some things you said or did. I just... I want to say... Sorry to you, Saku, for letting you believe in me then get hammered to the ground. I let you sink, just like that stone... If you can find it within your heart to forgive me, I would be glad to have you as a friend again. I know I cannot touch you as I did, but... A hug would be greatly easing to my heart..."
I slightly smiled to her, eyes finally showing the pain and sadness I did not let escape before.

 

[FallenSakura]

"I had some time to think as well being away from you and what you say now.If you wanted to protect me and in doing so made this emotion of protection come out.I would not call it a bad thing.Its more of a way to control and feel more emotions.Not all of us can contain our emotions tightly, you know. Ryo and Kaen made one thing clearly to me, to have someone around feels good also that I should stay happy and not be any other emotion.Forgiving something to me would be an excuse to run away.I rather move forward and walk along those lines to improve. No matter how many times you tell someone sorry, there is a chance that it will happen again." I look at her with a smile on my face." What I am trying to say is,life is full of precious moments that can heal and hurt anyone.So why let anything stop anyone from being something they should be.Improved and happy, always smiling living life to the fullest.An Endless world full of possibilities.Right?"


"With every light there is a dark, and with every dark there is a light. Open one's wings to experience more glory" I open my note book to my favorite pages of my two favorite pictures

 

[Talachan]

I smile softly and nod, a warm smile as I sit next to her. I look over the water, trying a stone yet again and watching it skip a few times. I sigh and close my eyes, letting the sun wash over me.
"You are very correct, Saku... And thank you... And yet sorry... I don't ever want you to feel like you did before... I can only hope now that my offer of friendship will be taken by you."
I look up to her, hugging my knees to my chest as I feel the wind through my hair.
"Your advice is very good... I don't ever think of it that way. I hang onto things too tightly, and it hurt us both because of such."
I smile to her, a soft chuckle.
"Now, about that hug... Could I bother you for one?"

 

[FallenSakura]

"I dont mind hugging you" I said looking at her."Its just offering something I never gave up confuses me.Did we stop being friends or was there some silent conversation that said we aren't friends"

 

[Talachan]

I blink and laugh a bit, shaking my head and sighing. I rapped my forehead softly, looking forward and smiling.
"It was a stupid thought of mine... That you wouldn't want to be friends after what had happened... I am glad to know you are still my friend, Saku..."
I shift closer, wrapping my arms around her gently as I close my eyes.

 

[FallenSakura]

opens eyes wide,"Wait a second, are you saying you gave up our friendship"

 

[Talachan]

I shake my head and smile.
"No... I thought that you would... I never gave it up, no matter how hurt I was..."

 

[FallenSakura]

"then what exactly did you mean by bye forever" i said looking at her."no one says that unless they truly mean it. Was that when you decided it?"

 

[Talachan]

I sighed and thought, rubbing my head.
"All right... I will admit it... I did say that, but that was out of anger and hurt... I said that to say it but... If I didn't consider myself a friend to you anymore I wouldn't have come back, right?"
I look back to her, gnawing on my bottom lip.
"Not really sure what I meant... Was just feeling hurt..."

 

[FallenSakura]

"I can understand what it means to be hurt but the next time you are hurt or angry at someone.Are you going to take it out on me or any of your friends? Maybe it was luck that it was just me but what about next time. What about theses guys and everyone else, will they be so misfortunate to hear those words from you." i said looking at her with a couple tears falling."Is that fair to anyone Tala?"

 

[Talachan]

I shiver a bit and look down, closing my eyes and shaking my head.
"No, it's not... And I am sorry... I had said that... I shouldn't have said anything like that, I knew it... I just felt so cold I didn't care what I said... I am sorry for that..."

 

[FallenSakura]

"Are you going to say it will not happen again? I want you to swear it right now that it will never happen again." i look at her straight feeling concerned."If it does happen, well I am sure you can think of something to punish yourself with"