Spirtual Paradise

[Talachan]

I looked up to her, shaky.
"I will try my hardest... I had... Punished myself badly already with this... Couldn't sleep right, almost took a knife to me... Would you want me pained like that, if this happened again?"

 

[FallenSakura]

"You better not" I replied looking at her."Listen Tala, very closely.Doing things like that is running away.You do not want to run away, there are easier ways to solve theses types of problems.If I were you, hmm. If i took my anger out on people, I would completely do anything in my power to make sure it would not happen again. Like um write it down where I know i will see it more than once or umm make sure my friends remind me.Stuff like that but To learn this and improve. I guessing the best way would be losing all the friends I have and start over"

 

[Talachan]

I nodded and listened close, sighing as I thought. I nodded again, eyes soft as I looked down.
"I... See... Please remind me then... I don't want to lose all of my friends... I honestly don't have that many super close ones... If I start acting like a bitch, slap me or something."
I slightly smile to her, rubbing my head.

 

[FallenSakura]

"Only one thing left to do. Go tell Kotoro" i said looking at her."Just so he can know unless you already told him"

 

[Talachan]

I nod and smile, relaxing against her.
"He knows... Talking to him off and on..."

 

[FallenSakura]

"i guess thats good.So do you still feel hurt" i ask looking at her

 

[Talachan]

I blink and shrug, smiling a bit.
"Slightly still... But much less than before... Thanks for letting me talk and explain... And thank you for explaining from your end as well...."

 

[FallenSakura]

"Oh I never explained what i wanted to know, All I did was answer what you wanted.I need to think about a couple of things before I make a decision." I said as i grabbed a rock from the floor and grip it tightly.

I look into the sky to see the sun hidden in the clouds.I felt like singing, I did not know why but I just had to do it.

"Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have) "

 

[Talachan]

I nod and close my eyes, listening to the singing. I hug my knees, breathing slow and soft.

 

[FallenSakura]

a tear falls from my left eye after I stop singing,"Lily where are you?"

I walk into the river re singing the song

 

[Talachan]

a tear falls from my left eye after I stop singing,"Lily where are you?"

I walk into the river re singing the song

I blink once, looking up to you quickly. I freeze, watching you closely before following behind silently.

 

[FallenSakura]

Stops and turns facing her

"Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?"

 

[Talachan]

I pause and look to her, blinking a bit. I am not sure what to do, so I only whisper her name, and that I am there...

 

[FallenSakura]

"And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home"

 

[Talachan]

My eyes go blank, and I look at her, quiet.
"Saku... Did she leave you..."

 

[FallenSakura]

"I have not seen her in a couple days now. Im so desperate to find her but Im scared." falls on my knees feeling the water pass through me

 

[Talachan]

I hug her close and tight, picking her up and shivering.
"I.. Am sorry, Saku... I can't tell you whether she is gone of not... All I can say is just hope that she didn't leave... I am sorry..."

 

[FallenSakura]

"you know Tala, right now I am not feeling so friendly nor will I be able to contain any emotion.So I am just going to spit it out and hopefully you will understand exactly what I am saying. This whole dispute between you and me is truly pointless and I feel like I am the enemy.Now that I think about it, Each and every time we had a conflict, one of us has completely blown it out of the sky and then it resolves like its nothing.No matter what I say it will end up against me and even now. its like I am backed up against a corner.How am I suppose to feel safe if this continues to happen." i said in one breath. I take a deep sigh and try to relax a bit, thinking of how to say it but not hurt."You know Tala, We can have all the friends we want around us and nothing will change from that reasoning.How do I say this, I do not want to backed in to a wall and feel blamed for something that could have been solved simply. To be blown to such a problem by some misunderstanding or assumption.Its not fair one bit, I am human and yet I deal with more problems then my own family.Can you honestly tell me in your heart, that i will never be put against a wall and have to stare at more than one person?"

 

[FallenSakura]

"I mean no disrespect or mean any anger or resentment by it. Its just to feel like its two versus one person on a one on one situation. It hurts, Im alone in this and i get someone on my back. Why do i have to suffer double, why am I in such a predicament?" i said as I turn to face her."What is it that I have to do, to feel like our problem is our problem not anyone else's"

 

[Talachan]

I close my eyes, shoulders lowered. A small laugh, a tear fallen.
"No."
I say simply, looking out over the water.
"Because that is what friends do. They back each other up. So sorry you can't understand. Bye till later."
With that, I disappear, not a trace left.

 

[FallenSakura]

"Indeed that is what friends do best. Its not right to make someone feel worse off.Anything could happen with the people in this world" i said to her as she walked away.I walk to the bar and look around for something to drink

 

[Ryo242]

=es mucho siemp...sleepy=

 

[Ryo242]

-bumps thread and wonders where Sakura went- I wanted to ask an anime related question... At least I think it pertains to anime.

http://allisbrawl.com/video/video.aspx?id=23498

The song in that video sounds like an anime song, something familiar yet I can't quite put my finger on it... I would appreciate any help from our resident Super Otaku.

 

[FallenSakura]

Its from the anime that features Marth as the main character, I cant quite get my name on the anime

 

[Ryo242]

Fire Emblem has a Marth in it... -reads back over all the stuff and hugs her the next chance he gets- Thank you.