The "Fuck you cancer!" thread

[nurseclynn]

Talking about grief today.

http://the-coconut-chronicles.com/2015/06/29/not-only-sun/

Everyone.

thank you Kerion...this piece of writing is right on and speaks to my heart.

 

[nurseclynn]

@Aztecs, way to go! It may take a while for the sense of that other shoe being suspended and ready to drop, but you're past the truly hard part. I'm really happy for you.

Ditto. Congrats. Breathe deep and know how happy we all are for you!

 

[Apple_of_Eden]

Talking about grief today.

http://the-coconut-chronicles.com/2015/06/29/not-only-sun/

Everyone.

Dedicated to Keroin and Kelly

If you only knew.

If you only knew how true your words are to others.
If you only knew how they reach out and touch us.
If you only knew the feelings they stir,
the memories they bring back,
the tears they release.

If you only knew how true your words are to others.
If you only knew how they pull at our hearts.
If you only knew how they release some of the pain.
If you only knew the wounds they open,
the healing they allow to occur,
the scabs they help to form.

If you only knew how true your words are to others.
You would never second guess your need to post them.
You would never refer to them as 'trite'.
You would never feel doubt in your mind, heart, or soul.

If you only knew how much your words speak to others,
how much they speak for others,
how much they mean to others,
how much they affect and effect.

If you only knew~!

Thank you for having them, writing them, and most of all for sharing them! Apple

Today a friend received Wonderful news and I am overjoyed for him.
Today is also the anniversary of the death of a dear friend's wife.
Today you made me cry for both of them and for everyone I've grieved for recently and in the past.
Today, I thank you for reminding me.....it's okay to grieve.

...and one last thing...You reminded me there is no time limit on grief, no overflow level that says you've met your quota. Today, I shed tears that are eight years old and still as fresh as yesterday!
fyc!

 

[Curious_in_Cali]

!!!

 

[gypsy*seer]

GoAztecs!
That is positively fantastic news!

Cancer does NOT win this time!!!

FYC!

 

[babslovesherdaddy]

I have started to post in this thread so many times but i couldnt get it out.


Suffice it to say, "Fuck you, Cancer!"


On behalf of friends i have seen battle it and win, and those that have lost, and my little 11 year old girl who is fighting it now.


Fuck you

Fuck you

Fuck you

 

[scotluvsoral]

To the people that post on this thread ---

Thank you! Your words, your support, your thoughts, your prayers, and other sentiments helped me through this process. Today, the doctor told me that the PET scan came back clear and the cancer is gone. It still hasn't sunk in yet, I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. This process has been rigorous and tough, but definitely a learning experience.

To those who are fighting cancer or supporting someone who is, focus on the end goal and try your best to not let cancer beat you mentally and emotionally. When initially diagnosed by my doctor, the percentages made me think that I couldn't do it. Having various setbacks during my treatment made me wonder if I should keep battling. However, the support of family, friends, and coworkers made me push forward.

As for those who never dealt with cancer, if ever something seems off with you or not right, see your doctor. I thought I was too young to get cancer, too healthy. However, had a cough that wouldn't go away. I hated seeing doctors but if I didn't, my outcome could have been much worse.

Lastly, to those who have lost someone due to cancer, keep them in your thoughts. Cancer may have taken them from your life, but can't take them from your heart and mind. Met a few of people at the treatment center that passed on, but will never forget them.

Fuck you cancer

That is so wonderful!!! Grinning from ear to ear! Sucks to have cancer but wonderful to beat it!!! FYC!!!!!!

 

[scotluvsoral]

I have started to post in this thread so many times but i couldnt get it out.


Suffice it to say, "Fuck you, Cancer!"


On behalf of friends i have seen battle it and win, and those that have lost, and my little 11 year old girl who is fighting it now.


Fuck you

Fuck you

Fuck you

Thoughts and prayers for your little girl!!! FUCK YOU CANCER!!!!

 

[IrisAlthea]

I have started to post in this thread so many times but i couldnt get it out.


Suffice it to say, "Fuck you, Cancer!"


On behalf of friends i have seen battle it and win, and those that have lost, and my little 11 year old girl who is fighting it now.


Fuck you

Fuck you

Fuck you

Yes, FYC indeed.
Good thoughts and vibes for you and your daughter!

 

[LallyH]

My cousin died from cancer 3 years ago today. He was a firefighter, spent his life saving others, and lost his 6 month fight a matter of weeks after his second wedding, aged 46. He left a teenage son as well.

FYC

 

[GoAztecs]

Went for a consultation with a radiation doctor and it seemed like an avenue that I don't want to pursue. Everything about it seemed negative and I think I should just stick with my oncologist saying I'm clear.

As for my lung damage from the chemotherapy, had a breathing test and it is improving.

And a fuck you to cancer. The day I learned it was gone, my friend found out her father's cancer returned.

 

[redslady]

Went for a consultation with a radiation doctor and it seemed like an avenue that I don't want to pursue. Everything about it seemed negative and I think I should just stick with my oncologist saying I'm clear.

As for my lung damage from the chemotherapy, had a breathing test and it is improving.

And a fuck you to cancer. The day I learned it was gone, my friend found out her father's cancer returned.

I'm so glad you're getting such good results. Radiation is bad, but by the same token, everything to do with fighting this fucker is bad. Radiation can help prevent the return of some cancers, just keep that in mind.

 

[redslady]

Update

Hi all. It's been a long time since I've written anything about my fight.

This is my third battle with the cell fucker and I will say it has without a doubt been the hardest, most difficult test of my life. We decided that the only course of action for me would be extremely aggressive treatment. In other words, my very own private hell on earth. I sometime wondered if I made the right choice in fighting again.

Right now I'm doing ok. Better than I have felt in a long while. This is mainly because we are taking a break from treatment while my body heals from the surgery. If I keep improving they are going to remove the J tube, I'm only taking nutrients from it at night now. I'm hoping to never see that sucker again. I've even starting to cook again

I do have an amazing supportive man in my life. So different from the last time. Don't know how I would manage without C in my world.

Positive thoughts and prayers to all.

 

[midwestyankee]

Hi all. It's been a long time since I've written anything about my fight.

This is my third battle with the cell fucker and I will say it has without a doubt been the hardest, most difficult test of my life. We decided that the only course of action for me would be extremely aggressive treatment. In other words, my very own private hell on earth. I sometime wondered if I made the right choice in fighting again.

Right now I'm doing ok. Better than I have felt in a long while. This is mainly because we are taking a break from treatment while my body heals from the surgery. If I keep improving they are going to remove the J tube, I'm only taking nutrients from it at night now. I'm hoping to never see that sucker again. I've even starting to cook again

I do have an amazing supportive man in my life. So different from the last time. Don't know how I would manage without C in my world.

Positive thoughts and prayers to all.

Thanks for the update. I agree wholeheartedly that having great support makes all the difference in the world. Not only did I have unyielding support on the home front, but a number of my friends from Lit kept up a barrage of messages with jokes to make me smile, moral (and immoral) support, and inspiration. I would have had a much, much harder time last year without all of that support.

 

[iamjustme4ever]

Awesome thread!

All that I can say to cancer is "FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKIN' FUCK!!!"

 

[scotluvsoral]

Went for a consultation with a radiation doctor and it seemed like an avenue that I don't want to pursue. Everything about it seemed negative and I think I should just stick with my oncologist saying I'm clear.

As for my lung damage from the chemotherapy, had a breathing test and it is improving.

And a fuck you to cancer. The day I learned it was gone, my friend found out her father's cancer returned.

Congratulations on the all clear! It seems like the list of people getting cancer or relapsing is never ending, but we just have to keep fighting the cell sucker! Fuck You Cancer!

 

[scotluvsoral]

Thanks for the update. I agree wholeheartedly that having great support makes all the difference in the world. Not only did I have unyielding support on the home front, but a number of my friends from Lit kept up a barrage of messages with jokes to make me smile, moral (and immoral) support, and inspiration. I would have had a much, much harder time last year without all of that support.

Those people who support us...they are the unsung heroes. Makes all the difference in the world! Keep on fighting. Thoughts are prayers are headed your way! Fuck You Cancer!!!

 

[gypsy*seer]

Tonight I got my mother to say aloud, "Fuck you, cancer! I'm gonna kick your ass!"

Huge.

 

[Lovely2222]

You folks.... I admire you. I just do.

Survive.....

Fuck cancer!

 

[desertslave]

Hi all. It's been a long time since I've written anything about my fight.

This is my third battle with the cell fucker and I will say it has without a doubt been the hardest, most difficult test of my life. We decided that the only course of action for me would be extremely aggressive treatment. In other words, my very own private hell on earth. I sometime wondered if I made the right choice in fighting again.

Right now I'm doing ok. Better than I have felt in a long while. This is mainly because we are taking a break from treatment while my body heals from the surgery. If I keep improving they are going to remove the J tube, I'm only taking nutrients from it at night now. I'm hoping to never see that sucker again. I've even starting to cook again

I do have an amazing supportive man in my life. So different from the last time. Don't know how I would manage without C in my world.

Positive thoughts and prayers to all.

Magnificent news! Sending you lots of healing vibes.

 

[Keroin]

Thank you for deciding to post that. It struck many chords for me.
I also think about mourning clothes...black to purple to grey...look, darkness is lifting off of me, my grief is just a shadow, a cloud following me, but hopefully no longer weighing me down.
I wish it still was a tradition.

Im very sorry for your loss.

Thank you, Niam and I hope your cloud lifts soon.

Thank you for sharing, K. You always write so beautifully.

Even though my mother is very much alive, I can relate. I feel like I'm not doing being worried right and sometimes feel a little guilty for continuing finding things that make me happy and smile, while my sister is (still) crushed by the news of mom's cancer.

I'm happy if I helped, Seela.

That's one of the things about death and illness that no one really explains: life goes on. We're not robots with an off switch. We can grieve and still feel joy and laugh and love. And so we feel guilty because we've been trained to believe it's wrong or selfish.

It's not.

I've just read this...and now I can hardly see to type... my face is soaked in tears...and I thank you for sharing this....it is SO very accurate...

Thank you, Moonlit.

thank you Kerion...this piece of writing is right on and speaks to my heart.

Dedicated to Keroin and Kelly

If you only knew.

If you only knew how true your words are to others.
If you only knew how they reach out and touch us.
If you only knew the feelings they stir,
the memories they bring back,
the tears they release.

If you only knew how true your words are to others.
If you only knew how they pull at our hearts.
If you only knew how they release some of the pain.
If you only knew the wounds they open,
the healing they allow to occur,
the scabs they help to form.

If you only knew how true your words are to others.
You would never second guess your need to post them.
You would never refer to them as 'trite'.
You would never feel doubt in your mind, heart, or soul.

If you only knew how much your words speak to others,
how much they speak for others,
how much they mean to others,
how much they affect and effect.

If you only knew~!

Thank you for having them, writing them, and most of all for sharing them! Apple

Today a friend received Wonderful news and I am overjoyed for him.
Today is also the anniversary of the death of a dear friend's wife.
Today you made me cry for both of them and for everyone I've grieved for recently and in the past.
Today, I thank you for reminding me.....it's okay to grieve.

...and one last thing...You reminded me there is no time limit on grief, no overflow level that says you've met your quota. Today, I shed tears that are eight years old and still as fresh as yesterday!
fyc!

That was beautiful, Apple. If I did any of that, I'm happy.

No, there is no limit on grief. None at all.

Tonight I got my mother to say aloud, "Fuck you, cancer! I'm gonna kick your ass!"

Huge.

That. Is. Awesome. (((((hugs)))))


Love to all who are struggling, grieving, fighting or just breathing.

I think of my sister every day. The grief hits at the weirdest times. Life indeed goes on but there's a hole where she should be.

 

[GoAztecs]

Went to the doctor on Friday. The chemo that I had has really damaged my lungs which is very frustrating. The doctor thought the presadone would cure it but it hasn't. I cough a lot now and struggle for air anytime I exert myself which is tough for me since I was so active before cancer. Now more pills, more waiting. Hopefully the lungs will just heal on their own. You get in remission and you think the end is near, then new issues rise up

Fuck you cancer

 

[scotluvsoral]

Tonight I got my mother to say aloud, "Fuck you, cancer! I'm gonna kick your ass!"

Huge.

Atta Girl! That is cool!

 

[scotluvsoral]

Hi all. It's been a long time since I've written anything about my fight.

This is my third battle with the cell fucker and I will say it has without a doubt been the hardest, most difficult test of my life. We decided that the only course of action for me would be extremely aggressive treatment. In other words, my very own private hell on earth. I sometime wondered if I made the right choice in fighting again.

Right now I'm doing ok. Better than I have felt in a long while. This is mainly because we are taking a break from treatment while my body heals from the surgery. If I keep improving they are going to remove the J tube, I'm only taking nutrients from it at night now. I'm hoping to never see that sucker again. I've even starting to cook again

I do have an amazing supportive man in my life. So different from the last time. Don't know how I would manage without C in my world.

Positive thoughts and prayers to all.

Thoughts and prayers to you too!!!

 

[gypsy*seer]

Atta Girl! That is cool!

Thank you, scot!
Sometimes something SO small is SO big - and the one thing you have to hang your hat on, so to speak!