The lodge.

[xOxCherryxOx]

Just speaking from experiencing it myself. Wishing that I could go back and change things so I wouldn't have ended up loosing a good friend yet not wanting things to have been much different because that person was there when I needed them and gave me back a part of myself I'd lost and never thought I'd get back. Just wish I could fix things where we could still talk, still be friends. I haven't figured out how to make that happen though. Can't very well accomplish it if I'm the only one that wants it.

 

[EzraPound]

* looks down for a moment, thinking about the things I wish where different*
I'm never the same person that I was before I met someone.....
oh.. I could say some old crap about acceptance. but you already know that.
You only get to acceptance when your ready....

*shaking my head and laughing at my self*

And there are a lot of things I'm not ready to accept my self and all of them are about people I care/cared about. Mostly it because in the end they weren't who I wanted them to be and I wasn't who they wanted me to be.

 

[yeishia]

I appear by your side listen to your words..saying nothing I hug you close to me......


EDIT! Hello Cherry ...hugs you too

 

[EzraPound]

* I hug Yeishia tightly, then look at Cherry*
See I told you hugs when you arrive!
*smiling*
Hi Yeishia!

 

[xOxCherryxOx]

So many things going on in my life lately I'm having a hard time just making it through the hour let alone the day or accepting much of anything. Couldn't have all came crashing down at a worse time but I guess there's never a good time for loosing someone. Would have been nice to have had him to lean on til this week at least was over, sounds silly to say it out loud but I guess I just didn't realize how much I'd come to depend on having him to lean on.

Trying to remember a saying I heard once that people that come into your life are there either for a reason, a season or a lifetime. But loosing a lifetime friend and someone that was there for a season at the same time is pretty harsh for anyone to deal with.

*looks away and wonders why I keep rambling to someone I've only just met and hopes sincerely he doesn't mind*

hi Yeishia *hugs her back*

 

[yeishia]

I say hello to both of them and quietly listen to her words.

I can honestly say Cherry that I do feel your pain having gone through it several times myself!

I have young son and if it were not for him I would be the last of my line having lost every one I love to cancer; I myself am now in the middle of the self same battle. I am fighting for him...not me!

I draw her into my arms

Take my strength its yours.........

If you need to talk please pm me.

 

[xOxCherryxOx]

*my heart goes out to her and tears fill my eyes for what she's going through and I hug her tight hoping she knows that she as well is not alone*

I've lost many I love to it too Yeishia as well as have battled it myself, it's an awful thing to bear. It makes you stronger than you think you could ever be yet at the same time it personally made me feel so weak at times. You are a beautiful light my dear and I too am here for you should you ever need an ear or a shoulder.

 

[EzraPound]

*seeing her thoughts*
I can't make the pain go away, but if you let it out here with friends it will be easier to bear.
This is the very reason I made this place.
Stay as long as you like , say what ever you need and want to say or just sit.
*looking frustrated now*
I'm Afraid I have to go , I'm already late for work(no biggie don't worry) but I do have to go now, I just wanted to stay and talk with you Cherry.
No one has ever given me a rose before they met me.

 

[xOxCherryxOx]

*smiles softly at him*

I knew when I read what this place would be that you were a special person. Someone with caring in their heart should be appreciated. Have a good day at work, sorry I kept you..

 

[EzraPound]

*seeing Yeishia and Cherry connecting make it easier for me to go, I take Cherry's hand and place a soft kiss on it*
I'm so happy to have met you ,please come back any time.

*then I wrap my arms around Yeishia hug her tightly and then place a kiss on her cheek*
I'm glad you came to, sorry I have to run off just as you got here.

 

[xOxCherryxOx]

*his kindness sooths some of the ache thats been ripping through me, glad I came here and met someone with a good heart*

I'm very happy to have met you as well Ezra. I'll be sure to visit again.

 

[yeishia]

well I noticed that we seem to make close friends here, I guess playing with each others fantasy will do that.
We open up in ways we would never dream of in RL.
also I noticed there are ....well..people who are not here to ..ah..make friends but to find "partners"...so to speak.
And also it would seem even though this all takes place in our minds and is about fantasy, I have already discovered for my self how real the emotions can be.
so I set out to make a place that friend could meet but that wouldn't attract the attention of the "hunters" if you know what I mean?
By forbidding that kind of play, I wanted to make it safe to come and let it out here and not feel pressure to "engage" and also make it uninteresting to those who only want to play.

*smiles*
I hope I'm making sense.

I just read back through the thread and came upon this comment. Ezra I may never leave this place. I too came here hoping to connect, and have had my heart broken more than I could have believed. The hunters here care only for the play not the sensitive hearts they trample under foot.

I am quickly realizing that most people are not what they seem, and that this is not the place to be if you want something based on honesty and sincerity.

This is a place of escape and fantasy only; a place of beautiful illusions.....

I am slowly wrapping my head around that concept.

I cant play unless I connect and so that excludes me from most of the lounges.

Blushing I stop , I have said way to much .........

*my heart goes out to her and tears fill my eyes for what she's going through and I hug her tight hoping she knows that she as well is not alone*

I've lost many I love to it too Yeishia as well as have battled it myself, it's an awful thing to bear. It makes you stronger than you think you could ever be yet at the same time it personally made me feel so weak at times. You are a beautiful light my dear and I too am here for you should you ever need an ear or a shoulder.

I smile at her words...........

I'm glad you see my light, most see it as a weakness to be exploited.

I lean my head on her shoulder smiling.

 

[xOxCherryxOx]

I can understand you completely Yeishia. I need connection too. With that paired with my tender heart has been ... a learning process I guess. I also don't see anything weak about you. Quite the opposite actually.

*comforted by her presence I relax against her happy to have made a bond with someone special*

 

[EzraPound]

*I open the door, place my load on the floor as I remove my boots and jacket.Sighing I wonder at the beauty of the events of the morning, and think to myself if this is the only time someone comes here for the purpose for wich I built it ,then it still will have been well worth the effort.*
Thinking on Yeshias words, I feel a strong attachment to her, she understands me , she understands that the very thing that most see as weakness in being submissive is our very strength.The strength to open our hearts over and over again, in spite of the hurts , in spite of the cruelties that often bring tears to our eyes. The strength to compleaty give ourselves, all that we are ,to those we care about and love.We heal each other, love each other.
I am "broken" maybe more than most,I bear deep scars on my heart but caring for another,bringing a moment of peace and comforting another in thier time of need helps me to heal those wounds. I get more than I give.

Come bring your pain and hurt to The lodge let me and your friends wrap our arms around you and together we can heal eachother.

*blushing, I managed to embarrass my self with my own thoughts, sounds like a sermon but I won't take the words back*

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

*slips into the room and places a small parcel on the table*

gift

Label reading:

A small token ... symbol of peace and love ... hoping you enjoy your time here ... DM aka Marianne ... ​

 

[EzraPound]

* trudge up the steps to the front door carrying as many herbal teas as I could find,I feel like I'm coming down with something so I went home early today and decided to hang out at the lodge for a wile, coming though the front door I pull off my boots and jacket and set the box on the bar, then I notice a package on the counter, looking I see it's from Mari. A big smile crosses my face as I pick it up and read the inscription, I wish I had caught her here I would have liked to spend some time with her*

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

*hears footsteps and moves quickly to hide away just beyond the door ... secluding herself as she had not been invited to this private, yet drawn to leave a welcome gift.
Not wanting to intrude ... she watches as he crosses and find the small gift ... smiles as she watches him read the inscription*​

" ... enjoy your time here ... "

She murmurs softly ...

 

[EzraPound]

* opening the package I find a beautiful crystal bird, I admire it for a moment then I look around*
Where can I put this ?

* I don't want it to get knocked down but I want every one to see it, unable to decide and I really want Mari here when I place it I carefully place it back in the box hoping she shows up soon*

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

*watches ... drawn to step forward*

... hi ...

*smiles shyly*


... I didn't mean to intrude ...

 

[EzraPound]

*watches ... drawn to step forward*

... hi ...

*smiles shyly*


... I didn't mean to intrude ...

*I hear a soft voice and slightly startled I turn and see Mari standing there, I go to her and give a friendly hug*
Of course you are welcome here any time!
Thank you for the wonderfull bird.
*smiling* I was just wishing you were here.
*grinning now* sometimes wishes do come true!

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

*smiles reassured by the welcome*

Well ... I haven't been invited and don't like to gatecrash ...
I just thought I'd leave you a small gift ... it's a dove ... I'm glad you like it ...

 

[EzraPound]

You don't need an invite to come here my beautiful one all are welcome, anytime.

*blushing a bit*
Especialy those baring gifts *said with a smile*

Now where should we put this? *indicating the gift

 

[DeliciousMaiden]

*chuckles meeting his gaze then looking towards the gift*

... wherever you wish ... I hope it brings you and yours peace and love ...

*smiles soflty*

 

[EzraPound]

*chuckles meeting his gaze then looking towards the gift*

... wherever you wish ... I hope it brings you and yours peace and love ...

*smiles soflty*

*Her soft smile melts me and my resolve to have her help me place it.*

Can I get you any thing? * and befor She answers me* what brings you to the lodge? besides my sterling company.