This wasn't the way I wanted my life to go.

[delandguy]

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[bisexplicit]

Once again, thank you everyone for giving really good, really helpful advice.

I guess I just have to sit down and think about things for a while. I just don't like it, 'cause all I want to do is avoid thinking about all these painful alternatives.

 

[Willing and Unsure]

Thanks everyone for the comments...

Is it weird that I know possible ways to change things, but I'm scared to do them? I'm worried if I make any huge changes, things could possibly get worse - and it feels like no matter what huge change I would make, I'd be losing other things...

I didn't quite read the whole thread, so if someone else has said this already, forgive me.

If you're afraid of what might happen if you make huge changes, start with little ones and see where that takes you. If you're liking what happens, look into making the larger changes that will have more of an impact. If you're wanting to take the plunge, but are just hesitant about it, keep in mind that things could get worse, but you have an equal chance of them getting better. If you are truly unhappy with where you're at right now, then make some changes. Sometimes the only way to really go is up.

*huge hugs* I hope you feel better about everything soon.