Today I learned...

[Farawyn]

Not another one...

Illnesses suck, sorry.

Thanks. I've been having dreams about her, her old house, my aunt lately...
I'm gonna go see her.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[Blue]

confirmation that I suck at this. All of it.

Don't do it stag!
You have so much to live for!
I think.

 

[cookiecat]

TIL that my cousin, and best friend until I was 30, has been diagnosed with ALS. We have been somewhat estranged over the years.
Clearly, that's gonna stop.

Thanks. I've been having dreams about her, her old house, my aunt lately...
I'm gonna go see her.

This is a heartache. I know you're a nurse... but if you have any questions, please please ask. The shock of it all at first is so hard. I'm not sure if I sent you a link to my blog? I started it the week he was diagnosed -- it might help to see that emotional journey, so to speak???

All I can recommend right now is to just listen. And lots of hugs. Lots.

 

[cookiecat]

confirmation that I suck at this. All of it.

all of it. the entire charade that is life.

It is pretty sucky sometimes. I'm not sure YOU are.

Fuck. I don't really know what to say other than I hope you feel different tomorrow. Or later tonight.

 

[_Necrosomantic_]

all of it. the entire charade that is life.

Come on man, things may get dark, but there's always a bright side

 

[Farawyn]

all of it. the entire charade that is life.

You don't suck at being interesting. Take it from someone you don't know, but loves ya anyway.

This is a heartache. I know you're a nurse... but if you have any questions, please please ask. The shock of it all at first is so hard. I'm not sure if I sent you a link to my blog? I started it the week he was diagnosed -- it might help to see that emotional journey, so to speak???

All I can recommend right now is to just listen. And lots of hugs. Lots.

Oh, cookie.

I read everything you write, blog, FB, posts, all of it. You soothe my soul.

 

[Farawyn]

Come on man, things may get dark, but there's always a bright side

"There's no Messiah here, just a very naughty boy!"

 

[Blue]

Stag can you turn on your PM's for a mo' so we can all inundate you with supportive messages?
Please?

 

[_Necrosomantic_]

Thanks. I've been having dreams about her, her old house, my aunt lately...
I'm gonna go see her.

Whatever reasons you guys had for drifting apart don't matter anymore, and it speaks volumes as to the kind of person you are that you just throw that shit right out the window. Not that we didn't all already know how much of a good person you are, so we'll just add it to the pile labeled " Further evidence of how fucking great Farawyn is ". Big pile . Hope you get to see her soon.

 

[Farawyn]

Whatever reasons you guys had for drifting apart don't matter anymore, and it speaks volumes as to the kind of person you are that you just throw that shit right out the window. Not that we didn't all already know how much of a good person you are, so we'll just add it to the pile labeled " Further evidence of how fucking great Farawyn is ". Big pile . Hope you get to see her soon.

Gahhhhhhh...

 

[Azuldrgon]

today I learned that Fara isn't just awesome to me.

 

[Farawyn]

Good lord, Dragon!

All that crappy music I play in the Hideaway is not "awesome"

 

[Azuldrgon]

Good lord, Dragon!

All that crappy music I play in the Hideaway is not "awesome"

I like your music choices.

 

[cookiecat]

TIL Lit is nifty.

 

[pete]

My ex-husband did that with an empty ketchup bottle.

I threw it at his head....while he was sleeping...at 10:30 a.m.

Viva la Divorce!

ha, damn!

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

expanded my buddy list a little.

Thank you all.


I feel so fucking worthless.

Add please?

You're not. You're priceless, and irreplaceable. Truly.

It's good that you're here, it's good that you're talking, it's good that you're staying in touch and letting people know how you are.

 

[_Necrosomantic_]

Stag.

First, good on you for the smoking. I still struggle everyday with it, but that has far more to do with my own inability to overcome past addictions and not process stress properly. Yes, I'm aware it actually does the opposite in terms of stress, but good fucking luck explaining that to the echoes of a former self destructive mentality. As for alternatives to punching my own clock, yeah, I'm not going to dust off and back that old dump truck over everybody's evening, so I'll just say go ahead and be melodramatic, but only if it helps.

Second, you aren't worthless, in spite of what you are telling yourself. Man, I've read things you've posted about your kids that go above and beyond, that counts for more than you know and you should give yourself a hell of a lot more credit than you do. It ain't easy to hold your stuff together when you're treading water financially, and if you throw children into the mix, you'll just feel like you're sinking faster, and anybody that would argue that point is a fucking dunce. Despite your own demons, you are trying for them, and that is HUGE. I see the other end of the spectrum every day here, and you don't even come close. As for you having anxiety over switching roles with your wife, I'm at an admitted loss on that one, I've never been married or even been in a long term relationship since God was a boy. So I can't really opine on the matter, but I know you're a resourceful enough guy to figure it out, you've made it this far, so I think you'll be alright.

Don't believe me? Think about it. What possible reason would I have to blow sunshine up your ass about anything? Answer is, I don't. All just my opinion based on the limited interactions I've had with you and the small amount I've read. So, for what it's worth, I think you're doing just fine, even though you dismissed Hunter and Demon to me in your thread that one time

 

[MastersDelight]

Stag

If coming here and venting here helps then do it. You're an amazing parent who goes above and beyond. I only hope your daughter doesn't suffer from a switch.

If I may ask... And you can tell me to pound sand.... Why does she suddenly feel the need to change roles? Especially if there's been an improvement?

 

[_Necrosomantic_]

the wound smoulders doesn't it. LOL

And you just keep twisting the knife.

 

[MyNameIsNO]

Staggy
I can only offer you my thoughts and love because I'm feel like I'm falling down my own downward spiral.
Hang in there lovely. We all know you are a loving thoughtful father. Things are tough, and yes we may be Internet folks but you can vent to us.

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

Of course!...

how did I miss putting you on it long ago?

I guess i've only started using the "buddy list only" feature this year. before that I would sporadically turn them on (about once a year), and with each season; little by little, rediscover how self destructive that feature can be for me.

Thanks!

I don't think think I've seen you since the days of my blanket fort thread. That's been more than a year, surely?

Good to be in touch again.

 

[cookiecat]

Thanks!

I don't think think I've seen you since the days of my blanket fort thread. That's been more than a year, surely?

Good to be in touch again.

*perk* blanket fort thread?????

 

[Wild_Honey_66]

*perk* blanket fort thread?????

It's been dormant a looong time. And it was on the PG.

I could make one here, if you like... ?

 

[cookiecat]

It's been dormant a looong time. And it was on the PG.

I could make one here, if you like... ?

I like!

Scroll down:

http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=1356568&page=3

We started talking a lot about forts in the middle of this thread... sounds like it needs its own thread!!