Unsent Messages to Him/Her

[ethereal~minx]

What does Spirit want me to know?

Nine of Crystals

A fire is brilliantly glowing inside the gnome cottage on this card as the thrill and anticipation of Christmas Eve fills the air. A stage of completion draws near. Much preparation has gone into creating a festive and warm holiday. The gestating hope and wonder of gifts yet to come instill a sense of awe as Christmas morning draws near. The mama gnome is pregnant, and her candle symbolizes the light of the new soul about to be born. Presents under the tree remain unopened, and the stockings on the hearth are not yet filled. The nine stockings over the fire represent a profound receptivity to higher forces, while the nine candles illuminating the beautiful yule tree turn it into a glowing crystal. The little gnome girl anticipates the arrival of Saint Nicholas, yet she knows she must sleep and surrender to another world of dreams before his magical offering will come. Expectation abounds.

The Nine of Crystals marks the period of life when the divine potential of the future is near. The mama gnome is reading a story to her child. When you receive this card, realize that you are also meant to be the storyteller of your life. The story can be only as conscious as the one who tells it. What new theme, fairy tale, or adventure will you enter into next? As you move into this period of completion, trust in the goodness of what is yet to manifest in your life. A magical gift, a special friendship, or a new opportunity may be on its way.

 

[ethereal~minx]

Nothing ever ends, I payed attention in math!!!
~~~~~~~
are you sure it's the end

 

[Mistress K]

I really want to post her but...

i'm not sure that it's appropriate.

It's a full on bitch letter, not nice or sweet like some of the others here and it seems to "ruin" such a lovely mood you have created.

K

 

[ethereal~minx]

Re: I really want to post here but...

i'm not sure that it's appropriate.

It's a full on bitch letter, not nice or sweet like some of the others here and it seems to "ruin" such a lovely mood you have created.

K

Please do~ I chose to remove the vicious one that I wrote because it was making me feel bad--- there's no need for me to keep such ugly thoughts (at least then)
I got it out, it was read, I didn't need to keep it forever : )
I'd rather just keep the happy happy ones *rolling eyes*

please post away : )

 

[ethereal~minx]

do you believe in love at first sight?
about 10 minutes is all it took
loves me! it's pretty profound, the
description he gave, not superficial
and wow I'm amazed~~~
if a person sees all this in me
and I'm struggling with this pain
then another is desiring to be with me
and I'm still crying everyday
whoa~ where is my head?
I have nothing to lose~
I want to know what's in your heart
and I want to talk with you
I will ask you to be open with me
as I have been open with you
my heart will hold nothing back
when I say my words to you
I just dont need this pain anymore
learning in pain will no longer do

 

[echoes_s]

To my Master and Mistress

My dear Master and Mistress, as you truely are.
Please forgive me for my selfish thoughts that i am
dying of loneliness
by only my desires to serve you always
spurred by our inability to be together.
yours...

 

[ethereal~minx]

speaking softly at the table
yet too loudly for your ears
from across the room
you come at me
with rage & violence
in your eyes
suddenly my head is turned
by your grip in my hair
"You need to shut up..."
you yell in my face
you release & my earring flies



I'm sorry too.

 

[ethereal~minx]

what do you expect
I am still your friend
I won't lay down to you
I won't do it again
I hold nothing against you
I have no pain in my heart
your behavior is forgiven
this is my new start

be angry if you want
this behavior means unmet needs
remember underneath your anger
is truth needing release

 

[ethereal~minx]

I was almost accepting the idea of being a 'fuckdoll' to you
but then I just read there is a difference between a fuck-friend and a lover

while I wouldn't and don't question our love~as friends~ for eachother---I wonde

 

[ethereal~minx]

I crept into your room, barely audible I asked
"can i come lay with you?"
no response ---
I turned around feeling my shame~~
I cried and I tried to put you out of my mind
I struggled with my thoughts
I can't do it again
it is wrong to do it with you
the calling was sooo strong
i rationalized in my mind
my intention was human touch~
warmth
physical closeness, skin on skin
and i asked you once again
"can i come lay with you"
your response was almost disdain
I got undressed but not all the way
to show you I wasn't asking for more
You wrapped your arms around me
I felt safe, protected from sexual harm
you held me tightly
with your arm around my neck
your other hand began to wander
and I fought to retain control
I didn't want to be used
but your body against mine
betrayed my words
i was fearing the father in you
I was trembling in your arms
your fingers went underneath
and into my hair
& then your words confirmed
what you were intent on finding
proof of my true desire
you are wet, that's right, that's good
i was locked tight against you
no matter how i fought
i couldn't pull away
with your fingers stroking me
you took my breath away

 

[ethereal~minx]

You said to me once he is an evil man
my eyes went wide inside as I contemplated what you said
I haven't forgotten your words but I've found so much truth
in this one and this one and in the one made with you
I get an uneasy feeling every now and then
of something deep and hidden but then i spin again
why did you say that do you know i love this son
do you know he cares for me too is it the reason why he runs
does he know the secret am i getting too close
he keeps pushing me away but maintains a tenacious hold
whatever it is it's done it needs to be let go
there's no reason it has to hold on there's a now to behold

 

[ethereal~minx]

I've decided to look in my mirror
to see the me I see
who is it I've become
is it the me I want to be
why don't I recognize her
who's eyes are those that cry
why are your cheeks so red
why is your heart so blind
why are you looking
for a heart that is not there
what do you see in those blue eyes
all I see is a blank stare
sweetheart, he's not seeing you
the way you are seeing him
his eyes are unfocused
that is why you spin
listen to your heart
it's been telling you what to do
pull your eyes away
from the spell of the blue
look away from those eyes
don't turn to his voice
stop yourself next time
make a conscious choice
think of the things
that bring joy to your days
keep your mind busy
& don't let it stray

 

[ethereal~minx]

all that you desire will manifest through the night

the dark nights of your soul
questioning questioning you go
you have found the answers
in the one you won't let go
I am your colors
your brilliance
your light
bring Me your current
together we're sooo BRIGHT
the vision is before you
open your eyes to see
awaken with Me My little one
we'll manifest our dreams
Together we will twirl
up to the starlit skies
shake hands with Orion
& overcome the lies
the light will shine before us
all darkness to the light
Come forth My heart young child
I'll hold you through the night
the wind is fierce for calling
nature drawing us home
calling us home to powerful skies
in our nature we will roam
together we can stop the rain
bring peace
bring love
bring light
join with Me in this heaven land
Our dreams we'll ignite
send sparks out to everywhere
let peace and love rain down
wash away the original sin
duality is devil's own
we have the power to change this
to see love through these eyes
love is the only truth
in faith we must abide
join your hands to Mine
raise palms to the sky
commune with Me in nature
see love through My eyes
WE ARE ALL ONE
you and I are two
together we can build this bridge
connecting Me and you
Spirit and Life before us
a connection is ours to make
it's been done before love
let HEAVEN be today

Wow! Divine Spirit in the sky
this is so right I know it's true
I loved you before
but thissss to me is new

 

[ethereal~minx]

why are you such a chicken to tell me who you are?
why do you mess with me here?
are you one of the 40% that pretend to be what you're not?

have fun~~~ : )

 

[ethereal~minx]

you know, it's not necessarily a crush when you're into what someone is saying~~~ just because You pique my interest doesn't mean I want anything from you

if that were true, I'd have a huge crush on many of you out there~~ you just happen to be male & appealing
and it's just your av & your strength that makes me want to know more of you

 

[ethereal~minx]

He was 'naturally' dominant~~~ sooo easily able to *smile* "lift me" to subspace with just the tone of his voice & the look in his eyes (still makes my heart tremor recalling these times & how little effort it took)...
in hindsight~ it was the words, the tone of his voice and the conviction in what he said that put me in the deepest submissive heart/mind. I recall one particular instance where *wow~burst of emotion* he was telling me to eat healthier~~~ in a way that caused me to blush because well, it was after a rather intimate experience.. the expression of his desire---balanced by concern for my well-being made me feel at that moment like the most cared for, cherished, prized possession
~it's difficult to explain.
ah, maybe it was so easy at that point~ or so easy for me to read his 'naturalness' because I was not questioning his care for me~~~ it was felt in my heart. yep, at that point~ I was able to determine what he wanted me to know ---ohkay, this is interesting. I'm thinking~ in a relationship such as this.. "natural d/s" to succeed~ the hearts must be open, not fearing, TRUSTING, knowing the heart of the dominant is seeing the well-being in you.. if the submissive is questioning your care~ isn't the dominant the one that 'notices'~~~or the dominant would be open to hearing the submissives cries for communication~ understanding~ so to keep the magic natural d/s alive...

when you travel to places you've never been~ it helps when you believe in your friend
hmmm interesting stuff

 

[ethereal~minx]

truly, the littlest things~~~ unlocking & opening my door for me
..it was a good afternoon~~ twice for me
and the compliment ~~about me "obviously" reading the "HOW TO"
I tell ya, those two words this-morning~~ I felt a myriad of feelings...so easily you affect me and soooo deeeply~~
it feels so right

 

[ethereal~minx]

what else am I learning?
love is letting go
love is not fixed on an outcome, love is freeee

there is no reason for an ultimatum
~~~it is true, I am and you are, we are regardless of what you call it, living this dominance and submission 'naturally' when we are together...
I'm wondering how, when a "Dom" has a 'toy' do they care for them.. do they disregard the toy's feelings? emotions? and just use them?
what about a natural dominant just having a sextoy? is there ---*puking*
*just my mixed thoughts*

and, as for "taking you up on that"
I believe, okay? I believed in you... though I questioned at the time, I still believed there was something deeeeep betweeen us... so much so that I felt pushed and led and to show you that I believed... I wanted to please you, do as you wish...
to believe soo strongly in you, to go there 'for you' was the impetus... it was known on both sides...
hindsight is again, 20/20~~~ I'm thinking of that song by Sarah ~~I have sunk so low... to compromise my 'self' in questionable circumstances~~~ ....

 

[ethereal~minx]

the mirror reflects what we don't see
all things hidden within you and me
the depth of pain you wonder why
the mirror reflects crying eyes
but deeper still beyond what is seen
lies the answer to all your dreams
to get there you must cry the tears
find the strength to release the fears
the fears you didn't know you held
the fears that love alone will melt


~~~not recent mindyou : )

 

[ethereal~minx]

hey there~ i have your key
let me know how you want to get it

the nature of love is to love
and i love you so
i know you won't forget it
and... pulease, no 'relationship' worries!!!!

friendship is where it's at!
have a good day *kiss on the cheek*

edited to add:
Saturday was my pleasure~ though you two left & the first thing I hear is "Hi, what are you doing here?" & something about bein a good little woman~~~ hey, you know~ I don't mind!!!
it was familiar & made me smile~~~

hope you both liked the flowers~~~ beautiful reminders!!!!
love love love!!!!

 

[ethereal~minx]

I'm better now~~~ momentary loss~~musta been the wheel in the sky

the flowers may need water
especially with those fires you build

hope court went well for you btw..

 

[ethereal~minx]

Bill Withers~Use Me

My friends feel it's their appointed duty
They keep trying to tell me all you want to do is use me
But my answer yeah to all that use me stuff
Is I wanna spread the news that if it feels this good getting used
Oh you just keep on using me until you use me up
Until you use me up

My brother sit me right down and he talked to me
He told me that I ought not to let you just walk on me
And I'm sure he meant well yeah but when our talk was through
I said brother if you only knew you'd wish that you were in my shoes
You just keep on using me until you use me up
Until you use me up

Oh sometimes yeah it's true you really do abuse me
You get in a crowd of high class people and then you act real rude to me
But oh baby baby baby baby when you love me I can't get enough
I and I wanna spread the news that if it feels this good getting used
Oh you just keep on using me until you use me up
Until you use me up

Talking about you using me but it all depends on what you do
It ain't too bad the way you're using me
Cause I sure am using you to do the things you do
Ah ha to do the things you do

 

[ethereal~minx]

3 Doors Down~Kryptonite!!! for FSMoon

I took a walk around the world to ease my troubled mind.
I left my body laying somewhere in the SANDS of time.
I watch the world float to the dark side of the moon.
I feel there's nothing I can do, Yeah.

I watched the world float to the dark side of the moon.
After all I knew it had to be something to do with you.
I really don't mind, what happens now and then.
As long as you'll be my friend at the end.

CHORUS: If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman.
If I'm alive and well, will you be there holding my hand.
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman MIGHT, Kryptonite.

You call me strong, you call me weak but still your secrets I will keep.
It took for granted, all the times I never let you down.
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if not for me then you would be dead.
I picked you up, and put you back on solid ground.

CHORUS:If I go crazy then will you still call me superman.
If I'm alive and well will you be there, holding my hand.
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman MIGHT, Kryptonite, Yeah!

CHORUS: If I go crazy then will you still call me superman.
If I'm alive and well, will you be there, holding my hand.
I'll keep you by my side with my superhuman MIGHT , Kryptonite.

 

[ethereal~minx]

tuesday

I miss you~
there are days, like yesterday that i was able to overcome this weakness~
but today is just really hurting...
I just feel alone---I know I'm not
I have everything to be thankful for~
my children, my job
I'm really strong, I am fine
I just miss you
it's not like I want anything emotional
a hug wouldn't do me any good~~~
they're supposed to be heartfelt and well,
I'm not feelin it
I just miss talking to you
and ...then I let myself think about instances that meant alot to me & I just cry because they're gone
Saturday was nice, really it was okay
I relive the pleasure & it still arouses me
but to know that is all there is kills me when I think of all that was
it's the hindsight that hurts
all that I did to damage us, and I know my intentions were not to hurt us but if I had only known this is where I'd be, it would be different
I wouldn't have felt uncomfortable living in your house...that right there would have made it allittle better~~~ cleaner, happier, more natural
I wouldn't have tried in vain to get you to understand me~~ you did without my pushing
I would have trusted in that first look in your eyes, not second guess your motives/intent
I love the way you are and I did right from the start~ I needed to practice what I preached & listen instead of speak
I wouldn't have tried so hard to get us to work together on the kids because we were~ it became obvious in Oct when we were all together... and it was so evident and appreciated by not only me
I wouldn't have questioned you

 

[ethereal~minx]

thursday

hey you~~ I just want to tell you, You have touched my life in ways I never dreamed

I have been blessed with your involvement in my life~~~though I did not realize it in every shared moment, I know there were reasons for those times~ GROWTH & awareness

I was so blessed in ways I didn't even know

and now I do

I just wanted you to know too

thank you Sparkle Eyes