What do you get from it?

[FurryFury]

to be honest I know that it bothers him, and he does keep control of it very well. After the first time, and it has been the last time for it. He raped my ass, and due to size, i was totally non consenting. He has not ever attempted it again. I was terrified, and upset. He I think was just as upset, and considering he actually teared up and promised never to do it again. That was years ago. No i don't get into cruelty, and your right if we do progress into this that part of him may very well turn into a problem. I want dominance not damage, so far though we are going VERY slow.

*hugs*

I see. It's scary that he did that IMO. All that I say is simply my opinion. I am not an expert.

I think the fact that he did that might make two things that can be quite pleasurable off limits.

I might have a little sadist in me, so I've been told but I find it hard to figure out how he could think that would be something he could or should do.

I find ass fucking and the little bit of rape play I've done to be very hot but real rape and/or ass fucking without lube, slowly opening up the anus and so on to be unpleasant.

I find people are funny creatures. They can cry and be sincere at one moment and then fuck up all over again the next. However the fact that all this happened years ago and has not been repeated is better than I would have expected. Building back trust once it's been torn like that is hard work. I have to commend you for that. It certainly shows a high (or as in my case, I like to say, insane, *L*) level of commitment that few these days seem to have.

Going slow with lots of communication on both sides sounds good to me.

Fury

 

[cashmerekitten]

I agree with rape play and ass fucking being good, unfortunately he's just to damn large for me to accomadate. We are thinking of a trip to the toy store though yippiiee...It's weird. I want the rape, and I would love to be a sex slave to him ireally would, but I cannot seem to get him into the scene ya know? It's like he withdraws as soon as he gets his dark side as we call it. I mean he may fuck the hell out of me, but that is just slammin and rammin, and I would like more than that, perhaps you could say a little plot...I also think that alot depends on the mood of each individual. I mean coming home from a totally hot shitty day at work being completely wiped out and just wanting dinner and bed isn't real conductive, to my ohmygod I am so friggen horny... lol. timing all about timing....blah... what happened to just being young and wanting it???? anyway I guess you could say the situation is kinda sticky. I truly forgive him for what he did, and all that now I just wish he could temper it. Take this for instance ya know the little dreams, or pics in your head? Well he had one using a sawzaw? as a toy.....UMMMMmmm no way in hell!!! I looked at him, and about freaked. I said you are one sick fucked up person! His reply is yeah thats why I don't let my dark side out that often....uhhh I guess I get that, but damn!
I am really excited though to see what happens, I am thinking about getting a little whip, or something and spanking him, see were that goes maybe that will bring the tiger out. Any suggestions would be appreciated still.