PandoraGlitters
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Because probably you have never heard of BJ Ward or Renee Ashley, I just want to share one poem each with you.
The Animals Below by Renee Ashley
It was never just the animals:
And Next, a little BJ Ward.
Gravedigger's Birthday by BJ Ward
We had only dated for three weeks
but there I was, burying her cat.
To top things off, it was my birthday,
but I knew the cat's death trumped it
so into the ground I went,
never having dug a grave before
but knowing I should know how.
Such an ancient, simple action,
as if our bodies evolved to do such work--
opposable thumb to dig and dig
deeper into the earth, and standing erect
to toss soil from our graves. I remembered
something from somewhere--boy scouts
or horror movie--delve deep enough
so racoons can't stir up the corpse.
I did it all quietly with a sudden solemnity
not for the cat--I barely knew it--
but for the motion, the first ancestral thing
I had done in years, aware this was traffic
with old gods. The indifferent stars pinned
the lips of the grave open, and I lifted up
that solid eggplant of a body, and lowered her
carefully into the soil, as if the cat could feel it,
or the earth could. Ridiculous.
Then I lifted up that shovel, again
knowing what to do--load upon load
into the earth, back onto that body,
returning it but also casting it out
of my modern life where I would soon take
the short walk from the grave to the house,
eat some meat without thinking
of eating the meat, get in bed
next to my new, warm, mourning girlfriend
on a mattress imported from far away, some speck
of the grave's dirt rising behind a fingernail
as I lie awake, the faint next click
of my life's odometer there in the darkness,
living and dying at the same time,
thinking how so much motion and instinct
lies inert in the earth next to the swing set,
and how the ground's new toothless mouth
settled into closure without pomp,
temporary and permanent at once.
The Animals Below by Renee Ashley
It was never just the animals:
it was your opossum aunt strung
with her ridiculous Paris silk scarves, it was the balloon man with the mustache
thick as bear fur, then it was the dogwho followed you home, the gray dog who looked
like the sorry mutt that followed your fatherhome, the dog with the one blank eye that roamed
the way your teacher's eye drifted leftwhen you were ten, and wild with impatience, always
left, towards the window, the ravaged poplar, the wasps' nests--you would have gone with it
if you could. No it was never justthe animals. Somewhere in keeping track,
the lines got crossed; the hybrid speciesthat is your mind confused you, addled your
perceptions. No wonder you don't know the difference. Look, the way I see it,
out there it's only faces--and when Godruns out of faces He repeats Himself.
That woman in Reno who, unequivocally,is not your chinless coast-of-France aunt,
is so like hershe should be; there she is, your sliver-faced aunt, three-dimensional and
smelling of the sea, ready with the others, your past and your future, in your mind.
You see, God's got this funny senseof humor. It's all the same to Him:
three orange cats in heat, six bankers, a lostdog, your opossum aunt, the animals below.
And Next, a little BJ Ward.
Gravedigger's Birthday by BJ Ward
We had only dated for three weeks
but there I was, burying her cat.
To top things off, it was my birthday,
but I knew the cat's death trumped it
so into the ground I went,
never having dug a grave before
but knowing I should know how.
Such an ancient, simple action,
as if our bodies evolved to do such work--
opposable thumb to dig and dig
deeper into the earth, and standing erect
to toss soil from our graves. I remembered
something from somewhere--boy scouts
or horror movie--delve deep enough
so racoons can't stir up the corpse.
I did it all quietly with a sudden solemnity
not for the cat--I barely knew it--
but for the motion, the first ancestral thing
I had done in years, aware this was traffic
with old gods. The indifferent stars pinned
the lips of the grave open, and I lifted up
that solid eggplant of a body, and lowered her
carefully into the soil, as if the cat could feel it,
or the earth could. Ridiculous.
Then I lifted up that shovel, again
knowing what to do--load upon load
into the earth, back onto that body,
returning it but also casting it out
of my modern life where I would soon take
the short walk from the grave to the house,
eat some meat without thinking
of eating the meat, get in bed
next to my new, warm, mourning girlfriend
on a mattress imported from far away, some speck
of the grave's dirt rising behind a fingernail
as I lie awake, the faint next click
of my life's odometer there in the darkness,
living and dying at the same time,
thinking how so much motion and instinct
lies inert in the earth next to the swing set,
and how the ground's new toothless mouth
settled into closure without pomp,
temporary and permanent at once.