BlackWolf65: Semi-Retirement Announcement

[BlackWolf65]

Hi, everyone. I'm making a little announcement here. I'm going into a sort semi-retirement mode. Things have happened in R/L, things that are beyond the control of both DF and myself. I want to make it very clear that we are still together, but we are not free at the moment to be together in the way that wish to be. In fact, we have been severely limited now in what we can have for contact with one another. That *will* change, but probably not for some time. I will be open about this: There is someone in R/L who has no scruples about using his own children as a weapon in order to hold DF hostage in a situation that she simply wants to remove herself from. How someone could ever even contemplate using his own children in such a way is completely beyond my comprehension...

So, I am going to leave here, for the most part. I'm not disappearing - this is one of the very few places where DF and I can still have contact with one another. But it will be sporadic, at best, and I just can't bring myself to be here as often as I am used to being here - it just hurts too much. I am used to hanging out here while I wait for DF to come on line. I'm used to being on the phone or in IM with her while we posted together in the Grove. And quite honestly, this place is no longer the same for me without her here the way she used to be...

Please, understand that I will be checking in, I will be posting, but you won't see me nearly as much anymore. Not until things return to being somewhat normal for DF and I. I will continue to maintain the OSP thread, and I'll stay in contact. I will welcome PM's from everyone, and especially from those of you who have become our very good friends. You know who you are...

I want those people - those friends - to know how very much your caring and support has meant, and continues to mean, to both DF and I. Some of you have just made yourselves available to listen, you have offered advice and support and caring. You are truly among the most wonderful people I have ever been blessed and honored to know. A couple of you have my phone number - please feel free to call me. Email me, post to me, leave PM's - just stay in contact, because you really are counted as being among my very best friends in the world...

With that...

{{{{{RH&F}}}}}
{{{{{RebelRose}}}}}
{{{{{FS}}}}}
{{{{{Stegral}}}}} (Very *SPECIAL* hugs to you, Sweetie...)
{{{{{Jail}}}}}
{{{{{Nauty}}}}}
{{{{{Deprived_in_AZ}}}}}
{{{{{Foof}}}}}
{{{{{Microbiology}}}}}
{{{{{hdlynnette}}}}}
{{{{{OR}}}}} (Even though I don't know where you are right now...)

And yes - to the guys, too...

{{{{{ccnyman}}}}}
{{{{{au_man}}}}}
{{{{{Mark}}}}}
{{{{{higherlevel}}}}}
{{{{{tolyk}}}}}
{{{{{KnightWing}}}}}
{{{{{CT}}}}} (Even though I didn't get to know you as well as I would have liked...)

And if I've missed anyone, I apologize... It's just that right now, I'm not thinking all that clearly...

I truly love all of you. You have shared fun times with me, you have encouraged me in many things, you have offered your shoulders to cry on when I needed that. And I will always be grateful to you for allowing me into your little world here, and welcoming me here at a time when I so desperately needed to find kind, caring, understanding people to talk to.

I'm not saying, "Goodbye" to all of you...

I'm saying "So long for now..."

I'll pop in when I can...

BW

 

[SweetBrie]

Personally I think you should stick amongst your friends for they will help you thru this tough time. But I will respect your decision and wish you well.

 

[WyldBreeze]

I wish the best of luck to both of you, sweetie......I'll keep you in my good thoughts. *big comforting hugs*

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

BW - You know where I am. I am always available to talk. I think you should come and go when you feel the need to smile, laugh, and yes hun, perhaps even cry. We all here are your friends and will continue to be your friends. I understand your reason for taking this time away and easing up on Lit. I do know it can be hard not to be with the one you love in the way you desire and so coming to a place where you always see that person can be hard, but know that we are all here too and we to are a part of your life and long to continue the friendship you have graced us with. So my dear friend come and go as the needs weigh upon you, but always know we are here.

 

[Shreik]

Dude be safe and know we are pulling for you two

 

[ImmortaleAmante]

I am sorry to hear things are so complex for you right now and i wish both of you well.

I understand very well how easily the place of lit become so special thanks to the presence of another, and how when something comes in the way of it Lit can become a very different place, a difficlut place to be.

 

[Sloppykitten]

I'm very sorry to see that you are having a hard time right now. I am grateful that I was able to get to know you when I did...long enough to know what a wonderful person you are but definitely not long enough to be saying "so long" (I hope you understand what I'm trying to say because even as I'm typing this it's just not coming out right and I can't think of a right way to put it!).

You know you (and DF) can contact me at any time...my old school mates didn't call me "Dear Abby" for nothing!! LOL...but seriously, I'm always here if either of you need an ear, a shoulder, a hug, a kick in the pants p)......

(...unfortunately...I DO know the pain of having someone use your children against you as pawns to get what they want....I very much feel for DF and the situation she's in. People who do that are so selfish and I just wish I could make them open their eyes and see the pain they cause those poor kids....good luck, I'm routing for you!)

 

[Stegral]

BW... I am soooo sorry...
as everyone has already stated I will offer up as well...
e-mail, IM or PM me anytime... even if it just to vent, cry or scream....
(I can & do feel for DF as I has my children used in this way & instead of the trauma of the court system & such I let them go... mind you they were very young & by now may have forgotten the possible mental trauma, but by the same token I never really had the chance to get extremely bonded either...)
I don't know how old DF's are but if she needs to talk, vent or scream give her my addies...
I have seen the court system do it's worst & lived...

ANYTIME you want to chat... related or not to you & DF I am here...

Be safe, be strong & fate will show what shall be...

((((((BW))))))

 

[Raidho]

BW,

I've been lurking and reading your posts far longer than my join date suggests.

Do what you gotta do and know that nothing worth having ever comes easy.

While we can choose our goals and final destination, we don't always get to choose which path we take to get there.

May you walk your path with grace and never lose sight of your goal.



Edited: Did you really just join a month before me? It doesn't seem possible!

 

[BlackWolf65]

Popping in for a second...

May I please say that all of you - those I know well, those I don't - are the most wonderful people I have ever been graced to know...

Thank you for your words, all of you...

DF and I are truly blessed to know each and every one of you...

 

[ima6uldv8]

RL can certainly be very hard at times. I'm sorry. I didn't know about what was happening. I do know how special this place can be because of someone, though. If you ever need more support, feel free to pm me. Your letter was very touching to me and you now have me teary eyed. Some people can be ruthless when it come to others' happiness. Not caring who is hurt in the process. I wish you and DF the best of luck and may you be together soon

 

[Dragonflie]

BW...I don't know what to say...I was stunned to see this...


I want to add my thanks to each of you for your love, friendship and support of BlackWolf...
It means more to me than any of you will ever know...it eases my heart somewhat to read this thread and know
that he will be taken care of...
Hugs and kisses to all...I'll still be here as often as I can.
DF

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

DF - - We are here for you too. Don't forget that. You may feel alone at times, but we are here.

 

[Shreik]

BW...I don't know what to say...I was stunned to see this...


I want to add my thanks to each of you for your love, friendship and support of BlackWolf...
It means more to me than any of you will ever know...it eases my heart somewhat to read this thread and know
that he will be taken care of...
Hugs and kisses to all...I'll still be here as often as I can.
DF

I for one hope you will. Each of us care for both of you very much

 

[mark197205]

I just want to say best of luck to you both, remember your on the side of right here, good will always prevail, and I have to say anyone that uses their kids as weapons against their partner is really low in my book....


Its been a pleasure geting to know you both, we will all be here when things are set to allow you more time here with us.

 

[BlackWolf65]

BW...I don't know what to say...I was stunned to see this...

Okay, I guess I need to clarify some things here... For you, my Love...

I'm not retiring from Lit. I'm not going away... You know that you can always find me here... I'm going to be checking in here regularly - daily. I may not be posting, but I'll be checking. And you can rest assured that if you have posted, I will be posting back to you...

I've told you this: You don't need to worry anymore - if you can call me, then just call. "She" knows, she has no problem, and if you call, she won't answer. So, if there is no answer, know that I'm not home. But when you can, call me. When you can, post here, and I'll see it, and I'll respond. I will never give up on us, DF - not EVER... You are my life, Sweet Tea... You are my everything... And I will never give up on us...

I'm sorry if this thread was misunderstood by you... I only meant it to be an announcement that I won't be here as much as I used to be. And to be a thank you to the people who have been so kind and caring to both of us...

I love you, my dearest V... (As close as I can come to announcing your name...) You are my life, my love, and my soul... And we *will* come through this, and I *will* collect those pieces of your broken heart, and put them in my medicine bag, and one day, I will reach in there, and take out your heart, whole, complete, and renewed, and offer it back to you...

I love you, V... I always will... Until the day I die, and beyond...

I love you...

 

[foofoo416]

God dammit BW, I didn't think men talked like that. Certainly none I've ever known. Your woman is very lucky, and I'm sure that she knows that deep down every day. Just reading that post above would help me carry on through hell and back. I truly hope that the both of you pull through this with flying colors. I am sorry for your combined pain, and I think that anyone, M or F, who uses their children as weapons are extremely sick. They are the only true innocents when it comes to divorce, and I think their comfort and well-being should be of the utmost importance. I just don't get that mentality, and I'm glad I don't. I can't imagine the pain of being torn apart this soon, but I know that you are a wolf for a reason...you will sink in your teeth and dig in your heels and put up a nasty fuckarow of a fight. Good for you! I totally understand wanting to back away for a while because of the pain, shit, I avoid whole threads for completely immature reasons. I couldn't fathom that kind of pain. But as someone said in an earlier post...you do have friends here, and we will always be here. Sometimes you need your friends. My best wishes and hopes are with you both.

 

[Brightdawn]

*hugs BW & DF*

Hold on you two...thing have to get better, you belong together and will be soon...things may look dark now and the tunnel too long, but there is an end...and the light is shining brightly, you just may not be able to see it yet...but belive it is true and it will be...

*hugs* & *kisses* to you both

 

[purrbaby]

Can't even begin to imagine what you two are going through and at the same time I think I have a good idea...

Many good thoughts and prayers for both of you, you're truly wonderful people.

::hugs::

 

[hdlynnette]

((((((((BW & DF)))))))))

I have lived vicariously through the two of you in following your story on this board. The two of you have given me hope that there may actually be someone for me out there and you've also given me the courage and spirit to try to find him. For that, I thank you both.

DF, I haven't had the pleasure of meeting you yet, but from what BW has told me about you, I think you and I would get along like most G.R.I.T.S. do.

BW, if you or your lovely lady need to talk, vent, scream or just cry, my PM box is permanently open to both of you.

Now, I'll be over here in the corner with the rest of the Lit folks that are raisin hell by cheering you two on.



~L~

 

[ObsidianRose]

{{{{{OR}}}}} (Even though I don't know where you are right now...)

((((((((((Wolfie))))))))))) I'm here, Dearest! You and DF are my thoughts. You know the number. Anytime.

 

[Jail]

(((((((((((((BW and DF))))))))))))))))

You'll be together soon

 

[BlackWolf65]

Last one for now... I feel... I don't know... I kind of wandered off tonight, and I fell asleep. I was trying, I guess, to escape. And I missed DF in IM... I'm sorry for that, my Love - I wanted nothing more than to talk to you tonight...

I guess this is taking more of a toll than I thought. First of all, reading what everyone has said here has brought tears... Your words - all of you - demonstrate exactly what I meant in the first post in this thread...

In my dream tonight, when I fell asleep, I learned something. You see, dreams are very significant to me. Within my belief system, they are communications from the spirit world, offering guidance. And without going into particulars, because this was a very personal dream, I will say that I have learned that I need to be strong. Some of you, in PM's, have told me this, but I learned it in a different way tonight. I have to be strong for both of us right now. DF is not in a position to be strong right now, but I *can* be. For now, I need to put my own pain aside, be willing to step back, and be here for her when she needs me.

So, my Love, I will put the tears to rest. I will stand straight, and I will be here for you when you need me. You know that you can call me, any time. And you know that I will always be here, that I am only waiting for you to be able to come to me, or to tell me that I can come to you. I am so very sorry that I've been such a wreck for the last two days. I have wallowed in my own pain, and indulged in a lot of self-pity. I need now to put that aside. I need to be the man that you *need* me to be for you. So, please know that I am here, and that I am doing the only things that I can do right now. I am waiting, and I am planning, and I am preparing for the day that I hear you tell me that I can come to you. Because I know that day will come, and when it does, I will be ready.

I love you, DF. And nothing can ever change that... Another quote from Alison Krauss: "Time can't erase a lover's embrace..." Our love cannot be erased, Sweet Tea. I am here, and I will be strong for us...

I love you...

 

[purrbaby]

::hugs:: BW.... That post brought me to tears... That was so beautiful...

All my thoughts, always, are with you both. Be safe, be strong, be love...

 

[expertlinguist]

I Will Surely Miss Your Wit If You Disappear