BlackWolf65: Semi-Retirement Announcement

[may-]

Wowie.. Kinda speechless. Best of Luck to the two of you.

 

[BlackWolf65]

Doing this, because I want to be completely sure that DF sees this post... It's posted in the Grove, but I just need to be sure that she sees it...

I'm so sorry, my Love... When you wake, go to the new thread, and you'll see what happened. I let you down, but that will *never* happen again. I've been sitting in my own pain, and letting myself indulge in a lot of self-pity. And by doing that, I have been disregarding what I *know* you are going through right now... That is over. I dreamed tonight, and I learned in that dream that I have to stand up and be strong for both of us right now...

DF, you own my heart... It belongs to you. And I know that right now, your heart is completely shattered. But, as I said in the other thread, I am collecting all of the pieces of your heart, and I am putting them into my medicine bag... And there *will* come a day when I can reach back into that bag, and take out your heart - complete, whole, and new again, and offer it back to you, along with my own...

Our love cannot be denied, DF... I feel it, you feel it, and we will fulfill it, together...

I promise you here and now, I will *never* let you down again the way that I did tonight. I will be here, 24/7/365, for you, whenever and whatever you need. You have my word, Sweet Tea - I will *never* let you down again.

I won't be posting tomorrow (today, now) - I have a dentist's appointment, and there's going to be some major work done. I'm going to be hurting all day, so I'll probably just try to sleep it away for the day. Which for me means that I'll be in and out here, so I'll be looking for you. Until I can speak to you again, either here, or on the phone...

I want you to know - to *know* without any doubt - that I love you. You have become the center, around which everything in my life revolves... I could no more live without you than I could stop breathing and still live... You *are* my breath, my life... And I want you to know that even in the midst of all this turmoil that we are facing, there is a calm at the center of it all for me. That calm is you. You bring me more peace, more contentment, than I have ever known in my life. Over the last couple of days I've allowed myself to get caught up in all of the pain. That is over. I will now put all of my focus on just preparing to be with you, because I *know* that we *will* be together. And it doesn't matter how long it takes. Someone told me, in IM, that a few months, even years, doesn't matter if we love each other. And I *do* love you so, Sweet Tea. I have never loved like this before. No one has ever touched me this way, the way that you have touched me.

Please know that I am here for you. I know that not being here tonight hurt you. I know that you needed me. And I give you my word, I will never let you down again. Someone said in the other thread that I'm a wolf for good reason - that I will sink my teeth in, and dig in my heels... That's exactly what I'm doing, my Love. I am clamping my jaws down, sinking my fangs into this love that we share, and I will never let it go. It is the only thing left that sustains me.

I told you in an earlier post that there is a reason for this, that Creator has a reason for things being this way. I truly believe that, my Love. Perhaps this *is* some kind of a test for us, I don't know. But I do know that we have been brought together for a reason. And I know that together, we are something that is completely and utterly amazing. And I know - I *know*, deep in my heart, that whatever the reason is for this situation as it is now, we are *MEANT* to be together. And I know that we *will* be together one day... We will move from the Grove, and keep it as our little vacation getaway place... And we will build, together, a place that we can call *our* home. We *will* build a home together, my Love - a place where nothing and no one can ever hurt us again...

I love you, DF... I love you with all of my heart, with all of my soul, with all of my *self*... And there is nothing and no one who can ever take that away from us...

I am here, my Love... I am here for you, and I always will be here...

I'm editing here...

In an earlier post, where I posted the Alison Krauss song... I want to add something to that for you. I know that you carry some guilt for the way that things have developed with us, because of your religious beliefs... I want to toss out my own opinion on that...

I do not believe that we have done anything that is wrong. I believe that if Creator had not meant for us to find one another, then we never would have... Put another way, I believe that Creator meant for us to find each other, and for our love to grow, and become what it is today. I carry no guilt or shame about anything we've done, my Love... Because I believe that everything that has happened between us was meant to happen...

I love you...

 

[Dragonflie]

 

[ima6uldv8]

Don't ever give up, you two. Love rules over everything else. DF, broken hearts can be healed and, even better than they were before. My heart was cold and black before I met my Master/best friend/lover. Love has an amazing power May you be together soon.

 

[LittleLadyLove]

BW and DF you'll be in my thoughts and prayer.

Your lucky DF to have found someone like BW that loves you and will be there always.

 

[BlackWolf65]

I'm thinking that perhaps I started this thread too soon...

All of the people who have been PMing me, and Iming me, and posting here, seem to have one thing in common to say: That I have true friends here. And that those friends are here for me. Brie was blunt: She told me I should stay among friends.

As I talk to DF, and to others as well, it's becoming more and more clear to me that *I* need the people I've come to know here, just as much as DF needs me to be available to her when she can make contact with me.

So, while it's hard sometimes for me to be here when DF isn't online, I'm also coming to see that I need to be here. The friends that I've made here are *true* friends. I still may not be the post slut that I have been in the past ( Good Lord - 5,555 posts since March 11!! ) but I need to be among people who care. And all of you have demonstrated to me that you really *do* care about both DF and I.

And for that I shall be eternally grateful to you all...

 

[Dragonflie]

I'm thinking that perhaps I started this thread too soon...

All of the people who have been PMing me, and Iming me, and posting here, seem to have one thing in common to say: That I have true friends here. And that those friends are here for me. Brie was blunt: She told me I should stay among friends.

As I talk to DF, and to others as well, it's becoming more and more clear to me that *I* need the people I've come to know here, just as much as DF needs me to be available to her when she can make contact with me.

So, while it's hard sometimes for me to be here when DF isn't online, I'm also coming to see that I need to be here. The friends that I've made here are *true* friends. I still may not be the post slut that I have been in the past ( Good Lord - 5,555 posts since March 11!! ) but I need to be among people who care. And all of you have demonstrated to me that you really *do* care about both DF and I.

And for that I shall be eternally grateful to you all...

Now there is the man I love....
...'bout time, you silly wolf

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

You could call this the Universal... "I think I need to leave Lit thread" and then folks get talked back into staying. wb - BW ...

 

[BlackWolf65]

Now there is the man I love....
...'bout time, you silly wolf

~~Sighs...~~

Do you have even the faintest idea of how much I love you, Sweet Tea?

~~Hugs DF close...~~

 

[BlackWolf65]

You could call this the Universal... "I think I need to leave Lit thread" and then folks get talked back into staying. wb - BW ...

Why, Red... You sneaky little lurker, you!!!

Thanks, Sweetie...

 

[purrbaby]

I'm thinking that perhaps I started this thread too soon...

All of the people who have been PMing me, and Iming me, and posting here, seem to have one thing in common to say: That I have true friends here. And that those friends are here for me. Brie was blunt: She told me I should stay among friends.

As I talk to DF, and to others as well, it's becoming more and more clear to me that *I* need the people I've come to know here, just as much as DF needs me to be available to her when she can make contact with me.

So, while it's hard sometimes for me to be here when DF isn't online, I'm also coming to see that I need to be here. The friends that I've made here are *true* friends. I still may not be the post slut that I have been in the past ( Good Lord - 5,555 posts since March 11!! ) but I need to be among people who care. And all of you have demonstrated to me that you really *do* care about both DF and I.

And for that I shall be eternally grateful to you all...

You two are wonderful people, even though I don't know either of you that well, it makes me really sad to know you're going through such a horrible time...

To get to my point... Friends are our rocks, our support, we lean on them, and the more you have, the easier it is to lay out our problems and give everyone a small piece of the weight we carry. It helps us get through the hard times. We have to rely on each other...

Whatever you do, you'll always have friends here, I see that through the amazing number of posts all through this forum that support you and DF.

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

Why, Red... You sneaky little lurker, you!!!

Thanks, Sweetie...

You're welcome. I know where you are coming from as far as seeing Lit and something/someone having an impact in someway whether positive or negative make you want to leave. . .I have been there and I have come close before.

 

[BlackWolf65]

You're welcome. I know where you are coming from as far as seeing Lit and something/someone having an impact in someway whether positive or negative make you want to leave. . .I have been there and I have come close before.

Thanks Red... I'm in IM with DF right now, and she's been telling me about how your poem affected her...

You know...

I love all of you here...

I really do...

 

[RedHairedandFriendly]

Thanks Red... I'm in IM with DF right now, and she's been telling me about how your poem affected her...

You know...

I love all of you here...

I really do...

We do you too. Tell her I said Hi.
She mentioned she read it several times yesterday.

 

[cuzeyemwhateyem]

BW, DF I feel your pain. Although I am a relative newbie around here I have made some friends and hope to continue to make more. Good luck in everything that the two of you wish to achieve. May it happen quickly so the obvious love you share for each other can become reality.

One of my favourite quotes is:
To truly love someone is to know the song in their heart and to remind them of the words when they have forgotten.

After reading this entire thread I can hear you both singing the same song, the words are loud and strong.

 

[BlackWolf65]

BW, DF I feel your pain. Although I am a relative newbie around here I have made some friends and hope to continue to make more. Good luck in everything that the two of you wish to achieve. May it happen quickly so the obvious love you share for each other can become reality.

One of my favourite quotes is:
To truly love someone is to knaw the song in their heart and to remind them of the words when they have forgotten.

After reading this entire thread I can hear you both singing the same song, the words are loud and strong.

Oh...

Now this post has brought me to tears, it really has...

Thank you so much for these words...

And if you hang around, you will find that there are some of the most wonderful people here that you will ever have the good fortune to meet...

Thanks again, dude... I appreciate this post more than you know...

 

[purrbaby]

Oh...

Now this post has brought me to tears, it really has...

Thank you so much for these words...

And if you hang around, you will find that there are some of the most wonderful people here that you will ever have the good fortune to meet...

Thanks again, dude... I appreciate this post more than you know...

Amen to that... I never cease to be amazed at the hearts of people here... It's beautiful.

 

[BlackWolf65]

Amen to that... I never cease to be amazed at the hearts of people here... It's beautiful.

All of *YOU* are beautiful...

 

[cuzeyemwhateyem]

Oh...

Now this post has brought me to tears, it really has...

Thank you so much for these words...

And if you hang around, you will find that there are some of the most wonderful people here that you will ever have the good fortune to meet...

Thanks again, dude... I appreciate this post more than you know...

It is my absolute pleasure.....stay strong my new friend

 

[ccnyman]

BWolf, as I told you at Brie's, even your cutting down a little makes me sad since I'm so used to seeing you on so often. It was always comforting knowing that you were around.

 

[BlackWolf65]

BWolf, as I told you at Brie's, even your cutting down a little makes me sad since I'm so used to seeing you on so often. It was always comforting knowing that you were around.

Not going away, cc...

I have to be strong for DF... For us...

As i said, i think I started this thread too soon...

 

[Deprived_in_AZ]

You keep your chins up, both of you, and don't let the bastards get you down. Be strong and stand your ground. True love is worth fighting for. Everyone here is rooting for yas.

Hugs and good vibes!

 

[Sloppykitten]

Not going away, cc...

All I can say to that is:


(x 5,000,000)

 

[BlackWolf65]

All I can say to that is:


(x 5,000,000)

Thanks, Kitten...

It's so nice to know that we have people who are pulling for us...

 

[Azuldrgon]

Man, I get busy at work and look what I miss.

I hope you will be ok man cause your happiness should be first and foremost. I hope everything is ok with DF too. Guess I missed a bunch since I work so much now. You know where I am if you need to talk.