Castration play.

[Summerflowers]

There are many masculine signs of course. Now, looking at men, i feel everything is prompted by strength. Mentally and physically. Of course that is also a big part that women find appealing about men. It takes strength to conquer a woman because that's what masculinity does. Checking femininity, youth and looks.

It might be disrespectful to say but i find an attractive woman, or man pleasing to see, the way i see a beautiful piece of art, a sunset or a flower. Of course a human being is the highest of creatures and incomparable but for me, there is nothing more to it. No longing, no feeling and no desire to conquer or show my strength.

My perception of how women look at me obviously has changed too but i think they feel, recognize i am not a threat, nor a potential partner. I am not like a gay bff either but i am easily approachable by women while men often keep a distance. Both ways is fine by me.

Thank you so much for the insight! I think I can understand and relate what you are writing.
This here I find very strong: i find an attractive woman, or man pleasing to see, the way i see a beautiful piece of art, a sunset or a flower. I have heard this similarly also from an older man. He said, getting older you find "peace of your senses". (Not sure if the translation is good enough).

 

[Eunuch_Marc]

Thank you so much for the insight! I think I can understand and relate what you are writing.
This here I find very strong: i find an attractive woman, or man pleasing to see, the way i see a beautiful piece of art, a sunset or a flower. I have heard this similarly also from an older man. He said, getting older you find "peace of your senses". (Not sure if the translation is good enough).

‘Peace of senses’ is a good description of life after being castrated.
I compare masculine urges and my trouble with it, with a car race in which every man competes with each other to be the toughest, the fastest. When i still had my balls i was the one standing in the pit-lane the entire race because my equipment was always broken, frustrated and longing to join in, get at least a round or two over the track. Now i feel i am only a spectator. I don’t have to put effort in a race i can’t join anyway and instead i enjoy looking at others. On the stands though, no one is looking at me, and that is fine. Because constantly standing in the pit-lane felt like everyone was staring at me, laughing at me and my equipment. Being the loser, even worse than the one coming in last. Of course that is only my perception but still it was very real.

 

[jakie69]

My wife and I are into castration play, it started with ball busting and then when i started to transition she got interested in me being castrated and for some reason it turned her on and became part of a role play scenario for her when she’s dominating me. She really has a thing for owning a eunuch slave

 

[BillyWalrus]

My wife and I are into castration play, it started with ball busting and then when i started to transition she got interested in me being castrated and for some reason it turned her on and became part of a role play scenario for her when she’s dominating me. She really has a thing for owning a eunuch slave

Do you think you will actually get castrated in the future?

 

[Justusnluv]

My wife and I are into castration play, it started with ball busting and then when i started to transition she got interested in me being castrated and for some reason it turned her on and became part of a role play scenario for her when she’s dominating me. She really has a thing for owning a eunuch slave

mmmmmm. Sounds perfect

 

[Summerflowers]

Do you think you will actually get castrated in the future?

Would you like to actually get castrated in the future?

 

[BillyWalrus]

Would you like to actually get castrated in the future?

I don't think so but if I was interested in transitioning to being a woman, I would probably do it.

 

[Paul4play]

Yes indeed. After years of pain i am happy to be a eunuch now for 2 years.

If you are comfortable sharing with us, I would like to know…
Why were you in pain? What specific medical diagnosis caused your pain?
Thank you for sharing so much in the above posts!

 

[Eunuch_Marc]

If you are comfortable sharing with us, I would like to know…
Why were you in pain? What specific medical diagnosis caused your pain?
Thank you for sharing so much in the above posts!

I have a condition that affects the senses in my crotch. It’s called Functional Neurological Disorder, causing Equina Cauda syndrome. I have troubled feelings, affecting my bladder down to my upper legs. I didn’t perceive sexual feelings like others did although i didn’t know that growing up. I could masturbate and have sex and eventually reach an orgasm but it was difficult. As an adult, starting in my mid 20th, I had lots of infections in my bladder, prostate and balls. Testosterone level was normal meaning i had sexual longings while an orgasm and ejaculation was extremely disturbing. I had these issues from a young age that got worse over time, meaning i did not know at first something was wrong with what i felt. Dealing with this made me develop an aversion to my sexual feelings and my parts.

 

[SavannaT]

I wish i could do this with my husband … would be soo hot

 

[Eunuch_Marc]

I wish i could do this with my husband … would be soo hot

Urologists don't recommend diy

 

[BillyWalrus]

I wish i could do this with my husband … would be soo hot

After his balls have been removed then he can suck five or six super hung guys, get them hard and then watch them bareback you one after another.

 

[Justusnluv]

I wish my wife would have mine removed.

 

[Paul4play]

I have a condition that affects the senses in my crotch. It’s called Functional Neurological Disorder, causing Equina Cauda syndrome. I have troubled feelings, affecting my bladder down to my upper legs. I didn’t perceive sexual feelings like others did although i didn’t know that growing up. I could masturbate and have sex and eventually reach an orgasm but it was difficult. As an adult, starting in my mid 20th, I had lots of infections in my bladder, prostate and balls. Testosterone level was normal meaning i had sexual longings while an orgasm and ejaculation was extremely disturbing. I had these issues from a young age that got worse over time, meaning i did not know at first something was wrong with what i felt. Dealing with this made me develop an aversion to my sexual feelings and my parts.

Hi Marc:
Thank you for your candor!
The severe debilitation you have experienced must have been extremely distressing and confusing for you!
I would guess this was especially challenging as you were developing your sexual identity, and then as you engaged in sexual activity. I applaud you and your wife for finding a path forward that is gratifying for both of you! Many people I know would not have tolerated this situation in their sexual relationships, and particularly, not in their marital bed.
You have proven that unique challenges sometimes require unique and extraordinary solutions!

 

[shrek100]

Some on here may know myself and wife have played with a professional mistress.
I have been dominated by both wife and mistress at the same time and I love it.
One of the things they did;
Cut throat razor slowly stocking cock.
“We should castrate you” with lots of other threats.
Well it makes your cock twitch and jerk against the blade.
The feel of the cold across the top of my cock is scary and so exciting.
No matter how hard I tried to not move - I kept moving.

In another setting I shaved Mrs Shreks pussy completely bold with same blade

 

[SavannaT]

After his balls have been removed then he can suck five or six super hung guys, get them hard and then watch them bareback you one after another.

Omfg yessss

 

[Eunuch_Marc]

Hi Marc:
Thank you for your candor!
The severe debilitation you have experienced must have been extremely distressing and confusing for you!
I would guess this was especially challenging as you were developing your sexual identity, and then as you engaged in sexual activity. I applaud you and your wife for finding a path forward that is gratifying for both of you! Many people I know would not have tolerated this situation in their sexual relationships, and particularly, not in their marital bed.
You have proven that unique challenges sometimes require unique and extraordinary solutions!

Growing up i didn’t know what i was supposed to feel. I didn’t understand the big deal that an orgasm was for others but didn’t think anything about it. I didn’t understand how an erection was supposed to hold. While masturbating, this was not a big issue but obviously when starting having intercourse it was. My wife deserves all the praise for going through this with me and stay with me.

 

[Paul4play]

Growing up i didn’t know what i was supposed to feel. I didn’t understand the big deal that an orgasm was for others but didn’t think anything about it. I didn’t understand how an erection was supposed to hold. While masturbating, this was not a big issue but obviously when starting having intercourse it was. My wife deserves all the praise for going through this with me and stay with me.

Yes, I can see how important your wife’s support has been.
May I reach out to you in a private conversation here on Lit?

 

[Calibikini]

Of course that is very understandable. The character of a man who doesn’t produce testosterone any more changes profoundly. Only after castration I realised how much we are guided by hormones and how sexdrive affects almost anything we do. Strength, leading capacity, confidence, assertiveness and sexual abilities is how we perceive masculinity and what makes a man a man. But also selfishness, aggression and narcissism. I am happy as a eunuch and i think the best part of my personality is the part not guided by hormones and that's why i am only on a very low dose of hormone medication.

Just my opinion

 

[liqueur]

It seems to me we've got two very different conversations going here— castration play as a kink (@Travler99921 , @SavannaT , @jakie69 , @OdysseusMan , @shrek100 , et al) and others (notably @Eunuch_Marc ) who want to have a serious conversation about the real thing. I'm pulled both ways; I want to be part of both conversations. Forgive me if this response goes in too many directions at once

After I came out to my wife about my bisexuality, she asked me if I ever fantasized about becoming a eunuch.

I'm fascinated by this response from her. Was this an intuitive leap on her part? Being bisexual is such a far cry from being nonsexual...

I confessed I had. That excited her. Years earlier I had had a vasectomy, and that had really excited her. She could not explain why.

My ex #2 seemed quite turned on by me having a vasectomy (and by the fact that she demanded it of me— though she got no resistance on my part, it was still a power trip). And leading up to the appointment date, there were a lot of jokes between her and her almost-adult daughters — things like “let's just take him to the vet and have him altered, it'll save money.” (our vet was a woman too). I think the reason they enjoyed it was a slightly sadistic level of teasing. They had no idea how much they were turning me on. When I let my wife know in private at some point how much of a turn-on the conversation was, she seemed kind of grossed out, and shut me down.

It became part of our foreplay for us to discuss castration. Usually she fantasized about having a lover who would castrate me. Sometimes her fantasy was for a doctor to castrate me while she and her lover had sex.

This is exactly the sort of play I would love to have engaged in with any of the women that have shared my life. Some of them have been fairly kinky women, and two of them were curious about CBT and ballbusting. But all of them seemed to shut down when any conversation about castration, even as fantasy, was raised.

The only exception to this was a woman I developed a close on-line relationship for a couple of years while my wife #3 and I were having difficulties and then separated. This woman was very into it, and loved to talk about. She was very into the cuckold lifestyle (which was just fine with me) and she wanted a castrated cuckold husband. (take note, @SavannaT) If I wanted to join her she would have been very open to engage in regular castration play with me, or make it a reality—my choice. She had money, and one of her regular studs was a doctor who would be more than willing to do the job for her. As it happened, my wife and I made an ill-fated attempt to get back together, and I lost touch with the cuckoldress in the interim.

There's so much more I'd like to say, and questions I'd like to ask, but I see it's getting late and I need to get off-line. I'll be back. In the meantime, feel free, any of you, to reach out to me (though I won't respond till tomorrow)

 

[OdysseusMan]

It seems to me we've got two very different conversations going here— castration play as a kink (@Travler99921 , @SavannaT , @jakie69 , @OdysseusMan , @shrek100 , et al) and others (notably @Eunuch_Marc ) who want to have a serious conversation about the real thing. I'm pulled both ways; I want to be part of both conversations. Forgive me if this response goes in too many directions at once


I'm fascinated by this response from her. Was this an intuitive leap on her part? Being bisexual is such a far cry from being nonsexual...

My ex #2 seemed quite turned on by me having a vasectomy (and by the fact that she demanded it of me— though she got no resistance on my part, it was still a power trip). And leading up to the appointment date, there were a lot of jokes between her and her almost-adult daughters — things like “let's just take him to the vet and have him altered, it'll save money.” (our vet was a woman too). I think the reason they enjoyed it was a slightly sadistic level of teasing. They had no idea how much they were turning me on. When I let my wife know in private at some point how much of a turn-on the conversation was, she seemed kind of grossed out, and shut me down.

This is exactly the sort of play I would love to have engaged in with any of the women that have shared my life. Some of them have been fairly kinky women, and two of them were curious about CBT and ballbusting. But all of them seemed to shut down when any conversation about castration, even as fantasy, was raised.

The only exception to this was a woman I developed a close on-line relationship for a couple of years while my wife #3 and I were having difficulties and then separated. This woman was very into it, and loved to talk about. She was very into the cuckold lifestyle (which was just fine with me) and she wanted a castrated cuckold husband. (take note, @SavannaT) If I wanted to join her she would have been very open to engage in regular castration play with me, or make it a reality—my choice. She had money, and one of her regular studs was a doctor who would be more than willing to do the job for her. As it happened, my wife and I made an ill-fated attempt to get back together, and I lost touch with the cuckoldress in the interim.

There's so much more I'd like to say, and questions I'd like to ask, but I see it's getting late and I need to get off-line. I'll be back. In the meantime, feel free, any of you, to reach out to me (though I won't respond till tomorrow)

Well, in my case I definitely like castration play, and any 'game' that involves castration play. But, I ALSO do have a castration fantasy, which I suspect will never actually happen. I have seen a number of castration videos, and the sight of a scalpel slicing open the testicle sack, and actually pulling out a ball, before cutting it completely off, well, that turns me on sooo much!

 

[liqueur]

ALSO do have a castration fantasy, which I suspect will never actually happen.

Let's talk about this more. I do also. I think I'd talk more freely in PM, if that's okay with you.

I have seen a number of castration videos, and the sight of a scalpel slicing open the testicle sack, and actually pulling out a ball, before cutting it completely off, well, that turns me on sooo much!

That's interesting. The visual does nothing for me. It doesn't gross me out. I worked as a vet tech for quite a few years when I was a young man, and I assisted in more castrations than I could count, and the visual isn't much different from a dog. Just routine, neither a turn-on nor a turn-off. The real turn-on was when the vet’s wife, or the woman dropping off the dog, would start making jokes about it (I remember one woman asking me if she could bring her husband in too).

But I was young and unsure of myself, especially where matters of kink were concerned, and was afraid to let it show how much it turned me on. If I'd let it show, I'm sure the vet’s wife, kinky lady that she was, would have offered to talk him into doing me. Just one of so many “If only I could do it over” things.