Confessions: What Are Yours? Part IV

[Iris_66]

ICT if I get accused of something I take that as permission to do it

I accuse you of donating me $1,000,000

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT I think I gave my kiddo my cold, so I stayed home with him today.

IACT Hubby wanted action this morning but we were interrupted mere seconds after he entered me.

IACT Hubby came up behind me before he left, pushed his crotch against my ass, grabbed my boobs wonderfully roughly, kissed the back of my neck, and whispered that he was going to fuck my brains out when he gets home.

IACT As he left, he told me I could not masturbate today or I'd be punished. :caning:

IFCT I'm trying to decide whether to masturbate or not...

 

[de_valmont]

ICT I think that lil_jenni loves her husband's punishments.

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT I think that lil_jenni loves her husband's punishments.

I certainly love it when he's in the mood to punish me, but he's not in that mood as often as he could be... so when he is, I have to take advantage of the situation...

 

[de_valmont]

I certainly love it when he's in the mood to punish me, but he's not in that mood as often as he could be... so when he is, I have to take advantage of the situation...

ICT that you have already decided and started to act as you feel determined to.

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT that you have already decided and started to act as you feel determined to.

ICT maybe...

IACT I received a 97% for 'Brat' on my BDSM TEST, which was higher than I expected. Maybe it's stuff like this that got me that score...

 

[minthe]

ICT I have been playing with my nipples for the last 20 minutes.

 

[Followmenow6969_2]

ICT I was to lazy to head into the house to pee so I dropped my jeans and peed in the yard

 

[Mtnmike]

ICT I have been playing with my nipples for the last 20 minutes.

Can I give you a hand or maybe a tongue

 

[Richard_C]

ICT I’ve really got my hands full these days!!!!

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT I did masturbate yesterday

IACT I came twice while on the phone with Hubby so he knew...

IACT I was punished with a spanking and then orgasm denial... :caning:

IACT when Hubby finally let me come, it was fucking fantastic.

IFCT I'm sitting waiting for an appointment to begin (it's already 10 minutes later than I was told to be here) and I can't keep from squirming in my chair

 

[lil_jenni]

Warning: this is going to be kind of long.

ICT I went to the university campus today, met with an adviser in the Ed department, and think I have a plan for a masters degree. So, yay. I just wish the rest of my day hadn’t been shit.

IACT I met our college-aged babysitter for lunch on campus. I thought we were becoming pretty good friends despite the almost 12 year age difference. And I was starting to feel a little guilty that I had all those naughty thoughts about her a couple of months back.

IACT (and this is the long one) I’m rather of disturbed by something that happened at lunch today. Two guys who know our babysitter stopped at the table where we were eating. One of the guys asked who I was, and our babysitter said I was a grad student (I thought at the time she was having fun with the two guys or something, but I’m not sure). The other guy said, and I’m paraphrasing, that he didn’t go for older women but I was hot enough and he’d do me even though I have small boobs and could lose a few pounds. Fucking negging bullshit--I hated it when I was in college and I hate it now. His friend comes to my ‘defense’, saying I look great and have a perfect handful. I tell my ‘rescuer’ thanks, and he sits down and starts chatting me up. While he does that, first his friend then our babysitter head off for their respective classes, and I’m left alone talking to this guy who is clearly trying to get something going, which is kind of flattering since I’m 32 and have a kiddo and he’s maybe 20. But when I get up to leave, he grabs my arm and suggests we go to his off-campus housing for a drink. I show him my wedding ring (which I know he must have already seen) and tell him I’m not a student, that my friend was messing with them. He grabs my ass and tells me he can show me a better time than my husband. I’m in a room full of students--I mean a big room full because it’s the dining area in the student union--so I don’t slap his smirking face. I put space and a chair between us, thinking I should’ve brought my pepper spray. The guy gets pissed off and says he and his friend shouldn’t have wasted their time on me since I’m obviously a frigid bitch despite being a ‘kinda hot older broad.’ More negging bullshit, but from my original ‘rescuer’. I keep it together and don’t knee him in his teeny little dick and balls, as much as I want to. This must be a scam they run, one negs on a girl and the other swoops in and ‘saves’ her from his jerk friend. Fucking assholes. I so wanted to tell him all the things I could give him that he’s never had and will never get from me, and probably will never get at all from anyone, but I just left instead.

IACT I’m now wondering if our babysitter set me up. I mean, I don’t see why she would. And I wasn’t ever going to do anything with that guy/those guy. But my anxiety keeps telling me maybe she is after my Hubby and thought that ‘rescuer’ guy would get to me and flatter me enough I’d fuck him and ruin my marriage or something. I hope I’m being paranoid.

IFCT I know I should tell my Hubby and my therapist all this, but I kinda don’t want to tell either of them, and I’m not sure why exactly.

 

[Mtnmike]

Warning: this is going to be kind of long.

ICT I went to the university campus today, met with an adviser in the Ed department, and think I have a plan for a masters degree. So, yay. I just wish the rest of my day hadn’t been shit.

IACT I met our college-aged babysitter for lunch on campus. I thought we were becoming pretty good friends despite the almost 12 year age difference. And I was starting to feel a little guilty that I had all those naughty thoughts about her a couple of months back.

IACT (and this is the long one) I’m rather of disturbed by something that happened at lunch today. Two guys who know our babysitter stopped at the table where we were eating. One of the guys asked who I was, and our babysitter said I was a grad student (I thought at the time she was having fun with the two guys or something, but I’m not sure). The other guy said, and I’m paraphrasing, that he didn’t go for older women but I was hot enough and he’d do me even though I have small boobs and could lose a few pounds. Fucking negging bullshit--I hated it when I was in college and I hate it now. His friend comes to my ‘defense’, saying I look great and have a perfect handful. I tell my ‘rescuer’ thanks, and he sits down and starts chatting me up. While he does that, first his friend then our babysitter head off for their respective classes, and I’m left alone talking to this guy who is clearly trying to get something going, which is kind of flattering since I’m 32 and have a kiddo and he’s maybe 20. But when I get up to leave, he grabs my arm and suggests we go to his off-campus housing for a drink. I show him my wedding ring (which I know he must have already seen) and tell him I’m not a student, that my friend was messing with them. He grabs my ass and tells me he can show me a better time than my husband. I’m in a room full of students--I mean a big room full because it’s the dining area in the student union--so I don’t slap his smirking face. I put space and a chair between us, thinking I should’ve brought my pepper spray. The guy gets pissed off and says he and his friend shouldn’t have wasted their time on me since I’m obviously a frigid bitch despite being a ‘kinda hot older broad.’ More negging bullshit, but from my original ‘rescuer’. I keep it together and don’t knee him in his teeny little dick and balls, as much as I want to. This must be a scam they run, one negs on a girl and the other swoops in and ‘saves’ her from his jerk friend. Fucking assholes. I so wanted to tell him all the things I could give him that he’s never had and will never get from me, and probably will never get at all from anyone, but I just left instead.

IACT I’m now wondering if our babysitter set me up. I mean, I don’t see why she would. And I wasn’t ever going to do anything with that guy/those guy. But my anxiety keeps telling me maybe she is after my Hubby and thought that ‘rescuer’ guy would get to me and flatter me enough I’d fuck him and ruin my marriage or something. I hope I’m being paranoid.

IFCT I know I should tell my Hubby and my therapist all this, but I kinda don’t want to tell either of them, and I’m not sure why exactly.

Sorry this happened to you, guy's can be Assholes. Need to give your husband a heads up just in case your intuition is right.

 

[roc23]

Warning: this is going to be kind of long.

ICT I went to the university campus today, met with an adviser in the Ed department, and think I have a plan for a masters degree. So, yay. I just wish the rest of my day hadn’t been shit.

IACT I met our college-aged babysitter for lunch on campus. I thought we were becoming pretty good friends despite the almost 12 year age difference. And I was starting to feel a little guilty that I had all those naughty thoughts about her a couple of months back.

IACT (and this is the long one) I’m rather of disturbed by something that happened at lunch today. Two guys who know our babysitter stopped at the table where we were eating. One of the guys asked who I was, and our babysitter said I was a grad student (I thought at the time she was having fun with the two guys or something, but I’m not sure). The other guy said, and I’m paraphrasing, that he didn’t go for older women but I was hot enough and he’d do me even though I have small boobs and could lose a few pounds. Fucking negging bullshit--I hated it when I was in college and I hate it now. His friend comes to my ‘defense’, saying I look great and have a perfect handful. I tell my ‘rescuer’ thanks, and he sits down and starts chatting me up. While he does that, first his friend then our babysitter head off for their respective classes, and I’m left alone talking to this guy who is clearly trying to get something going, which is kind of flattering since I’m 32 and have a kiddo and he’s maybe 20. But when I get up to leave, he grabs my arm and suggests we go to his off-campus housing for a drink. I show him my wedding ring (which I know he must have already seen) and tell him I’m not a student, that my friend was messing with them. He grabs my ass and tells me he can show me a better time than my husband. I’m in a room full of students--I mean a big room full because it’s the dining area in the student union--so I don’t slap his smirking face. I put space and a chair between us, thinking I should’ve brought my pepper spray. The guy gets pissed off and says he and his friend shouldn’t have wasted their time on me since I’m obviously a frigid bitch despite being a ‘kinda hot older broad.’ More negging bullshit, but from my original ‘rescuer’. I keep it together and don’t knee him in his teeny little dick and balls, as much as I want to. This must be a scam they run, one negs on a girl and the other swoops in and ‘saves’ her from his jerk friend. Fucking assholes. I so wanted to tell him all the things I could give him that he’s never had and will never get from me, and probably will never get at all from anyone, but I just left instead.

IACT I’m now wondering if our babysitter set me up. I mean, I don’t see why she would. And I wasn’t ever going to do anything with that guy/those guy. But my anxiety keeps telling me maybe she is after my Hubby and thought that ‘rescuer’ guy would get to me and flatter me enough I’d fuck him and ruin my marriage or something. I hope I’m being paranoid.

IFCT I know I should tell my Hubby and my therapist all this, but I kinda don’t want to tell either of them, and I’m not sure why exactly.

Yep. Sounds totally scripted by those three.
Trust your intuition.

 

[lil_jenni]

Update

So, I have more to my previous confessions now... (this post s longish too).

ICT I texted my therapist, who called me. She suggested I ask our babysitter about the guys being such assholes. I got on my phone to text her and saw a text from her I'd missed, probably because I was dealing with an asshole. It came in maybe a minute after she left the table. She warned me the 'rescuer' guy was not what he seemed and told me to leave as soon as I could.

IACT I called her and asked what the fuck all that was about, because as people here and in PMs have pointed out, the behavior of the guys was very aggressive. Now, I've experienced that kind of stuff before when I was in college, but that was always at parties when everyone was at least buzzed. This was in the dining area of the student union. She admitted to snooping at my house (as a couple of people in PMs suggested she might have done) and finding various things (collars, cuffs, whips, porn, etc. (I'm really fucking glad a certain directory on an old laptop of Hubby's is password protected, as are the files in that folder )). And she admitted to getting drunk and telling those guys about me and Hubby and the stuff she found and what she suspected about us. That's why she tried to say I was a grad student because she thought they wouldn't know it was me. She didn't say anything after that because one of them (the first asshole) has a video of her doing stuff with him (consensual stuff she assures me), and she's afraid he'll send it to people she knows if she pisses him off. That's why she texted me as soon as she could when she left. She feels horrible about what happened to me, and I feel terrible about what's happened/is happening to her.

IFCT I told Hubby and he is livid. He is angry with our babysitter for the invasion of privacy (he suggested we find a new babysitter), but he is also angry about what they did/are doing to her and thinks she should report them to the university. He said he was going to talk to a friend of his in the DA's office and get his thoughts on reporting them to the police. I think our babysitter would be mortified by either course of action, so I'm trying to talk him down.

 

[pvt_addiction]

So, I have more to my previous confessions now... (this post s longish too).

ICT I texted my therapist, who called me. She suggested I ask our babysitter about the guys being such assholes. I got on my phone to text her and saw a text from her I'd missed, probably because I was dealing with an asshole. It came in maybe a minute after she left the table. She warned me the 'rescuer' guy was not what he seemed and told me to leave as soon as I could.

IACT I called her and asked what the fuck all that was about, because as people here and in PMs have pointed out, the behavior of the guys was very aggressive. Now, I've experienced that kind of stuff before when I was in college, but that was always at parties when everyone was at least buzzed. This was in the dining area of the student union. She admitted to snooping at my house (as a couple of people in PMs suggested she might have done) and finding various things (collars, cuffs, whips, porn, etc. (I'm really fucking glad a certain directory on an old laptop of Hubby's is password protected, as are the files in that folder )). And she admitted to getting drunk and telling those guys about me and Hubby and the stuff she found and what she suspected about us. That's why she tried to say I was a grad student because she thought they wouldn't know it was me. She didn't say anything after that because one of them (the first asshole) has a video of her doing stuff with him (consensual stuff she assures me), and she's afraid he'll send it to people she knows if she pisses him off. That's why she texted me as soon as she could when she left. She feels horrible about what happened to me, and I feel terrible about what's happened/is happening to her.

IFCT I told Hubby and he is livid. He is angry with our babysitter for the invasion of privacy (he suggested we find a new babysitter), but he is also angry about what they did/are doing to her and thinks she should report them to the university. He said he was going to talk to a friend of his in the DA's office and get his thoughts on reporting them to the police. I think our babysitter would be mortified by either course of action, so I'm trying to talk him down.

I read your last several posts here. It’s really fucked up that he’s treat you that way, and I can see how it could cause such problems. Hopefully you find your way through as you’re resolving things.

 

[Iris_66]

IACT I called her and asked what the fuck all that was about, because as people here and in PMs have pointed out, the behavior of the guys was very aggressive. Now, I've experienced that kind of stuff before when I was in college, but that was always at parties when everyone was at least buzzed. This was in the dining area of the student union. She admitted to snooping at my house (as a couple of people in PMs suggested she might have done) and finding various things (collars, cuffs, whips, porn, etc. (I'm really fucking glad a certain directory on an old laptop of Hubby's is password protected, as are the files in that folder )). And she admitted to getting drunk and telling those guys about me and Hubby and the stuff she found and what she suspected about us. That's why she tried to say I was a grad student because she thought they wouldn't know it was me. She didn't say anything after that because one of them (the first asshole) has a video of her doing stuff with him (consensual stuff she assures me), and she's afraid he'll send it to people she knows if she pisses him off. That's why she texted me as soon as she could when she left. She feels horrible about what happened to me, and I feel terrible about what's happened/is happening to her.

IFCT I told Hubby and he is livid. He is angry with our babysitter for the invasion of privacy (he suggested we find a new babysitter), but he is also angry about what they did/are doing to her and thinks she should report them to the university. He said he was going to talk to a friend of his in the DA's office and get his thoughts on reporting them to the police. I think our babysitter would be mortified by either course of action, so I'm trying to talk him down.

FWIW my $0.02, I think your hubby is right

1. These guys are blackmailing the babysitter (using photos of her). What else are they making her (and other people do?)

2. No way she can be left in sole charge of kiddo

3. Go to the Police - what they are doing is causing misery and has gone way beyond exploitation

So sorry to hear your day has been ruined by this

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT Hubby waited until the kiddo was asleep to bring up that the guy grabbing my ass was sexual battery and I should file a police report.

IACT I told him I don't want to. I've had a lots worse stuff done to me in the past and didn't turn anyone in, so why should I do it for a mere ass grab. Hubby said I should do it for others who he's done the same or worse to or for those he may do it to in the future. I know he's right, but I don't want any of this.

IACT I'm afraid it's going to fuck up Halloween, and I'm afraid it's gonna make Hubby go back to being worried about me when I want rough or kinky sex. Fuck!

IACT I'm still pissed at the two assholes, but my initial reaction of being hurt by our babysitter and worried she set me up was worse than that anger. Now I'm sure she didn't set me up and that she's much more a victim in this shit than me. I want to move on for myself, but I also want to help the young woman that is the real victim. I don't want to treat her like a leper and cut her out when I think she needs us. I don't know what the fuck to do.

IFCT I don't plan to do anything today about this one way or another, or even think about it if I can help it. I came on here early just to post this to get it out so I can move on with my day.

Sorry for being such a fucking downer the last couple of days, but this is such a great place to vent...

 

[MsLead]

IC to needing to focus on gratitude to bump the funk out of my mood. It's been so yucky the past week since I fought with my last lover. Fuck!

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT I saw my therapist today, and she thought the same as hubby about me reporting the guy grabbing my ass. She said not doing it just reinforces my belief I don't deserve protection from men because of things that happened to me before I met Hubby. The problem is that I don’t think I’m a victim, either before or now. I was with one guy, but that was a long time ago. And I guess I could have been this time, but I got myself out of it. The ass grab was just an asshole being an asshole. At least that’s what I think.

IACT Hubby has agreed to sit down with me on Saturday and have a chat with our (former?) babysitter. I don’t think he’ll ever let her babysit for us again because of the violation of our trust when she went through our stuff then told others about it when she was drunk, but I did a lot of shit dumber than that when I was her age (and older) and drunk. Plus, Hubby has forgiven me for the much worse shit I did when our first engagement ended because of me cheating. I think she deserves a second chance too.

IFCT that Hubby bought a locking metal footlooker/trunk for our stuff we don’t want anyone to find. He said this has been a wakeup call, and that if the babysitter found our stuff, the kiddo will someday too. So, we are negotiating what goes in the trunk. The kinky stuff is a must, as is the laptop (although Hubby is thinking about getting a bigger safe so it will fit in there, which I think is overkill). One issue is some of my lingerie/costumes that are risqué. I don’t want to dig through the trunk for my stuff, so Hubby’s agreed for me to keep it in the top of our tall dresser since the kiddo can’t reach it, plus it’s not as potentially embarrassing/compromising if someone finds it compared to the stuff that’s going into the trunk. The other major issue is my bullet vibe. I want it to stay in my nightstand, but I don’t think Hubby’s aware of how much I use it. And I’m kinda reluctant to put up a big fight about it. I don’t want him to think he doesn’t satisfy me.

 

[tenchikoi]

My confession is....I'm really attracted to chics with dicks. I know, not very shocking.

 

[sweetsophie512]

IC that the phrase "I wish to pray" has taken on a whole new meaning for me.

 

[Mtnmike]

IC that the phrase "I wish to pray" has taken on a whole new meaning for me.

Really, care to share what it means to you now ?

 

[sweetsophie512]

Really, care to share what it means to you now ?

You'll have to watch the series See. I don't want to spoil it for you.

 

[lil_jenni]

ICT my Hubby has strongly asked me not to post anything else about what happened earlier this week on here. He knows it can be therapeutic for me, but he has a bunch of good reasons that are hard to argue with. So, I'm taking his suggestion on this one.

IACT I wanted to briefly mention we had a good talk with our now former babysitter. Hubby encouraged her to protect herself and others (like me) by taking action. She agreed. But it'll be along time, if ever, before he trusts her enough to watch the kiddo again.

IFCT Hubby showed me how much he loves me and respects me by standing by a decision I made about what I should do even though he really disagrees with that decision.