Depression. It's a silent killer.

Morning.
This time of year is the “just get through the day” time. Time to hunker down and just exist.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
Good morning I tried to get out for a while today but couldn’t so spending the day on couch letting the TV watch me
 
I fear my days at my current job may be numbered. They have begun stressing a new daily quota that, thanks to complications of a surgery I had last year, I am not physically capable of meeting. There's a lot of other people that will also struggle for various reasons, but they don't give a shit about us. We're expendable assets to them, less than human beings. I acknowledge I may be making a mountain over a molehill, I hope I am, but there is too much writing on the wall for me to ignore.

Now, this doesn't depress me at all if I'm being honest. I've been thinking it's about time for me to find something else for a little while. This is more like a fire being lit under my ass to do something about it.
 
I fear my days at my current job may be numbered. They have begun stressing a new daily quota that, thanks to complications of a surgery I had last year, I am not physically capable of meeting. There's a lot of other people that will also struggle for various reasons, but they don't give a shit about us. We're expendable assets to them, less than human beings. I acknowledge I may be making a mountain over a molehill, I hope I am, but there is too much writing on the wall for me to ignore.

Now, this doesn't depress me at all if I'm being honest. I've been thinking it's about time for me to find something else for a little while. This is more like a fire being lit under my ass to do something about it.
I hope this leads you to something better.
 
Fascinating and highly relatable. I have struggled with similar issues of harsh self-criticism with life in general, and recently as a writer. We all truly need to stop being so hard on ourselves, we are not our failures!

I've been struggling to write the chapter I'm working on for my story and beating myself up about it a little, had too much other stuff going on irl and in my head. I worked on it so hard today that I've worked up a headache from it. That video came along when I needed to see it, so thanks for that!

Think I'll take something and lie down for the evening, peace to your minds, hearts, and souls!
 
Morning. I’m moving to a new gig today. One a bit more active. 9 dogs, 3 cats, 2 goats, and chickens. A far cry from the Cush gig I just had.
Have as good a day as you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
My mom used to do something like that in the late 90's, which was during my early teens. She started a business pet sitting, but only ever had one customer who called her multiple times. This lady had 3 dogs, a cat, and a goat. Two of the dogs were shih tzus, I don't remember what the other one was (my memories of that time period are getting hazy lol). I went over there with her to help her look after them but I mostly played with them. Good times!

Anyway, that lady moved and she lost her only customer, thus spelled the end of her business.
 
Hope everyone is well. I'm doing well today, just finished the latest chapter of my story and submitted it for approval and publication.

Finishing and submitting a work is exciting, but it also makes me nervous, wondering how well received it will be. The chapter I have been working on is a special one as it marks the end of the first half of my series. Got some exciting stuff coming up that I'm eager to work on... after taking a couple days off so my mind can relax.

While working on this story, I have come to enjoy writing the dramatic and battle scenes as much as I do the sexual ones. It's become a tale of good verses evil and my elf character is going through a hero's journey. He's toughened up, but he still has a long way to go before he becomes the hero the world will need him to be.

Anyway, writing this helps gives me a reason to fight my depression. I want to see this story through to the end. And what happens after this one is finished? A new story of course!
 
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