Did anything make you cry today?

I was at the Post Office today, and a little blonde girl - about 4 - started telling me all about the pinch she got from the car seat in her Grandma's van. Great while I was talking to her, but as I walked away I started thinking about a parallel universe in which Muse and I could have one of those... and lost it.
 
I was at the Post Office today, and a little blonde girl - about 4 - started telling me all about the pinch she got from the car seat in her Grandma's van. Great while I was talking to her, but as I walked away I started thinking about a parallel universe in which Muse and I could have one of those... and lost it.
Mega hugs! 🫂
 
Sort of…
Sorry bud 🫂

Sort of, yes. Grief sucks and it hits you at times and places you least expect it.
It does creep up sometimes. 🫂
I was at the Post Office today, and a little blonde girl - about 4 - started telling me all about the pinch she got from the car seat in her Grandma's van. Great while I was talking to her, but as I walked away I started thinking about a parallel universe in which Muse and I could have one of those... and lost it.
That’s very sad. I’m sorry 🫂
 
I was acceptingly childless until I met Muse. It started off as 'I wouldn't have minded a kid like Muse,' then, as she got into her 20s, the thought occurred to me that she was the one with whom I could make a family. It was, and continues to be, an overwhelming revision of what I believed about myself, and a bad case of meeting the right woman far too late in life.
 
I was acceptingly childless until I met Muse. It started off as 'I wouldn't have minded a kid like Muse,' then, as she got into her 20s, the thought occurred to me that she was the one with whom I could make a family. It was, and continues to be, an overwhelming revision of what I believed about myself, and a bad case of meeting the right woman far too late in life.
That's tough...you at least found the right person that's one saving grace.
 
That's tough...you at least found the right person that's one saving grace.
Oddly, the house I live in was once owned by a man whose parents were an age gap relationship with a span that was identical with that between Muse and me. His dad was born in 1844, and his mom in 1874... weird.
 
Oddly, the house I live in was once owned by a man whose parents were an age gap relationship with a span that was identical with that between Muse and me. His dad was born in 1844, and his mom in 1874... weird.
I may have missed some historical context, "was identical with that between Muse and me" ? Past tense ?
My grasp of English gramar can be tenous at time.
 
Do you know those moments where something is so reminiscent of another time in your life that you feel like you've not budged? Sometimes, this can make you feel youthful, and vibrant. Other times this can make you feel like you haven't budged, that you're right back at the beginning with nothing to show for it but wrinkles.
The latter is what I felt this morning and naturally it made me cry. Then I angry cried mid afternoon for other reasons
 
Do you know those moments where something is so reminiscent of another time in your life that you feel like you've not budged? Sometimes, this can make you feel youthful, and vibrant. Other times this can make you feel like you haven't budged, that you're right back at the beginning with nothing to show for it but wrinkles.
The latter is what I felt this morning and naturally it made me cry. Then I angry cried mid afternoon for other reasons
Just let it all out.
 
I may have missed some historical context, "was identical with that between Muse and me" ? Past tense ?
My grasp of English gramar can be tenous at time.
Yes, past tense. The previous owner of the house's parents had the same age gap going as Muse and me. I discovered this because I was doing some research on the Evangelical Lutheran Synod of Ohio and I came across a familiar surname. Turns out it was an older cousin of the guy who owned our house, and five minutes later I was up to my neck in a bunch of inter-related German-American clergy.

Muse and I had a falling out a couple of months ago, and I have not done any serious writing or drawing since. I am convinced the relationship will soon heal, but I am missing our conversations and being creative.
 
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We are currently working on rehoming my dads dog and may have found a new family for her. I know I’ve been focusing on her instead of grieving and if she leaves I won’t have anything to hide behind anymore. That realization has had me crying off and on today.
 
We are currently working on rehoming my dads dog and may have found a new family for her. I know I’ve been focusing on her instead of grieving and if she leaves I won’t have anything to hide behind anymore. That realization has had me crying off and on today.
Oh my darling 🫂💞
 
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