First Same Sex Crush.

I think i was 16 and just about to leave school.
There was this lad who i thought was so fit and every time i could would try and catch him in the showers after games. I would try and get in and out of the showers first so i could start to get dresssed so i wasnt showing i was getting hard. and then enjoy watching him. mmmm shame i cant turn back time
Though nothing ever came of it
 
Mine was when I was about nineteen, several years before I realised I was gay. She was a friend - perhaps only an acquaintance really - at university. I knew she was a lesbian. She was very beautiful, I found myself drawn to her, gazing at her, intrigued by her striking looks and mannerisms - wanting to be with her. I never acted upon it - at the time, I thought I was straight. Looking back and reflecting now, I realise than I fancied her...
 
I was about 10-11 and it was on my art teacher in elementary school. she was so beautiful! she was in her late 20s and i couldn't wait for every tuesday and thursday for art. she'd lean over and help us and I'd find myself trying to smell her hair and perfume...and also try to peek down her blouse as well, lol. I miss Miss Bunn.......
 
I was 19 or 20 and it was my best friend. He was older than me but still didn't have his driver's license, so I drove us around when we were hanging out. One night I was taking him and another friend home and I turned my head in the car to tell him bye. For reasons,still unknown he chose that moment to lean forward and kiss me on the cheek. But due to the angle of my head his lips hit inches from mine. I never got up the nerve to talk about it with him, but I never forgot it as well.
 
I've been fantasizing about women sexually since I was in my early teens but my first actual crush on another girl wasn't until I was 21 and in my fourth year of college.

She was in my Human Development-Theory class and we wound up doing our final project together. She was smart and aloof and just gorgeous: big brown eyes, long shiny shiny shiny auburn hair, these luscious full lips, and slender with what must have been double-D's.

The couple of late nights we spent together in the nearly-deserted library really got me thinking but she didn't show the slightest bit of interest in me other than just getting our presentation done.
 
I wouldn't call it a "crush" in a sense that I was head over heels in love with the person..but I craved the cock, and after a lot of j/o sessions that eventually turned into sucking sessions, I couldn't get enough cock to satisfy my young mouth....when the ass came into play, it got even worse....now that there's nothing (except my little rubber friend) it's more of a longing!

Oh to be XX and have access to those cocks again!!!
 
I guess I was roughly about 15 maybe 16. I was a pretty naive kid. I thought the writing on the walls in the Men's room was really done by women or girls looking to suck my cock or anyone's cock for that matter. I responded to a message on the wall and low and behold someone wrote back. We did this for several days till some of the other guys started to write "fag" and "homo" it was then that I really realized that it was a guy that I was writing to, but in a sense I no longer cared.

I am not sure why, I did not care be raised in a strict baptist home. It was then that he left me a note on a piece of paper. He told me that we should not write anymore on the walls and that I could stick my response in his locker and he gave me his locker number.

We passed notes for the next several weeks. I found out who he was, but we never hooked up. My guilt was an over-riding factor.

Not only was he my first boy to boy crush; he was a BBC. Years later, I dated a girl that knew him and she told me he was huge.

Damn, fuck my life

Joe
 
My first same sex crush was while I was at Uni with an older guy called David. I found myself drawn to his personality, rather than his gender. Nothing really happened, but occassionally I wonder if i should have pushed for something to happen...
 
Never really had any real-life same sex crushes. However, there was my first gay porn star I was a FAN of, rather than just someone I would watch: Joe Landon.

A bit of background: it was my freshman year of college, I had just turned 18, was out of my parents' house and prying eyes, and the first time that I had ever had the freedom to really get familiar with porn. This was in the late 1990s - days where the internet was primarily confined to dial-up connections, and people used things like Spry Mosaic as a browser. Back then, porn videos were a scarce commodity, secretly passed around in an underground economy.

They were all straight videos. Going to an all-boys high school you would think that it might be different, but teenagers are not known for their sensitivity or accepting behaviors.

So I had never watched any gay porn, or really known any out of the closet gay people at that point (years later, a friend from high school would come out, but I did not know that at the time). I had been growing more and more curious about being on the receiving end of anal sex - "Bend Over Boyfriend" had just been published, and was getting a lot of press in the Bay Area while I was at school.

Still, being unable to fully shake off the world I had grown up in, I only slowly connected the dots. I don't remember the first few gay porn videos I was able to find on the internet, other than that they were of the general falcon variety of that era. They were rather antiseptic, and did not do much of anything for me. I was 18 though, and watched them nonetheless, but, unlike some people, I did not have the breakthrough that I had hoped.

Then I bought a copy of "Joe's Big Adventure." The final scene was with Joe Landon and Tommy Cruise, and it was a revelation. Unlike the gay porn I had acquired previously, these two guys looked hot but REAL, not some overly steroid-enhanged hulks. They kissed, and didn't just have paint-by-the-numbers sex. There was CHEMISTRY. It was HOT.

I must have watched that scene a dozen times the first week I got the video; any time my roommate would be gone. I was entranced by how different it was from what had come before. I was inspired by Tommy Cruise's bottoming, which was active and engaged with Joe, rather than being a prop to be fucked like in the bad porn I had previously watched. I wanted to be that bottom, getting fucked, and giving pleasure rather than just being taken.

I wish then that this story could then go on about how many guys I had, and what a great experience college was for me, and a chance to broaden my horizons. It was not. Remember that background I mentioned? Those things die hard, and it took me over ten years to admit these feelings to anyone else, and even then, I only did so after I was firmly in a heterosexual relationship that I am unwilling to screw up by exploring.

But there's no denying what I am now, or when I KNEW. Thank you, Joe and Tommy, for teaching me that.
 
I was twelve and he was 13 he lived down the street from me. we wrestled a lot.
 
I was probably 12 and had a crush on my best friend. She had the most beautiful eyes and smile. I loved being around her and we could talk about anything...except that. I never felt like I could tell her what I really thought about her because I thought I was weird so I just knew she would too.
 
I was twelve and I completely adored a lovely Irish girl named Troina. She had the most magnificent dark red hair and brown eyes. I was terrified someone would guess. How bout you guys?

My best friend, when we were teens. She had black hair and dark eyes, but really pale skin. She was tall like me and we used to masturbate together. I was devastated when she went out with her first boyfriend.

x
 
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It was when I was about 10-11. Just wanted to look at him. I did get my hand into have a feel but it did'nt go any further. Have only had a crush on three males, in my teens then, that I really wanted. :)
 
well, i had always thought women were gorgeous. maybe it stemmed from the women i wanted to look like...but i think i was 23 when i had my first crush, and i recognized it as something other than getting drunk and making out with a friend.

we experimented one night,and then another night while our boyfrineds watched, going a little farther than the previous time.

for the past few years, it has been some serious cat and mouse....but she is the most gorgeous!!! thin but still curvy, long dark hair, and the most seductive eyes i have ever laid my own upon. simply being in her presence drives me absolutely crazy. she has the most amazing set of breast i have ever seen (or touched !)

i think about being with ehr constantly. a situation has presented itself recently...but for some reason has not come to fruition.
 
Attraction

Remembering back in the swimming pool showers when i was still flat chested. My friends boobs were blooming beautifully & i could,nt never tear my eyes off her.
 
I was 17, she was my best friend and she supported me trough my depressed years. We're still friends, but I really never got the nerve to tell her anything, since I knew she likes some other guy.
 
When I was about 13 years old, I accepted that I wasn't curious I was GAY in a big way and as this was 1973, I was desperately afraid of what it meant for me and my family and my life. I was already somewhat strange in that I liked to read a lot, wasn't athletic, etc. Terror! My parents were divorced and there was literally no one to talk to.

Then a new neighbor moved into the apartment complex I grew up in and he took me under his wing. He was a motorcycle enthusiast and a very regular looking blue collar type guy. I learned about bikes and a lot about life, too, from him, we talked about all sorts of things. I was smitten but tried to stay quiet and serious and keep my thoughts to myself. He got very friendly, strictly platonic and friendly, with my older sister who was just out of college and working and they'd often take me along on picnics, to bike races, etc. He was who I thought of in a random sort of way when I flailed around in bed at night.

Later, when I was in my twenties and still closeted to my family, my sister told me he was her first gay friend. Opportunity lost!
 
I can't say it was a fully formed crush on anyone in particular. But it dawned on me that I was equally attracted to men and women when I was about 15. One of my male friends wanted to watch Tomb Raider, and I blurted out that Angelina Jolie was hot. Needless to say, he looked at me like I had four heads. It was the first time I had said anything like that.
 
Sixth or 7th grade. She was adorably petite and I was all gangly and awkward. She played basketball like a pro, and got assigned to help me a couple times in gym class. Her hands over mine over the ball gave me shivers. At the time I never thought much more about it. A year or so later, I would jill off thinking about her. <sigh>
 
First crush was probably Sarah Michelle Gellar when I was about 9 and watching Buffy, although I didn't recognise it as such. My first real life crush was when I was about 12 at my theatre group, she was about 3 years older and not "hot" but so self-assured and confident with the kind of aura that made everyone want to be around her. She came out to me when we were talking one day and I realised I wasn't surprised and had sort of already guessed (my gaydar has always been good!) and I told her I thought I might be gay too. We didn't see each other for about 4 years after she left because of exams and then went to uni but at college I saw her again when she was doing a masters course on my campus... We started hanging out, she said she had a boyfriend but if they ever broke up she'd be sticking with girls, he was just "different". Well, they broke up and we still chat and keep saying we need to go on a night out, so who knows...!

I have thought of it often. She is such a good friend I would hate to be wrong and have her think less of me tho.

When I first met my best friend and now flatmate about 3 years ago I had the most ridiculous crush on her. We clicked straight away on meeting and immediately were hanging out all the time and telling each other everything. Her 19th birthday was a couple of weeks after we met and we got very drunk at her house party and kissed and spent the rest of the weekend holding hands and being very touchy-feely... Unfortunately due to mutual friends getting themselves involved and creating drama nothing more came of it, although I did eventually tell her I really liked her. If anything our friendship grew closer because of it and we still make out on a night out if the mood strikes us, but nothing more. What really sucks is that I still had feelings for her a year or so ago and we talked about it and she said when she met me she had a crush on me too. Damn those no-longer-friends who had to have their say. Tbh if she turned round and said she wanted to be with me today I'd say yes without a second thought but I think we're too good friends now and if we then broke up I wouldn't want to lose her. She's still the best kisser I've had though ;)
 
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