flashback(pm first)

[RLA68]

The door bell rang and Tommy’s mother excused herself. When she returned she had Maria.

Thomas’ eyes were as large as globes.
“Ummm Hi I guess. Wow…you were the last person I thought I would see today although…umm. Can we talk?” He said stammering.

“Maybe privately downstairs…no offense mom.” He said hugging his mom and she gave him a motherly kiss. He had obviously been pouring out his soul and using some Kleenex. He grabbed a painting he had turned toward the wall as he followed Maria downstairs.

“Well her goes….I umm had a dream about you Ria…and been doing some thinking. I even painted this picture from my dream.” He said and showed her.

“I am not trying to freak you out…but why did we never….why have we fallen out of each other’s…lives?” he asked somberly.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Maria

Maria got a hug right as the door opened and she smiled as she was lead towards the kitchen area.

She was cofused as to why he was there what the hell these were his parents big suprise that he would be there really.. but he was surprised to see her there however. ''Yes please.'' She responded when he asked her if they could talk.

She could sense something was wrong, but he was acting as if they were never friends, like they never talked it was not like that... she loved him always would, but for him to act as if they were not friends, at all bothered her.

She looked at the picture that he painted of her it was stunning the painting not really her.. she blushed and smiled at him as she looked at him. It was no dream she thought to herself.

She sighed as she looked at him... ''Its a two way street... there I can ask the same question... but I can admit, cause I was scared.''

 

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“It was a rhetorical question. Of course we never got involved because we were too scared of ruining our friendship.” He replied.

“I know it Is not like we have completely left each other’s lives but…I also feel we are not the best friends we were. Life happens and is the best explanation. Let me say…not a day passes I don’t think about you. Think about us. Think about what I wished we could have been.” He adds and finally sits down.

“I had some wacky crazy dream…that painting is an image from the dream. It really woke me up as to why I never told you how I feel. You know I love you Maria….but for many years I was in love with you. I was just scared it would ruin our friendship…I was scared you would reject me…I wasn’t exactly the star quarterback of the football team or class president. I was a bit nerdy and some even treated me as an outcast.” He says and laughs softly.

“Funny how adolescence has such of a fine line into adulthood. Being an architect and a successful one by 24 years old….can put away the nerd title or being a total outcast. But still my passions are not in front of me. You were always one of those passions that fueled me. I loved to paint and see your reaction to each new one. Much less how we used to talk about my paintings and what they meant.” He stated and stood up.

“I know there is always a window of time for opportunity but Maria…I have to tell I love you. I know I can’t do justice to what you meant to me just as a best friend. I hope you realize just a portion from what I have said…I am only sad that it took a dream to wake up and desire to tell you these things. I don’t mean to mess up anything in your life but…” he says somberly and sits back down.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Maria

She half smiled at his question there was so much she wanted to say to him, she should be his and noone elses he had always been it for her, and she wanted him, but the fear of rejection had always been there.

She felt tears come to her eyes at everything he sad but she fought them back, ''You are right we never should have let our friendship die off and only see one another every once in a while no matter what... I have always wanted you to be the biggest part of my life that never changed.''

She paced a little and chewed on her lip something she often did when nervous, scared, shy... and she looked at him, ''I never wanted anyone else... I thought you knew that, I never once made you feel like the outcast, if anything I always made you feel how much you meant to me how important you were to me.''

She looked at him as he stood up, she did miss his paintings god he was such a amazing artist and that picture of her, it showed the way he seen her the way he would always see her, it left her simply breathless.. ''What if your dream was real?'' She suddenly asked maybe in the back of his mind he remembered somehow.

It was now or never she thought, tears now rolled down her cheeks as she went to where he sat and kneeled in front of him... 'I am in love with you I have loved you since prom.. but you left me there alone and left with her.'' She didn't refere to whom he would know.. now he knew the truth

 

[RLA68]

He blinked and did a double take at her saying ‘I never wanted anyone else... I thought you knew that’
“No I really didn’t know your feelings. That is my fault for not being open minded Maria.” He said.

He listened to her more.
“What do you mean real? It was a dream. The dream was about changing the past…that is impossible. Isn’t it Maria?” He replied a little confused.

It was hard as he listened to her further pour out her soul.
'I am in love with you I have loved you since prom.. but you left me there alone and left with her.’

He put his head down and into his hands.
“I was under the impression that we went to prom because you and Steve broke up a couple of weeks prior to prom. It was a rumor that some other guys liked you and all. I figured us going was platonic as just friends. I never had any idea…that you felt anything than friendship with a dork like me. Lisa meant nothing to me…but I figured if Gary or Ron or whomever stepped in then…I don’t know it wouldn’t be awkward. I never meant to hurt you Maria.” He said and took a deep breath.

“If I could take anything back from regrets of the past they would pretty much involve you. Add prom night but not telling you how much I loved you as well. My life feels so empty with those regrets to be honest.” He adds choked up.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Maria

It was not as if she was telling him he could have read her mind, she knew better than that but she was sure her feelings towards him were pretty obvious.

She took a long deep breath and bit her lip as she looked at him tenderly, and walked over to him, she was no ready to touch him and she wondered if she should tell him that his dream was really a very real reality.

She found it hard to admit, that she was in love with him and that she wanted him, but also she was still kind of hurt from prom, she thought he knew she wanted more than just friendship that night.

She sighed and looked at him... ''I never wanted any of those guys you were and probably aside from my father that is important to me can you not see that Tommy,its you, its always been you, it will always be you.'' She whispered and looked at him softly.

''You can never regret anything Tommy, we can just move forward...'' She said and looked at him, then finally she took his hands in her own, and looked into his eyes...

''I am scared Tommy so scared.'' She whispered.

 

[RLA68]

“Again Maria…I am sorry. I never knew. I regret I regret and I regret. But this is the here and now.” He states as she tells him it was always him.

She tells him to never regret anything to move forward before taking his hands and telling him she is so scared.

“You are truly all I have ever wanted Maria. I just didn’t want to admit how much you meant to me because I was afraid.” He replies somberly.

“I think….together….there is nothing to be afraid of. I don’t want to screw things up with you and your boyfriend but if we are both free…as in the dream….it wouldn’t make sense not to. I do want to be a better friend and have you in my life more prominently though…I never intended to screw your life up with all of this Maria. I don't know it kinda makes my head hurt going back and forth I guess.” He added and a light laugh.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Maria

She looked at him softly and smiled tenderly as she took a long deep breath she wanted him she had always wanted him but was she really ready to take that leap of faith based on what her going to the past?

She admitted how scared she was not really of him but of the entire situation.

''Afraid that I would what reject you... you were my best friend, we've shared our entire life together, no one is more important to me than you.'' She said softly.

She looked at him as he admitted his own feelings to her... ''I love you...no pretty poems, or songs, or anything like that I just love you, and I want you, and I do not just mean sexually, I want all of you, I want to be the only girl you want to be with, I want to be your everything forever, can you see yourself with me?'' She asked gently.

 

[RLA68]

“I don’t know what to say Maria…except as I have said….I was young and insecure. I made a mistake maybe a good couple or more mistakes.” He said and put his head down.

He listened to her say she loved him and ask if he can see himself with her.

“Yes…you are the void I feel in my life. I am good at what I do and make good money….but Ria….I haven’t been happy for a very long time. I stopped painting until this one. I firmly believe I need you in my life.” He said and paused with a somber broken voice.

“I want the opportunity to show you how much I love you. I also want you more than sexual…I want that bond we shared. I want to just enjoy every moment of us being together. I want to transcend love…I think true soulmates do that.” He states and takes her hands.

"I am not gonna get down on one knee but...I do know I want to spend my life with you." He adds and kisses her.

 

[AngelofyourNighmares]

Maria

''I don't want you to be sorry for the past, and I don't want to be sorry for the past, we were always best friends, we will always be best friends, but I am sure we both knew there was something more there all along, something both of us feared getting into.'' She said and looked at him gently.

She was not sure she was ready for this scared that if things didn't work out she just may lose him forever.

''I know I need you in my life, you are the best friend I have ever had, and when I needed you most you have always been there.. I want to be with you... as more than a friend and yes I am scared but I want this chance.''

 

[RLA68]

He looked at her intently after she confirmed she needed him in her life and wanted more than friendship.
“The dream I had made me realize….what am really scared of is not taking the opportunity and exploring the chance of love with you.” He responded. He took her hands.

“I have worked hard to become a successful architect and part of my pride is the downtown penthouse apartment.” He said and paused.
“I would give up my apartment without hesitation to be with you where you live. I would make sure my career didn’t get in the way….as I would give it up if a problem arose. That Ria is how committed I am to have you in my life as the love of my life once and for all. Strange that it took a dream to make me realize.” He said and kissed her lips.

“Living together isn’t moving too fast is it? I mean I know I want to spend my life with you but we can work up the big “M” like a normal couple.” He said and smiled.

“I think I will quite enjoy the whole dating and courting you.’ He added.