Hard Lessons

[SmkyMtnRain]

William

"False hopes, blind faith and small mistakes made that were never corrected" I replied to the question after an eternity, thinking back to the first days and the happiness we had both shared.

"A small fight we never made up after, then silence..."

I stared into the red flames, trying to shake off the feelings of betrayal and pain I felt, the numbness having worn off from Sheila's announcement and my own suspicions.

"How long have I been duped, Sheila? When did it begin?"

Maybe what I was really after was how long had I been keeping the false hopes alive while Carmella was out having her fun...

Sheila had mentioned sometimes three different faces a week and I did the math...the number staggering as Sheila responded.

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I felt sorry for him. I wanted to comfort him as I watched him looking into the fire and I wanted to be the one that he turned to for his support. But I was not going to push myself onto him for that leaning pole.

"Who can say, I dont' know when it frist began. I can say waht I saw in the last few weeks." Sheila smiled to the waitress as her drink was delivered and Tanner's was too. After teh waitress left Sheila giggled a bit and ran her finger along her glas as she spoke,"ya know I have always just called you tanner, but that isn't your real name is it?" Sheila's eyes watched his face hoping the change of subject would help.

She lifted her glass to her lips and took a long drink as she waited for his answer. tilting the glass back down she licked her lips slowly and set the glass back on the table leaning a bit forward to rest her arms there as she watched him.

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

"William Tanner at your service" I grinned, her giggle infectious and pulling me from my own dark mood, and I lifted my own glass to drink.

"In college they called me by the name on my jersey...and it stuck into modern day, most people satisfied to call me by that and judge me by what I did for them"

Including my own wife, her patience worn thin and her own personal needs being satisfied finally, the sanctity of a marriage...forgotten.

The drink finished I waved for another and asked the barmaid to show us to our table, admiring the sight of Sheila as she rose and smoothed her clothes.

"Call me Will, Sheila. It's a name I haven't heard in too many years"

We followed the waitress, side by side without touching and as we did I wondered what we were doing here...and if it moved forward where we would be tomorrow?

Rule number two... Satisfy your own needs as well as those of the people you are with...

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I dippled a grin at WIlliam and nodded as he spoke about his name and a little thoughtful by the comment he made....

In college they called me by the name on my jersey...and it stuck into modern day, most people satisfied to call me by that and judge me by what I did for them"


I hoped he didn't think I was using him for anything. I was just trying to help out a friend and a decent person from the looks on the outside. But I had to wonder why he was so well known in a hotel that was rumored in town to be strictly a hang out for trysts of all kinds. The thoughts were getting teh better of me and as the waitress showed us to our table and handed us our menus I watched him. I dodn't knwo wwhat I was watching for, perhaps to see if teh waitress knew him well, but she barely gave him a second look before walking away. "Alright Will," She stated softly you name a gently sound as she spoke,"How is it you knew the desk clerk so well but you barely knew the waitress? I ..well you I have I am sure heard the rumors about this place? And no I am not talking about the food." I laughed gently as I lifted my menu and looked it over giving him toime perhaps to think up a plausible answer.

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

William

It made sense now, or at least part of it, the looks I had caught in her eyes, the curiousity and unasked questions.

"It's no secret" I answered with a grin. "Until this morning I was the head clerk in an office that specialized in obtaining licenses and permits. Nothing happens in this town with one or the other, no ground breaking of a new business, no expansion of an existing one, no hiring of people and often enough no job without some sort of permit or another. I've hustled harder and faster for more people in this town then all the other clerks combined, gotten to know nearly anyone and everyone that has ever had a need for anything...and then filled the order. Along the way I've made some friends and been owed a ton of favors, tonight I collected on a few and here we are"

I was proud of myself, the hard work it took to finally reach the goal I had set, and the rewards that were finally coming as well. Still there was a tinge of doubt in Sheila's eyes and it finally dawned on me.


"You thought I was part of the swinger club, didn't you?" I questioned and received a blush in response that did better than a spoken answer. "That I had done this before and you were just another...partner for the evening?"

Still it was a reasonable question and I could see why she might have reached the conclusion. Laughing gently I smiled and for the first time in a long time felt relaxed and good about myself.

"This is the first time I've ever been out with another woman since I was married and if I didn't think the marriage was over...I'd be either at the office...or home. But now that it is and by her choice...I'm not going to let it destroy me and hopefully not this night with you"

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I was so embarrassed. I looked up as he spoke to me, I was that type of person when you spoke to me I would look at you no matter the embarassment i might be feeling or the hurt or anger. I would always look you in the eye. My ex used to get angry from it, becasue he was guilty of the things he was accusing me of...cheating. "I..I am sorry Will," I blushed more as I spoke. You...you see I was engaged to be married...my fiancee ..well He wasn't as careful as your wife. Not that she is being all that careful. You see he brought anything and everything he could get his hands on here to his little home away from home. Finally he got tired of paying the bill and he took one of them to our home. the house that I live in now and fucked her there." The words tasted like sawdust and tears stung my eyes as I spoke. "See that is why I had to tell you... I knwo what it feels like to walk in on them in the act so to speak. Soon she wouldn't be soon careful and you would have had to walk in.....on that."

I sniffled slightly and smiled through the end of the story and then I reached across the table and took his hand in my own and sighed softly,"Look lets forget evryone and everything and pretend that you and I are highschool sweethearts out for our first romantic date and lets have fun?" I waited breathlessly for him to say yes. If he didn't I would merely shrug and nod and say ok. Dinner and then home. But I was so hoping he would say yes.

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Her story nearly broke my heart and as her hand touched mine and the words worked the way past her tear filled eyes I felt something give in my own heart.

,"Look lets forget everyone and everything and pretend that you and I are highschool sweethearts out for our first romantic date and lets have fun?"

The brave smile, the gentle face and her eyes...what could I say?

"Sheila, I'd be honored if you would be my sweetheart"

And it hit me then, maybe I was waiting for that right person to come along all this time, and maybe...I had just found her.

My hand went to the necklace at my chest, then traced it to the release at my neck and triggered the tiny gold loop, spilling it into my hand to look at.

"To love everlasting"

The tiny inscription said, one of a pair of unique necklaces I had made on another hopeful day.Mine I never took off...hers she swore she lost at work one evening and was never seen again...


"My gift to you, it's not new...but is real gold and the inscription still bears promise in it's words"

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I watched him and I giggled when he said yes, I hadn't realized I was holding my breath until he spoke. When he released my hand and slid his hand up and along his neck and when the chain released I canted my head watching him. This man was full of surprises and he was about to floor me again.

"I..wait Will you can't. Lets not go that far ok?" I Was blushing brightly now and I swallowed and the waitress came back to take our order. I fumbled with the menu and I looked upa t her and she laughed and shook her head,"honey with a man like that at my table and offering me jewelry I would definitely keep him." I laughed gently and was abbout to say something but you forstalled it as you placed a hand to my own." Oh she is going to keep me at least for a little while. " I blinked at you and shook my head and then looked at the waitress again and said,"I will ahve the chicken ceasaer salad, dressing on the side no croutons please."

After the waitress had taken our orders you rubbed your thumb along my knuckles and spoke gently to me, "I mean it Sheila I would like to be part of your life, if even for alittle while. I thought you said you were going to order a huge steak and the works." I laughed again and sighed softly as I looek dinto your eyes,"Well if I am going to keep you around for longer then a little while I have to stay gorgeous and eating a steak with the works isn't exactly the way to stay that way." I didn't want to mention hsi wife. That more then likely he would gohome to the woman he loved and see her standing in some flimsy gown and hear her plead with him about how I was just lying to get him to go out with me.....how she loved him and would never cheat on him. I would be forgotten and this night would have been a nice night out.

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I watched him and I giggled when he said yes, I hadn't realized I was holding my breath until he spoke. When he released my hand and slid his hand up and along his neck and when the chain released I canted my head watching him. This man was full of surprises and he was about to floor me again.

"I..wait Will you can't. Lets not go that far ok?" I Was blushing brightly now and I swallowed and the waitress came back to take our order. I fumbled with the menu and I looked upa t her and she laughed and shook her head,"honey with a man like that at my table and offering me jewelry I would definitely keep him." I laughed gently and was abbout to say something but you forstalled it as you placed a hand to my own." Oh she is going to keep me at least for a little while. " I blinked at you and shook my head and then looked at the waitress again and said,"I will ahve the chicken ceasaer salad, dressing on the side no croutons please."

After the waitress had taken our orders you rubbed your thumb along my knuckles and spoke gently to me, "I mean it Sheila I would like to be part of your life, if even for alittle while. I thought you said you were going to order a huge steak and the works." I laughed again and sighed softly as I looek dinto your eyes,"Well if I am going to keep you around for longer then a little while I have to stay gorgeous and eating a steak with the works isn't exactly the way to stay that way." I didn't want to mention hsi wife. That more then likely he would gohome to the woman he loved and see her standing in some flimsy gown and hear her plead with him about how I was just lying to get him to go out with me.....how she loved him and would never cheat on him. I would be forgotten and this night would have been a nice night out.

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Will

Her eyes were warm. An unusual way to describe a person eyes I know but it fit, wide open and full of friendly if not slightly confused feelings that flitted thru them and over her face.

"I've never taken that necklace off" I explained more about the tiny gift I offered. "It was my one, never relenting hope that what Carmella and I used to have would one day return, but when you confirmed the suspicions I already had?"

I opened my hands as if to show that now there was no hope...and gave her a gentle smile.

"Call it a token of our new found friendship if you wish. A gift that has no strings attached and promises honesty between us?"

It was all I had to offer at this point, plans were forming in my mind, I would need a place to live...have to move my things from the house...and confront my wife with what I now knew was no longer just suspicions.

It was a sober moment and my mind churned...I wanted, no needed to break away from the self pity I was feeling and into a better, optimistic train of thought.

"You know the best way to wear off a good meal, anyhow, if you really want that steak?" I teased as our salads arrived. "Or at least what I'm told?"

 

[little_golden]

Carmela Waited and Waited....

....

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I watched him and as he opened his hand and took my own and poured the necklace into it I watched him still. As he spoke I was saddened that I couldn't offer him more hope for things to be better.

I closed my hand around teh necklace and I pulled it along and slid it around my neck and fastened the clasp. It dangled between my breasts and I slid it inside my shirt as I looekd down at it. Sliding my hands along the chain I brushed my fingers along teh top of the tank top I wore and Looked back up at him."Well I thank you then as a friend. And should you ever need anythin you know all you have to do is ask."

As our food arrived my stomach growled menacingly and I picked up my fork ready to dive in.

"You know the best way to wear off a good meal, anyhow, if you really want that steak?" I teased as our salads arrived. "Or at least what I'm told?"

I canted my head to the side as I looke dinto his eyes, the innocent question flared across my mind. Was he suggesting? No ..he is still..maybe..My mind raced over several ideas and finally I shook my head. "no what is a good way to wear off the effects of the bad beef?" I chuckled as I speared a piece of lettuce and brought it to my lips waiting for his answer.

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Will

"Exercise" I returned with an almost evil grin "The kind that two people work at...work up a good sweat at...and enjoy"

I ducked my head, not believing I had spoke the words often thought crude by myself...and to a woman who was simply trying to help me, NOT bed me. I couldn't believe it!

"Forgive me it must be the wine" I began again as I raised my eyes to hers. "To be honest I want you to enjoy your meal and not let me bore you. I'm going to find Carmella and confront her, then tell her we're done. Then make a new life for myself, hoping to call you a friend and have you in it."

It was a long winded speech, I knew it and yet was resolved to make it happen, to live my life...and get revenge.

"When you broke up...did you..." I began, curious yet cautious to ask. "Did you ever think of getting....even?"

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I was a bit stunned. My mind had gone down the gutter trail and I thought he was going to say fuck each other. I shook my head and giggled and then I realized he was talking about leaving her for good.

I lifted another piece of lettuce to my lisp and I slid the bite into my mouth,"Everyday for weeks after, who doesn't?"

I'm going to find Carmella and confront her, then tell her we're done.

His words ran over and over in my head and I can't say I wasn't happy to hear I might be part of his life. He was a good looking man and I had often admired him working in the yard at his house next to mine.

"A good place to start would be to put her slutty ass out on the street as a starter to that revenge, you bought the house right? Why shouldn't you keep it?"

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Will

"A good place to start would be to put her slutty ass out on the street as a starter to that revenge, you bought the house right? Why shouldn't you keep it?"

I coughed, choking on the wine and then when recovered, grinned.

"You're right" I returned and looked again at this woman in a new light. "I've worked for and paid every bill and don't need to run from it. It's as much mine as hers and before tossing her slutty ass out I'm going to give it a good, HARD licking!"

Somehow in my new found strength and reasoning it was just...Carmella wanted to shake her ass to every man that caught her fancy...I would catch that ass and tan it!

Sheila was a much stronger woman inside than I knew...but it seemed I knew little of her...or my wife.

"Lets eat and then decide what comes next"

 

[Destiny]

Surprise!

I was a little shocked by his vehemenence at my suggestion. But I shrugged and remarked," why should she I mean get it did she pay for it?"

before tossing her slutty ass out I'm going to give it a good, HARD licking!"

Oh a little sex for the road I suppose? I didnt' ask it wasn't my life, it was his. I guess I couldn't blame him she was a pretty woman in a well used sort of way. The kind of woman I noticed that men immediately looked at when she arrived. but then when you dress the way she does, she looks like she is shopping and any pocket with enough cash could get her to buy.

The waitress came back with new drinks for us and she cleared away our plates as we spoke. "but don't you think having sex with her one last time is gonna make the tie breaking a little harder?" I could help asking as I lened onto the table some. my top folded a little bit at the breast bone and gave a nice view along the tops of my breasts. "Is that what you mean by good hard licking?"

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Will

Again I choked, this time not on the wine but my own tongue nearly as she leaned forward and knocked me breathless.

Then I grinned, we were both playing our games and hers was quite fun.

"Licking as in sex? No..." I corrected, then the evil grin did come out. "I was thinking of a good, hard, old fashioned spanking with a wooden paddle. One that would warm her bare ass until she cried, embaress her and repay her for lying to me. Then?"

I shrugged, the idea having gone no further in my head and now fading.

"I'd toss hand her the divorce papers on her way out the door"

Still the idea of wiping the smug look of her face and hearing her beg?

"Besides" I turned the direction of the conversation back to her. "You're going to get the real licking if you keep THAT up"

It was my turn to grin at her and I touched her cheek, stroking it with the back of my fingers and playing with a wisp of hair.

"And that's a promise"

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I turned my head a bit and nuzzled my cheek back into his caress and then took his finger into my mouth. A playfull gesture as I slid my tongue along the tip of his finger. I mumbled around the finger I help between my teeth,"oh reawy?" I sucked his finger into my mouth the muscles easing it deep into my mouth as I looke dinto his eyes and gave him an idea of what it would be like if I REALLY teased him.

I released his finger and licked my salive from his hand as he played his flingers over my lips and tongue. perhaps the wine was making me do it perhaps I had decided totease him more to make him want me.

I lifted my galss to my lisp still leaning forward on the table giving him a nice view still and drained the glass. The waitress brought another and I was idly sliding my fingers along the rim of the glass now as I watched him.

The term: The devil made me do it. was running through my head.

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Will

I stood and shifted to another chair, closer to the heat I was feeling and the erotic woman that was sending it. Closer to the pair of lips and soft, full curves that kept drawing my eyes to them, sending me shivers amid waves of desires.

Closer to what I had wanted since we met today, what I now needed so badly once I touched her.

"You're playing with fire" I whispered into her ear, then let my tiongue run along the ridge of it. "A fire that has smoldered for too long"

I brushed her hair back, revealing the long, silky neck and gently perfumed skin, then kissed it as well, tracing downward to her shoulder.

" A fire that will consume us both if we're not careful"

And with those gentle, chiding words I pulled my finger from her teasing, cloying lips and brought my own to them.

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

My eyes lifted watching him rise and the resettle on the chair beside my own. your caress on her hair making her shiver slightly as she sat there looking at you and when your lips met her ear and your heated words brushed along her skin.

"You're playing with fire" ........... "A fire that has smoldered for too long"

My own lips released his finger as he pulled it from them. When his lips met mine I moved in closer to him leaning closer as I returned the heated kiss. my hand went to his knee and slid slowly up his thigh.

What are you doing he is married.....HELLO! My mind was screaming at me but I couldn't help myself he ws just so damn sexy and I was enjoyig myself.

I slowly closed my eyes as I lett he kiss continuenot wanting it to end. but as all good things must end...I lifted my head up and looked into his eyes and flicked my tongue along his flesh. "I like it hot."

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Will

Time slowed as she returned the kiss, the touch of our bodies sending spasms of delight to my mind as breathed in her perfume, slid my hands thru her hair....carressed her cheeks with my hands and delighted in the silky skin. Our lips parted and my eyes opened, again like a child I was transfixed by her own eyes twinkling at me, as if telling me she was waiting for....

"I like it hot."

The words rocked me. Was it lust I felt? Of course...who wouldn't want a woman as this? Beauty...wit...a spirit that was willing to care for another..and needing that care in return.

But it was more, so much more as I brushed my lips again over hers, keeping my eyes open and enjoying the sight of her own closing as passion claimed her features. So much more...

The waitress gently chuckled, polite, smooth, telling us without overstating she was in the room, not wanting, but having to intrude.

It was just as well. I knew it, so did the woman whose scent still washed my nostrils, thrilling my body...making me want to crush her to the table and consume her...to feed on her body, her sweet taste, her lust...

"When the time is right" I gently promised and slid into my own chair, missing the intimacy we had just shared immediately, consoling myself with hopes of what soon might be.

"To time standing still when we find ourselves alone...together"

A toast...I lifted my glass to her and let her see the adoration and lust in my eyes as I spoke, then drank to her honor.

It might have been the grandest meal ever served, or the worst meal I ever tasted...I didn't know or care as I ate it, all my senses were on the vision of erotic beauty across from me, enjoying her and wanting more. The meal was over...we rose and moved to each other, neither of us wanting the evening to end...and yet?

"I want you Sheila" I confessed softly as we stood looking into each others eyes "Now and forever...even longer if you'd have me, but tonight..."

 

[Destiny]

Romantic Interlude....

His hand in my hair and along my cheek made my skin ache for more. GAwd he was so gentle and loving, I thought I would melt there on the spot. but I didn't and when the waitress interuptted as tactfully as she could I finally looked around. We had a few onlookers and I ducked my head a bit as Will moved away from me to return to his seat.

As he toasted me I raised my glass back and whispered,"to long night of passion and you."

I finished off my wine and rose to my feet a bit unsteadily. I giggled as I looek dinto his eyes and he paid for the meal. As we began to walk along the restaraunt closer to each other then when we had come in, I felt warm and wanted.

He confirmed in not a second after I thought it...."I want you Sheila". I swallowed and looked up into his eyes," I want you as well Will, but I want more then one night, and you can't promise me that. Can you?" I had to be the sane one here. He was pushing all the right buttons, saying all the right things.

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Will

"No, I can't, Not yet"

The words were surprisingly difficult to say, surprising because as of a few hours ago I was in my mind a married man...and now?

"Not rushing into what we want is wise" I agreed gently as we moved from the private room. "But it won't change or lesson the feelings I've found I have for you"

Nor the determinantion I had found inside myself.

"I'll drive you to where you wish then return home myself. I'd like to call you tomorrow if you'll agree, and set another time to meet you again?"

I had formed a plan. I would use the next days wisely, lining up my "ducks" so to speak and making sure I got what was coming to me...and so did my wife as well.

"I have the weekend off and my wife announced earlier she'll be busy at her "club"...so we could spend some time together, if you wanted, that is?"

And I could set my own plan in motion, one that guarnteed I catch Carmella with her pants down...or off it that were the situation, and one that guarnteed I get my...revenge.

 

[Destiny]

Sheila

I walked along with him and I was a bit surprised by him as instead of walking me back to a room we were heading for the parkinglot. I can't say I wasn't disappointed and perhaps it showed on my face as he said. "What did I say something wrong?"

"No Will, not at all and I would love to have a lovely evening with you again, since your wife won't be home how about you come to my place?" I offered it a little stunned at my offer. But it was out on the table now. I didn't want to withdrawl the offer.

When we got to the car though it was a different story, the car refused to start. HE was getting more and more angry at the beast as we sat there and his anger frightened me a little as well as exciting me. I reached out and caressed his hand,"It is ok we can call a cab..."

 

[SmkyMtnRain]

Will

"DAMN" I cursed softly and slapped the steering wheel, cursing the stubborn car and adding one more thing I had to do to my list in the morning.

And then her offer sunk in. Despite my not being able to give her a promise she had offered...

"You want me to come with you to your place?" I asked incredulous of the words. "You trust me that much, already?"

Or did I have her intentions wrong? To spend the night with her next door to my house and my wife? Did I care?

"Either way we have to go back inside and use the phone" I agreed, turning my hand to hold hers and looking at her in the suddenly close confines of the car. "The room is ours if we want it and I'm told it has robes for the guests and an excellent menu in the morning."

I brought her hand to my lips and kissed the back of it, then looked at her for her reply, I had accepted her invite...and upped the deal, would she fold...or call?