This is something I've grappled with on and off for many years, well after every time it happens. Why do people end up taking for granted, forsaking or turning their backs on good things? This isn't so much about a love who turned her back on someone, but people in general. I've never understood how two people could be the best of friends or the best of lovers, and one or the other just fades away to nothing. The most recent example, A woman who's been a dear friend of mine for two years, I've been there for her through a failed relationship, I helped her through it and we were even involved for a short time. It ended for.. well I don't know why.. We never had any problems until one day she decided "I don't want anything, i don't know why" I've stopped trying to understand it, I accepted it on the promise we're still friends.. but we hardly speak, I've tried reaching out to her, nothing helps.. I know she tried to get involved with a guy ((Who shafted her in less then a week, new record imo)) and such.. and as much as it hurt for our relationship to end, It hurts me a lot more that I've apparently been forsaken by her. She's with a girlfriend most of the time, sweet girl now.. But she screwed her over in the past a few times, I think she's better now but eh.. I've never done a damn thing to hurt her, I've bent over backwards.. and here we are.
Before you say "It has to be something to do with the fact you two were involved on a deeper level then friendship" Maybe so in this case, but its happened before, friends, even family. I treated another friend like gold, bent over backwards, moved mountains and no more. Its just unconceivable how someone can turn their back on someone who's done so much, cares so much and everything.. I could never turn my back on someone I cared for, not without a good reason.. Like them lying to me, stealing, whatever.. The problem now is, I'm finding myself becoming more and more bitter over it. I feel like screaming and it makes me wonder if I should keep on being the kind, giving man that I am. And either be a total bastard or just not care period and be the loner I once was. I suppose I'm rambling but I can't make any sense of it, there is no logic to it.. If I could find a reason that was my fault, I'd point it out to myself and be satisfied. But I don't believe its me.
I dunno.
Before you say "It has to be something to do with the fact you two were involved on a deeper level then friendship" Maybe so in this case, but its happened before, friends, even family. I treated another friend like gold, bent over backwards, moved mountains and no more. Its just unconceivable how someone can turn their back on someone who's done so much, cares so much and everything.. I could never turn my back on someone I cared for, not without a good reason.. Like them lying to me, stealing, whatever.. The problem now is, I'm finding myself becoming more and more bitter over it. I feel like screaming and it makes me wonder if I should keep on being the kind, giving man that I am. And either be a total bastard or just not care period and be the loner I once was. I suppose I'm rambling but I can't make any sense of it, there is no logic to it.. If I could find a reason that was my fault, I'd point it out to myself and be satisfied. But I don't believe its me.
I dunno.
