my dear husband
i miss you so much
time attempts to test
the metal of my resolve
with rust
saved texts, zoom calls
and such
only serve as a fleeting
reminding crutch
of just how i miss your kiss
dark skin on mine
writhing, rubbing, kind
grinding feel of your touch
maneuvering my way through
granite trees
i follow the sound bouncing
off the branches and leaves
to a clearing
where sits a devoted piano
echoing
one
simple
monotone
note:
come
come
come
come
oh, my dear husband
it's been one whole year
circumstances have, i fear,
steered us further apart
than near
if you can’t be by me
i'll run through the oceans
bordering hell and heaven's skies
fighting the aging of given youth
my determined soul
committed on this path
to one sun's final set
Come
rest aligned with you
The Asylum at 80mph
Every damn morning I must merge,
Thread the needle of the nightmare,
Avoiding the ever-present primal urge
To engage the impatient patients there.
They drive bumpers to rumps
They almost bump when one pumps
Their BRAKES! and takes the bet
That the other will finally get
The hint, and back away
and hopefully, sanely stay;
But we all know they don't;
Not they can't, they won't.
Redneck Rob in the big black truck,
Window stickers, Nascar and bucks
Is he late for work again today?
Or is it just a game he plays?
Karen's surely not caring
How others' safety's faring
Her Benz poses as her pass
To drive crazily close and fast.
And could we please medicate
The FedEx driver running late,
Who's forty tons of Prime
Rides my rear all the time?
Every morning, I enter the ward
Like the others, rolling toward,
What we hope is release,
Some futile pursuit of peace.
But here he comes, riding rears
The daily lunatic appears!
I take a glance recognize;
He has my face, has my eyes.
When I was the age of 4
I went to bed excited
With anticipation at the forecasted snow.
Awakened, I was in awe
At the amount of beauty
Caused by the gathering of 1 little flake.
Bundled for the cold,
I rushed outside happily
And immediately a snowball
Found its way
Dead to the center of my smiling face.
It was then that I learned
There’s a time and a place
For the things you love
To be embraced.
Finding a stray animal on the street
Always was I compelled to bring home
Wash and clean and find food to feed.
Mama would caution me
Not to keep
Or have feelings become attached.
Upon begging her to no end
I once got Mama to agree to one:
A scruffy, runt of cuddly fur
This tabby was going to be my cat.
That’s when I realized
The one-way giving of fond love
Can leave one open
To be biten, bloodied,
And deeply scratched.
You stand before me
Claiming now is the time for our love.
Promising the above high heavens.
But I don’t know
If I can go forward.
I have learned hard lessons.
My finger,
Is my pen,
Your back,
My paper,
I'll write,
Words,
Of passion,
And lust,
My desire,
Words to excite,
Arouse,
Secret words
Forbidden whispers,
Used only at night,
In the dark,
When hunger,
At its zenith.
Marital Seduction
Slowly and slyly she slides them down
Past silky thighs, then her knees,
Over strappy heels, finally aground;
Hands them boldly over to me.
She never even looked about
To see who might be spying
Our waiter tries to figure out
The spectacle he's been eyeing.
I want to match her bold with bold;
Lift them up and smell her scent
I see her blush as they unfold;
They're wet where her desire went.
Just before the desserts arrive,
I pocket them to her relief.
Though I must say she's quite alive;
She's trembling like a leaf.
Four decades now, we're a pair
I'm old and bald, soft and round
But my beauty queen's still fair
Though biased I may sound.
The secret? Never cease the play,
The flirt, the hunt, the little game
Be the knight that saves her day,
Be his sexy, slutty, elegant dame.
The Poet's Inspiration, Always Weak,
Begins to Flag, Yet He Doggedly Perseveres
One poem a week? It seemed so easy,
I promptly signed up to compete.
It's now week five. I'm feeling queasy.
It seems damn hard now to complete
One simple poem with limply rhyming
Lines that quail of love and sighing,
Of frantic sex against a wall,
Or, often, nothing much at all.
But forge ahead! Here's this week's ditty—
A self-indulgent tale of woe.
(One authored by one rather slow;
It could be written by committee.)
Another week, another verse.
Dear readers, feel quite free to curse.
YOU!
KILLED!
ME!
Had now that
Self-defense
Motive reversed
And
Accidentally
Crossed fates
Around turned
Instead
Instead
Turn around
Fates crossing
Accidentally
And
Reverse motive,
Defending self,
That now has ME!
KILLING!
YOU!
A bad dream
Weird, disturbing
Or I am back in Iraq
The 3:22am Club is
Not the club you wanna join
Irrational fear time
It’s a process:
Stay off that phone
Box breathing
But inevitably my most base fears come out to play
Amplified to a loud hum in my head
This one goes to 11
I am afraid that my wife will die before me
That I have too many things to do for work
I can depend or rely on no one
But sunshine and daylight make all the difference
My optimism streams thru the broken night
Somehow my relentless positivity builds a path
Once I am up
I watch the pink and orange winter sunrise illuminate my soul
Listen to the sound of the setting sun,
Set sail on the evening clouds,
This is the world between,
Awake and asleep,
Where life is lived in moments,
And moments can last for an eternity,
Close your eyes and let the winds of fantasy carry you,
Ride the crest all the way to the waiting moon.
In the Age of Machines
a single person could be noisier
than a crowd. Industry was loud,
clacking, grinding screech and slam,
smoky cough rising to foul the air
with human occupation.
Now the Age of Technology
barely whirs and clicks. Its dominance
is a silent menace that spreads
and probes our hidey-holes and secret
spaces until we stand naked, blinking
against the blinding light of Truth,
which hurts more than our foolish
hearts could have dreamed. It was
so quiet and unexpected, our undoing
and I long for a place in an unchanging
work of art or at least a space of time--
Innisfree calling: lonely cabin, bee-loud
hives, evening sky of call and wing.