Littlemissb1981
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I lie next to Ben I try to crush myself against him wrapping my arms around him but he shuffled away with a quick peck on the cheek mumbling about an important meeting in the morning. I sigh softly, frustrated I kick the bed clothes off me and go down stairs to get a glass of water I stop at Miles's door I raise my hand to knock but I hear moaning I stop and listen, is he ok, is he ill? I hear it again then I realise what's he's doing ... I really should go but I cant I'm rooted to the spot listening this is so wrong... my nipples harden as my pussy throbs with desire. I want to touch myself but that would be so wrong I fight the urge and force myself away from his door letting him have his private time. He is probably thinking of Elly any way. "Mia" I stop gasp... did he just say my name or am I imagining it??? I run down the stairs into the kitchen. I gulp the water down and rest the cool glass against my hot forehead. I wish he had followed me down the stairs ... his arms wrapping around my waist as he pulls me into him moving my hair and kissing my neck. I can feel his hardness grinding against me. I turn in his arms look into his blue eyes. STOP MIA for fuck sake..... this cant happen this cant be ...... he's in your care to be looked after.... to be cared for... not this. What sort of mother am I? I go back to bed and stop at his door again, I hear him speaking in his sleep but I cant make out what he is saying. I open the door and peak in. I cross over to him and pull the blankets up over him. I kiss his cheek "I love you Miles" and I go back to bed.
The next morning I Look at my reflection in the mirror I stare back at the stranger looking back at me my face fills with shame for having such sexual thoughts about Miles.. the boy I have brought up as my own son. My skin is pale, I have circles under my eyes as I did not sleep at all. Tossing and turning throughout the night thinking of Miles and how we have been around each other lately letting myself feel the things I have been ignoring. He makes me laugh, smile, he is so sensitive loving and makes me feel special. I start to put on some make up to try and cover up the circles under my eyes. Maybe I wont need to speak to him about this there is no way he is feeling the same things, but then he may be wondering why I've gone all crazy on him. Yes we need to talk I need to explain that I was just messing around.
Dressed and ready for my day I head to the kitchen to start on breakfast, I take Bens through to him as he sits in front of the TV. I keep glancing at the clock anxious he's normally down by now. Maybe he's overslept maybe I had better go and get him. Then I hear a thump and know he's up but he's going to be late. I start to pack his breakfast in a box for him to take with him disappointment crushing through me that he doesn't want to come down. Humiliation and panic sweeps through me oh god have I lost him??
Then he appears I glance at him, “Morning, hun.” “Are you going to have breakfast?” “Not today. I’ll get something on the way. Sorry. I’ll be mentoring Dominique after school and I have work afterwards at the club, so I won’t be home for dinner.” "Oh... Ok... erm... well I have packed you some breakfast to eat on the way" I look over him worriedly he's not meeting my eye. He is disgusted me with. I check he has taken his meds and has everything he needs. I step towards him and hug him holding onto him a bit longer then I normally would. "Miles about last night...." He breaks away " I will see you later" and he's gone.
I sit down and fight back the tears.. what have I done???
Ben walks in he looks very smart in his new suit. " You look very handsome dear" "got an important client coming in later today, so will be home late" crushed " again.. can you at least try to get home early at least one evening this week?" "Oh come on Mia, who is going to keep this house running if I don't work the hours I do.. or keep you in the high life" "The high life Ben...!!! I don't want this ... I don't want that I just want you.. us who we used to be????" with tears in my eyes I run out of the room. Ben doesn't bat an eye lid he has other things on his mind.
Dressed I come down the stairs to the empty house the purring from little Buttons makes me smile and I sweep down to pick him up rubbing his soft fur against my face. I give him his fourth bottle feed of that morning. Leave him sleeping in his basket. I pack a picnic for me and Ben going ahead with the surprise thinking it will stop me from worrying about Miles and hopefully make Ben happy.
I pick up Buttons and head to the shelter . I spend the morning with animals I'm in a more cheerful mood as I leave and head over to Bens office.
I manage to park without any problems I check my reflection and walk into the office with Buttons under one arm and the basket in the other. I greet the two guys who have been working with Ben for while with a smile and ask about their families. I cant help but notice the strange looks they are giving me I say good bye and Bill calls me back "Mia, maybe you should come back later, think the boss is on the phone" "Oh don't worry Bill, I wont disturb him"
I open the door to his office and my world falls away..... Ben in bent over his desk his trousers around his ankles buried deep inside his new assistant. I drop the basket and cry. "shit" Ben turns around and sees me "Mia" ... I run from the office out of the door and into my car.
I send Ben a text telling him not to bother coming home tonight and switch my phone off" I drive around for a bit buttons some how sensing my mood and licks my hand as he curls into my lap. I go and see my Mom and Dad painting on a bright face I need to keep moving I need to keep going otherwise I will break but I cant go home just yet. I then go and visit Miles's moms grave, my best friend I miss her so much.. I tell her everything that's been happening and ask for her forgiveness. I tell about Ben and I can sense her around me. Then I head home its getting late. I walk into the house and put Buttons in his basket.
I'm numb and cold. Gazing into space trying to make sense of my life... my feelings. I have no idea how long I have been sat there in the dark for then I hear the front door open.
The next morning I Look at my reflection in the mirror I stare back at the stranger looking back at me my face fills with shame for having such sexual thoughts about Miles.. the boy I have brought up as my own son. My skin is pale, I have circles under my eyes as I did not sleep at all. Tossing and turning throughout the night thinking of Miles and how we have been around each other lately letting myself feel the things I have been ignoring. He makes me laugh, smile, he is so sensitive loving and makes me feel special. I start to put on some make up to try and cover up the circles under my eyes. Maybe I wont need to speak to him about this there is no way he is feeling the same things, but then he may be wondering why I've gone all crazy on him. Yes we need to talk I need to explain that I was just messing around.
Dressed and ready for my day I head to the kitchen to start on breakfast, I take Bens through to him as he sits in front of the TV. I keep glancing at the clock anxious he's normally down by now. Maybe he's overslept maybe I had better go and get him. Then I hear a thump and know he's up but he's going to be late. I start to pack his breakfast in a box for him to take with him disappointment crushing through me that he doesn't want to come down. Humiliation and panic sweeps through me oh god have I lost him??
Then he appears I glance at him, “Morning, hun.” “Are you going to have breakfast?” “Not today. I’ll get something on the way. Sorry. I’ll be mentoring Dominique after school and I have work afterwards at the club, so I won’t be home for dinner.” "Oh... Ok... erm... well I have packed you some breakfast to eat on the way" I look over him worriedly he's not meeting my eye. He is disgusted me with. I check he has taken his meds and has everything he needs. I step towards him and hug him holding onto him a bit longer then I normally would. "Miles about last night...." He breaks away " I will see you later" and he's gone.
I sit down and fight back the tears.. what have I done???
Ben walks in he looks very smart in his new suit. " You look very handsome dear" "got an important client coming in later today, so will be home late" crushed " again.. can you at least try to get home early at least one evening this week?" "Oh come on Mia, who is going to keep this house running if I don't work the hours I do.. or keep you in the high life" "The high life Ben...!!! I don't want this ... I don't want that I just want you.. us who we used to be????" with tears in my eyes I run out of the room. Ben doesn't bat an eye lid he has other things on his mind.
Dressed I come down the stairs to the empty house the purring from little Buttons makes me smile and I sweep down to pick him up rubbing his soft fur against my face. I give him his fourth bottle feed of that morning. Leave him sleeping in his basket. I pack a picnic for me and Ben going ahead with the surprise thinking it will stop me from worrying about Miles and hopefully make Ben happy.
I pick up Buttons and head to the shelter . I spend the morning with animals I'm in a more cheerful mood as I leave and head over to Bens office.
I manage to park without any problems I check my reflection and walk into the office with Buttons under one arm and the basket in the other. I greet the two guys who have been working with Ben for while with a smile and ask about their families. I cant help but notice the strange looks they are giving me I say good bye and Bill calls me back "Mia, maybe you should come back later, think the boss is on the phone" "Oh don't worry Bill, I wont disturb him"
I open the door to his office and my world falls away..... Ben in bent over his desk his trousers around his ankles buried deep inside his new assistant. I drop the basket and cry. "shit" Ben turns around and sees me "Mia" ... I run from the office out of the door and into my car.
I send Ben a text telling him not to bother coming home tonight and switch my phone off" I drive around for a bit buttons some how sensing my mood and licks my hand as he curls into my lap. I go and see my Mom and Dad painting on a bright face I need to keep moving I need to keep going otherwise I will break but I cant go home just yet. I then go and visit Miles's moms grave, my best friend I miss her so much.. I tell her everything that's been happening and ask for her forgiveness. I tell about Ben and I can sense her around me. Then I head home its getting late. I walk into the house and put Buttons in his basket.
I'm numb and cold. Gazing into space trying to make sense of my life... my feelings. I have no idea how long I have been sat there in the dark for then I hear the front door open.
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