Like A Mother

[xPassionx]

Mia is sitting in the living room sipping red wine when I come home from school. She smiles and asks me to sit with her. I set my book bag down at the door and take a seat next to the love of my life. I give her a kiss on the lips, but she seems apprehensive. She has an earnest demeanor about her.

'What's wrong?', I ask her. Mia is silent for a moment.

'We need to talk', she says softly. This doesn't sound good. I take her hand in mine and caress it with my thumb and she stares at it for a moment. Something is very wrong.

"What's wrong, Mia?"

"I think things have gone too far."

That's true. Things have gone too far between us. But there's no turning back now. She knew that the moment she first kissed me, didn't she? She told me that she meant it and she wasn't just rebounding. I knew that if we took it further that there would be no turning back. She's right. She has been my mother for most of my life. Neither one of us would want to jeopardize our relationship.

"I can't let you give up all the things you've been working so hard for. I love you and want to take care of you. That's my job. That's my life.

Telling her that I wanted her to have my baby might have been a bit much, but I meant it and I still mean it. Not just because it's what she always wanted. And not just because she deserves it, but because it's what I want for both of us. I know that the chances of her even conceiving are very slim, and I know she doesn't want to get her hopes up, but even if we could never have a family, it wouldn't change the fact that I love her more than life itself.

"I'm your mother now. Do you understand what I'm saying?"

I feel my heart sink into stomach. I suddenly feel sick. I can't think enough to form a coherent sentence. Where is this coming from? Last night and this morning she seemed fine, and now this.

"Miles?"Mia looks at me all concerned. I was so lost in my own thought that I haven't responded at all. What the hell do I say?

 

[AugMilf]

"Miles?" I repeated softly.

I look at him with all the compassion of a mother. I ache for him as I look at him. This sick feeling overwhelms me as I realize I caused all this by giving in to lust and weakness. Tears begin to roll down my cheeks as I am overcome by the loss and confusion. Unable to take anymore, I jump up and run to the bathroom to throw up. My guilt pours out of me as I sob and vomit.

Finally, I stand on shaky legs and turn to find Miles in the doorway. He stares at me as I shake my head trying to find words.

"Miles, I love you. Please understand. I can't hurt you like this. It's too selfish of me. Things have to go back to the way they were. Please, Miles," I plead.

 

[xPassionx]

I watch Mia put her hand to her mouth and hop off the couch and bolts to the bathroom. I go after her and find her on her knees puking in the toilet. She cries as struggles to get back on her feet. She turns and to her surprise I'm standing in the doorway. She has snot running down her nose and her eyes are super red from the streams of tears falling from them.

"Miles, I love you. Please understand. I can't hurt you like this. It's too selfish of me. Things have to go back to the way they were. Please, Miles."

I want to tell her that's not doable, but she's so distraught that putting up a fight would just make her worse. I suddenly feel sick and my eyes are welling up. Wordless, I retreat to my room and close the door. This won't be the last time we speak of this. I want to know why she's doing this.

Put things back to the way they used to be? We both know that no matter how you cut it, there's no turning back now. She reassured me not a moment after I shot my seed into her for the first time that she wasn't just using me for sex. Was she lying? Would she really do that to me of all people? I suppose in a way this is my fault as well. I should have known that since she was in a very fragile place that any comfort could make her do something drastic that she wouldn't normally do, but not with me. I know that I'm the center of her world. She'd never take advantage of me and play with my emotions like that. Right?

Unable to take it anymore, I bury my face in my pillow and cry hysterically for what feels like a lifetime until I've exhausted myself and fall asleep.

 

[AugMilf]

When Miles leaves me without a word, I feel even worse than before. What he must think of me? I gave in to this lust, I gave in the moment I heard him masturbating and moaning my name. I knew what I was doing and now I've devastated him. How can I live with myself?

Awhile later I go to Miles' room to talk more and I hear him sobbing. I feel sick again and turn away without knocking. I wanted to go in and comfort him but I knew where that would lead and I still wasn't sure of my restraint. I threw myself on my bed and wept into my pillow. Knowing Miles was doing the same thing made my crying even harder. How could I have done this to him? He must hate me!

Just before sunrise, I go downstairs and start breakfast. Miles is running late again. I go upstairs and knock on his door.

"Miles? You coming to breakfast?" I ask quietly through the door.

 

[xPassionx]

I sit on the edge of my bed for a while trying to work up the courage to go downstairs when Mia knocks on the door.

"Miles? You coming to breakfast?"

I'm silent for a moment, but I can sense that she's still waiting for a response.

'I'm not hungry', I say gently and I hear her footsteps get distant. I take a shower, take my meds and go downstairs where Mia greets me with a half-smile.

'Do you want me to give you a ride?', she asks softly.

'Okay', I say.

The ride to school is long and awkward. Neither one of us utter a single word. I just stare out the window. When we pull up to the front door of the school, Mia says softly that she loves me. I can tell that she's holding back tears.

'I love you too', I say. 'I'll see you later.'

 

[AugMilf]

As soon as Miles closed the car door, tears began to eke their way out of my eyes. I began crying so hard I could hardly drive. When I got home, Ben's car was in the driveway and he was waiting in the living room.

"I can see you've been crying. I'm sorry," Ben said. "I can't tell you how sorry. I've done a lot of thinking and I really miss you. I shut you out of my life after we lost the baby. I'm so sorry. I love you. Please give me another chance."

I could hardly wrap my head around Ben's words but knew I should give him a chance. It would help things start to mend in my life. But what about Miles? Would he ever be able to forgive me?

I nodded numbly and Ben grabbed me for a long embrace.

"You won't regret this," he said. "I fired my assistant and am hiring a new one. Please can I come home?"

I nodded again and watched as he ran to the car and got his bag. He sure was sure of himself, I thought. He returned and kissed my cheek. I collapsed onto the couch, unable to grasp all that had occurred. Ben joined me on the couch and put his hand on my waist to pull him to him for a proper kiss. As we kissed all I could think of was Miles. Ben moved his kisses to my neck. It had been so long since he had wanted me like this and now I was so confused. Had I been rebounding with Miles? What a horrible person I am!

Ben continued to kiss me, pressing my breasts and squeezing me. My thoughts were all over the place. When he slid his hand between my legs, it was more than I could take and I pushed him off of me.

"Stop, Ben. I can't just forget everything and let you sleep with me and make everything better. We should talk about things first."

"I don't understand. I know you've wanted my attention and now I'm here giving it you and you don't want it. Is there someone else?"

Ben's words hit me hard. I was in love with someone else, someone I couldn't have, and I didn't know what to do. I looked at Ben in dismay.

"No, it's not that. I've wanted you for so long. You can't just sleep with me and mend all the months of neglect. Besides, Miles gets out of school early today and I don't want him walking in on us. Let's go for a drive and talk," I said.

We left the house for a ride. We drove to a neighboring town and pulled into a country diner. We went in and ordered coffee. Ben kept pressing me about getting back together and my thoughts were still on Miles and what would happen with him, what had happened with him.

"Mia, please, I want you back. I love you! We can try to have a family again if you'd like," Ben said.

"Really? You'd be willing to try again? After all we've been through?"

"Yes! I just lost my way for a while."

Ben got up and sat beside me in the booth. He took my hand in his and kissed it.

"Let's go home and we can start now," Ben said.

I nodded and we left the diner heading home. I knew Miles would've arrived at home and have seen Ben's suitcase and figured things out. I was afraid of Miles' reaction. When we got home, I opened the door and called out for Miles. I hoped he would be okay.

"Miles? Are you here?"

 

[xPassionx]

I could barely keep my mind on my studies throughout the day. Luckily for me, I don't have to devote all of my attention to the work in order to to it properly. All day I was fixated on Mia and what made her make a 180 so abruptly. I mean, only a few hours ago we were trying to make a baby. I saw the happiness and serenity in her eyes when I said it. We've had sex enough in the last few days that she get pregnant from that alone. What made her want to abandon that and end what we had? She has to know that it's impossible to just put everything back the way it was, otherwise she's in denial. Last night she said that it's selfish of her to keep hurting me. What is she talking about? Ghe past few days with her I've been happier than ever. She makes me happy and I know that I make her happier than anything or anyone. I know I'm ready to have a family, and even if that's not possible, I'd still stay with her because I love her so much. Does she think that I wouldn't want to be with her if she couldn't give us a child?

During study hall, I decide to make Mia another card. I draw a really nice picture of myself carrying her in my arm and her with Buttons in her hands. Both of us have bright smiles. I think for a good long time of what I want to write inside it.

Mia, the past few days with you have been the happiest moments of my life. You may think that I'm throwing away my life in order to make you happy, but that's not the case. You are and have always been the most precious thing in my life. Not just because you took me in when you didn't have to. Not just because you've been a wonderful mother. Not just because you deserve happiness. Not just because you're the most wonderful person I've ever known. And not just because everything that's best in me I got from you, but because I want to cry tears of joy every time I see you smile and hear you laugh. Because when I hold you in my arms, I feel the most indescribable serenity. Because I always want to come home to you. There are many different ways to express how much I love you, and I'll never be able to express it properly. I told you that I'd go through the depths of hell for you and I meant it. And I know you'd do the same for me. That's what you do for someone you love. This is a two way road. We take care of each other. And even we can't make a family, I'd still want to be with you for the rest of my life. You're not cheating me or taking anything away from me because this is what I want. I've never been more sure of anything in my life. You don't have to be afraid and you don't have to feel guilty. I know you'd never do anything to hurt me. I trust you with my life because only you have afforded me the most wonderful life. Let's take care of each other, Mia.

I love you, more than you'll ever know. You're my light. My angel. My best friend, and my whole world. All I'll ever need is you. I love you as a woman with all of my heart.

We're a team.

I love you, Mia.

I smile and wipe a tear before it falls down you face.

On the way home from school, I decide to get some flowers for Mia. As I walk up to the house, I see that her car is parked out front. She's home. I stand at the front door and take a deep breath before going inside. I call out for Mia but to my surprise there's no answer. Maybe she just went to run some errands. I am home early after all. Then I notice several bags of luggage and Ben's suitcase. My heart falls into my stomach. If Mia's car is out front than it means that she's with Ben. Oh, my god! She's...taken him back. In that one moment my world crumbles around me. I'm devastated. The next feeling is of unadulterated rage. She betrayed me. She actually used me. I tear the card I made for her in half and let it fall to the floor and I dump the flowers the garbage. No way am I going to be here when they get back. As I'm on my way out, the phone rings.

'H...hello?', I say.

"Hey! Miles! How are you hun?"

'Oh. Hi, Suzi. I'm...uh...how are you and the kids?', I ask trying to dodge the question. I can hear the sound of rushing wind and the kids laughing in the receiver which means that she's on the road.

"Oh, we're doing alright, hun. Is Ben or Mia around?"

"No. They're both out together. What do you need?"

"Crap. I was hoping that they could watch the twins for the night."

I decided to grasp the opportunity to be away from home.

"I'll do it. I've got nothing better to do. I'd like to see them."

"Awww. You're such a sweetheart. Mia sure raised you well."

Don't give her too much credit, I think to myself.

"Alright. I'll be there in a few minutes"

"Um...actually, would it be okay if I watched them at your house? Ben has been in a really cranky mood."

"Ugh! That man, I swear! Yeah. That shouldn't be too much trouble."

"Perfect. I'll see you soon."

I pack the essentials for the night and Suzi quickly picks me up at the house and drives us to her place. The kids were excited to be spending the night with me.

'Alright. Dinners in the fridge, all you gotta do is microwave it. Make sure they brush there teeth and that they're in bed by 8. If anyone calls just let it go to voicemail. You can call me if you need me', says Suzi as she heads for the door.

"I've got it all under control. Don't worry. I'll take good care of them. Stay out as long as you want."

"You're the best, Miles. Mama will be back soon, kids. You be good for uncle Miles while I'm gone."

'We will, Mama!', they both yell. She gives them both a hug and kiss and then kisses me on the cheek.

For the next couple of hours, the kids and I have fun. We play UNO, color, and watch movies on the couch. They're a nice distraction for me. I almost forget about Mia and Ben for the time being. While we're watching movies, her house phone rings. I let it go to voicemail.

"Suzi?"

It's Mia! Just the sound of her voice churns my stomach and turns my blood to ice.

"Suzi, are you there? I'm looking for Miles. He hasn't come home today. I was wondering if you've seen or heard from him today. Please, give me a call. Bye."

She sounded like she was worried. I don't want to even speak to her, but if I don't she'll be in a panic. I text her with my phone.

Im fine. Wont b home 2nite. Dont try 2 find me.

 

[AugMilf]

There is no answer when I call for Miles at the front door. I walk into the house still calling for him and Ben is on my heels. Actually he is on my ass. He is all over me and then he scoops me up and whisks me upstairs. I can't help but remember when I was in Miles' arms just like this but Ben is unrelenting and doesn't take no for an answer. Of course, I don't fight him; after all, I am still confused and think getting back with Ben is probably for the best. Miles needs to live his life and have parents take care of him not take advantage of him. All these thoughts are running through my mind as Ben is on top of me on the bed, as he is running his hands on me, as he is pushing his way into me. Ben cums inside me and then kisses me. I smile at him and wipe away a tear before he sees it.

"I'm gonna go get a drink of water," I say and slip out of bed.

I creep downstairs still in search of Miles while Ben stays upstairs.

"Hey, Babe, can you bring me some water?" Ben yells.

I tell him I will and as I get the water I notice the flowers in the trash.

"Oh no!" I think and my stomach knots. "Poor Miles."

Then I notice the card on the floor. I pick up the pieces and read it with tears in my eyes. I am heartbroken again. I start to have a panic attack. I sit down on the couch as I re-read the card again and again. Tears stream down my face and I wonder what I will do. I know I am in love with Miles but I know I am his mother for all intents and purposes. What am I going to do? How will I face Miles like this?

"Babe, you coming up or what?" Ben yells.

And I still have to go upstairs to Ben. How will I hide all of this? I am devastated by all of this.

I hide the card in my desk and go upstairs to Ben being sure to hide my face from him.

"I'm worried about Miles. He isn't home yet and he isn't usually late. I should call Suzi and see if he's there."

"He's probably gone to work early. He's fine. He's young. Maybe he hooked up with some girl?"

"Maybe?? But I think I'll call Suzi anyway."

I pick up my phone and choke back tears when I get her voicemail. I leave a message that I'm looking for Ben and she should call. Right after I hang up, I get a text from Miles that he won't be home tonight and not to try and find him.

He must be at Suzi's, I think as tears fill my eyes again. Just then Ben turns to me and wraps his arms around me. He kisses my neck and squeezes my breast. I manage a smile and he takes it as a cue to continue. His movements are hurried and rushed as if he can't get through it fast enough. He pushes me down on the bed as he stands beside it and he enters me from behind. I cry silently into the blankets as he pummels me. Is this what I have to look forward to? Is this what I gave Miles up for? What have I done? What am I doing?

Soon Ben is finished and he jerks my hair back to look at my face. When he sees the tears, he softens his act.

"Did I hurt you?" he asked.

"No, sweetheart. I..I..I'm just so happy we're back together. I can't believe it still," I lied.

Inside my turmoil over Miles continued long into the night. I texted him several times asking where he was and if he was ok but he never answered. I hoped he would come home in the morning and I begged him to.

 

[xPassionx]

I get texts from Mia throughout the night. I don't grant her a response. She's lucky that I wrote her at all. Around 7 o'clock, the kids start to doze off on the couch, so I make them brush there teeth, get them changed into there pajamas, and tuck them in. I clean the living room thoroughly for Suzi and crash on the couch. Before, when I had the kids with me, I had something to ease my mind. Now that everything was quite again, all I had were my thoughts. I started thinking about Mia and about how perfect the last few days have been. Then I think about how that's all over with and how quickly I've been cast aside and I start to cry silently until I fall asleep. I don't even find respite in my dreams. Throughout the night, I'm haunted by images of Ben and Mia having sex right in front of me as if I were invisible. Saturday morning, I wake up and realize that I've been crying in my sleep. I get up and start the morning so that I'll have everything out of the way before the kids wake up. I check in on them to find them both sound asleep. I smile upon seeing them and Suzi comes through the front door shortly thereafter. I put my finger to my lips to shush her.

'They're asleep', I whisper and smile.

'Good morning', she says. 'Were they too much trouble?'

"Not at all. We had a great time."

Suzi smiles and kisses me on the cheek.

"Thanks so much for doing this, Miles. You're the best."

"Don't mention it".

"Now, just let me get the kids ready and I'll take you home."

I'm much less than thrilled to be going back home knowing what's waiting for me there, but I can't avoid it forever.

About an hour later, Suzi drives me up to the front door of the house.

"Miles, thanks again. I really appreciate it. You're really good with them."

"Oh, my pleasure, Suzi."

"Thank Uncle Miles, kids."

'Thank you, Uncle Miles!', they both shout at the same time. I laugh and give them both a big hug.

'You're welcome, guys. Be good for mama now, okay?', I say with a smile and they laugh.

"You're really great with them, Miles. You're going to be a wonderful father some day."

Her saying that pricks my heart and I recall back a couple nights ago when Mia and I tried making a family. I start to feel a crying fit coming on so, I give Suzi a half smile and walk up to the front door before I make a scene. I stand at the front door for a moment and expel a few tears before wiping my face and going inside. I'm not looking forward to what comes next.

 

[AugMilf]

When Miles opened the front door, Ben and I were sitting at the kitchen table having coffee. I stood up when I saw him come in and walked to meet him. I wanted to hug him but I knew he wouldn't let me touch him so I didn't try.

"Miles, I was so worried. Where were you all night? Are you okay?" I asked.

"Give the boy some room, Mia. He just got in. He's got a life. Don't smother him for Christ's sake," Ben said.

I teared up at Ben's words and didn't look at him but just stared at Miles hoping for an answer. Miles just avoided me and rushed out of the room and up the stairs. I watched after him and wanted to go after him but looked back at Ben instead.

What am I going to do? I have to have some time to talk to Miles alone.

I shed a couple of tears before turning back to my coffee.

"Oh, you worry too much, Mia. He's fine. Just give him some space," Ben retorted.

He got up and came and put his arms around me from behind. I felt myself cringe inside.

Ben had no idea what was going on, not that I wanted to confess but I wanted him to get off of me and let me talk to Miles.

Before I could get my thoughts together, Ben had scooped me up and put me on the edge of the sink and started kissing me again. I thought I would be sick.

"Ben, I'm really not in the mood to.."

"Aw, c'mon, Mia. Since when are YOU not in the mood? Huh?"

He pressed harder against me and I could feel his cock was already hard. He took it out of his boxers and pushed it under my robe. When he found my opening, he slammed his shaft into me. I cried out with shock and pain. I doubled over onto Ben but he kept going. I hoped Miles had music on so he couldn't hear my discomfort and what was going on. By the end of it, I was in tears.

"Get off of me, Ben!" I screamed and then more quietly, "what were you thinking? Miles is just upstairs and you could've given me some foreplay so it didn't hurt so bad!"

"Hurt? I didn't hurt you. You like it rough. I know that. And Miles is a big boy. He knows we have sex."

I turned and rushed upstairs and slammed the bedroom door. I threw myself on the bed sobbing.

What have I done? What am I going to do?

Ben followed me and came into the bedroom.

"What is going on, Mia?" he demanded. "You said you wanted to get back together and you act like this?"

"Keep your voice down, Ben," I insisted. "Miles doesn't need to know everything that's going on."

"Forget Miles. This is about us. Do you want me back or not? Stop sending me mixed signals!"

"I'm not sending you mixed signals. You're the one who I caught with your pants down. Just give me some space and don't force yourself on me again."

"Force myself on you? But I thought...I thought you wanted to make this work but I can see now that you don't know what you want. Call me when you figure it out."

Ben dressed quickly and left, slamming the door as he went.

I sobbed into the pillow, too exhausted to fight anymore. I wanted to talk to Miles and make things right. I wanted so many things but now I just didn't know what to do.

I hear Miles' door creak open.

 

[xPassionx]

Mia was sitting at the kitchen table next to Ben when I walked in. She turned to see me and almost jumped out of her chair.

'Miles, I was so worried. Where were you all night? Are you okay?', she asked as she walked up to me. She showed a lot of restraint as she stood in front of me.

"Give the boy some room, Mia. He just got in. He's got a life. Don't smother him for Christ's sake," Ben said.

Mia was in a robe, so it's not difficult to figure out what happened while I was gone. I looked at Ben who's face was busy sipping coffee then I brought my attention back to Mia. I'm sure I was staring daggers at her. Just as I had anticipated, I was overwhelmed by a whirlwind of emotions and I knew that I had to get out of there fast. Without uttering a single word, I brushed past Mia and bolted upstairs. I shut and locked my bedroom door. I needed something to take my mind off of this shit, so I broke my easel out and decided to paint. Luckily, I had a glass of water in my room left over, so I put some acrylic paint on my pallet and got to it. I didn't want to hear Mia or Ben, so I turned on some death metal while I painted. I needed to channel my rage and angst. I turned it up loud enough that I wouldn't hear anything outside of my room. The music and the painting was doing very little to calm my soul. The rage was keeping my sorrow and heartbreak at bay. I wanted nothing to do with either of them. I haven't liked Ben for a long time and I've resented him ever sense he cheated on Mia, and now I absolutely hate him more than ever now that he was back together with the woman I love. As for Mia, I guess this is confirmation that she was using me as a rebound after all, even though she literally begged me to make love to her and assured me afterwards that she wasn't using me. I literally can't believe that she would do this to me. She tells me that she doesn't want to be with Ben anymore, that she wants to have my child, and the next day she decides to take it all back and toss me aside like some boy toy for the guy who never gives her the time of day and to top it off, has been cheating on her. She let me go for that?! I was so angry that I wasn't aware how hard I was squeezing the glass of water for my brushes and it shattered in my hand, slicing it with the sharp shards.

'FUCK!', I shouted in pain. I had several slashes across my hand and fingers, the biggest cut being across my palm. My hand was full of blood and it was already running down my arm. I fumbled with the lock of my door, getting blood all over it and rushed to the bathroom while applying pressure to my hand. I ran my hand under the water and grunted in pain. The sink was filling up with crimson as the water jetted on my hand. The wound was bleeding so much that the water only washed the blood off my hand for a moment before it started flowing again. I fumbled with the medicine cabinet, getting blood all over it and knocking everything in it out of the way with my other hand until I found alcohol and gauze wrap. I poured the bottle of alcohol onto the wound and fell to my knees with a scream, spilling the bottle onto the floor. I'd stopped the bleeding for now and I quickly wrapped my hand and tied it tight. There was blood on the medicine cabinet, the sink, the floor, and all over me. I was still on my knees panting and grunting in pain, but I had stopped the bleeding for now.

 

[AugMilf]

When I hear Miles shout in pain, my maternal instincts go crazy. I dash out of the room and into the bathroom and see him covered in blood and the room also covered in blood and alcohol.

"Miles, what happened?" I cry as I grab a towel and start tending to him and cleaning the floor around him.

Tears begin to stream down my face as my concern spills out of me. I grab another towel and clean the sink and take Miles' hand to try to look at his wound. He pulls away. I gently pull it back.

"I need to see it to make sure there is nothing in it. I assume you broke a glass. You might need stitches. Just let me look at it," I urge gently.

Miles just shook his head and said that he had the bleeding stopped for now. I stared at him.

"Miles, I..I..we..we should talk. I didn't plan on things happening this way. I never meant to hurt you," I began.

Miles got up to leave.

"Miles, please don't leave. Let's talk about this," I begged.

When he refused, I grabbed his arm.

"Then at least let me take you to the hospital to get your hand looked at," I said.

Miles shook his head again but I didn't take no for an answer.

"Get dressed. We're going. Be ready to go in 5."

In no time we are in the car on the way to the hospital. The ride was silent except for the occasional break when I would try to start a conversation. Miles was not responsive and looked out the window. I was right, though, and he did need stitches. Miles was not even responsive to the doctor on how it happened. I looked at the doctor with tears in my eyes.

"He broke a glass. That's all I know," I replied.

The doctor just stitched him up and we were on the way again, another silent ride. When we got home, Miles raced up the stairs back to his room. I lagged behind and then went into my room and let the tears fly again.

He will never forgive me. What am I going to do? And what about Ben?

I sobbed into my pillow until I fell asleep with my mind still in turmoil.

 

[xPassionx]

When we got home, I ran up the stairs ahead of Mia to get to my room. I ran because I didn't want her to see the tears that were running down my face. I shut my bedroom door and leaned against it and let the tears fall. As angry as I was at Mia, at myself, at everything, I was being angry to keep the sadness at bay because it hurt so much more. As mad as I was at her, I was still in love with her. I loved her with all of my heart, and I wanted nothing more than to be with her and start a family. The emotions were becoming too much, so I walked to my bed to lay down, but before I could make it, it crumbled to the floor and cried harder than I ever have in my entire life. I cried uncontrollably for what seemed like an eternity until I exhausted myself so much that I fell asleep curled up in a ball on the floor beside my bed.

When I woke up some time later, I was surprised to find myself in my bed. Then I started recalling the sensation of soft fingers on my face and arms around me. Also, the feeling of gentle lips on my cheek and forehead and the faint voice speaking words that I couldn't recall. My bed smelled like Mia and I started to cry again. Then I drawn to the sound of my door creaking open. I looked to see Mia standing in my doorway also with tears in her eyes.

 

[AugMilf]

I heard Miles crying in his room after he raced up the stairs. It broke my heart. I sat in the hallway on the floor and listened to him and my heart ached for him. My heart ached for me. I didn't know what I was going to do. This situation was such a mess.

Eventually, I heard him collapse onto the floor and then silence. I quietly knocked on the door but no answer so I opened the door and saw him asleep on the floor. Gently, I helped him up and caressed his face and kissed his forehead.

"Don't worry. Everything is going to be okay, Miles," I said softly. I'm not sure I believed it myself.

I helped him into bed and left him for a while. A couple of hours later, I checked on him and found him crying again in his bed. I stared at him from the doorway with tears in my eyes. I wanted to go to him but I knew he wouldn't have it. Tears begin to fall as I stand there looking at him.

"Miles, I..." I let my voice trail off, not knowing exactly what to say.

I turn away sadly and walk away, closing the door behind me.

This was how things continued for the next few weeks, lots of tears and staring helplessly. Miles avoided me as best he could but still needed me to drive him occasionally. Ben dropped in sometimes and that always seemed to make matters worse. I grew more and more confused. Ben was pressuring me to get back together. Miles wouldn't talk to me. The confusion took its toll and one morning I knew I was coming down with something. I felt so tired and drained. I knocked on Miles' door to wake him.

"Good morning, Miles. I'm not feeling very well. I'm running late this morning. Can you fix your own breakfast today?"

As I closed the door, a wave of nausea hit me and I dashed away just in time to throw up. I crawled from the bathroom back to my bed and collapsed on the pillows. Just then the phone rang. It was Ben.

"Good morning, Beautiful. I'm on my way over and just wanted to let you know."

"Ben, I'm not feeling well today and I don't think it's a good idea for you to come over."

"What's wrong?"

"I don't know. I think I'm coming down with something. You shouldn't get too close. I just threw up."

"Okay, Hon. I'll call you later and check on you."

I managed to get out of bed to drive Miles to school. Silence was my friend this morning as my head was swimming but I didn't want Miles to know. When we arrived at school, I told him to have a good day and hurried away. I couldn't wait to get home and back in bed. Buttons mewed from the basket in the corner of the room and I just looked at the kitten. He had grown quickly in the past few weeks and was playful but I wasn't up to playing today. I collapsed onto the bed, thankful it was Friday, and maybe I could sleep off this flu over the weekend. I knew Miles would be working most of the nights so I would be alone as long as Ben didn't drop by.

Suddenly another wave of nausea hit me and I dashed out of bed, just in time. As I fell back into bed, a thought crept into my mind.

"I'm so sick. I haven't been this sick since...oh my god!! Could I be pregnant?!"

I got up and rummaged through the bathroom drawers. Finally, I found a pregnancy test left over from when Ben and I were trying to have a baby. I ripped the package open and took the test and then waited the requisite time. I paced the floor in anticipation and worry. Then came the results. I WAS pregnant!!

"Oh my god! Who is the father? What am I going to do?"

 

[xPassionx]

I had to miss a couple days of week that week because I needed to let my hand heel. For the next few weeks, I threw myself into working at the club as soon as my hand was heeled enough as well as spending time at the rec center. I would do anything to keep away from home. As for the times I WAS home, I would hole up in my room, either working on commissions or staring at the ceiling, only ever coming out to eat or use the bathroom. One night at work I took Red up on that blowjob. She sucked me off in one of the private rooms, and it quickly escalated to us fucking. She's been somewhat of a momma bear to me for a while. I would say that it's weird fucking my mom figure, but I've covered that ground before. Mia would occasionally drive me to school or to pick up my medications. It would be pure silence between us. She would try and break the silence by asking me about school or work, and I would be monochromatic to avoid talking to her. Thankfully, Ben wasn't around much, not that he would notice anything off between me and Mia anyway. When he would come around, he and Mia would argue, which would lead to him leaving and Mia crying on the couch. Before, I would have come to her rescue, but last time I did that she used me as a rebound and then chucked me. No more giving her a shoulder to cry on.

One Friday morning, she knocked on my bedroom door to tell me that she's not feeling well and asks me to fix my own breakfast. Fine by me. Then I don't have to accept her charity pancakes that have put a bad taste in my mouth for weeks. The ride to school is silent between Mia and I as usual.

Fortunately, my dilemma didn't interfere with my performance at school or work. I was getting by just fine. I decided to go to the boys and girls club after school. Margret was surprised to see me walk in since it was one of my off days.

'Miles', she says with a smile. 'I wasn't expecting you today'.

"I thought I'd come by and see how Dominique's doing."

Margret looked concerned when I said that, which set off some flags that something wasn't right.

'Something wrong?', I asked.

Margret looked around for a moment. She was starting to worry me. She took me aside to a quite part of the room

'Dominique's mother got pretty harsh with him', she said quietly.

"Is he okay. Is he here?"

'He's with a counselor right now. I don't think it got physical, but his spirit is pretty crushed right now.'

"Oh, man..."

"He's alright. He's just...shut down. I haven't seen him like this...in a long time."

A silence fell between us as we tried to process everything.

"Well...Can I see him?"

She was silent again.

"He's really fragile right now. I'm worried he might get overwhelmed and get triggered."

I had so much going on that I had no control over. I hated that I couldn't do anything about what was going on. Looking at Margret, I could tell she felt the same.

'He looks up to you', she said. 'More than anyone.' She sighed. 'Maybe you can cheer him up.'

I put my hand on Margret's shoulder to reassure her to which she put her hand on my shoulder as I walked past her. A few minutes later, Dominique walked into the room. His head hung low and he didn't take his eyes off the floor as he walked. I paused and looked back at Margret who was watching from a distance. She looked concerned, but she shook her head giving me the go ahead. I waited until Dominique sat down to approach him.

'Hey, buddy', I said as reassuringly as I could. He didn't look up at me. I squatted down to meet his eyes. 'What's up, little man?'

Again, he didn't respond, so I sat beside him on the bench.

"Is something the matter, buddy?"

He shook his head side to side. The look of utter sadness on his little face was pulling at my heartstrings.

"Don't you want to go play with the other kids"

Again he just shook his head. He hasn't looked at me once.

"Cuz it looks like they're having a lot of fun. You sure nothing's bothering you?"

He shook his head again staring at the floor.

'Hm. Cuz if there was--', I said as I reached into my bag, 'I got these', as I pull out two Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle coloring books and a pack of brand new Crayola crayons. He turns his head to look and he gasps in excitement.

'Cool!', he shouts as his face lights up.

I laugh in relief and a little bit of amusement as the eccentric Dominique that I know returns. I look over my shoulder and smile at Margret who's watching us and has a grin ear to ear.

"You wanna color these together?"

'Yeah!', he squeals as he bounces on the seat.

For the next couple of hours, Dominique was a little spitfire. After we colored for a while, he wanted to play board games. After we played Shoots and Ladders, he wanted to play with Lego's. He was coming apart at the seams with energy. When we were all done with everything, I gave Dominique both coloring books to keep and I told him that if he could color in both books than when I come by in a couple days that I'll have two more for him and. Then I held out my hand for him and he jumped as he have me one hell of a high five.

'You make my job that much easier', Margret said to me with a big toothy grin as I was on my way out the door.

'Just trying to give back', I say with a smile.

'Well, whatever it is you do, keep doing it', she says as she turns around and waves at me without looking back

I had a smile on my face for the entire bus ride home. I come through the front door at around dinner time.

 

[AugMilf]

I was in the kitchen, still in my robe, getting a drink of water when Miles came in the door. He had a smile on his face. The first smile I'd seen in weeks. It quickly faded upon seeing me and my heart sank.

"Miles? I thought you'd go straight to the club," I said quietly. "You look happy. Did you have a good day?"

As I sipped my water and wait to see if he'll reply, my head starts to reel and another wave of nausea comes over me. I put my hand over my mouth and dashed away to the downstairs bathroom. I heaved until I was holding my sides with pain. I sat down on the bathroom floor and leaned against the wall. A groan escaped my lips, one of both agony and despair. I looked up to see Miles staring at me.

"It's okay, Miles. I'm okay. I think I have the flu. I'm going back to bed."

I tried to stand on shaky legs and almost collapsed. Without thinking, Miles reached out to help me. I looked at him and tried to smile but then just leaned against him. I can feel his heart beating in his chest but am too weak to pull away. He lifted me and took me upstairs. I couldn't help but think of the last time you carried me up these stairs.

"I should tell him," I thought but decided to wait and enjoy his strong arms around me.

"Thank you," I whispered and laid my head on his shoulder.

 

[xPassionx]

Mia was in the kitchen when I came through the front door. She looked terrible. She was all sweaty and her hair was a mess. She was about to throw up and dashed to the downstairs bathroom. I follow her and find her on the bathroom floor after she had just thrown up into the toilet.

"It's okay, Miles. I'm okay. I think I have the flu. I'm going back to bed."
She tried to stand up but she was so weak that her legs were wobbling. It was a sad sight. Everything aside, she needs my help right now. I can't leave her like this just because I'm angry at her. I help her off the floor and carry her in my arms to her bedroom. As I take her upstairs she nests her head on my shoulder.

'Thank you', she whispers and smiles.

A little smile starts to creep on my face for just a moment.

I set her gently on her bed and pull the covers over her. I go get a bucket, a glass of water, and some medicine. I set the bucket down on the floor beside her bed.

'Just in case you can't make it to the bathroom', I say.

I sit beside her on the bed and put the glass of water to her lips. As I hold the glass her hands touch mine as she steadies the glass.

'Thank you, baby', she says softly and touches my hand.

I touch her forehead with the back of my hand.

"Huh. You don't seem to have a fever."