Milk (closed for heartofcourage)

[heartofcourage]

"No." Susan said softly, looking over at Dominic with a smile. "It is home. It's home to you and I guess it's home to me now too."

She reached over and took Dom's hand, squeezing it tightly. "You don't have to watch what you say around me, Dom. You're not going to send me running for the hills. I promise that if I have a problem with anything that happens, I'll let you know and we can talk it out like the adults that we are."

Susan hoped that her words calmed him down and made him less nervous. She liked him...a lot and she wanted him to see that. If a relationship were to appear between them, she wanted it to be without any reservations and nervousness.

 

[Baelnorn]

He smiled at Susie's comment, which reassured him of his own thoughts. Somehow she always found the perfect words to soothe his worries, to make him feel better when he tried to express himself around her. Hearing her words, especially when she told him that she saw his place as her home now, made him smile. Dominic listened to her words, and breathed a soft sight of relief.

"Thank you, Susie. I... I guess it's going to be awkward for both of us. I only hope it won't be too awkward. You know that I'll always have an open ear and mind for any of your concerns or worries, so please don't hesitate talking about them with me."

Speaking of awkward, his thoughts wandered to what would have to happen later this evening. He had sworn to never abuse her condition for his own benefit, and thus he dreaded what the night would hold for both of them. Forcing those thoughts aside, he smiled at Susie, wanting to enjoy the happy moments they could share together. Dominic held her hand, gently rubbing her palm with his fingers, savoring the simple sensation of that little bit of skin contact.

The ride home went by quickly, as the car's nav system pulled the car onto the intra city highway. The cityscape flew past the windows as the vehicle moved through the streets without error, finding the perfect speed and timing to easily flow with the traffic. And so it took them only a couple of minutes to get back to Dominic's place.

 

[heartofcourage]

"You worry too much, Dom." Susan teased, smiling at him as she squeezed his hand tightly. "I'll be fine. Trust me."

She would be fine. She just needed time to get her mind wrapped around everything that had been happening. Dominic knew that but it was still comforting that he was willing to wait for her to do what she needed to do.

The feel of her hand in his was a comforting feeling. It felt right and warmed her soul and Susan actually smiled to herself. Her life had been turned upside down and she managed to find the one person in the world that wanted to support her no matter what. It made her feel wanted and loved and Dominic was the man that could certainly do that for her. They were simply both too shy to ask for what they wanted.

 

[Baelnorn]

He listened to her teasing words, enjoying the sensation of her squeezing his hand tightly as he returned the soft smile she had shown him.

"I know, Susie. And I do trust you. I guess we just both need some time to get used to the situation."

The on-board computer pulled the car towards the entrance to the underground parking deck. With perfect accuracy and timing the gates opened to let them in, and the car smoothly moved into position on one of the elevator platforms of the of the automated parking system. After its systems turned off, Dominic released his seat belt and climbed out of the vehicle. He quickly went to the trunk and retrieved Susan's things, carrying the suitcase himself while offering the backpack to her. Dominic smiled at Susie, extending his free hand toward her.

"Let's get back, I guess we have to sort out some of my clutter. Don't worry, we'll find a place for all of your things."

As they left the area, the mechanism of the parking system sprang to life, moving the platform into the ground and storing the vehicle away again. A few moments later they were inside the elevator to his flat, and Dominic's thoughts went astray again. He could not help but think of the time Susie would need another fix. The event the night before had been horrible for him. The sight of Susan suffering from the second stage of withdrawal had burned itself into his mind, and he would probably never forget her pained outcries. He knew he could not prevent the first wave of nausea and cramps, but he would never let it get so far again.

 

[heartofcourage]

Susan took the offered backpack and smiled widely as he took her hand in his. He was one of the nicest people she had ever met in her life and that in itself was a blessing. She could almost forget about the Milk that would soon be rearing its ugly head. She focused on the feel of his hand in hers and the giddiness that came with arranging her things in the house.

"We don't have to find a place for everything. Just a few things here and there would be good enough for me." Susan commented, giving him that smile that didn't seem to want to leave. "Maybe I'll even cook you a meal tonight for being so good to me."

It was a happy little life, she though, even as the dark thoughts wanted to intrude on her little piece of solitude.

 

[Baelnorn]

Holding hands, Susan and Dominic entered the elevator together. He focused on his companion, savoring the sensation of holding her hand, as he listened to her words. He noticed her modesty and how she downplayed her own needs, which was something he really disliked to hear. Dominic knew that the situation was difficult for her, difficult being an understatement, but he would not let her put herself in a corner like this. He could only hope that with time she would regain her self-confidence and trust, and replied to her comment with a soft, hopeful, smile.

"Oh no Susie, I insist. There's more than enough space for all the things you brought with you, I really wouldn't want to see you live out of your suitcase. And regarding dinner... I don't want you to cook for me. After all, you're not my maid. But I'd really like to cook together with you."

After only a few seconds, they arrived at Dominic's apartment. They entered his place, and a moment later, Cerberus formally welcomed the engineer back with its typical synthetic voice and gave a report on nothing having happened during Dominic's absence. Dominic quickly acknowledged his home AI's report and headed to the bedroom, putting Susie's suitcase on the unused half of his bed, before he returned to the open living area.

"I need a drink. Can I get you something, too?"

 

[heartofcourage]

Susan followed him into the bedroom, giving him a smile at his kind words. She nodded at the offer of a drink, thinking about it for a moment.

"Some wine, if you have it. Red." She commented, turning her attentions to unpacking. "And perhaps we could talk about dinner when you come back."

 

[Baelnorn]

Dominic lingered for a few more seconds and watched Susan start unpacking her things, finally realizing that this wonderful young woman would now be part of his life. After a long moment he managed to tear his gaze away from her, and headed to the kitchen to grab their drinks. Dominic got himself a glass of water and took a sip, but then decided to have a glass of wine for himself as well. He thought it would probably look weird if he drank water while offering alcohol to Susie.

He quickly checked the storage for a suitable wine, and decided on a young bottle of Barbera d'Asti, a light and fruity red wine with a sweet, but not too sweet, note. Dominic uncorked the bottle and pulled out two red whine glasses from the cupboard. Bottle in one hand, and the glasses in the other, he returned to the bedroom. Smiling as he entered the room, Dominic walked up to Susie and offered her a glass.

"Got the wine, hope it's okay. I prefer sweeter wines myself, not much of a fan of the dry ones."

He filled their glasses, first hers and then his own.

"Before we drink, we should raise a toast. I know it sounds ancient, but I think this occasion is special enough to warrant a toast. The last day's been pretty wild for both of us. Terrible things have happened, which should never have happened at all. But there's hope. Despite the looming darkness, no matter how deep and inescapable it seems, there's a silver lining on the horizon. And we can make it there, leaving the shadows behind, if we just stick together."

Dominic gazed deeply into Susie's eyes, and raised his glass.

"To a brighter future. To you."

 

[heartofcourage]

"It's perfect." She said, as he explained his preferences in wine. "Really, any kind of red wine is fine with me. I do like it a little sweeter though."

Taking the wine glass, Susan smiled at Dominic as he insisted that they make a toast. It felt right despite everything that had happened. She dutifully held up her glass, giving him a grin. He was such an optimist about their future. It was hard to not feel that things would turn out alright in the future from the enthusiasm that he tackled their problems. Perhaps he was the man that really could help her through the dark days that were ahead.

"And to you, Dom. I can't thank you enough for everything that you've already done for me. I promise that even if it takes me 100 years, I'll find a way to show you just how much it's all meant to me." She promised him as she brought the glass to her lips and took a long, slow pull of the wine.

It hit her tongue in the most delicious way, a happy smile coming to her lips as she pulled the glass away and watched Dominic closely. He was so handsome, so kind...and she was falling for him. Despite her best efforts to keep her heart closely guarded, he had wiggled his way into her heart.

"I think now would be a perfect time to kiss me, Dom." She murmured softly, unsure of where those words came from, but knowing that they were incredibly right.

 

[Baelnorn]

Dominic listened to Susie's response, blushing a little as she continued to laud him. He had already told her that she did not owe him anything, but he would never push her away when she wanted to show her gratitude, knowing that such an action would probably just hurt her. His only hope was that whatever Susie decided to do would happen because she truly wanted to do it, and not because she thought she was expected or obligated to act in such a way.

However, the happy smile on Susie's lips as she drank from her glass washed his worries away. Dominic returned the gesture, his own lips curving upward in a wide smile, as his eyes met hers again. It was then that he noticed how intensely, how closely, she was watching him. Dominic quirked a brow, chuckling softly as he put his glass away. But before he could comment on her looking, he heard her soft murmur, and the words that sent a soft shiver down his spine.

Dominic stepped closer to Susan. He slowly reached for her free hand, gently lacing his fingers with hers. His heart was already racing. He remembered the wonderful, and intense, kiss they had shared before. But now they were standing in his bedroom, making this a completely different situation that what it was earlier. Dominic looked deeply into Susan's eyes as he leaned closer and closer. He moistened his lips with the tip of his tongue, and then swallowed.

"Susie..."

He softly whispered her name, before closing his eyes and bridging the last bit of distance between them. The sensation of their lips touching was electrifying, and Dominic could not keep a soft moan from escaping his throat. Susie's lips were soft and warm, and Dominic again easily got lost in their kiss.

 

[heartofcourage]

Susan let out a long, drawn out whimper as their lips met and Dominic gave her another taste of the kiss that she'd been thinking about since lunch. Her fingers clenched around the wine glass in her hand before her other arm moved to look around his neck, drawing him closer. She welcomed the feel of his body against hers, the warmth, the scent of his cologne...everything set her nerves on fire in the most beautiful way.

When their lips parted, she was panting, looking at him with those dark eyes that told him she wanted so much more. She pressed a gently kiss one more time to his lips, tasting the wine that was still clinging there. She gave him a smile, letting him know that she enjoyed every single moment.

"I...I think I'm falling for you, Dom." She whispered softly. "And I want you in the worst way."

 

[Baelnorn]

The kiss was wonderful, passionate, overwhelming. It easily took Dominic's breath away, and left him gasping for air when their lips parted again. He looked into Susie's dark eyes, unable to miss the longing and desire they displayed. The whispered words from her mouth eventually sent his mind into turmoil again, leaving his passion battling his rationality again.

Dominic's heart rallied, wanting him to sweep Susan up in his arms, to hold her and kiss her and love her. Hearing her confess, right here in front of him, that she was probably falling in love with him, made him ache to kiss her again. But his mind was holding him back. His thoughts kept telling him to slow down, afraid of ending up abusing and exploiting her state. That was his greatest fear, that he would be hurting Susan with his words or actions - if not now than merely further down the line. Eventually, his heart won out, his own longing for company and human contact winning out over his reservations.

"Oh Susie... I... I don't know what to say. This situation is so strange, for both of us I guess. Everything's happening so fast. I think we should slow down a little. We need to get to know each other. But no matter what happens, I won't push you away. I'll still be with you, Susie."

Dominic reached for Susan's hand holding the glass, and gently took it from her fingers, putting it on the nightstand. Turning back to Susan, a happy smile appeared on his lips.

"Want to kiss some more?"

 

[heartofcourage]

Susan was so afraid that he would push her away completely after her little confession. She did enjoy his company, she felt thankful that he had saved her, and she could see herself having so much more with him. The thought made her happy, and right then, that was what she needed. She watched as he moved to take her wine glass, sitting it on a side table before he asked if she wanted to kiss some more.

"Most definitely." She said with a grin, her arms wrapping around his neck to pull him in close. "I can't get enough of you." She confessed softly before her lips were pressing gently against his once more.

She moaned at the gently contact, her heart racing as she took what she wanted so completely. He was a fabulous kisser and he made her feel important. He was so different from any one else she'd ever had in her life before.

 

[Baelnorn]

Dominic wrapped his arms around Susan’s body in return, and happily welcomed her kiss. He had missed close human contact for so long, all his time being gobbled up by his research. But the kiss and the sensation of her body rubbing against his own easily wiped away his worries, and stirred a long forgotten longing. A longing for contact, for being close to someone, for intimacy.

He could not remember when it happened, but at some point Dominic realized that his hands had moved to Susie’s hips. He felt the soft curves of her body as the kiss deepened, gently rubbing his hands over her hips, and unconsciously pulling her even closer.

Susie’s lips felt wonderful – teasing him with their soft texture and gentle warmth – and her soft moans sent shivers racing down his spine. He felt electrified, invigorated, every motion of their lips was sending a spark through his body and made him feel more alive than he had been in the last half decade. Dominic lost himself completely in the kiss, helpless against the emotions that suddenly came crashing down on him. He wanted this kiss to never end.

 

[heartofcourage]

Susan let out a soft whimper as she felt Dominic's hands rest on her hips, holding her lightly as he continued to kiss all sense and reason from her mind. She was lost to him in that moment. She stepped closer to his body, pressing her own intimately against his own. It felt so incredibly right to be there with him in that moment.

His hands moved, tracing along her hips and curves as the moment threatened to careen out of control. She wanted to be on that bed, making love to him, but she wasn't sure if that was the Milk or her own free will. She pulled her lips from his for a moment, her dark gaze staring into his. She was breathing heavily, panting for breath.

She could feel the heavy heat in her loins, the slick feeling on her shaved lips. She desired him. Her nipples were poking against her shirt, the fabric tented to show him what she felt. If this wasn't true desire, she didn't know what was.

"Look at what you do to me, Dom." She whispered softly, her own gaze following his down her chest to focus on those hard, aching nipples.

 

[Baelnorn]

When Susie broke their kiss, Dominic was also panting for breath, his heart hammering in his chest. Still panting, he slowly blinked his eyes open and his gaze met hers for a second before she mentioned what he did to her. For a split second, he could not fathom what she possibly meant, but then his gaze dropped lower. Dominic looked at the bumps Susie’s nipples made, as they poked against the fabric of her shirt.

He gulped and forced his gaze higher again, looking into her eyes, trying to find any indication for doubt or regret. But he could not find any, only desire. He lifted his right hand from Susan’s hip, and gently brushed a strand of hair behind her ear. Dominic’s lips curved into a caring smile, while he softly caressed her cheek with his thumb, softly cradling her head in his hand. He gulped again and wet his by now dry lips with the tip of his tongue.

“Susie... no matter how far we ever decide to go with each other, nothing will ever happen without your consent. If you want to stop, just tell me. I stand by my word, I’ll never exploit you, and I’ll always respect your decisions.”

He took a deep breath, his gaze lost on Susan’s wonderful, oh so kissable, lips. He mentally readied himself for another round of kissing, when suddenly a familiar sensation rose from his groin. It was something he had not felt for a long time, as his manhood gradually felt more and more restrained in his underwear. Then the thought of actually sleeping with Susie suddenly sparked through his mind, leaving a rush of lust in its wake. However, realization quickly followed the desire, and Dominic became painfully aware that he could under no circumstances sleep with her right now. He feared he would be unable to control himself once they started, and if he came inside her, he would reduce her interval and make things even worse for her.

Dominic looked at Susan, his eyes betraying his sudden doubt. It hurt him that he would have to refuse her like this. Not because he would not get to sleep with her, but because he had seen the desire in her eyes. He was about to tell her about his thoughts, when he remembered the dispenser he had bought a couple months ago for some testing. It was a small flat box with a hole in the middle and a simple mechanism, which applied a thin protective film to anything stuck through the hole. It was a more reliable and easier to use successor to condoms, which had quickly fallen out of the mainstream’s favor due to medical advancements.

“Wait here, I quickly need to go and get something. Just to be on the safe side, okay? It won't even take a minute, I promise!”

 

[heartofcourage]

Susan was a little surprised and incredibly excited when she realized just how close she was to making love with him. She adored this man. It was really soon after they had met, but he never treated any other way but perfect. This was the man that she wished she had dated instead of her ex. She gave him a shy, but still sunny smile as he promised that he would respect her decisions.

"I want to know your opinions too, Dom. If you don't want this, we don't have to." She murmured, gasping as she felt his cock pressing against her hip through their clothing, letting her know that he most certainly wanted her.

Then came the doubt in his gaze, the uncertainty that they should be doing this. She didn't like that look, but she respected him enough that she was willing to tell him that they should wait. However, he pulled away and excused himself for a moment and she watched him leave the room with a little frown of confusion marring her brow. Watching as he left, she sat down on the edge of his bed with a little sigh.

What was he thinking, she asked herself, making up her mind that perhaps they should put the breaks on their budding attraction.

 

[Baelnorn]

Dominic knew he had left the dispenser in a drawer in his lab. He quickly entered the secret room, and pulled open the drawer, reaching for the small black box. As he lifted it from the container, Dominic looked at the item in his hand, wondering if they would really go through with it. Susie was a beautiful young woman, and her desire for him seemed to be honest and true. His thoughts were already wandering back to when they were kissing, the sensation of their bodies pressing against each other, the untold promise of mutual pleasure and bliss. He took a deep breath and left his laboratory, closing the hidden door behind him, and returned to the bedroom.

When he got back, the dispenser still in hand, he saw Susan sitting on the edge of his bed. The expression on her face made his heart sink. She did not look nearly as excited and happy as before, and it was that very moment, when it dawned to him, that his sudden leaving could have sent the wrong message. With a couple of swift steps, he quickly moved over to Susan, dropping to his knees in front of her. Looking up, a soft and hopeful smile on his lips, he placed the dispenser on her thigh.

“Susie, what’s wrong? I’m not having any doubts about us, or about us doing… being intimate. I just needed to get this. You know I’d never want to hurt you. I just needed to make sure we’re safe in case our kissing turns into… well… something more. You are a wonderful, beautiful woman, and I’d have to be crazy to reject you.”

 

[heartofcourage]

When Dominic came back with the box, Susan felt a little sheepish. She should have known that he would be thinking of the precautions of what they were about to do. She smiled softly after he finished speaking, leaning forward to continue on with the passionate kissing that had brought them to the edge of such a huge decision.

Her arms wrapped around his neck, drawing his body against hers yet again. She sighed softly as they slowly tipped back against the soft surface of his bed, simply kissing as they got comfortable with the situation again. When the kiss broke, her dark eyes looked into his and she gave him another smile.

"I just wish I knew what you were thinking." She murmured softly, letting him into her private thoughts like she'd never done with a man before.

 

[Baelnorn]

Dominic happily surrendered into Susie's kiss, eagerly meeting her lips and tongue with his own. Her action had taken him a bit by surprise, but he decided not to interrupt the moment again with words. Instead, he closed his eyes and enjoyed the wonderful kiss they shared. A soft moan escaped his lips when she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him close. As he sensed that she was leaning back, he quickly got to his feet again. Not breaking the kiss, he followed the movement of her body, tenderly pressing his body against hers, until they were laying flat on the surface of his bed with him on top of her.

When she finally broke the kiss, he was left breathless again. Her beautiful dark eyes looked up at him, and her lips curled into that happy wonderful smile he already desired to see so much. Dominic listened to her murmured words, and returned the smile, gently brushing a strand of hair out of her face. The whole moment was so sensual, so exciting, so arousing, he wished it would never end. They were laying on his bed, their bodies pressing against each other, desire and lust for each other building with every passing moment.

"It's my fault, Susie. I should have told you, instead of charging out of the room. But now everything's okay, we are prepared for everything and don't need to worry about anything. Just do what feels good for you, and tell me what you want me to do, okay? Don't forget, you're in control."

Dominic took a deep breath, gazing longingly into Susan's dark eyes, before he lowered his head and started kissing the soft curve of her neck. His lips gently brushed against her sensitive skin, leaving behind a trail of wet kisses, and his hot breath tickled the tiny hairs on her neck.

 

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"I trust you, Dom." Susan murmured softly as he lowered his head and his lips suddenly found their way to her throat.

She sucked in a breath, gasping at the sudden sensation of open mouthed kisses tracing their way over her heated skin. This is what she wanted. This is what she was practically begging him for. It was beyond her wildest dreams. She dared to move her hands, tangling her fingers in his hair as he started to tease her.

"I can't believe that I want you so much." She murmured, looking into his eyes with a sweet grin. "But I'm very certain that you're the man that I want to share a beautiful moment with."

She reached between them and waited for him to pull away slightly as she pulled her shirt above her head, throwing the garment to the ground. She wanted to know what he was thinking as he looked down at her with that heated gaze, her breasts cupped lovingly in a simple bra. Her nipples stood at attention against the material, nearly begging him to use those lips to tease them until she screamed.

 

[Baelnorn]

“And I want to share this moment with you, Susie.”

Dominic pulled away for a moment as he felt Susie slide her hands between their bodies. He watched with rapt attention how she grabbed her shirt, pulled it over her head, and dropped it on the floor besides the bed. His eyes drank in the sight of her, admiring the swell of her breasts confined by the bra, and her hardened nipples straining against the fabric.

After pressing himself up to get into a kneeling position over Susan’s thighs, he slowly started to unbutton his shirt. Opening one button after the other, Dominic slowly removed his shirt, revealing his upper body to his lover’s eyes. While he did considered himself somewhat in shape, he was not trained to the extent of clearly showing his abs. It has been so long since he was intimate with someone, he was quite nervous, and hoped that Susie would like what she saw.

As Dominic lowered himself back on top of Susie, their naked bodies made contact for the first time. Feeling hot skin on skin was wonderful, and Dominic gasped when he felt her hard nipples poke against his chest. He closed his eyes, and kissed her fully on the lips, the kiss quickly deepening and heating up.

“I want you Susie…”

 

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Susan gasped at the contact of Dom's flesh against hers. The fact that they were still mostly clothed thrilled her as she gave him a little smile. She couldn't help the giggle of pure joy that burst from her lips before he closed his eyes and kissed her fully. She moaned softly, her hands finding their way to his bare shoulders to hold and caress him.

His kiss was amazing. It drugged her senses, made her want him so much more. It curled her toes and made her heart race and she let out a disappointed whimper when it was over too soon. Their lips parted with a smack and she stared up at him as he confessed that he wanted her. She actually blushed, her cheeks heating as she nibbled slightly on her lower lip.

"I want you too." She murmured in return, her fingers stroking over his cheek. "More than anything else in this world."

Lifting her head, she kissed him briefly before looking him in the eye. "Undress me, Dom."

 

[Baelnorn]

Laying like this with Susan felt so good, so wonderful. Their bodies were pressing and rubbing against each other already, even when there were still several pieces of cloth between them. The touch of her fingers on his cheek, and her murmured words, sent a shiver down his spine. Dominic held her gaze for a long moment, before he smiled and nodded.

“Okay. Just relax. We have all the time in the world.”

Propping himself up on his knees and elbows, Dominic slowly crawled backward, leaving a trail of hot wet kisses on Susie’s skin. With sensual, tentative kisses, he moved from her chin, down her neck, between her breasts, to her flat belly and navel. Brushing his lips against her smooth skin, he loved every piece of her body he tasted. When he finally reached the hem of her pants, he was again kneeling on the floor before the bed. Looking up at her face, a happy, beaming smile on his lips, he slowly moved his hands to open the button, and then teasingly slowly pull down the zipper.

“Lift your hips off the bed.”

Dominic’s hands traced the sensual curves of Susie’s hips and waist, before he grabbed her pants’ hem. Once she lifted her butt off the mattress, he pulled on the fabric, sliding the cloth over her cheeks and down her thighs.

 

[heartofcourage]

Susan trembled with the energy that radiated between the both of them. Dominic was so kind and loving as he smiled down at her, his words making her relax as he started to kiss down the length of her body. He was teasing her, making her want so much more as he looked up at her face and slowly pulled the zipper of her pants down.

His soft voice sounded again and she nodded, lifting her hips off the bed as his hands traced along her curves. She let out a moan, propping herself up on her elbows to watch what he was doing. She watched as he pulled her pants slowly over her hips, down her thighs. She lifted her legs to help him along his journey.