Minx The Sphinx's Boudoir

[Bluemage]

*smirks softly at the question, shifting a little bit in his seat, at least as much as he can, given the fact that she is sitting in his lap, and making it rather difficult for him to move much at all, let alone without doing anything that would be taken as ridiculously forward since they were both apparently trying to pretend that they were so very innocent. He considered the question carefully and then finally spoke up in a whisper himself*

It's difficult to quantify, as it is slowly growing as time goes on. I doubt we'll make it through all twenty questions before it becomes enough that I don't feel like waiting for the rest of the questions. So, I don't know how this game works, do I ask a question now?

*he chuckles a little bit, hoping that asking how the game is played will count for his question*

 

[monique_minx]

Grins slowly and nods

You ask a question now and no...that doesn't count! Nor can you return to me with the same question I just asked you, the idea is to be original...

I shift in his lap again, grinning wickedly

 

[Bluemage]

*smirks and groans softly before bringing his lips to her ear and whispering softly* So, what was the time limited order that your mistress gave you when we were doing our brainstorming? *he smirks a bit more, knowing he'll get an interesting answer to an interesting question.*

 

[monique_minx]

I emit a soft moan at the proximity of his lips to my ear and smile a bit at the question, speaking softly in return

I had to get Bsquad to blow in an allotted amount of time, if he didn't, he won the chance to toy with me...if he did...I won the chance to be free of punishment and toy with him!

My turn...hmmm...what's your greatest turn on?

I grin evilly

 

[Bluemage]

*he smirked, bringing one of his hands up and letting it rest on the back of her hips, his eyes looking up into hers.*

Probably a woman who's strong enough to take charge but not so strong that she stops being vulnerable.

*chuckles a little bit, considering his next question with ease*

Did you win?

 

[monique_minx]

I bite my lips and smile slowly, nodding

Oh yes...I always win with my wicked tongue dearest...

I lace my fingers behind his neck and stretch back a little

So what is your all time favourite toy to play with?

 

[Bluemage]

*growls softly at the question and grips her hips a bit more*

I'm tired of this game. I think we need something a bit more physical...

*his eyes flash a bit as he stares into hers.*

 

[Bluemage]

*sighs softly* regrettably it is late here and I need to head to sleep. I'll make it up to you some other time.

 

[monique_minx]

It's all good hun, sleep well and you can owe me later!

Winks

I gotta get gone myself! Goodbye!

Kisses his lips and vanishes back into the RW for a little while

 

[amchentai]

Knocks softly before opening the door and stepping inside, looks around and sees no one else there as I close the door behind me with a soft click. I make my way to a chair and sit down and relax a bit.

 

[monique_minx]

I enter my boudoir with a soft sigh, drink in hand and smile brightly at the sight of AMC

Hey hun, how are you?

I wear...

http://i298.photobucket.com/albums/mm246/cynical_barbidoll/Clothes%20Pics/1_original_2196_20090706203044755.jpg

And hanging from my belt is my small whip to indicate I am under punishment conditions...

http://i298.photobucket.com/albums/mm246/cynical_barbidoll/Accessories/whip-velvet.jpg

On my feet I wear...

http://i298.photobucket.com/albums/mm246/cynical_barbidoll/Accessories/Blackboots.jpg

 

[Cobra2004]

Poor Minx was left all alone.

 

[amchentai]

Smiles at Minx and gives her a nod

Nice outfit Minx.
It suits you very well, and shows off just the right parts =D

 

[monique_minx]

Giggles and blushes, inclining my head as I settle into a couch, crossing my legs

Thanks darl, how're you doing?
Must be pretty early in the morning over there right?

Poor Minx was left all alone.

I'm never alone sweetie

 

[Cobra2004]

For a moment anyway...smiles

Giggles and blushes, inclining my head as I settle into a couch, crossing my legs

Thanks darl, how're you doing?
Must be pretty early in the morning over there right?



I'm never alone sweetie

 

[amchentai]

Almost 3 AM here I live Minx(2:42AM)
I'm doing ok.
And how are you tonight?

 

[Cobra2004]

Sorry to leave so quickly, but you have early evening and I early am.
Leans over and kisses her cheek softly. Another time perhaps?

 

[monique_minx]

Nods to AMC and looks at Cobra in slight surprise

Errr sure, no worries darl...goodnight!

I look back to AMC and shrug, smiling softly

Yeah not too bad, hiding out and drinking right now.
I'm worried that this evening will be too aggrivating for me to deal with and unfortunately alleviating my aggrivation is out of the question because of my RL Master's punishment...

I fold my arms, pouting a little and grumbling under my breath

 

[amchentai]

Ah well heh ^^()
I'm sorry to hear that Minx.
I'm glad things are working out with your RL master though.

 

[monique_minx]

Smiles and drops my arms

Thanks darl, they are working out alright...I just have to remember how to be a good lil sub!
Which is hard cause I don't think I ever was one!

Giggles

But yesh, I am not allowed to tease, play or torment anyone in the Lounges, IM or RL until Sunday which friggen sucks cause there goes my whole damn weekend!
Though it's a good thing I suppose...considering he waited to punish me and decided to cool down a bit first...it was gonna be a whole lot worse before he did!

 

[amchentai]

Nods and sighs a before standing

Sadly Minx I must go.
I will talk to you again soon I hope, and take care!


Walks over and gives Minx a hug before leaving, closing the dor softly behind me as I do

 

[monique_minx]

Cuddles AMC and nods understandingly

Goodnight sweetie, try and get some sleep!

I smile at him and then move from my place on the couch, heading to my desk. I take some paper and a pen, shuffling to posts owed as I find myself with a fair bit of time!

 

[monique_minx]

I enter my boudoir with slight concern written on my face and a sway in my step. >>Music<< playing...I settle on my bed with pen and diary in hand prepared to write out my worries...only how do I put such things to words? I press the pen to the paper and scratch together something anyway...

He said I'd gone soft...said I had changed so much, am I so different now?
Am I not the one he knew before?
He is still the same to me...he still makes butterflies in my stomach...now he concerns me more than ever...
I worry about talking to him...I am scared...of me...
I have never had to be so scared of my own self control before...
October, october...so much will happen then! I will grow older...and yet that is the least of it...two coming...family and friends will be there, they will both be there...
I am...afraid...
I knew this would happen, I knew I would be torn at but now I just want to swear and curse at them both...I don't want to be split and torn at like this!
He knows me better than anyone so then I must believe him if he says I am different than I was...and it is strange for he describes the one constant in me...Minx...
"Monique, what happened? You've gone soft on me, you're not the same...talk to me, tell me..."
"I can't explain it...can't tell you..."
And I did anyway...
So then am I soft?
Am I different?
Monique is suppressing Minx...they have to live in harmony...can't be right...it is...I know it is...
My Alucard...My Master...October...oh god...it suddenly feels like a crushing vice or an impending disaster...
"Monique...where has my teacher gone?"
"She is still here, you have just outgrown her..."
"Tell me about it..."
"I can't..."
And yet I did...
Can't not tell you...can't hold back from you...why? Three years of you...constant...unwavering, we grew so much, still growing...and I have to tell you because I know you won't judge me, I don't fear your reaction Helsing...I revel in your opinion...this was not one that made me happy...
And it must be true...subspace with you...dangerous and I told you, I wouldn't tell that to you before...how do you do that to me?
Butterflies...the moment I saw your face...butterflies...
Disjointed ramblings of The Cynical Barbidoll...
"Where is she Monique?"
"She still writes, she still lives..."
"She's not in there..." And he pointed at me, at my chest, my heart, "Tell her...I miss her..."
"Don't Alucard...don't make me cry..."

Who is she?

She looked like Monique on that night...but she was Minx in disguise...and that's where it began...I was headed for...oh god, immoral, I didn't care...would never care, would never understand...can never understand...
I was once told by someone who knew me all of a week - I was a deep dark bottomless abyss. You will suck in everyone elses feelings and you will never stop Monique...it will consume you...and you shut off, you let your own abyss consume you too...
I'm still that abyss...just wearing another shade of grey...
Wondering who I am, questioning me for the first time in...ever...
Before I questioned whether I deserved it, wondering what I had done wrong...now I am questioning the person I am...and that is the one thing I have never done before...he makes me step back, puts me at ease, asks me the questions that matter...and he tells me the truth...I am not the same...damn you Alucard!

I set down my pen and toss the paper aside, I run far from my boudoir, far from...me...I can't anymore...drinking...badness...emotions...run!

 

[Heavenly_Harper]

I tiptoe into her room and see what a mess she has left, Nique you silly girl...you're not supposed to drink alone... She has been teaching me about rp so i think that this time i shall help her like she has helped me here, It's true when you say you are different, grow as you please...you don't need to decide and you don't need to feel the pressure either. Step back sweetie...call me if you need me but just stop repeating the same painful merruy go rounds, its never gonna change if you dnt see your own habits, look in the mirror...stop nad see who I see...the girl in there...I damn well love her! Nothing you do could ever change that and no, you are not a monsterous person...you are a beautiful, wonderful person...you have just strayed to the left of the path a littel bit!
You weren't sure and you were lonely you will be ok...it will just take time! I know you are scared but yu are strong, strongest woman I know! You will work it out babe...take yur time!



I leave her room with silent steps, hoping she will take my advice to pull back a bit and I give her a promise of tomoro...I'll be here for her!

 

[monique_minx]

I slip inside the comfort of my boudoir, seeing Heaven's message and knowing I have already talked to her...she will barade me just yet for what I have just done though...I sigh softly and sadly as I move and settle on my bed. My face is a tear stained wreck and I am feeling very much alone right now.

I rest against the headboard and hold my head in my hands, wondering how everything went so very sour for me in such a short space of time. I look at the crumpled piece of paper that was my drunken spout and feel very much the fool for it. Emotional...I shouldn't be so very emotional...not like this..I stop myself before I can start again and let the warmth and memories of this room fill me...when I danced with him, when things were so very easy, so perfect...how did I fuck that up so fast? I just destroy, ruin and obliterate...a hand grenade that never stops exploding...

I shake my head and curl up within my bed, hugging a pillow to my chest as I drift into slumber, knowing that soon...she will make me feel even worse...I'm so foolish...