My inner woman

[SammiStarr]

I'm not sure what I want to get out of writing this but it's been a long time coming.

I'm an outwardly masculine man with a family that has always been heterosexual. But, all my life I've had a fantasy of being a woman. I've never really done anything about this but it has dominated my private sessions for as long as I can remember.

When I feel this feminine urge it is often imagining myself with women but occasionally I have fantasised about it being men. I do consume a lot of trans porn as well.

There have been a few real events that tie into these feeling but spread out over a long period of time. I was bought a novelty thong as a leaving gift from a job as a joke. But I enjoyed wearing it for quite a while in quick moments. I dressed as a woman for a football team initiation and went clubbing. I was not passable but I will never forget being out in tights. Finally I had a short but intense friendship with a gay man. It never got physical but I do secretly wish it had.

I created this account to explore some of these feelings.

 

[Terrylipstick]

I can relate friend. I’m in the same situation and have had the same feelings since…. Forever. Every once in a while I dress (rarely anymore). The closest i come to experiencing what I long for is when I’m in bed with a man, on my back with my legs wrapped around his hips. I imagine that I’m a woman and it’s some of the most… it’s just an amazing mind blowing living fantasy.

 

[jessec1]

I'm not sure what I want to get out of writing this but it's been a long time coming.

I'm an outwardly masculine man with a family that has always been heterosexual. But, all my life I've had a fantasy of being a woman. I've never really done anything about this but it has dominated my private sessions for as long as I can remember.

When I feel this feminine urge it is often imagining myself with women but occasionally I have fantasised about it being men. I do consume a lot of trans porn as well.

There have been a few real events that tie into these feeling but spread out over a long period of time. I was bought a novelty thong as a leaving gift from a job as a joke. But I enjoyed wearing it for quite a while in quick moments. I dressed as a woman for a football team initiation and went clubbing. I was not passable but I will never forget being out in tights. Finally I had a short but intense friendship with a gay man. It never got physical but I do secretly wish it had.

I created this account to explore some of these feelings.

Hello ... I can relate with you completely !

 

[jessec1]

I want to reply privately.

 

[Justusnluv]

I can not only relate i can testify that bring able to shed the robes of masculinity and Alpha bs is not only liberating, its down right beautiful. I spent almost 5 years living almost full time. Appeared on the outside as male at work, but always femme underneath. Even the male version of me went more feminine in soft color palates and various pinks.

I can say the flame that burns deep inside each of us that feel this way can and will burn out of control if you let it.

I say do it. You are not hurting anyone else. At the very least it will give you a whole new appreciation for what cis women have to do everyday. Plus its just delicious

 

[Wag_that_tail86]

I'm not sure what I want to get out of writing this but it's been a long time coming.

I'm an outwardly masculine man with a family that has always been heterosexual. But, all my life I've had a fantasy of being a woman. I've never really done anything about this but it has dominated my private sessions for as long as I can remember.

When I feel this feminine urge it is often imagining myself with women but occasionally I have fantasised about it being men. I do consume a lot of trans porn as well.

There have been a few real events that tie into these feeling but spread out over a long period of time. I was bought a novelty thong as a leaving gift from a job as a joke. But I enjoyed wearing it for quite a while in quick moments. I dressed as a woman for a football team initiation and went clubbing. I was not passable but I will never forget being out in tights. Finally I had a short but intense friendship with a gay man. It never got physical but I do secretly wish it had.

I created this account to explore some of these feelings.

You are definitely not alone, and you will quickly find there are others here like you.

 

[saintcero]

I don’t have an inner woman but as a submissive bottom with some fem fantasies I am in the same neighborhood.

 

[cubbyfire04]

I don’t have an inner woman but as a submissive bottom with some fem fantasies I am in the same neighborhood.

Kinda my story too... Not really into the "looking fem" side of things. I'm very masculine and act that way with a man but in my mind, I go to a place where I want to feel like a female lover.

I guess what opened my eyes to my bisexuality is I was always envious of what the woman was experiencing. Having her body entered and bred by a powerful man. It didn't seem fair that I couldn't experience the physical and psychological demands of the one being penetrated and receiving a man's cum. I had to try it out and boy, am I glad I did.

 

[Sounding22]

Hard to put into the right words but here goes.
I feel more and more like I have a less useful cock and crave a more virile man’s body in his entirety. Just the site of a nude man makes me weak.
Now as far as saying I’m not gay because I don’t love a man, well if you think you need to love all men your not gay because gays don’t love all men.
I love one man and lost touch but when I get in touch again you bet we will kiss and make love and those memories that last.

 

[Don_private]

I'm not sure what I want to get out of writing this but it's been a long time coming.

I'm an outwardly masculine man with a family that has always been heterosexual. But, all my life I've had a fantasy of being a woman. I've never really done anything about this but it has dominated my private sessions for as long as I can remember.

When I feel this feminine urge it is often imagining myself with women but occasionally I have fantasised about it being men. I do consume a lot of trans porn as well.

There have been a few real events that tie into these feeling but spread out over a long period of time. I was bought a novelty thong as a leaving gift from a job as a joke. But I enjoyed wearing it for quite a while in quick moments. I dressed as a woman for a football team initiation and went clubbing. I was not passable but I will never forget being out in tights. Finally I had a short but intense friendship with a gay man. It never got physical but I do secretly wish it had.

I created this account to explore some of these feelings.

Love that you started this thread…here is something I replied on another thread…but definitely the exact feelings……………
First about me…been with over 100 women, 20+ men, 12+ couples…very masculine, wrestled D1 in college, very muscular and in shape…not into rough sex, not into over zealous guys trying to assert their masculinity …big turn off. Love a more passionate, romantic, pleasure seeking bi or gay guy who understands how to pleasure and how to be pleasured…………
Sooooo…100% of all my BI experiences have been trying to feel what a woman feels during sex, except without a magical pussy.
When I am with a guy alone, not in a couple situation, I ALWAYS enter a ‘feminine zone’. For those of you who get high, you know how you can slip into the buzz because you know what it will feels like?…so it’s easier to feel it faster? Well…THAT is me when I’m having sex with another guy. I’ll start off with 69 or whatever the guy wants to do…but the majority of our sex will be with me on my back in missionary …a small pillow under my ass…and then I slip into that feminine zone. Usually starting with him kissing me, running our tongues in and out of each others mouths…sucking on each others tongues …then the inevitable sliding down my body and pushing his tongue deep into my ass…sucking my cock while pushing one and then two lubed fingers inside my tight hole. When I feel I’m ready…I start to talk dirty to him…’come on, time to fuck my tight pussy’…so I love having the guy slide back up my body…until we are kissing again…and I feel the head of his cock poking at my asshole…with my legs spread, I suck on his tongue and reach down between our legs to guide his hard cock to my lubed entrance…and he slowly begins sliding his hard cock deeper and deeper into my pussy…I am NOW in full fem mode where I am fantasizing that I’m a woman being fucked…so, I’ll rub my thighs along his hips, I’ll wrap my legs around his back and feel his cock slowly sliding deeper and deeper into me…I’m in heaven…the feeling is perfect. Most of the time I’ll also be wearing pantyhose (that are now torn) or thigh highs…so when I’m rubbing my nylon covered thighs along his hips…or my nylon feet along his calves…he is experiencing the softness of a woman…lots of guys will then lean back…take my nylon covered ankles in their hands…suck on my toes while fucking me faster…often reaching down and sliding their hands up and down my cock…I love to finish in this position …where he leans back down and we passionately kiss, his cock swelling as he gets ready to orgasm …I’m sucking on his tongue…then feeling his hard cock pulsating inside me while he cums…at that moment I am as close to understanding what a woman feels like as I’ll ever be…so…with his cock still in me…he leans back and strokes my cock as I close my eyes and just feel the sensations…I cum easily onto my stomach or he’ll pull his cock out and take my cum into his mouth while I come down from the intensity of the orgasm.
THAT is how I like to be a bottom…so the guy who is fucking me experiences a full feminine bottom who seriously embraces being fucked and making sure he is feeling intense pleasure.

 

[Flyover3]

Love that you started this thread…here is something I replied on another thread…but definitely the exact feelings……………
First about me…been with over 100 women, 20+ men, 12+ couples…very masculine, wrestled D1 in college, very muscular and in shape…not into rough sex, not into over zealous guys trying to assert their masculinity …big turn off. Love a more passionate, romantic, pleasure seeking bi or gay guy who understands how to pleasure and how to be pleasured…………
Sooooo…100% of all my BI experiences have been trying to feel what a woman feels during sex, except without a magical pussy.
When I am with a guy alone, not in a couple situation, I ALWAYS enter a ‘feminine zone’. For those of you who get high, you know how you can slip into the buzz because you know what it will feels like?…so it’s easier to feel it faster? Well…THAT is me when I’m having sex with another guy. I’ll start off with 69 or whatever the guy wants to do…but the majority of our sex will be with me on my back in missionary …a small pillow under my ass…and then I slip into that feminine zone. Usually starting with him kissing me, running our tongues in and out of each others mouths…sucking on each others tongues …then the inevitable sliding down my body and pushing his tongue deep into my ass…sucking my cock while pushing one and then two lubed fingers inside my tight hole. When I feel I’m ready…I start to talk dirty to him…’come on, time to fuck my tight pussy’…so I love having the guy slide back up my body…until we are kissing again…and I feel the head of his cock poking at my asshole…with my legs spread, I suck on his tongue and reach down between our legs to guide his hard cock to my lubed entrance…and he slowly begins sliding his hard cock deeper and deeper into my pussy…I am NOW in full fem mode where I am fantasizing that I’m a woman being fucked…so, I’ll rub my thighs along his hips, I’ll wrap my legs around his back and feel his cock slowly sliding deeper and deeper into me…I’m in heaven…the feeling is perfect. Most of the time I’ll also be wearing pantyhose (that are now torn) or thigh highs…so when I’m rubbing my nylon covered thighs along his hips…or my nylon feet along his calves…he is experiencing the softness of a woman…lots of guys will then lean back…take my nylon covered ankles in their hands…suck on my toes while fucking me faster…often reaching down and sliding their hands up and down my cock…I love to finish in this position …where he leans back down and we passionately kiss, his cock swelling as he gets ready to orgasm …I’m sucking on his tongue…then feeling his hard cock pulsating inside me while he cums…at that moment I am as close to understanding what a woman feels like as I’ll ever be…so…with his cock still in me…he leans back and strokes my cock as I close my eyes and just feel the sensations…I cum easily onto my stomach or he’ll pull his cock out and take my cum into his mouth while I come down from the intensity of the orgasm.
THAT is how I like to be a bottom…so the guy who is fucking me experiences a full feminine bottom who seriously embraces being fucked and making sure he is feeling intense pleasure.

I dream of that moment, his tongue in my mouth and his cock throbbing deep inside me, breeding me like a woman, the woman I want to be. Feeling his swimmers trying to impregnate me, his DNA inside me!

 

[liqueur]

I'm an outwardly masculine man with a family that has always been heterosexual. But, all my life I've had a fantasy of being a woman. I've never really done anything about this but it has dominated my private sessions for as long as I can remember.

When I feel this feminine urge it is often imagining myself with women but occasionally I have fantasised about it being men.

I so deeply feel this. Although I’ve gravitated toward men more and more in my single years (and with aging— not sure which is the greater factor), and although I can see now, looking back, that the bisexual urges were there from the start, but just repressed... All the same, my actual lived experience up until my mid-40s was what you describe here. the cognitive dissonance made my life hell until I began to understand and accept that both roles could be real and could coexist.

My advice you, if you want advice, is talk to your wife. Sometimes that's not possible, I know. But I think the possibility is there a lot more often than men who've been trapped in the man-box realize: that it's fear on the man's part of stepping out of that prescribed box, more than any lack of understanding on the woman's part, that makes the conversation seem impossible. It's quite possible she already understands more that you realize.

If the conversation is truly impossible, we are here as a motley crew, and I am here as an individual open to PMs, to offer as much support as online friends can give.

It's also possible you can find face-to-face support groups, depending on where you live. You may be familiar with the term “queer,” in its modern usage? It's an umbrella term that includes lesbian/gay/bi/trans/nonbinary/questioning folk. You don't need any label more precise than that. Just look for queer-friendly support groups, or a queer-friendly therapist, in your area.

Feel free to PM me. I wish you all the best.

 

[Samantha47]

I don’t have an inner woman but as a submissive bottom with some fem fantasies I am in the same neighborhood.

Oh yes honey

 

[Sounding22]

This is a really sick fantasy I had, remember only fantasy!
I had always wanted to make a family member feel more like a man.

 

[Samantha47]

This is a really sick fantasy I had, remember only fantasy!
I had always wanted to make a family member feel more like a man.

Would be wonderful to have that done to me

 

[Sounding22]

Would be wonderful to have that done to me

You know there just might be a family member thinking like you?
I was just afraid to push my feelings.

 

[Samantha47]

You know there just might be a family member thinking like you?
I was just afraid to push my feelings.

Me too honey

 

[Sounding22]

Me too honey

Wish I were in your family, I’d be your sister/brother. mmm

 

[Samantha47]

Wish I were in your family, I’d be your sister/brother. mmm

I love sounding so much

 

[BiMrPotatoHead]

Love that you started this thread…here is something I replied on another thread…but definitely the exact feelings……………
First about me…been with over 100 women, 20+ men, 12+ couples…very masculine, wrestled D1 in college, very muscular and in shape…not into rough sex, not into over zealous guys trying to assert their masculinity …big turn off. Love a more passionate, romantic, pleasure seeking bi or gay guy who understands how to pleasure and how to be pleasured…………
Sooooo…100% of all my BI experiences have been trying to feel what a woman feels during sex, except without a magical pussy.
When I am with a guy alone, not in a couple situation, I ALWAYS enter a ‘feminine zone’. For those of you who get high, you know how you can slip into the buzz because you know what it will feels like?…so it’s easier to feel it faster? Well…THAT is me when I’m having sex with another guy. I’ll start off with 69 or whatever the guy wants to do…but the majority of our sex will be with me on my back in missionary …a small pillow under my ass…and then I slip into that feminine zone. Usually starting with him kissing me, running our tongues in and out of each others mouths…sucking on each others tongues …then the inevitable sliding down my body and pushing his tongue deep into my ass…sucking my cock while pushing one and then two lubed fingers inside my tight hole. When I feel I’m ready…I start to talk dirty to him…’come on, time to fuck my tight pussy’…so I love having the guy slide back up my body…until we are kissing again…and I feel the head of his cock poking at my asshole…with my legs spread, I suck on his tongue and reach down between our legs to guide his hard cock to my lubed entrance…and he slowly begins sliding his hard cock deeper and deeper into my pussy…I am NOW in full fem mode where I am fantasizing that I’m a woman being fucked…so, I’ll rub my thighs along his hips, I’ll wrap my legs around his back and feel his cock slowly sliding deeper and deeper into me…I’m in heaven…the feeling is perfect. Most of the time I’ll also be wearing pantyhose (that are now torn) or thigh highs…so when I’m rubbing my nylon covered thighs along his hips…or my nylon feet along his calves…he is experiencing the softness of a woman…lots of guys will then lean back…take my nylon covered ankles in their hands…suck on my toes while fucking me faster…often reaching down and sliding their hands up and down my cock…I love to finish in this position …where he leans back down and we passionately kiss, his cock swelling as he gets ready to orgasm …I’m sucking on his tongue…then feeling his hard cock pulsating inside me while he cums…at that moment I am as close to understanding what a woman feels like as I’ll ever be…so…with his cock still in me…he leans back and strokes my cock as I close my eyes and just feel the sensations…I cum easily onto my stomach or he’ll pull his cock out and take my cum into his mouth while I come down from the intensity of the orgasm.
THAT is how I like to be a bottom…so the guy who is fucking me experiences a full feminine bottom who seriously embraces being fucked and making sure he is feeling intense pleasure.

This is exactly how I feel when I'm with a man. I become very feminine and submissive.

 

[Samantha47]

This is exactly how I feel when I'm with a man. I become very feminine and submissive.

Me too

 

[Terrylipstick]

Love that you started this thread…here is something I replied on another thread…but definitely the exact feelings……………
First about me…been with over 100 women, 20+ men, 12+ couples…very masculine, wrestled D1 in college, very muscular and in shape…not into rough sex, not into over zealous guys trying to assert their masculinity …big turn off. Love a more passionate, romantic, pleasure seeking bi or gay guy who understands how to pleasure and how to be pleasured…………
Sooooo…100% of all my BI experiences have been trying to feel what a woman feels during sex, except without a magical pussy.
When I am with a guy alone, not in a couple situation, I ALWAYS enter a ‘feminine zone’. For those of you who get high, you know how you can slip into the buzz because you know what it will feels like?…so it’s easier to feel it faster? Well…THAT is me when I’m having sex with another guy. I’ll start off with 69 or whatever the guy wants to do…but the majority of our sex will be with me on my back in missionary …a small pillow under my ass…and then I slip into that feminine zone. Usually starting with him kissing me, running our tongues in and out of each others mouths…sucking on each others tongues …then the inevitable sliding down my body and pushing his tongue deep into my ass…sucking my cock while pushing one and then two lubed fingers inside my tight hole. When I feel I’m ready…I start to talk dirty to him…’come on, time to fuck my tight pussy’…so I love having the guy slide back up my body…until we are kissing again…and I feel the head of his cock poking at my asshole…with my legs spread, I suck on his tongue and reach down between our legs to guide his hard cock to my lubed entrance…and he slowly begins sliding his hard cock deeper and deeper into my pussy…I am NOW in full fem mode where I am fantasizing that I’m a woman being fucked…so, I’ll rub my thighs along his hips, I’ll wrap my legs around his back and feel his cock slowly sliding deeper and deeper into me…I’m in heaven…the feeling is perfect. Most of the time I’ll also be wearing pantyhose (that are now torn) or thigh highs…so when I’m rubbing my nylon covered thighs along his hips…or my nylon feet along his calves…he is experiencing the softness of a woman…lots of guys will then lean back…take my nylon covered ankles in their hands…suck on my toes while fucking me faster…often reaching down and sliding their hands up and down my cock…I love to finish in this position …where he leans back down and we passionately kiss, his cock swelling as he gets ready to orgasm …I’m sucking on his tongue…then feeling his hard cock pulsating inside me while he cums…at that moment I am as close to understanding what a woman feels like as I’ll ever be…so…with his cock still in me…he leans back and strokes my cock as I close my eyes and just feel the sensations…I cum easily onto my stomach or he’ll pull his cock out and take my cum into his mouth while I come down from the intensity of the orgasm.
THAT is how I like to be a bottom…so the guy who is fucking me experiences a full feminine bottom who seriously embraces being fucked and making sure he is feeling intense pleasure.

Oh god yes…. You articulated these feelings, that I also have, so well

 

[sonicor]

Reading these enjoying how much I can relate..

 

[Davead989]

I'm not sure what I want to get out of writing this but it's been a long time coming.

I'm an outwardly masculine man with a family that has always been heterosexual. But, all my life I've had a fantasy of being a woman. I've never really done anything about this but it has dominated my private sessions for as long as I can remember.

When I feel this feminine urge it is often imagining myself with women but occasionally I have fantasised about it being men. I do consume a lot of trans porn as well.

There have been a few real events that tie into these feeling but spread out over a long period of time. I was bought a novelty thong as a leaving gift from a job as a joke. But I enjoyed wearing it for quite a while in quick moments. I dressed as a woman for a football team initiation and went clubbing. I was not passable but I will never forget being out in tights. Finally I had a short but intense friendship with a gay man. It never got physical but I do secretly wish it had.

I created this account to explore some of these feelings.

Exact same fantasy and need here, I imagine myself as a woman with other women but mostly with men. The more I explore the fantasy the more I feel it and want it, just feels good. I’d honestly love to be the woman for a man, gets me hard just typing it. Happy to explore more with you or anyone else reading this.

 

[BillyWalrus]

I’d honestly love to be the woman for a man,

In bed, I am the woman for my trans gf and she is the man. In the street, we appear to be a conventional couple.