Newbie British guy...

[Gordyr]

Thanks jushorny!

I have a couple more pics I took this morning, that I forgot to post. I was trying to do more of a modelling type pose and used the black & white mode on my phone for effect. I took two pics (with no nudity) but couldn't decide which I preferred so thought I would upload both.

Here they are!

 

[jushorny]

I agree, difficult to decide which on to prefer. The first one, my tongue want to go to your hot pits, the second one directs my mouth to your sexy lips, damn you are too much

 

[Gordyr]

Thanks for the compliments. I am really enjoying posting my pics here.

I have always been a bit of an exhibitionist, I guess you have to be to take modelling seriously at all. It's just a shame that it ended up messing with my head. It really caused me to be extremely insecure about every aspect of my body. So much so that I really shut myself down.

It's nice to be coming out of my shell again and I feel like I am getting back to the same level of confidence I had before my anorexia. Thanks guys... You have all been more helpfull to me than you realise!

 

[Mollyandra]

I think you have nothing to worry about at all! Most men would love to look like you
take care

 

[Gordyr]

Thanks Mollyandra... I'm not really so worried anymore, most of my insecurities died along with my anorexia. I still have a ways to go both physically and mentally before I am fully where I want to be but I am getting there.

Anyway, I am having touble thinking of poses for more pics to share with you guys. Any suggestions?

 

[jushorny]

I'm glad you are feeling better about yourself, its hard I know.
As far as pics and poses, hell any you post will be hot

 

[wildfyre]

Thanks Mollyandra... I'm not really so worried anymore, most of my insecurities died along with my anorexia. I still have a ways to go both physically and mentally before I am fully where I want to be but I am getting there.

Anyway, I am having touble thinking of poses for more pics to share with you guys. Any suggestions?

My initial reaction to your first pic was "WOW" but when I opened the others you got upgraded to "HOT DAMN". You look so good now! Glad to see that you're confidence is coming back. Keep posting here and we'll all do what we can to stroke you....er..stroke your ego!

The body hair issue: you look good either way, but I prefer the hair. You have just the right amount of hair....just enough to play with but not so much that your "ladies" would start coughing up hairballs!

And as for requests, how about some all soapy in the shower? Shower pics always make me think of dirty things!

 

[CuteKittyCat]

Stunning babe! You have a perfect body just to my tastes! You have a very similar physique to an ex bf of mine! Just perfect! *sighs*

 

[College_geek]

Every day I am given another reason to want to visit Britain some day, and today, my new reason is you. Gorgeous, not an ego maniac, and with an accent to boot. Better go add you to the list. *grin*

 

[layla_nicole]

My goodness. Absolutely stunning in every respect. And such a cute bum!

Regarding hair - I usually prefer smooth, but as someone else in the thread said, you wear it well. I say do whatever makes you feel comfortable.

 

[shy_999]

I must say, the pictures keep getting hotter and hotter! I personally don't think you need to slim back down any, you look great the way you look in the last few pictures! (But if you feel the need to, I can completely understand ) As for the body hair... I can't stand body hair... but like the posters before me, you look great with it. I would keep it unless it bothers you. Keep up the good work! By the way, any poses you do will probably look hot, so just have fun taking some pictures and I'm sure we'll love them
~ME

 

[Gordyr]

Thank you all so much for your kind words! If I could kiss you all I would!

I tried my best to take some pics in the shower as wildfyre suggested. It proved very difficult as I had to use the built in timer on my camera phone, I was jumping in and out of the shower, soaping up, drying my hands, pressing camera buttons.... LOL it really wasn't easy!

I ended up taking a few after the shower when I was dripping wet. The mirror was all steamed up unfortunately. Still, I hope you like them!

As for the point you made about slimming down shy_999... Well I only want to lose the tiny bit of fat I have added during "bulking" around my abs. I like to have them clearly cut in all light. At the moment they aren't too bad but I can definately notice the difference. It should only take a couple of weeks worth of dieting to get back to around 8% bodyfat percentage, which is where I like to be. Thank you for saying I don't need to though, it's very much appreciated!

I have only recently been able to accept even the tiniest amount of fat covering them. But I learned that in order to make my muscles grow I really have to eat a LOT of food and accept that a little fat will be gained during this process. Eating a very clean, strict diet helps to minimise this fat gain though.

Thanks again guys!

 

[CrayzieRapture]

You are so fine...I can't believe you have ever been insecure. Proof that being good looking does not equal mental happiness.

I am glad you have worked on accepting yoru body, however it appears. I am sure it is still a struggle at times but keep it up (and keep being so kind as to provide us with more pics )

 

[Sweetone70]

OMG!...I had a really bad day at work, but coming home and finding your new pictures here put a very big smile on my face and a little tingle in the panties
You have an incredible body....wouldn't mind licking you from head to toe
Thank you again honey

 

[wildfyre]

A great big thank you kiss for the shower pics!

That first one has me thinking seriously dirty thoughts right now! Like how'd I'd love to come over there and towel you off....with my tongue!!!

Your abs look good in those pics...you'll have to post more when you back to your target weight so we can compare!

And I like the effect of the steamy mirror in the after shower pics. Gives it a very arty feel.

Have a great day.

 

[r_baby]

You seem like an absolute darling!

I love the way you come across, plus you're photos are awesome - you're actually gorgeous, I love your hair, the scruffy look does it for me, hehe.

You seem really concerned with your body image, why is that? Do you still model? I for one am not fussed about toned abs - I dont think many girls are - or we'd all be single!! You'd look just as sexy without a toned chest!

I love the morning photos - I wish I looked that good in the morning - Id feel good if I woke up with you looking like that next to me! hehe

Im in the UK right now and I havent found any guys like you anywhere! All the good-looking ones seem to know it and are full of themselves - where are you hiding boy?? hehe

Take care - I think you're awesome!!

 

[r_baby]

Here's a few more for you...

I took these first thing in the morning just before I got in the shower so you will have to excuse my awful hair lol! I also needed a shave!

Sorry for the dumb look on my face too, but it's kind of hard to pose properly when you are trying to photograph yourself in the mirror with nothing but a mobile phone for a camera!

I have been "bulking" for the past month in order to gain some more muscle. What this means is that I have been eating like a horse and hitting the gym hard. Unfortunately the downside of this is that you put on a few excess pounds of fat.

You can see my abs aren't as nicely cut as they were. I'll be dieting off the couple of excess pounds of fat I have put on in about 2 weeks time. Hopefully I should be nice and lean again with a fresh layer of added muscle underneath.

ps. the morning hair and need-a-shave look is SO hot right now - yum, I prefer that look to carefully groomed

likewise with the figure, I dont like too much effort shown, a little yes, but not much

 

[Gordyr]

Again... Thanks for all the kind comments guys.

wildfyre and Sweetone70 - Too bad your not here or I would likely take you up on those offers!

r_baby - I thought I would address your question about why I am so concerned with my body image. Wow... Where to start?

My mother is an actress turned businesswoman. My father is an alcoholic womaniser. The mix made for a rather strange childhood.

From a very early age my mother would comment on my body/looks. On one hand she was very proud. But on the other she would always point out, rather bluntly, if I was too skinny or too fat. A little of that isn't such a bad thing but when your only interaction with your mother is conversations about how fat your face is looking it can have an effect.

I sat and watched as my father had a string of affairs with young girls in their low 20's while he was in his mid 40's. Aside from that my relationship with him consisted of watching him get very drunk, day after day.

Thankfully some of that has made me a better person. I rarely drink, mostly through fear of going the route of my father. And I have an extreme appreciation and respect for women. I detest my father for the way he treated my mother and the girls he slept with. I vowed I would never hurt anyone in that way.

God... Where am I going with this?

Well, when I was 18 and at college I got noticed walking down Oxford Street in London by a scout from a modelling agency. Naturally I was flattered. They called me up a few days later and arranged a photoshoot for me to have my portfolio done for free before putting my face on their roster. It all went very well and I began to get jobs. It was a good part time earner, I never really intended to take it too seriously.

After a while comments began to come in. "You'll get more work if you shed a couple of pounds", "Catwalk stuff next week, gotta lean up" etc...etc...

I accepted it as part of the job and went about my business. Over the course of the following year this continued and I got thinner and thinner. Since I was doing fashion and not sports modelling all that mattered was a low bodyfat percentage. The fact that my muscles were wasting away and that I was eating less than 1000 calories per day went largely unnoticed.

People around me, those not in the modelling industry, began to comment on how i'll I was looking and I got very defensive. I thought they were being ridiculous. I would look in the mirror and see a slight bulge around my lower abs. Instead of realising this was nothing more than an illusion due to my chest and arms having been eaten away, I thought it was fat and dieted some more.

From here I just spiralled downwards.

The incident that snapped me out of it was also quite horrific.

About 17 months ago I was assaulted from behind by a group of guys in a night-club. I never even saw them. Apparently they were fed up with the attention I was getting from a few of the girls in their "group". Anyway they attacked me from behind and I was kicked in the face repeatedly. I ended up with my jaw being broken in two places. I had to have an operation to re-set it and have a titanium plate screwed in to hold it together. I then had to have my teeth wired shut for 8 weeks.

During this time I was prescribed liquid meal replacements by the hospital nutritionist. And to their amazement I actually gained weight! I guess because I was consuming far more calories per day through these liquid meals than I had been consuming myself previously.

Obviously I wasn't able to continue modelling but thankfully I made a full recovery and it was then that I realised just what I had been doing to my body. I made a massive change to my lifestyle and began to research nutrition and fitness. The pics I have been posting are the results a year later. Unfortunately all this has left me with a somewhat still unhealthy obsession about my image. This is something that I really don't think I will ever be able to completely get rid of. But at least I am doing it healthily now as opposed to starving myself.


Wow, I have just realised how long this post has gotten! I'm sorry for boring you all for so long. It's the first time I have really spoken to anyone outside of my family and friends about this stuff. I figured if I was going to answer the question that r_baby posed, I should do it properly. Even if it bores you all to tears!

To anyone who read this far, I applaud you! Thanks for taking the time to learn a little about me!

Enough of my inane ramblings... Back to the pics!

 

[r_baby]

Wow, what a story.... I'd give you the biggest hug right now (ok, that would mainly be because I love hugs, and definately wouldnt mind hugging you...) because thats how your post made me feel

What you have said is so interesting!! Thanks for answering my question in so much detail, I hope I didnt offend you by asking, or the way I asked

Really, please keep talking! (and posting pics of course )

 

[Gordyr]

Wow, what a story.... I'd give you the biggest hug right now (ok, that would mainly be because I love hugs, and definately wouldnt mind hugging you...) because thats how your post made me feel

Awwww thanks. I could really use that hug. Bless you.

What you have said is so interesting!! Thanks for answering my question in so much detail, I hope I didnt offend you by asking, or the way I asked

I'm not offended in any way. I'm touched that you were so interested!

Anyway... It's 2am now. I'm off to bed, i'll try to take some more pics in the morning. I've said it before but posting here has been a great experience so far. Thanks, all of you!

 

[wildfyre]

Again... Thanks for all the kind comments guys.

wildfyre and Sweetone70 - Too bad your not here or I would likely take you up on those offers!

well Gordy that sounds like incentive for me to take a trip across the pond!

Your story is amazing! Thank you so much for sharing it with us. You present yourself with such grace and humility, it's very appealing on you! I would have to say you are as gorgeous on the inside as on the out.

I look forward to seeing more of you both in word and picture!

*Hugs* and es to you, sweetie!!

 

[Gordyr]

I'm delighted you guys didn't find it too much of a bore!

Thanks for your comments about my personality wildfyre. I have my tantrums as does anyone but I have always made a real effort be respectful of others. Male or female. It's reassuring to be told that it shows!


I am struggling for poses at the moment. Having to take all the pictures myself in the mirror is very restrictive. Hey... If you took that trip across the pond you could help out!

Anyway, I have taken a few more in black and white, I really like the atmosphere. I'll go back to colour for my next set though. I haven't been working for the last couple of days so I have let my stubble grow a little more since a lot of you seem to like the "rugged" look. It's getting a bit much now though, i'll have to shave tomorrow! Also, i'll try actually "doing" my hair for a set soon!

Yet again, if you lovely ladies have any more ideas for poses, feel free to let me know. I might try some fully clothed but teasing pictures later on. You must be getting bored of my penis by now!

 

[College_geek]

I'm delighted you guys didn't find it too much of a bore!

Thanks for your comments about my personality wildfyre. I have my tantrums as does anyone but I have always made a real effort be respectful of others. Male or female. It's reassuring to be told that it shows!


I am struggling for poses at the moment. Having to take all the pictures myself in the mirror is very restrictive. Hey... If you took that trip across the pond you could help out!

Anyway, I have taken a few more in black and white, I really like the atmosphere. I'll go back to colour for my next set though. I haven't been working for the last couple of days so I have let my stubble grow a little more since a lot of you seem to like the "rugged" look. It's getting a bit much now though, i'll have to shave tomorrow! Also, i'll try actually "doing" my hair for a set soon!

Yet again, if you lovely ladies have any more ideas for poses, feel free to let me know. I might try some fully clothed but teasing pictures later on. You must be getting bored of my penis by now!

Hmm...not getting bored yet with that nice butt of yours. If your camera has a timer on it, you can always use that so you don't need the mirror. Or you can always get someone to take the pics for you. That's always fun.

 

[wildfyre]

I'm delighted you guys didn't find it too much of a bore!

Thanks for your comments about my personality wildfyre. I have my tantrums as does anyone but I have always made a real effort be respectful of others. Male or female. It's reassuring to be told that it shows!

It definitely shows! And we're all allowed our off days so have the occasional tantrum...it keeps you from being *too perfect*!

I am struggling for poses at the moment. Having to take all the pictures myself in the mirror is very restrictive. Hey... If you took that trip across the pond you could help out!

*grabbing camera bag, make sure camera is in it...check, plenty of film...check, digital camera for back up....check, spare batteries....check, grab purse, with cash for plane ticket.....passport....shit, expired. Damn. *

Well, when I get the passport renewed my photographic services are at your disposal...as are any of my other services you want!!

Anyway, I have taken a few more in black and white, I really like the atmosphere. I'll go back to colour for my next set though. I haven't been working for the last couple of days so I have let my stubble grow a little more since a lot of you seem to like the "rugged" look. It's getting a bit much now though, i'll have to shave tomorrow! Also, i'll try actually "doing" my hair for a set soon!

Another set of amazing photos! The first one made me stop breathing for a minute! Very hot! Black and white is my favorite format for people pics. Very sexy and sensuous.

Yet again, if you lovely ladies have any more ideas for poses, feel free to let me know. I might try some fully clothed but teasing pictures later on. You must be getting bored of my penis by now!

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The teasing pics are wonderful....but I doubt we could get bored with any part of you!

Would love to see pics of you tangled up in the bedsheets. Maybe try using the timer on your camera to stage some shots that way. I use the timer on my digital so I don't have to do the mirror trick. Just a thought.

Have a wonderful day (evening for you now)!

 

[Gordyr]

Thank you wildfyre... Your comments as always are greatly appreciated. You're all so lovely!

Here's a final set for today. I'm still stuck in black and white mode, I love it so much! I have been playing around with the timer again. I really need to get myself a real digital camera as this mobile phone isn't really cutting it. Oh well, I hope you like them!

On the bed as you requested!