Perception

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[ToPleaseHim]

Bumped by request

Great job with the search function here!

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[krissive69]

quote trimming...

I've just gone through and read all the posts here and I agree, it's a lovely thread. So I have a few things to contribute.

The talk of social masks/alternate identities made me think back to my high school days, because I don't think I actually have any mask to wear. I remember the exact spot I was standing in (Outside the door of an electronics class) when I decided I'd try and stop 'masking', because at the time all the exaggerated expressions from interacting with people was massively personally uncomfortable. Took a few months to break the habit, haven't done it slightly as much since.

And I say "exaggerated" for a reason, because since then I've had people tell me off-handily over my life that the expression on my face is (summarily) set in stone and unflinching. Almost everybody I knew at school said it, people I didn't know said it, it even came up in a job interview just two weeks ago with two people I had only met for about 10 minutes in total. And yet whenever I do show a bit of emotion it still feels over-the-top and exaggerated (it's generally not) and I'm always feelings like I've shown so much that it just looks so fake to other people. Apparently it doesn't though. Odd indeed.

Just reading Consilience's post about facial expression, reminded me of this story on NPR about an autistic man who suddenly experienced an "emotional awakening" after "he received transcranial magnetic stimulation, a noninvasive procedure in which areas of the brain are stimulated with electromagnetic fields to alter its circuitry." It shows that there is an incredibly wide variation among people regarding their ability to "read" and to "feel" emotions. This man's awakening to emtional experience was remarkable... It was a fascinating article: http://www.npr.org/sections/health-...n-emotional-awakening-for-one-man-with-autism

 

[whisperdconsent]

when i saw this i thought this would be easy but this is my fifth rewriting a reply. i have been trying hard to answer this and realized i don't think of a me but rather an Us because my relationship with my Domme is so integrated in who i am. i know how others perceive me, including my Domme. She teases me for being so shy and easily frightened the way i hug to Her and hide behind Her around others. i am okay around Her Friends at home because it is my place to make Their visit as pleasant and comfortable as possible, even being nude in front of Them but as soon as i have gotten Them Their drink or snack i always sit close to Her and try to hide behind Her leg. Even when allowed or commanded i still find it difficult to look anyone in the eyes or to talk to anyone other than Her. so i guess that i see myself the same way others do

 

[cookiecat]

This is a good thread. Bumping it so I can read through the rest of it later.

 

[catscreech]

I guess I can perceive mysef in many ways.
For a start, I have Aspergers.
I am an introvert who has a preference for privacy and solitude in the midst of social settings. I am a student who purses knowledge and understanding of the human psychology- to help others who are in need using my experiences and knowledge. I have a low self esteem as I am someone who hardly accepts help from others. I call myself trash, worthless because I am aware of myself and the flaws that I bare. Friendship is something that comes across as hard for me to achieve. But I can be ok with that. I am an introvert, afterall. Solitude is hardly a bother for me.

But, at the same time, I perceive myself as a nerd. I have great interest in science, history, mythology and even math, which was always my worst subject in school. And literature has always been a special passion for me as I loved a majority of books I have read, especially the more dark pieces such as the works of Edgar Allen Poe. I also have a love for animation and anime- I'm a fangirl who invests in fictional characters and the trials they face and by God do I LOVE fawning over them, loving their relationships, analyzing them and theorizing about my favorite characters. I collect merchandise like an addict. It's a huge part of my life.
( drinking from an Attack on Titan mug right now, actually. )

But I'm also a quiet person who seperates themself from the world around them and, quite frankly, I'm sort of a pessimist who has strong viewpoints about the world and societal ideals based on research and observation. But I hardly ever share them much so I like to observe, learn and share with those willing to listen.

TL;DR I'm a nerd with a lot on my mind.

I could go on and on with this but I'd like to cut it here. I've enjoyed reading the replies in this thread and getting to know the community a bit better. Take care, you guys.

 

[cookiecat]

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I could go on and on with this but I'd like to cut it here. I've enjoyed reading the replies in this thread and getting to know the community a bit better. Take care, you guys.

Nice to see the thread bumped again. But I'm curious, catscreech - how'd you find it? The last post was a year ago. When older threads are bumped, I enjoy seeing a peek in to the past -- am wondering how you wandered across it??