Protection (closed)

[garajd]

After Molly is ready for bed and has her juice, "Molly, do you want me to take you up to bed tonight? I can sit with you for a few minutes until you fall asleep."

Looking over at the two of you . . . two of the three most important women in my life (can't leave out Maria).

 

[heartofcourage]

Molly watches you for a moment before she finally nods. I kiss her cheek and wish her a good night. Tomorrow I’ll keep her home from school and keep her busy with little projects and hopefully break the gloom that has settled over her life. Watching the two of you walking upstairs, I smile and move to make sure the house is locked up before I head to our bedroom and slid on one of your shirts before I settle beneath the covers myself.

 

[garajd]

Sitting with Molly until she falls asleep; I heard you walk down the hall and into our bedroom. One she is asleep, I make my way to our room and see you already curled up under the covers. "Long day, love?" I know it's been tough having to talk with Molly about her daddy . . . I'm sure you are worn out.

Stripping down to my boxers, I crawl under the covers with you and wait for your head to land on my chest.

 

[heartofcourage]

I curl up next to you as soon as you slip into bed. I settle my cheek against your shoulder and I can’t help the tears that start to fall as I think about the sadness that Molly has to be feeling.

“I just hate it that I can’t give her what she wants.” I say as I swipe at my eyes with my hand. “Why did he have to be such an asshole? I mean, I can take being disappointed by him and accept the fact that he wasn’t a good husband, but I can’t believe he’d do this to Molly.”

 

[garajd]

"I wish I had an answer for that; honey, all we can do now is try to help her thru the next couple of days. After that, there will be good days and bad days . . . all we can do is be there for her."

Your tears are coming; I knew they would; I can feel them on my chest. All I can do right now is hold onto you and give you someone to hold onto, because tomorrow morning, you will need to be strong for her.

 

[heartofcourage]

Tears flow from my eyes in a hot rush as you hold me close. I’m not really sure why I’m crying, but I feel like I have a raw wound on my heart that is finally starting to heal. I’m angry at my ex-husband for both hurting my daughter and myself. He ruined everything in our lives and now that he was behind bars he was still trying to ruin us both.

Trembling as you hold me close, I cry myself to sleep on your shoulder, my arm wrapped around your chest and holding you tight, telling you that I’m never going to let you go.

 

[garajd]

The thing is, love, you've never had the chance to let your emotions run free after all he did to you; you've always had to keep everything in check to protect Molly as much as possible. And now that we've had to tell her where Daddy is, you can finally let go and get it out.

Falling asleep myself; hearing a knock on our door, "Can I sleep with you guys?" Looking at the clock; it is 4:00. "Come on in, Molly, there's room for you tonight."

 

[heartofcourage]

I sigh as I hear the knock and open my eyes as Molly comes scurrying in and climbs into bed beside you. She snuggles against your side as you tuck her under the blankets too. She yawns and claims a spot on your other arm, sleeping soundly now that she feels safe as well.

“Let’s sleep in tomorrow then go out for breakfast.” I whisper softly, looking up at you in the darkened room.

 

[garajd]

Good thing you've got a king-size bed, love. "Sounds good to me, babe. I'm sure Molly would like that and then be home all day with us."

Not used to sleeping with someone on both sides of me; I do fall back asleep until about 7:00. Somehow, I manage to get out of the bed and leave the two of you sleeping soundly. Get the coffee going, bring in the morning paper.

Sitting at the kitchen table, finally hearing little feet running down the stairs, "I'm hungry." At least there is a smile on her face. "Let's wait till your mom wakes up, then we are going out for breakfast and you can stay home with us today and help me finish building your playhouse."

 

[heartofcourage]

“Can we paint the playhouse blue? I like blue.” She says, crawling into your lap and looking at the paper as you read it. “And then maybe we can have a tea party!”

I slip into kitchen as I hear that, laughing softly as I press a kiss to Molly’s forehead. “I don’t know that Alan’s ever had a tea party with a little girl, Molly. You’ll have to teach him what to do.” I say as I pour a cup of coffee and watch the two of you for a moment.

“Alright, Miss Molly. Go get your clothes on. Alan’s taking us out for breakfast.” I say as she scurries out of the room and I lean over to kiss you good morning properly.

 

[garajd]

"How about blue and Cardinal red for the trim?" Going to make a tomboy of Molly.

"After breakfast we can go back to the store and pick out paint and get some brushes. I need to make sure I've got a job there in a couple of weeks." As she hurries out of the kitchen and up to get dressed, my hand somehow finds its way up the back of your thigh and squeezes your butt. "Did you get some sleep last night? You were tossing quite a bit, but seemed to settle down after Molly joined us."

 

[heartofcourage]

“Yeah, I did get to sleep finally. Just a lot on my mind.” I say as you squeeze my ass and I take Molly’s vacated seat in your lap. “I think while you two work in the backyard, I’m going to call my divorce lawyer and see what I can’t do about serving my ex with a restraining order while he’s still in prison. No contact with Molly at all might be the best thing to do at this point until he gets his head back together.”

I lean forward and kiss you deeply, my lips clinging to yours for a long moment before we part and I lean my forehead against yours. “I wish more and more every day that you were Molly’s dad. It would be so much more simply.”

 

[garajd]

"Well, babe, maybe I'm not here 'father', but that doesn't mean I can't be something of a dad to her. I would never expect her to call me that, but I can certainly be that role model in her life for her. And, especially, once we get married and another bundle starts bouncing around this household and she gets to be the big sister."

"I can keep her busy for quite a while once we get home; so you take whatever time you need on the phone. I think our next project is working on some office space here. We can't really use the extra bedroom, because we may need it for when my kids come out . . . or if we need it for our own in a year or so. I'll take a look at the basement and see what we can do down there . . . office and a playroom"

Bounding feet down the stairs, "Let's go! I'm really hungry!"

 

[heartofcourage]

As you talk about us having more kids, I lean in and kiss your lips again passionately. The plans and ideas that you have tell me that you really are in this for the long run and it makes me smile. “I think the basement would be perfect.” I say as Molly comes bounding down the stairs, announcing that she’s hungry.

“Well, we better feed you!” I say as I take her hand and lead her out to the car, waiting for you to lock up the house. She picks a pancake place for breakfast and I watch as she stuffs herself with pancakes and sugary syrup. I sigh, knowing that it isn’t healthy, but it makes her happy and that’s all that matters today.

 

[garajd]

My breakfast isn't much better - bacon, hash browns, eggs, and toast - I'm sure you will hve something to say about my diet once our routine settles down a bit!! After breakfast, we head over to Home Depot; I send you and Molly to look at paint colors while I talk with the store manager about my job. It's all set - 2 days a week and 1 Saturday a month.

Catching up with you, Molly has a blue already picked out, but decides that, rather than Cardinal red, she wants white for the trim. Getting the brushes and other items we need, we head home.

"Better find her some old clothes that you don't want her to wear except in the yard from now on; I'm sure there will be plenty of paint on them by the time we are done."

 

[heartofcourage]

I find some old clothing for Molly and send her outside to help you with the playhouse while I head to my temporary office and set out on the task of making a plan with my lawyer. An order of no contact seems to be the way to go and I agree to see it through as fast as possible. It seems to be the only legal way that I can protect Molly now.

I’m pleased that everything will be going through soon enough and I can relax. Decided to leave you both alone, I curl up on the living room couch with a good book and soon find myself asleep after a night of tossing and turning.

“Alan, I can’t reach!” Molly calls out as she stands on her tiptoes with her brush, struggling to reach the parts she can’t get to. “I need your help.”

 

[garajd]

"Here you go, Molly," lifting her up with my hands around her waist; obviously, this is taking longer than doing it myself, but part of the plan today is keep Molly's mind busy and not thinking about Daddy.

Figured you would have been out here by now with some water for the workers, but either the attorney is taking longer than I thought, or you are sneaking in a nap with no interruptions. But Molly is happy, se we'll just keep going out here.

Finally get the outside painted; not much more we can do today until the paint dries. Difficult for a 5-year old to understand, but once I wipe some off with my finger, she agrees tht we need to wait. "Don't run off there, Molly; we need to clean up our mess." Reluctantly, she sticks around while I get the brushes rinsed out and everything stored in the garage.

"OK, helper, let's go in and get you cleaned up and in some clean clothes before we get any paint where we don't want it."

 

[heartofcourage]

Molly races in and up to her bedroom to wash her hands and change her clothes. I sigh as I hear the door open and close, my eyes opening to look up at you as you stare down at my sleeping form.

“I dozed off.” I say as I stretch and settle back down into my spot. “Are you guys finished? I can get lunch started.”

 

[garajd]

"Convinced her that we need to let the paint dry. It's latex, will be dry in an hour, but I can stall her a bit longer than that. And with all that fresh air, she should be ready for a nap after lunch. I will probably take one myself."

Pulling you up off the couch, "Lunch sounds, but after that big breakfast, soup sounds good for me." Standing there in the living room my arms around you, "Are you guys hugging and kissing again?" I think she enjoys finding us like this!!

 

[heartofcourage]

“Soup it is. How about potato?” I ask as you pull me off the couch and hug me tight, our lips meeting briefly before we’re interrupted.

“Yes, we are, Molly. It’s what people do who really like each other.” I say, making no movement from your arms. It’s time she got use to the idea of us being together and I smile up at you before I glance over at her. “Why don’t you settle in to watch a movie and I’ll make some lunch. Then we can all take a nap and then maybe see about playing in your play house.”

Molly agrees and I steal another kiss before I move into the kitchen to prepare the soup. After a quick lunch and Molly tucked into her bed for a nap, I sink into the couch cushions beside you with a deep sigh.

“You’ve been really good to her today, baby. Thank you.” I say as I lean over and give you a deep kiss. “You’re amazing.”

 

[garajd]

"Actually, love, I'm having fun . . . probably something I missed with Alex and Maria; at least I've got a chance now to enjoy it."

Bet it didn't take her long to fall asleep. As you drop into the couch beside me, I wrap an arm around you . . . always looking for a kiss from you. Leaning my head back on the couch, pretty sure I'm going to fall asleep myself for a little while.

 

[heartofcourage]

“Maybe you should invite Alex and Maria for dinner again before we go to the city for the Christmas lights. It’ll be nice to see them again.” I say as I watch your head drop back against the couch and know that you’ll be asleep in a while.

I settle down next to you, my head resting in your lap. I giggle as I can feel your cock stirring against my cheek and look up at you as I nuzzle against the hardening shaft against my cheek. “Down boy.” I whisper as I let my own eyes close.

 

[garajd]

"I'm not quite asleep yet, love . . and you are such a 'fucking tease'." Drifting off, your pillow does get a little softer for your nap. Waking up an hour later, I run my fingers thru your hair and caress your cheek, waking you slowly . . . then running my finger across your lips, "See, I can tease too!"

"We better wake up Miss Molly; if she doesn't get any play time today in her house, she will be unbearable tonight."

 

[heartofcourage]

I frown as you wake me, your finger running across my lips before I nip at it with my teeth. Taking your finger between my lips, I suck on it gently before I open my eyes and look up at you.

“If we must.” I say with a put out sigh and a smile as you look down at me. “Not without a kiss first.”

 

[garajd]

"I will never turn down that requiest." Pulling you to me on the couch and pressing my lips to yours . . . my fingers teasing lightly over your breasts . . .

"I will go wake her up while you find some play clothes for her. Pretty sure we can wear her out this afternoon . . . give us a little more time to ourselves this evening. That's up to you, babe!!"