Queensland College

[cgraven]

I had let misunderstanding and fear of love destroy my life once before. I dressed and found the faculty-mentoring sheet to get Emily's room assignment. Pulling on my old Canadian Army combat jacket against the night chill. I headed for her room. Emily's door lay just in front of me. She had asked me to trust her. I was about to knock on the door when I heard a man's voice. I froze in mid stride as sorrow filled my heart. Slowly I turned to leave telling myself it is her life and you have no claims on her.

The scream stopped me dead in my tracks. It was high pitched I could not tell if it was a man or a women, but it had most defiantly had come from Emily's rooms. The blood rushed to my heard and I saw red. All the military training came back in a flash as I crashed through the bolted door.

I could not believe the seen before my eyes Emily with her hands handcuffed behind her backs her jaws set and the man screaming like a schoolgirl. A deadly quite rage consumed me as if screamed "Emily". Years of training took over there was no conscious thought as I made a cold calculating attack on the injured man and it was brutal beyond need.

He lay there bloody on her floor. My hands still shaking with rage as I called the local constables. I searched his pockets for the keys and released Emily's hands. I held her face in my hands tears ran down my cheeks. My thumbs tenderly cleaned her lips and the corners of her mouth. I drew Emily to me.

"Are you all right?"

The constables took our statements and took him away. My old field jacket was draped around Emily's shoulders. She had muttered incoherent answer earlier. Again I asked.

"Emily are you all right?"

 

[Honey_B]

"Yes, I am."

Emily brushed the hair of her eyes. Her braid was coming out. She looked around the tiny little room and sighed.

 

[cgraven]

Emily did you know him? was he your lover?


I hate to aske the question but I need to know. I could not look directly at her know.

 

[Honey_B]

"Yes, David, he was. Do you remember the poem I shared with you. How I told you it was about the fear of desire and that I had run away from someone. Well, that was the someone. He's a bit like a drug, addictive and dangerous. At one point, I had to get away from him. Physically. That's when I came here and started my program."

 

[cgraven]

I was silent for a long while

Emily you mean so much to me I can't even find the words.I remember the note you left me also. Yet I had to breake down the door to get in. you where on you knees handcuffed he was feeding you. I know you bit him, and that tells me alot, but is it him your addicted to or that life. I have to know. For if it is the life then when will the adiction call to you again?

 

[Honey_B]

"David, I think you underestimate the significance of what has passed between us. In your arms, I have discovered something. Passion which does not consume. Desire which does not destroy. Fulfilling the two elusive goals of emotion and ecstasy at the same time. "That life" as you call it, had it's allure for me. But it has all the emotional resonance of a one-night stand compared to what I have shared with you. Something beautiful began today."

 

[cgraven]

Emily your voice, your eyes tell me what you say is true. Yet we are very diffrence. You have your life ahead of you and my road is very short now. If you come with me there will be happiness for awhile and then you will be alone. For 15 years my soul has been dead and now you have brought it life. It can only bring you sorrow.

 

[Honey_B]

Emily fought to restrain her anger. She lost.

"How dare you! Are you so lost in self-pity that you think you are justified in saying something like that to someone who life has been in danger twice in the past twenty-four hours."

Tears were streaming down Emily's face. She fought to get the words out.

"Even if I weren't a diabetic, we live in an uncertain world. Think about it. If we were exactly the same age, you could be hit by a bus tomorrow. Does that mean I should never love anybody."

She choked back a sob.

"And damn it, David Maple, I do love you."

 

[cgraven]

I could see the anger was born of passion not frustration. A passion and love I need more than life it self. For the second time in less than twenty-four hours Emily had set me free.

The first time form fear of sex and intimacy and know free from the fear to commit to jut one person. It made no difference if it was to be for a lifetime or just for an hour, but to commit without reservation. No fall back position no safe steps but, to give my soul into her keeping as she would give hers into my keeping.

I could find no words to tell Emily of my love for her, my need for her, or that she was more precious than life to me.

So I kissed her with the gentlest kiss that there could be as I enfold her into my arms.

"Ma Cher vous etre ma coeur."