My father passed away on the 22nd of Dec, 2014, at the age of 72, one month after his mother, my grand mother passed. He was a signalman, and later a sergeant in the Vietnam war. A good, hard working man and I will miss him dearly.
Losing a loved one can be quite the ordeal. No less to lose two within such a short span of each other.
I can only hope that you'll remember the happy memories rather than dwell upon the pain of their absences. (And my apologies that I'm unable to offer anything more than a cliché sentiment on the matter; in truth I don't deal well with grief so I'm not particularly great at comforting others. I still try sometimes!)
Though we are strangers I hope you'll see me as no less of a friend. I'm here, should my presence or conversation be of any help to you.
Thank you. Anyothername, I think it would be good to talk about it. I can't really talk much about it on Facebook because of everyone involved, some of the stuff I'd like to say would piss certain people off, and I don't really need them to make me feel worse.
The pain he endured in his last two weeks made the day he passed almost a blessing, he asked us to help him go several times and it felt like there was nothing we could do but watch him suffer.
I watched as my mother-in-law was slowly eaten away by cancer. While I cannot claim to have been extraordinarily close to her, as I assume you were with your father, I can relate to the helplessness and sorrow that leads one to receive the news of death with some relief.
So far as I'm concerned there is nothing more emotionally wretched than not being able to ease another's pain. But, in such situations as these, what can you do? Worry oneself sick, empathically take on some suffering though it eases the burden of no one? I guess my point being that: mortality is inescapable, and when it is one's time... Yes, of course I wouldn't want to lose a loved one. But more than that I wouldn't want the process to be painful for them. In those circumstances it's difficult not to see the death itself as something necessary (or even desirable, not to come off as too morbid - but as we've established: suffering sucks).
Your father is at peace, now. Carry him fondly in your heart, as will all who knew and loved him.
To be perfectly honest, I was a disappointment to him, once I became an adult I didn't really make as much of myself as he would have liked and so we didn't make an effort to be in each other's lives for the past 18 years. We tried about five times over the years but the tensions between us prevented us from really making a go of it.
For my part, I just wanted him to be someone I could be around without being made to feel like a failure. But the conversation would always come back to how little I have achieved in life. I just wanted to spend some good time with him, not be lectured.
It was a strange relationship. But I loved him just the same.
Just wish he could have accepted me for me I bit more than he did.
Whatever your relationship might have been like, I'm sorry you've had to go through what you have.
I think all parents disappoint their children at some point. We idealise who we think they are and what they might have been. Reality always bursts that bubble at some point, you're not alone in that.
How about coconut porter? There's a local brewery that makes that and I made a batch with a kit beer once. I love porter, it's my favorite kind of beer.
That sounds lovely. I have never had it before. I'm kinda a scotch girl myseld when I can afford it and I brew my own mead and distill my own moonshine for making fruit liqueurs. I have not gotten into beer yet
I don't know what the beer trends are around you but I swear that it seems like IPA is all people buy around here. Im not terribly fond of that style but I swear that for each stout or porter there's like fifteen different IPA's. I have to hunt for like half an hour to find a good porter in the sea of single beers.
At least the store sells them by the bottle so you can pick and chose, which is awesome.
I'm sure I've tried scotch before but it must not have been high end stuff because it didn't leave any lasting impression on me. Not like blackberry brandy or coconut porter anyway.
I like Mead well enough, only got to have it at SCA events though. I was more interested in making cordials myself. One year I made like 12 bottles of various flavors, from lemon lime to chocolate cherry! Some weren't the best, but my pixies blood sprung from out of those 'experiments' so it wasn't a complete wash.
I think your fruit liqueurs may be the same thing as my cordials, only I buy the alcohol base rather than distill it myself. Maybe you could teach me how to distill some time?
I could make a number of suggestions as far as beer goes, if you mean trying whats out there.
Some of my favorites are:
Red Stripe
Sam Adams cherry wheat
Greenbush: Distorter Porter about $2 a bottle and is 7.2%
(any porter really, I could list like 10 easy, but I don't want that to dominate the list.)
Innis and Gunn beers are excellent, a little pricey though.
New Holland Brewery: Dragon's Milk
(Expensive as hell $4 a bottle, but damn is it good and strong!)
There too? Hmm... Well, I guess there's something to this IPA thing. Its beyond me why people think its so great. I can't remember the name of the brewing company, but there's one that makes like 7 different IPA's.
Good, glad to hear you're partial to porter and stout. Stout may be just a bit too bitter for me until I've had a couple, then I can savor them.
I've tried Oberon, is that similar to shock top?
I don't think I've seen anything from Scuttlebutt up here.
But I think I may have seen some from Boundary Bay.
I love Mississippi Mud Black and Tan, their jugs are cool.
Arcadian Ales Lochdown is a scotch ale, you might like it.
I tried a barley wine a couple years ago, can't remember what it was called now. Must have been strong. LOL!